• Would I recommend him: Yes.

• Do I consider re-renting him: Yes.

• Is it worth it: Yes.

Kak Wilhelm—Kak Nicho is the embodiment of a calm, collected, mature, and laid-back boyfriend. I don’t understand why I always act like a child whenever I’m with Kak Nicho when I don’t usually act like one. He is the perfect boyfriend if you’re looking for a handsome knight who’s never angry at his naggy princess trope.

Kak Nicho always spoils me, with both action and affection. Either with subtle touches, little questions, or a simple I love you. Kak Nicho is good with a low-maintenance relationship! I have never felt drained or dreary when he’s around. He is warm, gentle, sweet, and comforting. Kak Nicho, thank you for your actions and for how you treated me for the past few days. You have your own unique way to go with your words and I really adore it. I really really feel like I was on cloud nine.

Thank you for always treating me softly, Kak Nicho is the best! And Kak Nicho will always remain the best in my eyes. Kak Nicho is like a handsome flower in a field of grasses. Kak Nicho is pretty, Kak Nicho is handsome, Kak Nicho is perfect. I’m happy to have a Kak Nicho in my life. May the universe and its entire sprinkling stars conspire to bring Kakak the best of everything life has to offer. Kak Nicho deserves all the happiness and love in this world! See you, Kakak sayang. You will always be the best boyfriend ever. ♡

Manuel, adek.. pertama, aku mau ngucapin terima kasih banyak banget atas kinerja kamu dua hari ini. I'd rate you TEN OUT OF TEN!! SALAH, tapi INFINITY ♾️/1000!! Kalau bisa kasih seribu bintang kayaknya aku bakalan kasih deh buat kamu ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐. Beneran gak ada kurangnya, sampe aku bingung mau ngetik apaa.. but, let me explain it.. (MAAF BANGET, KALAU AGAK DRAMATIS YAA)

Kamu pasti beneran merhatiin form yang aku kirim ya? Soalnya, you're truly beyond my expectations, BANGET. Eventho I get easily drained, you don't drain me at all. MALAH AKU YANG TAKUT BIKIN KAMU DRAINED, karena gak tau kenapa, waktu sama kamu, aku tiba-tiba jadi yapper dan bubbly bangettt! Aku suka banget cara kamu respon tiap topik yang aku bawa, dan respon yang kamu kasih beneran bikin topiknya gak ngebosenin, kayak.. bisa banget kamu celetukannya, sampe capek aku salting dan senyum-senyum sendiri.. Obrolan kita beneran gak dipaksain sama sekali, ngalir gitu aja dan itu yang bikin aku makin SUKA. Terus juga, kamu nih ternyata diem-diem words of affirmation-nya TOP BANGET, aku sampe beberapa kali ngecek proftal kamu, buat mastiin love language-nya kamu (maafin aku). Pokoknya waktu pacaran sama kamu, love language aku kayak dikasih makan terus sama kamu, sampe kenyang, sampe aku aajshdhhd sendiri!! Aku beneran ngerasa disayang banget selama sesi, sampe mikir, “ini anak naksir aku banget, ya?” (BERCANDAAN AJA YA TAPI INI). Pokoknya, aku seneng banget sama cara kamu treat aku dan bucinin aku. Gak ada tuh, momen awkward sama sekali, perhatian yang kamu kasih beneran juara bangett!! Terus juga, padahal kita juga sambil sibuk kuliah, TAPI quality time kita tetep berasa bangett, rasanya gak sia-sia. I can feel that you've truly given your best these past two days. Kamu beneran kayak, “I give you my all, with nothing to lose” ke aku.. Padahal aslinya aku picky banget.. Udah lah, you really match my energy, perfectly!! Aku gak tau udah berapa kali pamerin hubungan kita ke temen-temenku, sampe mereka iri!! BENERAN, KAYAK.. SEMUA ORANG HARUS TAU SEBAGUS APA KINERJA DAN SERVICES-NYA KAMU!! Semua orang harus nyobain, at least sekali seumur hidup, buat pacaran sama Manuel! (walau aku cemburu dikit, bercanda). UDAH DEH, inti dari semuanya adalah, KAMU OKE BANGET YANG BANGET BANGET BANGET PAKE CAPSLOCK!! 😭😭

Time flies by so quickly whenever I’m talking to you. Every moment feels special, and you have filled my heart and mind with thoughts of you. Kakak, you’re so much fun to talk to! Whether we’re chatting about random things or watching windut together (kakak penakut! :b), those moments are precious to me.

