Becoming a Receiver by Elle Backey

1.Ceremony of Twelve.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 03:46:37 UTC

Wow, I am so nervous! I have absolutely no idea what my future job is going to be.

2. What an Honor.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 03:50:00 UTC

When it was my turn to receive my assigned job, they skipped me. Then they told me to come up and I got the new job of being Receiver! I'm also very glad I didn't have to work at the fish hatchery like Braden!

3. Freedom to Lie.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 03:53:26 UTC

I just read the rules required for my job training and it said I could lie, I feel like I have been given a lot of freedom!

4. The Giver.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 03:55:41 UTC

The man who was going to be training me was an old man who told me to call him The Giver.

5. First Day of Training.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 03:59:08 UTC

Basically my training is very different from others. Instead of learning how to do something new, I receive a memory from The Giver, and I received my first one today!

6. The First Memory.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 04:02:14 UTC

The first memory The Giver passed on to me was the memory of swimming in a pool on a warm summer day. The experience was probably the most wonderful thing in the world and as I experienced this memory I learned what the word pool actually means.

7. #TheStruggleIsReal

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 04:06:22 UTC

As it says in the rules, I am not allowed to tell anyone about my training and It makes me very frustrated

8. Pain on the Way.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 04:09:28 UTC

The Giver told me today that not all memories will be pleasant like this one and I will experience true pain in the future. I am not as exited about my job anymore.

9. Fire.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 04:11:47 UTC

Today I received an excruciatingly painful memory. I had spontaneously combusted, and my entire body was engulped in flames. #Ouch

10. Colors.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 04:15:01 UTC

Since the ceremony I have been exposed to colors and The Giver told me I was the only one who could see them. This made me feel sad for everyone else.

11. Sweet!

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 04:46:21 UTC

Today, The Giver gave me the memory of this food called ice cream, which is not a food we eat in the community.

12. Spouse?

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:35:58 UTC

Today, I was disusing with The Giver, who he was in a family unit with. He said that he had a hard time living with his spouse because she didn't understand him. This makes me wonder if I should apply for one in the future or not.

13. True Sadness.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:38:34 UTC

Today, I received a memory from The Giver. I was standing next to a hospital bed watching a loved one say her last words.

14. Release.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:41:27 UTC

I learned what a release actually means. I feel like I've been lied to my whole life.

15. Appling for a Spouse.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:43:38 UTC

I am disregarding what The Giver said to me a while back. I really want to live with another person who I am compatable with.

16. New Step in Life.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:45:57 UTC

They accepted my application for a spouse and I think I will be happy spending time with him! He is a really nice guy!

17. Hating the Community.

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:47:43 UTC

I hate how the commutity hides so much from its people, every night I have trouble falling asleep just because I constantly am thinking about change.

18. The Giver was Right

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:49:19 UTC

Even though my spouse is very nice, its frustrating to see him struggle to understand what I am talking about all the time.

19. Training Completed!

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:50:46 UTC

Yesterday was my last day of training and although I am very exited, I almost regret having received all of my wisdom. It just makes it that much harder knowing that nobody else understands.

20. It's All Too Much

elle_backey — 2014-05-07 22:53:26 UTC

Its all too much for me. Some days I feel so much pain, and I know its from the memories. This is something I am going to have to live with for the rest of my life, but at the end of the day I always know it worth the burden of pain to have acheived true happiness.