Sorry if it's a little excessive, first I want to say thank you for being with me until now, not meaning to judge you, but I'm just trying to understand you until now, you who feel pessimistic, timid, worthless, even don't like your physique, I think it's strange! natural as a human being, but not for you, why? You have a beautiful side behind it all, you don't realize it but I see it, I like your hair that you complain about every time, I like your eyebrows, your face, and even your smile which I think you are part of perfect, please remember and understand because I will not say this to anyone but you.

There are a few things I want to say, I never feel bored listening to you, talking to you, and so on, because that's the only way and that's how I can get to know you deeper, every human being has a timid side, pessimistic and so on, I'm the same, it's not fair for you to feel it all alone, it's not fair for you to bear it alone, please don't worry, please tell me, and please rely on me, I always want to feel useful to you.

Many things in your past that you have gone through, I always think you are very strong to survive until now, yep you are great, I can't argue with that. Razita do you know the meaning of your name? You are a flower, you are beautiful, you are precious, you are valuable, maybe I'm a little pushy but please don't say you don't deserve all that, I can prove it even now, yes you see, the sun still gives warmth, the stars still shine at night, this world is not destroyed, you deserve it all. I'm sorry maybe I'm not perfect for you to always rely on, but whatever I can give I will give everything for you, whatever we go through, pain or happiness whatever it is, I will not try to give you a wound.

I won't change because of problems, I won't leave because of problems, I will be able to do it all, it might look stupid, I realize that I used to always feel alone, I thought it was the best, it wasn't, it turned out that fighting for others and fighting to maintain everything made me realize that my road is very long, I know this is difficult, I know whether I am even capable or not, but nothing is impossible, now I have dreams and goals, when I am with you I bury all my past, even when I am alone, someday you will know what I am like, someday you will understand why I sometimes like to freeze, I don't want to kill myself. Now, you are the foundation for me, you are the ladder that will help my goal step, I can't imagine you are gone, I don't want you to disappear, because I can't reverse time.

Maybe everything I can't say, not everything is easy to explain, I hope you understand this, sorry if it seems very serious, and sorry I can only give this for our second month, and your birthday, I want you to stay alive, I want you to always be grateful and happy, thank you for taking the time to read this.