Despite the short time we’ve spent together, I feel a deep connection with you, kakak. And all I could say is that, there’s truly nothing about you that I would change; everything feels perfectly right when I’m with you. Thank you so much for everything, kak Manuel! I appreciate all the laughter, the fun conversations, and your unwavering support. 💖

Oh, and I hope you can forgive me for being a bit of sleepyhead 😴 or for my moments of confusion when I don’t know how to express myself. It’s just in my nature to open up to those I feel comfortable with, and you have definitely become one of those people. Your patience and understanding mean the world to me, kakak, and I’m truly grateful to meet you and have had this time with you. Terima kasih juga buat semua hadiah-hadiahnya, kakak... You're so generous in everything... Tadi pas pas aku baca di mobil aku kayak.. "Huhuhu.. There's no way I'm gonna live today with this sweet little break up.." hampir aja aku suruh ayah puter balik soalnya aku jadi lemes ke kampus 😔 Tapi enggak papa! Aku udah dengerin playlist yang kakak kasih and that's enough for me to start my day once again with thoughts of you and our memories. Sekali lagi, terima kasih banyak ya, kakak!

I can’t wait for the day we can meet again. You’ll always hold a special place in my heart. Then, please take care of yourself and stay healthy ya kakak, jangan kecapekan dan jangan kurang istirahat, okay? Semangat juga kuliahnya! I look forward to the day our paths cross again ya, kakak! Abinsayangkakakbanget! <3

Maaf kalo judulnya terkesan danngdut dan perezzzz abis, TAPI SUMPAH DEH BENERANN!!! First of all, I want to say thank you so so sooo much for these few days ya Nuyeeeeel! I can't even begin to express how grateful I am to have met you, and of course for everything that you've done for me throughout these past few days. You’re exactly the man I’ve always dreamed of, the one I’ve been searching for all this time (CIHUYYYY). I'm always looking for a boyfriend who has golden retriever energy AND SURPRISINGLY YOU REALLY FULFILL THAT CRITERIA! Jujur awalnya aku ada rasa cemas, takut kalo canggung (karena akunya emang KADANG CANGGUNG KALO SAMA ORANG BARU), tapi baru kamu kirim 1 bubble chat to start our session aku ngerasa nyaman it feels like we've been together for a looong time.

KAMU TUH LUCU BANGET MANUEEEEEL, semoga kamu ga akan pernah bosen kalo aku biang kamu lucu dan sangat gemas. Aku sampe mikir berkali-kali kayak "Kok bisa ya ada orang selucu ini?!" "How could the ants pass up something as sweet as Manuel?" KARENA EMANG SE-LUCU ITU SE-MANIS ITUUUU! The way you reply to my messages with your excitement and cheerfulness always make me feel cherished and loved. Nuyeeeeel, kamu tuh topiknya nggak pernah habis (certified yapper), terus kamu tuh unexpected banget kayak RANDOM BANGEEEET BUSEEEEEET?!?!?! Super duper sweet, aku tulis di format "A flirty boyfriend will be great as well, show me how good you are with your words." AKU YANG K.O SENDIRI KOCAKKKK alias beneran di bombardir kata-kata manis literally setiap hari!

Thank you for everything, for all the time you've shared with me. Thank you for being there on my birthday, for the sweet gifts, you have no idea how much I’ll cherish them, and I’ll keep reading them over and over without ever getting tired. Thank you for being so proud to have me, for showing me off to everyone through your stories (IMUT BANGET LAGIIIII). Thank you for filling your memories and gallery with so many adorable video edits of us. Manuel, when I say I’m lucky to have had you by my side, I want you to know that I mean it with all my heart. You’ve shown me a kind of love and happiness I never knew was possible, aku beneran sampe kayak "ASTAGA BENERAN GA SIH INI GW PUNYA PACAR SEMANIS INI?!?!?!" HAHAHAHHAHA. I may never have the right words to fully express it, but I’ll always feel blessed that fate brought us to each other. I’m all in with you, no second thoughts, no doubts, just love.

