https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself this is larissa, raw and weird; so i hope you come in with an open mind and heart, to understand the girl behind the big smiles and loud voice. en-us 2018-07-20 02:12:32 UTC 2023-03-16 02:54:33 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-uploads.storage.googleapis.com/301540336/99b3820626755a16722085e887549b99/59ede2b4bdfcdaefb0b426ac5dc3865da1f43a3b_00.jpg lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270677331 all the colours and positivity, but believe me, it never came easy. im fraglie and easily broken, i have been broken before, that how i learn to love myself because at the end of the day, you are you and you need to be accept yourself for it. if not who can love you for you?

i'm fragile and hurt. ]]> 2018-07-20 03:01:34 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270677331 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270677464 2018-07-20 03:03:13 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270677464 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270683606 2018-07-20 04:33:07 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270683606 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270683865 2018-07-20 04:36:50 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270683865 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270684059 2018-07-20 04:39:44 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270684059 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270684828 my passion,
my failure,
my spark,
my life.

i gave up on dance  eventually, due to time, due to fear, due to peoples judgements, because of the lack of strength and

 never being good enough.]]> 2018-07-20 04:51:52 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/270684828 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271249179 at first glance I believe many of people will be intimated by me. being someone who is extra loud and seems crazy intimates people. they do not dare to come near me or close to me because what they thought they see or hear but;

little do they know.]]> 2018-07-27 01:31:37 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271249179 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271254944 “When one doesn’t have the things that one loves, one must love what one has.” which is to say that you must be content with what you currently hold, however little it may be. 

be grateful.]]> 2018-07-27 02:33:57 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271254944 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271259543 i love the feeling of being free. but im often held back by my fears and anxiety.

i have a lot of fear, a lot of anxiety, overthinks like mad and goes crazy, never medically diagnosed with it but; this feeling is horrible. it hurts and it breaks.

the crazy heartbeats increasing, feeling breathless, trembling and shaken, the felling that the world is closing in on you, the feeling that you the only one left, the scream inside your throat that no one can hear, the coldness surrounding you and the uncertain feeling, it feeling is stopping you from doing everything, anything. the voice telling you, you can't make it because
you are you.]]> 2018-07-27 03:33:17 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271259543 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271260981 hard on the outside,
soft on the inside.

or some would say 
i'm bruised]]> 2018-07-27 03:50:08 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271260981 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271971820 whoever she is, i’ll just be larissa. i used to be the person who would just change for whoever, not anymore; i’m tired, for changing, for adapting, being fake for someone else; 

i’m just a weird, retarded, sentimental person, who has learnt that things happens for a reason;

who’s bruised, fragile, has been broken; whose an easily triggered bomb and usually very high and forgets that she need to be normal, 

a bitch, a mess, a loud mouth, curse like nobody’s business but hate people calling others cunt, annoyed at people who demoralise others and makes them feel like shit, 

over-thinker, dreamer, worrier, bad at grammar and a lot more flaws but that’s me.

 it’s just whether or not you are able to accept larissa for who she is; 

and if you can’t, it’s okay; thank you for everything, all the best and goodbye; you know your way out of my life. ]]> 2018-08-05 04:39:26 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/271971820 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272635207 they wants me to shut up, they wants me to stop being so annoying.

they want me gone.]]> 2018-08-10 15:10:19 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272635207 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272636007 everyone you met, every decision you made, every route you thing, everything everything, i believe happens for a reasons. be it to shape you to be who you are or be it for happiness.

it all happens for a reason.]]> 2018-08-10 15:15:36 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272636007 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638689 2018-08-10 15:33:43 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638689 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638690 2018-08-10 15:33:43 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638690 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638691 2018-08-10 15:33:43 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638691 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638692 2018-08-10 15:33:43 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638692 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638693 2018-08-10 15:33:44 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638693 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638695 2018-08-10 15:33:44 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638695 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638696 2018-08-10 15:33:44 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638696 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638698 2018-08-10 15:33:45 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638698 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638699 2018-08-10 15:33:45 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638699 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638761 2018-08-10 15:34:13 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638761 lilaclavender https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638762 2018-08-10 15:34:13 UTC https://padlet.com/lilaclavender/boxofself/wish/272638762