How to say.. spending my days with my Koko has always been wonderful and ngangenin??? Gading, Gading, Gading kachooow. I'm lowkey missed you, hehe.

I love it when Koko treats me as a kitten slash puppy. Wah, kalau jadi kitten atau puppy harus sering-sering dimandiin supaya bersih :> Koko selalu bikin Mawcie senyum with your jokes, WAARGGH lucu, lucu banget. Kapan-kapan Mawcie mau WFKL dan explore Mars lagi yaaaaah!

Koko, please take care. Until we meet again in your dining room? I want us both to eat well. Baobei loves you, koko

Much love, Mars🧡

And for accompanying me to listening to my favorite song, even listens to my blabbers. I appreciate it a lot! I hope you would remember the writings that I sent to you that night because it is the embodiment of you!

No one else is you and that is your power. Until we meet again, please wear your jacket when it's raining, eat regularly, drink enough water and take care of yourself well because I want to see you for a long time.

Lots of love,

Your Orange.💫

we only met for a brief of time, but having you at the end of my day… makes my heart feels warm and my day feels better.

Kakak Gading, I’m not really good with words…. but, I’m hoping you eat well and sharing heart to heart dinner with your loved ones <3 until we meet again

I'll begin with a little compliment: Koko is respectfully cute CUTE (bc I can't find any other adjective that could perfectly represent you!) and gentle! Never expected that it was so easy to connect with you and your own train of thoughts (maybe bc aku juga asbun parah, yang kemarin belum seberapa btw tapi ditahan dikit soalnya takut koko ilfeel) so actually I was worried about how to build the bond like gimana yaa reaksi koko kalo ketemu aku yang asbun dan agak dramatis ini but turned out koko lebih asbun??? You left me speechless for good amount of times tho... And that Coconut Ivory nickname always gets me gagged everytime I remember it and the reference. To be honest aku selalu amazed tiap baca balesan chat koko soalnya lucu. Emang boleh yaa seasbun itu padahal tweetnya kayak orang bener? 😊 (not complaining tho) (and suddenly the charcoal ilmu hitam thing popped out in my mind)

All in all, I feel like I'm finally gained some strength from the funsies (maaf dramatis) and being alive again after a while and you know it was all thanks to you. Not to mention that the most unexpected thing out of all was to discover that you're super asbun.... Memang we can't judge a tangerine by its skin... 🤓 (in every nice way possible) One more thing, a sense of familiarity you brought to the table made me feel safe around you.

Can't wait to peel more oranges for you in the future.... I'll hand over an unhelpful guide to Ricky & Wonbin (salah 2 dari serenceng cowok-cowokku) for you later lol. Maaf ternyata aku gak se-rizzful itu kalo ketemu cwk ganteng yang lebih rizzful (you). Thank you, thank you, for one fine day in early December; all the goofiness, laughters, and sweet banters we've shared, also the lovely piece (I know you worked hard to complete it as I understand it might be sometimes difficult to write for someone new). I hope I stored some good memories for you too. Semoga segera tercapai cita-citanya jadi sekaya Haknyeon. (tulisan ini gak dikoreksi semoga gak banyak typo)

p.s. Aku SUKA jeruk, tapi aku males ngupas kulitnya, tapi mau banget kalo dikupasin sekalian disuapin sama koko.

p.s.s. Can't wait to meet you again! (masih 2 minggu) (aku selalu semangat nulis, nanti aku nulis di sini lagi)

p.s.s.s. Actually I'm curious of your reaction towards my (always) unhinged forms... Care to tell me later? (maksa)

With love,

Coconut to your Ivory.

you’ve heard it all before, how i loved being present in the moment with you, how wonderful it was the time we’d spent loving one another, as short as it was. loving you came really easy to me, and being loved in return by [you] had been one of the best feelings in the world. everything you do for me, with the thought of me, to me—i was filled to the brim with joy. thank you for dancing with me until our feet becomes memory. i will be keeping you in my thoughts, until it is time for us to meet again. until then, kakak kecilku. X

with all the warmth you gave,

your burning love.

p.s.

i hope the right side of my neck will always smell like you.

Halo lagi,

Dadingku.

Terima kasih udah bikin Jumat-Sabtuku ceria, penuh warna, dan penuh cinta minggu lalu. 🖤

It was definitely my happiest time ever—of all year; bisa ketemu lagi sama Dading yang membuat bulan Desember (yang supposed to be bulan tersibuk karena semua orang sibuk kejar tayang sana-sini) ini jadi nggak seberat yang aku kira. 🥺

Spending my time with you has always been my most favorite time through the year, Dading. I really love to see how I find myself being all giggly throughout the day, every time your message popped up on my screen.