Time really went by so fast during our session, right? I didn't expect we would have to say goodbye here. As I said, it’s sooooo hard to say goodbye to you because being around you for these few days is something that I really needed. Nu, it’s like I found some missing parts of myself in you. I’m not good at stringing words together and maybe this is actually more of a compliment to you since you deserve it. Manuel, you really exceeded my expectations... you're very good at how to treat your girlfriend well, how to make them smile, how to make them feel appreciated, and how to make them exist. I reallyyy love spending time with you and the more we get to know each other, the more I find comfort in you. Thank you for letting me know about everything, like how you feel, what you want, your favorite series, your favorite lauk nasi padang, your favorite podcast show and what you want to do that day so I don't have to wait or to worry.

Nu, I could go on and on about this, but I’m honestly at a loss for words. How else can I describe someone like you? Thank you for always being there, for never getting tired of hearing me out, and for filling my days with love and support. You make sure my day is always bright, and you’ve shown me what I consider the perfect relationship. You’ve brought back that feeling of excitement I thought I’d lost. Nunuuuu, thank you for everything you’ve done for me. You are so full of love, and you are love.

And by saying this, you deserve an infinity rate and absolutely no criticism because you fit my expectations perfectly! Keep up the good work yaa <3 I can’t promise you anything but missing you is something that I’ll always be.. ♥️🤓

You really know how to keep your partner feels included. Then I am! (Lagi-lagi) makasih udah mau diceritain dan dicelotehin ini itu ya.. Jujur lega banget rasanya bisa cerita. Been hold for days akhirnya meluap juga. Abis itu dicomfort, udah deh, aku bisa tidur nyenyak. Maaf juga aku asbun banget anaknya sumpah. Janji gak asbun, kalo asbun aku janji lagi. :p APALAGI YAH? Yap, pokoknya 10 out of 10 for our sweetest journey! Hihi, seneng juga bisa hype tiap osumi update bubble, beneran kamu kayak OSUMI BANGET. NUEL MY OSUMI FOR SUREEEE. #oderyeong jaya jaya. ;3 makasih juga udah mau melayarkan kapal kecintaanku itu yaaa.

Maaf juga.. Kalau selama sesi aku di luar batas, atau ada salah kata ya. Aku khilaf (Kembaran Adrian Khalif) dan janji trying to be better next time! Guess it's not a goodbye for us ya (Play lagu galau kebangsaan Villains Good Enough) I might see you later again! Once again, Thank youuu, Manuel!

This is my very first Bambyeol experience, I never thought it would be this fun, sayang. I was kinda overthinking, “Will Manyu be okay if I call him pretty?” and such, but turned out you love it just like I do. I couldn’t be more happier. Cowo cantik… Cantikku. Of course you’re THAT HANDSOME as well. You thought you’re short of many things ya? For me, you’re just as perfect like this. I’m very honest, I swear. I enjoy our chatters so much. It feels like, it’s been a while since I have such comfort from someone. I’m really delighted to have you by my side during these days. You said that you’re thankful of me choosing you, while I’d say thank you for being Manyu to Ayiya. I didn’t lie when I show you off to my friends. They witness my reog horeg side HAHAHAHA.

I stated on form that I’d be passive as I didn’t have much energy, ya? I also said that my chats won’t be much. Tbh I feel guilty because it turned so opposite. I didn’t expect that I’d show you my dorky side THAT MUCH. I swear Manyu, I always appeared as someone who’s rather calm than being chaotic. So… it just shows how comfortable I am with you. I’m sorry if I happened to make you running out of energy yaa. :( Thank for being my hypest boyfriend (hubby) and still replying my chatter one by one. I really appreciate that. You never turn me down, I feel very much loved by you. Don’t worry about the love-hate dynamic, I think this is actually the best for us to spend our time together. Never thought our brainrot would be align tho HAHAHAHAHA. The more silly and goofy you are, the more flatter I am.

Thank you being the brightest sunshine over here. There are plenty moments of me smiling. AND THAT NGILER ONE AHAHAHAHA. I think my muscles are kinda tired of me being blushed always, but I believe they don’t mind at all. Thank you for taking care of me. Most importantly, thank you for reading the form carefully and trying your best to suit me. I know it’s hard to handle my freaky side. Thank you for letting me being me. A switch with soft dom leaning like me tends to get uncomfy when facing certain dominant type, I love how you adjust yourself for me. Well simply thank you for everything, Manyu.

