https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora notes by topic en-us 2023-03-13 12:13:51 UTC 2023-05-05 12:49:16 UTC hello@padlet.com https://media4.giphy.com/media/2bUpP71bbVnZ3x7lgQ/giphy.gif ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514326953 -dad found easier help for depression
-Stephen is embarrassed of Darius's weight and how he acts at school
- "I had nothing to be depressed about. Nothing really bad had ever happened to me. I felt so inadequate."(pg 68)
-Pg 102, paragraphs 1-6
-"I wanted to die. I wasn't allowed to say that, not out loud. The one time I did- and it was only hyperbole- Dad freaked out and threatened to send me to the hospital." (pg 116)
-"I knew that Babou would never get to drive the Smokemobile again." (pg 162)
-“Star Trek was supposed to be me and Dad’s special thing.” (pg 144)
-"I hated that she was crying." (pg 175)
-"Stephen Kellner never avoided anything." (pg 184)
-"I hated how jealous of him I was." (pg 187)
-"It was nice to imagine. Even if I didn't believe him." (pg 190)
-"'it feels like he doesn't really love me. not really.'" (pg 192)
-"I hated that Dad thought that about me." (pg 195)
-"wondered if anyone would be sad if I was killed in a car accident." (pg 224)
-"That night, Dad didn't tell me he loved me." (pg 225)
-"'He's dead.'" (pg 277)
-"'No one want you here.'" (pg 278)
-"'Sometimes bad shit happens.'" (pg 283)
-"'I'm not going to hurt myself, Dad.' 'I nearly did.'" (pg 285)
-"'That's why I couldn't tell you stories.'" (pg 285)]]> 2023-03-13 12:25:51 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514326953 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514327172 -"Sometimes I thought about how I didn't look like Stephen Kellner's son at all"(pg 14)
-Darius and Stephen's only thing is watching Star Trek
-"If he could just, you know, act a little more normal"(pg 60)
-Fariba shows love more than Stephen's side of the family
-"It was the only time I ever got to be his son." (pg 144)
-"Even Stephen Kellner had never pointed out my stomach to me." (pg 171)
-"He made me feel small and stupid. Now he was determined to show me my heritage." (pg 158)
-"'You're so lucky to have this big family.'"( pg 174)
-"'When I left here, I was sure I was going to come back.'" (pg 201)
-"'You are a very good brother, Darioush-jan.'" (pg 229)
-“I wanted to know everything she loved.” (pg 253)
-"'How come you never told us you play football.'" (pg 263)
-"We couldn't even manage that anymore." (pg 273)
-"'You are a good friend, baba. He is lucky to know you.'" (pg 291)
-"But I knew deep down I was going to fail." (pg 299)
-"They knew they were never going to see each other again." (pg 300)

]]> 2023-03-13 12:26:02 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514327172 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514327330 -his closest friend is Javaneh but they're not that close
-I" liked that I could be silent with Sohrab. 
