I instead diverted to nursing, which still gives me the opportunity to experience working in a clinical setting... without feeling like I'm gambling with my future. I am still considering what to do after this degree (which I intend to get). I like nursing as a career, but I don't think it suits me the same way it might suit some of my course mates who wanted to do it from the beginning. I think I lack something important, but I don't know exactly what. At the same time, I consider the opportunity of learning alongside nurses to be an interesting life experience; for this reason, I plan on completing the course. And since only time can tell what comes after, it could also happen that I will come to enjoy this profession to the point of wanting to do it for the rest of my life. If that is not the case, I will still have archived a degree and a wonderful experience. 
To be fair, there is such an amount of things I would like to do and study... the problem is, I only have one life, unlike cats. c:

I want instead to talk about a related-topic book that I am currently reading; it's titled "Notes on Blindness", and it's by the late John M. Hull, a former professor at the University of Birmingham. In the book, Hull explores his experience with a degenerative pathology which gradually leads him to blindness; as he dives inside the unfaltering darkness that slowly swallows him, he reports all of his thoughts and impressions on blindness and his disability, meticulously answering to many of the questions that able people might have on blindness from the point of view of an individual that was previously able to see; he also reports the variations in his sensitive perceptions as time passes and other senses start overdeveloping in order to compensate for the loss of the sight. It is super interesting to me, not only because he spaces through a wide range of topics, but also because the rare disease I had would have made me blind if not properly cured. I empathize so much with him, and I would recommend his writings to anyone. They are very insightful (not a pun) and not strictly related to ophthalmology and medicine, but rather more personal and descriptive. It's like his 
not-so-secret secret diary; in fact, it was originally recorded on audio tapes, and it features dated entries. 

The nurse is reporting the events of Mr. Jacob's departure to his supervisor.

He says that when he visited the patient on Monday his conditions were deteriorating quite fast: his limbs had started getting cool and grey tinted, but he was still partly conscious. He could talk, but would only communicate with people only himself saw.

At 4:00 he fell to the floor after trying to get out of his bed, causing his breathing to be strained and restricted. The nurse decided to put him on oxygen.

By Tuesday he had become fully unconscious, with an irregular breathing pattern. The patient couldn't take any food or liquids and therefore didn't urinate. 

On Wednesday morning, July 7th Mr. Jacobs stopped breathing. 

The nurse called in Dr. Simpsons, who declared the patient dead at 10:00.

The attitude of nurses can make or break people's experiences, potentially discouraging patients' trust in the importance of Medicine, thus causing them to lose their propensity to receive medical care. 

Only time can tell if I will make a good nurse. As in all things, practice is very important in how nurses deliver their services.
I think we all should aspire to become the best version of ourselves in every possible field, and that there is always room for improvement. It may be difficult, but where there is a will there is a way. 

Since I was a child I have always liked play pretending I was a teacher with my friends; it’s something I was - and still am to this day - passionate about. The idea of being able to transfer knowledge from me to someone else has always been exciting to me. 

Even now I often sit with younger sister whenever she has troubles understanding any school topic, and I try to break it down to her and make it more interesting with remarkable examples, ensuring she has processed correctly the logic behind any notion. I think the best approach to teach someone anything is creating a calming and most importantly friendly environment, then engaging with them practically by stimulating their critical thinking abilities. What I mean is, they should not be sitting there, passively listening to me while I explain. 

The action of teaching to me has to be backed up by scientific research on how the human brain functions, which means by psychology, sociology, pedagogy and such, in order to educate efficiently others.

Those have to involved any time when teaching something, clinical setting included, as students are the future.

In short, I like the idea of teaching what I know to another person, and I would love to do so in the future as a clinical tutor. I would also research what are the most impactful ways to promote the memorization and understanding of informations, as well as the most recent guidelines on procedures.