As much as you care about me, I hope you could care yourself too. Please keep healthy, yaa. Moreover, please be happy! You are so loved, promise. You deserve the entire world (the good side). Hope there will always be reason of you keep smiling and laughing ya. #FYI I love your laughter a lot, it’s just make people surround you warm. I’m sorry if I happened making you feel low ya, Manyu. I hope there’s no such moment tho. I do love you too! AAAA I’ll be longing for you, especially the kisses and your clingy side. ❤️

I can't even explain how much I enjoyed talking to you. I don't know if you realized it, but you made it so easy for me to open up, even when I didn't always know how to put my feelings into words. It was embarrassing that I am being the opposite of my self description when I had conversations with you! You listened so patiently, always giving me the space to just be without making me feel like I had to filter myself. The fact that you just DID everything that I already wrote on that day I decided to choose you, it's giving me comfort that is rare, and I think that's what I'll miss the most about you!

Thank you too for your prayers it means a lot to me 🥹 I really hope life will always be kind to you. I hope you'll always find happiness in the small things, that every dream you're quietly holding onto will come true one by one, and that you'll always be surrounded by people who see and appreciate the kind heart you have. Also, I especially want to thank you for the playlist (I'm still listening to it, by the way). That was really thoughtful, and it meant more to me than you probably realize. I’ll keep it, and I’ll listen to it whenever I need a reminder of these past few days! ;)

I truly wish nothing but the best for you. May life always be gentle with you, may your dreams come true little by little, and may you always find joy in the smallest, simplest things, just like you helped me do these past few days! And whenever you're feeling tired or lost, I hope you'll always remember that you deserve all the happiness you're trying to give to others <3

If I had to give one small suggestion… maybe just don’t be this kind to everyone? Because now saying goodbye feels harder than I expected LOL. You made it really easy to get comfortable, and I think that’s a rare skill to have at least for me.

Thank you for everything, Manuel. Please take care of yourself, eat well, rest enough, and always believe that better days are waiting ahead! I love youuu thank you for being so so so kind <3

(If I ever need this kind of service again (or if fate happens to play a little trick on us and let us meet again someday), you'll definitely be the first person on my list)

Thank you, truly, for all the kindness you pour into me so effortlessly. I’m endlessly grateful for the way you choose me, not just in words but in the quiet ways you stay, listen, and care. I don’t know how to fully respond to something that feels like both a warm embrace and a goodbye all at once. But I’ll try. I’m so, so grateful for everything we’ve shared. For every little story, every laugh, every silence that didn’t feel empty because you were there. You gave me a kind of comfort I didn’t know I needed, and your presence has been nothing short of a blessing to me. I never take it for granted, you know? The way you make the world feel a little less daunting just by being there. I’ll carry your care with me. I’ll eat well, rest, and stay warm like you asked, and I hope you do too, wherever you are, whatever comes next.

Being with you these past few days has felt like being in a moment I didn’t know I was waiting for. You bring this kind of lightness that doesn’t feel forced. It’s warm, grounding, and makes even the little things feel special. You listen, you care, you see me. That alone means more than I can explain. If I had to describe the feeling… it’s like I’m allowed to breathe a little softer. And laugh a little louder. And exist—without needing to shrink. You make yourself really easy to like and easy to miss! I hate you for that HAHAHAHA.

Suggestions? Hmm… maybe just this: stay as you are, but don’t be afraid to let me see the messier sides too. I want to be there for all versions of you, not just the one you think I’ll like.

Kayaknya seribu terima kasih juga ngga akan cukup buat kasih unjuk seberapa bersyukurnya aku punya kamu. Sayangku yang lucu… take care of yourself too, ya? And thank you, for loving me with such a sincere heart. If I can say “I love you” a hundred times more or even forever, trust me, I will, in a heartbeat. For now, here’s another form of mine that you know and you must remember cause it will always be in my prayers for you: May luck be with today, always, forever <3

You are not just a chapter, but you are every enchanting part in the book of my life. In this life, this journey, you’re someone who carries an important role in my tale. Thank you so much for all the love that you have cultivated in such a way, so gently, even when the thorns in me might’ve wounded your hands.

You make me feel content. My heart blooms happily in every moment spent with you. All your strangeness and quirks, they fascinate me in such a way. I know it was your charm.

There are so many hopes that I have for you, and therefore, I dedicate the song Nadin Amizah – Berpayung Tuhan to you. Thank you so much for loving me as much as you do, Khai. You are the person I always dreamed of having. You are marvelous with everything you have. You make me laugh and smile ear to ear with your silly jokes. Kamu keren, sayangku, semestaku, duniaku, es telerku, tapi please akui kalau aku lebih keren dari kamu (Lana Del Rey moment).