That's how I knew we really were going to be friends." (pg 94)
-"I thought I was wrong about Sohrab. But maybe I was right." (pg 131)
-"'I guess ... that's what friends are for.'" (pg 222)
-"'It's not polite to do that. Darioush can't understand you.'" (pg 235)
-"Sohrab had to know he was my best friend too." (pg 237)
-“That’s the kind of friend he was. “ (pg 250)
-"But the walls weren't just inside him." ( pg 294)
-"He gave me a sad smile." (pg 298)
-"Maybe Cyprian Cusumano wasn't as soulless as I thought." (pg 305)]]> 2023-03-13 12:26:08 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514327330 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328075 -"The truth was, my Farsi was abysmal. I never really learned growing up."(pg. 20)
-Darius is ashamed of his depression even though his dad and doctor say it's just chemical imbalances in his brain and it can't be helped
-"But sometimes I wondered if I was the one who was an accident." (pg 133)
-"I was never going to fit in" (pg 116)
-"I couldn't stand how selfish I felt." (pg 180)
-"This was the most Persian I had even been in my entire life, and it still wasn't enough." (pg 183)
-"He didn't even know me." (pg 220)
-"Maybe I did feel different after all." (pg 302)
-"Darioush would've tried out." (pg 307)
-"Maybe I had brought a little bit of Darioush the Great back with me." (pg 310)]]> 2023-03-13 12:26:40 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328075 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328427 -Tea is important to Persian culture
-Mom never taught Darius Farsi because she didn't think he would use it
-Got called a terrorist(chapter 6)
-Darius is embarrassed of the  Persian pronunciation of his name
-Eastern people believe that people should deal with feelings privately
-"Laleh was young enough that she didn't technically have to wear one, but mom thought it would be a good idea anyway."(Pg 62)
-"I felt very Persian indeed." (pg 168)
-Persian casual is fancier than America's casual
-Government treats different religions differently (pg 194)
-"I felt the ghost of my family all around me." (pg 271)]]> 2023-03-13 12:26:56 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328427 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328629 -Darius doesn't feel connected to German culture like his dad does
-Laleh learned Farsi and Darius didn't
-Iran has different social cues than the US(pg 78-81)
-"He turned to mom. 'It's because you don't teach him,' he said. 'You wanted him to be American, like Stephen. You don't want him to be Persian.'" (pg 136)
-"'And it's more modern. Sohrab has an iPhone, even.'" (pg 140)
-“No one had ever called Stephen Kellner sweet.” (pg 126)
-pg 134 last paragraph
-"But I didn't know how." (pg 156)
-"I knew without him saying that it wasn't." (pg 194)
-"Darius Kellner. Sweet." (pg 207) Darius is trying to be as different from his dad as possible 
-not believing in God (pg 221)
-"Ardeshir Bahrami was as sad as I was." (pg 231)
-“Maybe Dad’s place had been empty too.” (pg 261)
-"Maybe Sohrab's place was empty before too." (pg 267)
-"'You want me to ignore it when people are mean to me.'" (pg 283)
-"'It kills me that I gave it to you, Darius. It kills me.'" (pg 286)
-"'You are happy with who you are.'" (pg 296)]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:05 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328629 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328845 -"I blushed. No one ever stood right next to me like Sohrab did. I wasn't used to guys doing that." (Pg 104) he's definitely gay
-Darius's dad is the only person who understands and helps with depressive episodes. (Pg 123)
-pg 164-166
-"Sohrab was in really good shape." (pg 113)
-"Stephen Kellner didn't to tell me stories anymore"(76)
-"'I'm proud of you Darius'" (pg 124)
-pg 177(gay asf)
-Sohrab squeeze my shoulder again and rubbed the back of my head." (pg 182)
-"But the idea was very different from the reality." (pg 202)
-"I really loved my grandmother." (pg 205)
-“‘When did you start listening to ABBA?’” (pg 254)
-"Dad looked at me for a long moment. Like he knew there was more." (pg 287)
-"He just didn't know how to say it out loud." (pg 290)
-"'Really. You love it. Right?'" (pg 312)]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:17 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514328845 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514329167 -"'You don't taarof, do you?' 'Oh. Sorry." I had completely forgotten the Primary Social Cue"(pg 98)
-"You know, in Iran, boys don't worry about these things so much."
-There are somethings you know with them being said (pg 210, 132, 237, 241]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:26 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514329167 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514329387 -"What made him call Iran home, when he knew I was born and raised in Portland."(pg. 45)
-bipolar, bisexual, bilingual, biracial
-"no matter how you answer that question, people always read too much into it." (pg 214)
-"I wished she would make up her mind." (pg 226)
-"How could I be a tourist in my own past?" (pg 230)
-"Maybe that's what it means to be a Persian boy." (pg 244)
-"I felt like a tourist." (pg 269)]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:36 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514329387 ankendzior26 https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514329506 2023-03-13 12:27:40 UTC https://padlet.com/ankendzior26/akendziora/wish/2514329506