Maaf ini random, tapi kalau diibaratkan Nasi Padang (make sure you’ve switched on the electricity while imagining it), Dading tuh paket komplitnya. Ada rendang, perkedel, gulai tunjang, sayur daun singkong, sambel ijo, kuah, sampai kerupuk jangeknya. Because as a boyfriend, you literally HAVE IT ALL.

You’re a real pro lover who’s beyond good in matching your partner’s energy—bismillah, Dading nggak kapok aku cintai dengan dangdut.

I don’t think showing my gratitude through words would be enough to describe how grateful I am to have you in the last month of the year, Dading. 🥺

Dading sehat selalu, yaa. Jaga kesehatan dan jaga makan, minum air mineral yang cukup juga, lagi musim bapiiil.

Till we meet again, Dading!

Yang ter-(isi sendiri),

Nonik.

You were silly, yes. But you were also… thoughtful and kind. You taught me love in ways I didn’t knew were possible. You put a grin on my face with every little thing you do, and I can’t help but wonder how someone can be as loveable of you—and yet, so unaware of it. Or were you actually aware of the things you do to me? I supposed it can’t be helped. You’re a person of love and compassion, a tenderhearted man dressed up in a playful persona. You’re everything I could ever ask for and I wish there are words sufficient enough to tell you how much I love you and that I have never been more happier than when I am with you.

The last two days we spent felt natural, as if we’ve known each other for a really long time. I am a very awkward person to be around with but you managed to drive the conversation fun. It is all thanks to your ability to come up with interesting topics and your natural talent in cracking dad jokes. I will surely miss your sulking and your teasing. I will miss your kisses, I will miss your warmth. And when the longing is a little bit louder than usual, I’ll grab an orange, peel it, and put it in my mouth.

Each moment that we created will be a precious memory that is forever engraved in my mind. I am grateful for the laughter we share, the comfortable silence, and the constant reassurement you’ve been giving me these past two days. Thank you, Gading, for making my days so much better. Thank you for all the love and affection you poured on me.

This is not a farewell. Instead, take this as a promise that I will knock on your heart again soon. Until then, promise me that you will take a good care of yourself. I hope you will eat well, drink a lot of water, and do everything you love without a shackle. I love you, silly. I hope the world is treating you kindly.

Yours,

N.

This took longer than I expected, as I was struggling to choose the most suitable words for the man that captured my heart and tucked it into his pocket *just* based on the short time we spent. A day is short. And I definitely crave more.

Being loved by kak Gading feels like being tucked into bed while the storm is roaring outside. It feels like a kiss on the forehead, a warm hug under the freezing rain, and a shoulder to lean my head on while sunset watching. It feels like the color orange - which now reminds me of him when I see one.

Sometimes, I wonder if he could read my mind. He has done things terrifyingly well, as if he's known me for years, as if we've spent a life together before. He's attentive, and he sure knows how to deal with his words and touch. He can be a gentleman, he can be goofy, he can be rough and demanding. It's like he's built like cats, you know? They fit on anything like liquid.

I could write an essay about him, honestly. But time is ticking, and I don't want to take more of your time. Yes, you, reader. If you have doubts about him, respectfully throw them all off of the cliff. I watched love begin again in the presence of this bundle of joy, and I think that's all I can say.

Until we meet again,

Pomegranate.

Aside of giving my not-so honorable speech about our last session, which was running smooth, I'm also here to let you know that this strawberry farmer can't visit your tangerine garden in near future (Next month, I mean.) But anyway, please remember that I genuinely fond myself at solace through everything we have shared together. You have always been a warm and kindhearted Gading, and I hope, when we have a chance to meet again, you're still the one I always know. I'll miss you, certainly. While I'm away, please life well and be kind to yourself too, yeah? ("Treat him gently!!!" I shouted to the entire universe on behalf of you.)

P.S. I didn't read nor reply your last text bc I hate seeing double checklist and being left on read, but you should know that I truly was grateful for your existence. Thank you. Always my thoughtful tangerine, Didi.

—(I know I should) Always (be) your strawberry. X

P.S. One Direction (Sekarang jadi Wrong Direction soalnya udah mencar semua kayak IZ*GONE kesayangan elu itu MAAF MAAF MAAF) nggak bohong ketika mereka bilang I wanna love like you made me feel when we were 18, soalnya kalau bareng kamu rasanya aku kayak remaja puber lagi naksir-naksiran. (Walau aku memang forever 17 at heart.)

P.S.S. Take care of yourself when I can't be there for you, yeah? Eat mindfully, take more time to rest, do your hobbies to your heart's content, water your tangerine garden, and find a small but certain happiness in between everyday's mundanities to simply keep you going.

P.S.S.S. Janji ini yang terakhir, please dengerin Get A Guitar soalnya mustahil kalau kamu nggak langsung suka!!!

—Not only at 00:00 but everytime,

Leo is thinking of you.

