Dissociating through sound

Soundwaves, lyrics, and tracks

No matter what it is, I'll listen to that 

The world outside is loud and overbearing

I'd rather wear my headphones

Sit back and keep dreaming

Ms Kipp

I see you watching 

Through your computer screen

No other teacher makes me feel so seen

I do what I can for a good grade or two

I'm not sure what else I can do 

To impress you

Prom night

Kids growing older

Moving bodies, loud lights

Every moment is worth it; enjoy the night.

I couldn’t bear it, the tears or the sight when I close my eyes

It's my mom tucking me real tight

Good night

Night

(Types of feedback I seek: Mood/Tone)

Stop Me

I don’t want to

If you don’t, I could fall

If you do, you’ll be free from this

That’s not—

(Looking for how interesting it is)

Don’t look

Blink.

Close them.

Do it now

Don’t hesitate. Don’t Falter.

Blink.

(Does this feel spooky?)

Fire

Fire

Fierce, Blazing

Burning, Swallowing, Consuming

Blaze, Inferno, Bonfire, Wildfire,

Spreading, scouring, searching

Devastating, Destructive

Ignited

(Does this give the feeling of creeping?)

Astronomy falls

Stars that align in the sky

growing cold and tired

already having been dead,

nothing more than memory

2.) SOUL:

A devoted soul

torn and twisted by this world

how the fates will scream

when faced with their death from you

nothing more than a legend

3.) STRENGTH:

Strong and resilient souls
Trapped beneath a veil of hypocrisy
Reaped for the greater good
Enlightening one’s self for greater bureaucracy
Never the more fortunate,
Growing from the past
Tethered to a sense of greater good above those who tear them down
Hoping to move forward and let the fates contrast.

(in general; feedback for imagery + theme + word choice :) )

Do you hear me?

Actually hear me?

My tone , deliverance , and emotions 

Do you hear the way my voice cracks ?

The way my eyes become shiny , the structure of my body, the way my hands shake ? 

Do you hear the words I’m saying 

Or are they muffled 

Are you understanding ? Processing ?

Are you  even considering my feelings 

Or are you thinking about what you are going to say to shut me up

You don’t hear me

And you don’t understand 

You’re listening but not hearing me 

A shame 

A shame because you’re the one person that should hear me 

You're my mom but you don't hear me 

Not for a sec , not a little , not at all.

Friendship Breakups 

No phone call 

No waking up to endless texts

“ Guess who texted me”

“ You will never believe who called”

No random trips around the world

Without a zero dollar to our name 

There  isn’t anymore us walking to school together 

Or making fake vlogs with one another 

No more picnics when its warm 

No more her calling me for little questions 

There’s no more us 

And as much as I couldn’t take the flaws in our friendship

The toxicness and the lies

I do miss us 

I miss the where’s? 

I miss the girl ftm

I miss the morning get ready with us 

Our deep talks about everything

Then our talks about nothing 

Now it’s over 

I get told it was for the best

That we were so close 

That we will would reconnect 

But that isn’t true 

Because if that were

It would’ve been us in our own world still

Forgive

I won’t forgive you

Not even for a second 

Let alone a minute 

( types of feed back - structure , tone , and deliverance )

You were my sunny days.

Those vanished too. So I just,

Stare at the blank sky. 

Snowy Escape

Little petals drop.

My tongue reaches out to catch.  

They melt, in a flash. 

Back on the ground, arms reached out, 

two angels play in the snow.

Spring forth, Fall back

If I were a season, I’d be autumn. 

Or for short, I’d go by fall. 

I’d wear orange clothes,

As the warm color would complement,

My brown skin.

I’ll bundle up in blankets,

Sipping maple-flavored coffee,

Eating pumpkin donuts,

While watching scary movies. 

I know I’ll be tired,

From constantly raking leaves. 

So I’ll form a little pile,

and just,

fall in.

a important family 

Loud beautiful soul, but 

We both wake late 

Slowly making progress

We play ,then she pants 

Rubber at the top . 

Solid at the bottom .

 Used to eat in another country

Sometimes used in ours . 

 Often made of wood

Oceans are great and big

Reflecting light and green tree’s

Flowing so gently down to a lake 

An animal drinks form the water flowing so gently

Hikers hike high through the mountains 

I saw you laying

So still.