Khai, I appreciate your presence as much as I’m learning to appreciate mine. I can’t stop saying thank you. Thank you for existing, thank you for being you. Aduh, gimana ya ini? Aku kecintaan banget tapi masih lebih sayang lagi kalau kamu kasih aku 271 T.

Well, the point is, I hope this message finds you in the best condition. May you always be happy, ya! Truly, deeply, endlessly happy, just as happy as I am for everything we’ve shared. 🤍

Mmm, apa ya ... I think my brain isn't braining soalnya beneran banyak banget yang pengen aku omongin. You're such a great boyfriend and certified loverman, Ilo. Terus, terus, terus soft spoken (banget) dan cutieful ... kayak, kamu born to be cutie deh. The way you always accepting when I'm babying you, omg, you're CUTE, IMUT. Kenapa ya nurut-nurut aja, selalu imut dan mau kalo pipinya aku makan. Radiates younger bf energy banget, clingy, cute, spoiled, and touchy. Setiap hari minta cium pipi atau peluk-peluk, bobonya harus sambil dipeluk ... Ilo masih bayi, aku setiap ngobrol sama kamu aku pengen gigit bantal because I have a cute aggression towards you. Yet, every time I talk to you, I feel so incredibly loved, like I’m wrapped in a warm tender embrace that never fades, even when we’re apart. You're so understanding and lovely. I can say, it's overwhelming in the best way (semoga kamu ngerti huhu). You're just too good at being my younger bf, Ilo. You're the kind of person who loves so deeply and so genuinely that it leaves a lasting mark. And I feel that when I'm with you. Walaupun kamu masih bayi dan nyimut, but you know how to take care of me really well. I also love to be pampered by you, makanya aku sering minta pangku sambil dipuk-puk, soalnya aku suka hihi. Aku suka kalo Ilo pampering aku dah ngasih banyak perhatian. Suka banget. You are very successful at stealing my heart, and I don’t even want it back. You can keep it, because you clearly know how to take care of it so well. You always make me feel like I come first, no matter what. Even when you’re busy, you still find time for me, still make the effort to accompany me, and that means the world to me. Semoga kamu selalu begini ya ... maksudnya, selalu ngasih kabar kalo lagi apa-apa, jadi aku gak wondering di sini. Kapan-kapan kita review Tentang Dia sama nonton film yang lain lagi yaa. Aku juga kepo sama playlist kamu yang isinya Mamang Kesbor itu deh, kapan-kapan juga kita tukeran playlist yukkk. Oh ya, kalo boleh juga kapan-kapan pamerin aku lebih lagi dong. Aku juga mau dunia lihat kita lagi pacaran imut hehe. Hence, I'm so so so happy to be with you even in this short time. Thank you, Ilo. Semua bintang di langit itu buat kamu because you deserve it so much!

I also want to deeply apologize if I made any mistakes during our time together. I swear, I never had any intention of doing anything wrong, and if I did anything that upset you or made things difficult, I’m truly, truly sorry. I’m truly sorry that I couldn’t give you the same amount of love and effort that you gave me, but if our paths ever cross again, I promise to make it up to you. I want to show you just how far I can go for you. All I can say is thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for everything, Ilo. For your patience, your kindness, your tenderness—for all the warmth you shared with me, even in such a short time.

You truly made me feel special, and I won’t forget that. Please, please be kind to yourself. You deserve happiness, health, and all the love in the world. I’ll be silently wishing for all of those things to come your way. Until we meet again, IloIloIlo. ♥️

and about the “maybe someday”… i’ll hold that as a promiseee :] wherever life leads us, i hope it takes you somewhere your heart can breathe easily. i will always wish that for youuu.

thankyou, bebeee, for loving the little things with me, also for letting me hear your thoughts and stories (for trusting me enough to open your world a little too!).

aaaand, bao, if i have to be honest... these past few days with you have felt like breathing soooo much easier. it wasn’t anything dramatic or loud... just this steady, gentle warmth that stayed with me even after our conversations ended. being with you felt veeery soft. you have this way of making things feel lighter, kiyooo. i found myself looking forward to your words, to the way you express your thoughts, to the warmth you tuck so naturally into everything you say. and i won’t lie, you made these days feel more beautiful than they would’ve been without you. there were tiny pieces of softness i kept replaying in my head. i’m grateful for all of theeeem ;-]

thank you for letting me feel all of thiiiiis :0 im grateful i got to know you, bebeee, truly. i’ll take care, i promise — and you have to as well, okaaaay? i care about you more than i say out loud :O

for now, here’s my little bye! just a smaaaall one. i will listen to your playlist until we meet again, i love you too, baoooo :3