Gadin! It must've been a packed week for you, I hope you're always getting enough rest as I am trying to do the same. Sitting down writting this here, I can still remember the lingering feelings I had around you, it was soft, sweet, all giddy, and full of confidence towards each other. You made love feel alive — like it's a form of living itself.

I can see that you're someone who always tries to adapt with your counterpart in any situation, and I'd like to commend you for that, you truly have a golden heart.

I hope life will always leads you to where things are well and good. I'll be rooting for you always. In another occasion, we shall have that marmalade breakfast while we shake our yakult and mogu-mogu into one, yeah? See you around, Nata de cocoku (the ones in the mogu-mogu of course ;])

With joy, E.

Koko, thank you for always loving me in your such amazing way. I feel loved by you, nevertheless. Selalu senang sama koko, bahagiaa banget! Despite of your asbun-ngitis, you always know how to pleasure me on bed. ASHSKSKL Tolooong pusing banget, gila sedikit, soalnya koko adalah pencetus ide gilanya, apa coba? HEHEHE

Koko cayaaang, please take care until we meet again? Semoga urusannya selalu lancar. Jangan sampai tumbang dan kita usahakan badan anti-loyo itu!! Jaga kesehatan yaa kokoo. Mawcie loves you!! <3

-Mars, 2024

Betul apa betul? Betul, betul, betul. Ini dia mahasiswa kesayangan kita semua yang lucu dan penurut. Dinnieku yang selalu lucu. When you said you’re a tangerine, jeruk keprok atau jeruk peras whatever you say YES, you mean it. You’re truly orange color to bright my day. You’re such a refreshment in a hot sunny day. You’re kinda hot—uh? I got chuckles yet found it lovely how you throw some dirty jokes in our room. I like them and I like your bright personality. You’re a great lover, yes my tangerine L🍊VE.

Thank you so much for always being anak bike also pacar bike for me. Hope you always find a reason to smile and don’t forget to stay healthy. Lennie loves you. See you again in our class, Dinnie.

But on top of everything, I've told you and I won't be tired of doing this, that I will tell you how you put me at ease and everything in between us feels so light and natural. I didn't expect it at all that I would easily smiling and laughing like idiot when I talk to you (I love being one if it makes you smile as well :) hehe). Thank you for making my rough days felt lighter. It meant so much to me. Especially when I found myself fell asleep easily? No way I would see that one coming either... but anyway, I'm sure you'll see me around and I hope you do not get tired of me at least yet. ;]

- R

I'm lucky to be loved by him, but I'm even more glad to find that he is loved by many, as he deserves everything good in this cruel world. Never lose that authenticity of yours, my darling, I believe everyone treasure it as much as I do.

I will pray for you to always surrounded by the same amount of shine you radiated for those who you love, my darling. Until we meet again, x.

⸻Love, Rumi.

Perhaps, it is true that the best kind of dinner is not the one that was planned. It is sometimes here in a form of a supper being held for a wandering soul who happened to lay his eyes upon your bright hues.

My little love, my orange shaped heart owner, the one who has the tight grip on my pomegranate shaped heart and perfectly wrapped his palms around its arils. Do you know that your presence is a blessing to me this month?

You become an answer of the hunger I had within my chest, sweetness I didn't know I craved, an echo to my desire. You are a blessing.

I hope you know that you merely existing without doing anything is enough to remind you how loved you will always be. You are loved, thoroughly, wholly. I will always long for you, and pray for your well being whenever you pass my mind (almost always).

Sincerely,

H.

Thank you for giving me a little of your time back then. It was short– reaaally short, to be honest, but I liked being stepped mercilessly loved genuinely by you. You were smoking hot very lovely and goofy (to my surprise?) and I just found it easy to follow the flow of the conversation. You were good at leading the pace too and I didn’t struggle at all (please take it a compliment since I hardly find anyone like that at ALL). Please keep up the good work and the good fucks I really hope to see you soon, actually.

Oh, I’ll reciprocate it by the way. The stepping thing.

B.

Good afternoon koko!

I'm here just to say thank you for the past days. With you by my side made my day brighter and I enjoyed every moment of it!

You made me so happy and content. Thank you koko <3

I had so much fun especially with Pak Dok (kiz) yang sangat lucu dan hijau itu :D

Dan, maaf kalau ada kata-kata atau perlakuan yang buat koko nggak nyaman..

Selalu jaga kesehatan ya kokoooo!!

Thank you, See you! X.

- Little miss strawberry.

if i had to describe you in one word, it would be "WARMTH". you trully are the embodiment of warmth. ARGH. i miss you already. :(

i hope you stay healthy and happy. so we can have more moments together. can't wait to nyosor-bibir-kakak-gading till it turns into slime.

see you when i see you, i guess? ;]

– 🐶