I never felt like you would wither away

I thought you were indestructible

But looking now I was so wrong

You’re mouth was dry and open

But not a thing could come out

And my heart bled

It poured out and screamed 

Red filled the air 

It felt like how it never has before

It was time to go and I felt your hand grip

It was the last thing I ever felt from you

In a way it was the perfect last thing

Goodbye.

Winter won’t go away: 

Spring has come to play

But Dear Winter wants to stay

It won’t stop snowing

Go away, go away, snow

It’s time for a change

Home is You:

Sweet Home

Take me back home

Oh, how I miss it so

Home to you, I am in your arms

You’re Home.

Fish boy

With many arms and many legs

Flopping, flipping, and jumping

Slimy and cold

gross.

(Poem 2)
1 million fish 

Tied to a tree

1 million fish pull over a tree

(Poem 3)

Sunny showers

A rain in the sun

A light selection of water on a sunny day

For this, I did not pay.

I would appreciate feedback on the word choice for these poems. I think its pretty great.

Do you remember? 

When we carved our names in stars? 

I cry out for you.

-Win and lose

Legend told me this… 

What you win, you can lose. 

Not sure what I have. 

-Tenfold avenue

Tenfold avenue 

What the game I play is called.

Currency is good.

Daunting sunny sky

Reminiscent of our god

bathe our skin and soul

2- Qué Será?

What will it be? What will it be?

I always wonder what it will be

even before I realize it

What will it be?

Even if I know it's not what I want it to be

I can't stop wondering what it will be

But what will be, will be, and what won't will not be...

3- Paradigm of Love

Four legs, four paws, two ears, two eyes

Furry coat as soft as silk, so shiny that I cry

When I'm happy, you are happy

When I'm sad, you make me happy

Even with those big ears, you don't listen

Even if mad, you just use your puppy eyes

Even I cry, you make me laugh

How do you always know what to do?

(Structure and flow)

1. Self-Doubt

“Drowning in a sea

My lungs filled with doubtfulness 

Drink in self pity.”

2. Riches

“ Swimming in money

My heart filled with greed 

green the only thing I see.”

3. DAMNED

“Created by light

  But my soul is damned, prideful

mind, I'm reprogrammed.”

tropical, colorful

Singing, laughing, dancing

Where the coqui sings

Borinquen

Petals

Soft, beautiful

Feeling, smelling, flowing

Gentle, gorgeous, soft

Glooming, mourning, greying

Grey, dispondent

Death (does this make sense)

Strawberries

Red, small

Eating, admiring, tasting,

Most are tasty with flowing juices

Soft, plumping, and desiring

Rose

Stressful, fun

Laughing, crying, studying 

School can be a lot

College

Women 

Beautiful, smart

Understanding, inspiring, breathtaking 

Iris, Roses, Lilies, hibiscus 

Pollinating,blooming, refreshing

Pretty, Appealing

Girls

The forest

Trees taller than man 

The brightest color of green 

A pathway of peace 

I can hear the house

When all is quiet inside

It breathes soft and slow

Childhood home

Chalk marks the wall, measuring the height of a passerby

Childhood memory betrays the height of the ceiling

One day they’ll leave and never return to these familiar walls

The home, a second womb a child grows in

Left on the table

A dog in a crate

There's steak left on the table

I gnaw at the bars

Salivating at something

I am not allowed to have

(Are these poems too esoteric/abstract/pretentious?)

Garden of eden

Place of innocent laughter

Til the red fruit fell

( can you tell where i got the reference)

Love Unspoken

Girlfriend

Brown Eyes

Holding My Hand

She Feels Like Home

Lover

( does u relate if you also have a lover)

Hot vs Cold

Fire

Fiery, Radiant

Burning, Smoldering, Blazing

Heat Flame Frozen Solid

Numbing, Melting, Freezing

Polar, Frosty

Ice

( do you see the contrast)

_{rain falls on the roof}

_{loud tapping like loud drums.}

_{I sit by the fire,}

_{cozy and safe in my home,}

_{listening to the night sing .}

love

^{heart beat as one}

^{words I can never forget}

^{hands held tenderly}

^{a bond that never fails}

^{love grows with each passing day}

city /country

city

busy ,noisy

building, crowding, rushing

skyscraper,trafic,feilds,animals

planting ,grazing ,wandering

quiet, peaceful

country