That obviously doesn't apply to us, the time we met is just a perfectly wrong timing. but the love we have for each other is on the right timing even you took some time to come to me.

I'm glad enough that you choose me no matter what, even if we broke apart and coming back again. It has always been you, I only want you as always.

Like I said before, no one ever made me feel this way and that's why I wanted to write this to you. I know you have been understanding and try not to be whiny when you actually did spend your time waiting for me. I'm sorry but it's just sometimes, these days, it makes me emotional. especially when you don't seem to make a move or anything. I'm not asking for those sexual or what coughs but just like what a couple does. Like you said before, maybe you are just content when I'm by your side. But I'm not sure too if that you are tired, that's why me, being a stupid self, thought that leaving you to give you space will be a good idea. Thinking that will make you miss me more. pfft. slap self.

You know when those days, even a single "baby" from you makes my day. I have been craving for you so much but I have no idea how should I tell you. Those pictures that I dig from the pandora box actually made me laugh while reading. ps there is some that I don't even dare to start reading. I might end up arousing myself ok jokes aside.

Well, you said we can't go back to the past. I know, I get it but can you still love me like how you used to? Can we still be each other best friends? Can we still play around and hit each other? Can't we at least talk like how we used to? Can we have those late night talks too? 

I'm actually scared, I'm scared of losing you once again. You don't say much these days, it makes me even more worried. I understand that you might be tired, so I let you go whenever you said you are sleepy. but deep inside my heart, I'm afraid you are keeping up something in you. If that so, tell me okay? The reasons I went missing these days are partly because I'm trying to run away from the reality but well, I think about it a lot at night. 

Those nights that you would spent with me, it reminds me a lot when i took up my phone and you are not there. I just want to say, those thoughts make me come to a realization. 

I will not run anymore, I will tell you how I feel. That's why I came up writing this.