BOOK OF LIFE by Gellybean

gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 02:18:07 UTC

Before we begin, I'll be using this little character as my mascot. :D

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 02:49:57 UTC

When I was little, I was a little goody two shoes. I was top 1 in class. A simple young girl, unlike some kids who boasts their grade I was just happy that everyone around me was happy and having fun.

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Soon after, I also got bullied verbally. And I let them bullied me anyway. I quickly learned about "staying in your place." Your rankings in class can give you power. While I was still top 1, I never really saw that meaning.

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And after all that, I lost my place as top 1. Rather than doing better to show them that I'm stronger. My mind was set to "If everyone just wants the throne. Loved and make people go do wrong doings because of that 'power' then I don't want it." I wanted to be loved truly with or without that. I met new friends who was more simple and understanding and stuck with them until we graduated.

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I sto d up f r p ple ut I co l 't s o d p or m e f.
(The rest of the pages of the Chapter are torn.)

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 04:41:17 UTC

My family decided to transfer me to a different school when I was Grade 3. I thought it was nice since I disliked with what happened in my old school. The one who first tried to become friends with me was with some girl named Anjelli during recess but people used to call her "Jhel". Well... that changed since I came. I had a feeling that she wasn't a good person even though she introduced herself nicely.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 06:04:07 UTC

Which I was right about that girl. (Lol) After break, my seat mate named "Mikee" said hi. We introduced ourselves comfortably and ever since that, we just realized we're both meant to be best friends. We're like sisters. We're always seen holding each other's hands. We even had crushes on two guys that were best friends too. (Lmao)

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 06:17:21 UTC

This was the time I also I discovered the world "Internet". The virtual world. I started this off with Facebook, oh Pet Society how I missed you. Also a Roleplaying game on Facebook which made me chat through people online. Since I was young, this were my cringey days but this was also the community where I learned English. I have also met this awesome girl through that game named Jamie which is still my best friend until now.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 06:23:16 UTC

At Grade 5, me and my best friend decided to gather up with three more people. Lj, Danica and John. Mikee and Lj were actually classmates during their childhood. Lj actually lives a few blocks away near my house and we had the same interest in the internet which grew us closer. I describe my best friend Mikee as my sister who was pretty, loving and sporty. Her interest was badminton while me and Lj's was to draw, dreaming to be successful artists someday.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 06:30:04 UTC

Of course, bullying was never gone in my life. All of us three are bullied. Lj who was close with Anjelli's family which makes them "close" always order Lj around. I despise it a lot. There are also the times Anjelli's group would make me and Mikee separated. Since Mikee was nicer than me, they would take advantage of that, keep calling her and make her join their group even she doesn't want to.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 07:15:31 UTC

It was finally graduation. I thought graduating would be the happiest day of my life but I realized that I will lose all of the people dear to me. All of them will transfer schools, Lj will be living in Canada and my uncle, aunt and my loving cousin will be living in Singapore. I was taken care of my grandmother, grandfather and great grandmother.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 07:17:50 UTC

It wasn't easy for me. As I walked in my High School life, I realized that I have no same interests with people. I wasn't into selfies, going out, following trends or talk about someone. I was rather a pretty chilled person, goes whichever and go with the flow. It seems people prefer always getting updated or excited about something everyday, keeping their interests alive but I was okay with either way.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 07:22:39 UTC

Since as usual people goes by groups, I had no group whatsoever. This was the time I became into an introvert, lack of self-esteem and got insecure and got more favored by the internet. People only approach me when they needed to and vice versa. I didn't really minded about people's business as long I have my phone with data.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 07:34:33 UTC

People finds it weird that I smile when I'm alone. I smile because I think of the memories I have whenever I'm using my phone, talking to my online friends. As I grew older though, I started to have no intention to smile in real life. Why smile when there wasn't anything that made me happy? I got tired of faking smiles, seeing those quotes a lot in the internet. How edgy. You'd see me smile or laugh but only a little or a few seconds. Actually, you can even see me greet you without smiling at all.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 07:40:00 UTC

Although life in reality sucked hard, I had my online friends with me. They mostly live in the Asian countries: Philippines, Singapore and Malaysia. There's a few who also lives in the United States. What we do is talk about our daily life, a little interest and roleplaying.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 07:44:44 UTC

When I was Grade 10. I wished for people who would at least be there for me and truly understand of who I am. I don't like "pity", people who shows mercy at me while they talk trash behind my back at the same time. This made me have huge trust issues and make me so distant towards people. But alas I did met two people before I graduated. A half Korean named Jae-Hee and the other is Princess. I was very happy to have them in my life before my Junior High School ended.

