alistairaskerov — 2024-07-30 15:00:31 UTC

I'm sorry for making you feel this way. I'm sorry for being a mess with my emotions right now. I'm sorry for not trying to explain things to you and for making it hard for you to understand what I needed. I know you wanted me to address the arguments we've been having lately, and I'm sorry for just letting them slide. I'm so sorry for being the reason you're crying, for not being helpful enough, and for bringing up your past. I'm sorry you had to remember it again; it pains me the most too, and I'm sorry for not telling you that. I'm also sorry for being jealous over Haisen. I know I shouldn't be, but I still am. Maybe because he was always there and didn't cause you any pain, which is what you deserve the most. You're not hard to love and understand, but I keep failing you, yeah? I bet you're resting right now, and I feel bad for what happened. I'm sorry that you missed me and felt like you had to compete for my time because I chose to rest all the time. I'm sorry for making you feel what you already felt during my alarvan days. I promise, you're doing great, hal. It's just my problem. I'm trying so hard not to be like this, but this keeps happening to me, and neither of us can do anything about it. As much as I want you to help me, I don't want to make things worse for both of us. I'm sorry for everything you have to feel while being with me. I'm letting you decide if you still want to stay with me even though I'm tiring as hell. You might say that I'm not, but I admit it to myself. I hope you still have a great day tomorrow once you get this. I'm really sorry.

I'm sorry. by ja