However, during the start of commercial I felt strong and that the piece was making more sense but I slipped on stage due to a leak that caused me to injure myself again, my first thought when it happened was to get up as fast as I could and keep going which i did but I played it safe for the rest of the performance because I had to keep dancing near the water. I was so defeated by this and came up with several reasons as to how it was my fault and what I could of done to prevent it, I couldn’t enjoy the rest of show cheering on my friends because I just knew this wouldn’t happen to them. I just wanted the piece to be perfect and I felt like I let my group down by falling. After the performance everyone in my group were feeding me with positivity and telling me that I did a good job getting up quick and the fact i kept going, I knew personally it would take me awhile to believe them as I am very hard and critical of myself as a dancer but my group kept reminding me how great I was and I think that is what made this whole process so special, After only joining shock out in September the girls have welcomed me with open arms and made me feel so comfortable in their environment.

Montage of the work we got up too this week

I really struggled with this today as I wasn't motivated to continue the process. When doing our group pieces it was much easier as in a group setting you had people to help motivate you and bounce ideas from, but in this case I only had myself. I was annoyed that I was wasting my time but i managed to pull myself out and create 1 count of 8. I wasn't pleased with myself in this session and knew that I had to work harder in the next.

After changing my mind serval times on how I wanted to convey this piece I have settled on this which I am more than happy with.

For hair and make up, I decided to use Light make up - none to show the sickness, how pale and lifeless I looked and to really go with the song "How to be sick", I will also be using make up to put bruises on my body to show the parts that covid affected me, for insistence, I get really bad chest pains now which can go from a dull ache to being unable to move most days. This will be scattered all over my body.

For my hair, I decided to a slick back bun, curls and half up half down. This is to show the return to the studio.

Overall, I feel this will be really impactful on my piece and helps the audience to understand my work.

I really enjoyed researching other people's stories on their struggle with long covid as it is a controversial subject, I tried to incorporate some of their affects from this illness as well as my own, I used my chest pain a lot in my solo as this massively affected my body and training when returning to the studio and I wanted to highlight this a lot in my solo as it's not just a loss of smell and taste. Something I really struggled with was researching song choices, especially for the second part of my solo, I didn't know how to portray this section as I didn't want it to seem "Hey she's all better now" I wanted to show that It's still there and sometimes It's a mask we have to wear to seem better. It took me till the last two weeks to find the song I wanted to use and I feel it works perfectly for my piece as It does talk about how internally a person suffering feels and I felt that would hit the audience more than just a normal song I had picked before. Overall I feel I used my time wisely through this whole process and I gave it everything I had. I really enjoyed this module and looking forward to make more projects in the future.