QUESTION 1

gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 08:41:03 UTC

Is there a "center" or central theme in your timeline and life? If you will give a little for your timeline what would it be and why?
It would be me still looking for my purpose and who I really am. Up until now, I'm still confused why I was born and what's the thing I will contribute to the world with this personality of mine.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 08:44:00 UTC

Here I am studying at iAcademy. I'm still pretty shy and insecure but I hope I will change or grow for the next few months or next year BECAUSE I'M GETTING OLD and I'm still at this phase. (At least, I think it's a phase)

QUESTION 2

gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 08:45:11 UTC

Identify the turning points in your timeline. What were the thoughts, feelings and actions that you experienced?
Sad (Lmao) but I don't really mind. When I reread my journal, I realized my life isn't as bad as I thought it would be (Or maybe because I'm just missing the details) but these people who came and walked away from my life were real friends to me. I do not like people who can't even be honest towards their friends when they need the support. Hopefully I will rise again!

QUESTION 3

gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 08:46:58 UTC

Who are/were the most significant people in your life? How did they influence you?
Lj and Mikee were like my sisters. They made me learn how to love and take care of other people. To be real and be just who I am. They gave me confidence and emotional support. Jamie was my top woman (kidding) throughout the years, she was the one I changed with the longest. Our noob days and with the dead memes, my edgy days during high school up until now. I love her so much and wish for her the best. Princess and Jae-Hee,we didn't really knew each other well but one thing I know is we all had fun. We had our ups and downs as well but It was fun while it lasted. I miss those two idiots. Now it's going to be Elly and Kevin, I'm glad to have them in my life even we cannot physically hang out. Hopefully someday we can all gather up and meet each other (also our significant others (8)

QUESTION 4

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What would you change or add, if you could? How would each of these changes or additions affect your life, or even change its present course?
Well -breathes in- I would say just my insecurities and self-esteem. I feel like I'm emotionally unstabled all the time, I want to change that as well. I want to have passion on something, see something bright in life/future. I actually have tried dreaming big a lot of times and I always fail. Now I'm afraid of failing. I want that to disappear. Tell myself to just keep trying and I'm sure I'll bloom like I always dream of.

QUESTION 5

gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 08:58:13 UTC

Where do you want to be in a year, 5 years, and 10 years? What do you expect your future timeline will be?
Honestly, I just hope I won't be beside the trashes. Fresh graduate who looks forward in the future. I hope by then I will finally know my purpose and not go "What should I do now?" after the Graduation ceremony finishes. I'll love with that I'm doing or job and have a positive environment. I actually want to travel a lot few years later with my love. Have a cute little house or a big creative one that won't bore you out.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 09:55:32 UTC

Still a hermit, I met new people again in the internet. Originally the plan was to play this with one of my best friend but instead, he left me in the game to make my own discoveries. Make new friends, slack off the game and get to know how this game works.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 09:57:26 UTC

My first friend in the game named Jared.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 10:05:37 UTC

#RIPPHIPP. Hipp aka Nick was the first person who ever teased me in the game and trying to get along with me... but I rather chose a different approach. :P Also Rip Hipp because he sadly got banned in the game. :c

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 10:09:07 UTC

Urges also known as Rod tried to annoy joining me in his guild "Fame" even as you can see there, I was already in a guild. I joined his guild in the end.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 10:15:27 UTC

Luckily someone guided me to to this game, telling me to make a bishop and tells me everything I should do to lvl. I miss you JT/Sensei.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 10:21:55 UTC

Made another character and with my friend Nyaw <3

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 10:26:52 UTC

The woman of my life, Elly.

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gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 10:30:57 UTC

GASP? I wonder who this guy is? Well his name is Kevin :D

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HMMMMM

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HMMMMMMMMM?

THE END

gianellayessa1027 — 2018-03-18 10:41:30 UTC

And that's pretty much about it. I actually have a lot of fun in this game with the people I love but everytime I have to wake up from reality, I have to remind myself that it's just a game after all. I have to strive harder on taking care of myself because I have someone to protect in the future as well. This is all, Sayonara.