I MISS YOU ALREAAAAADY :___((((((

Aku juga mau minta maaf ya. I know sometimes aku bisa terlalu banyak ngomong, terlalu heboh, atau kirim chat panjang yang mungkin bikin kamu capek. Kadang aku terlalu excited sampai nggak sadar kalau aku sedikit berlebihan. I’m really sorry if any of my words or actions ever made you tired or uncomfortable. Aku nggak pernah bermaksud, beneran. But please know this: I was genuinely, truly happy to be loved by you. It’s honestly one of the best feelings ever. Dan please remember, kamu nggak pernah perlu minta maaf ke aku. You are more than enough, always have been, and always will be. Kamu nggak pernah ngelakuin sesuatu yang salah. Just by being yourself, itu udah lebih dari cukup buat aku. Aku nggak bakal pernah minta lebih dari itu. Also, thank you so much for the last gift. That edit was SO GOOD!!! Aku sumpah nggak bohong, nggak alay sama sekali WKWKWKWK. I could tell how much effort and love you put into it. Every detail felt “made with care” and I appreciate it a lot, sayaang. It felt really special to receive something straight from your heart. Thank you for the playlist too… I’ll listen to it slowly, one song at a time. I’ll keep it with me. I’m sorry, aku nggak nyiapin apa-apa buat last day, tapi semua yang kamu kasih bakal aku simpen dan inget terus, beneran.

Khai… I really care about you, and I’m grateful for everything we shared. I hope our paths cross again soon, so we can talk about random stuff and be chaotic together again. Sampai saat itu tiba, just know you’re in my thoughts, and I genuinely wish you all the best. Aku harap hidupmu selalu mengarah ke tempat-tempat yang lembut, ke hal-hal yang bikin kamu ngerasa hangat dan aman, karena kamu pantas dapetin itu semua. I’m always rooting for you. Kamu udah kerja keras banget, dan aku harap kebahagiaan selalu nemuin jalan buat nyamperin kamu tiap hari. Kalau ada yang jahatin kamu, bilang ke aku ya? Nanti aku berubah jadi Sumala buat gebukin yang kurang ajar itu >:( jangan remehin aku, gini-gini aku kuat tau!!! Because you deserve all the love and joy in the world, termasuk kasih sayangnya aku :V 🤟🏻😜😆

Thank you so much for paying attention to me in a way no one else ever has. You give me more than just warmth. You're so full of love! You see the parts of me I’ve never been able to see, and you make me accept myself for who I am. Thank you so much. You're always so kind to me. Thank you, walaupun mungkin aku nggak tau, for always being your true self when you’re with me, es telerku. Thank you for being my ray of sunshine, like a movie I never get tired of watching, like a book I love so much I’d never lend it to anyone. Kok kayak kecintaan banget yah JUJUR (Karena memang <3).

Khaiiiii, I wish only the best things in life for you. May the love you give come back to you a thousandfold. May every dream you’ve written down unfold into reality. I hope life surrounds you with joy, keeps you safe, and shelters you from sorrow. You deserve the greatest love, because you are the epitome of love itself.

Thank you for filling the spaces in my life, even the tiny awkward corners I used to ignore! Your silliness is like those little doodles in the margins of my day, you made me more alive! I’m sorry if sometimes I trip over my own thoughts and let my confusion spill out as mistakes. I never mean to let the noise inside me poke at you. Please remember you don’t owe me any apology. You’ve been nothing but a gentle place to land, the soft light that turns my ordinary into something worth remembering.

I can’t stop saying thank you because I truly feel that you’ve given me everything, and I appreciate it more than I can ever express. I love you so much, and I cherish every second we shared. Thank you, again and again, for walking beside me with so much love and warmth!

I'm looking forward to seeing you again. Hopefully there will be time! I don't mind watching yaoi with you again, or anything else, as long as it's with you! Aku mau melakukan banyak hal lain sama kamu, buat banyak momen lagi sama kamu. Intinya sih, sama kamu #anjay (hehe, maaf alay juga ketularan kamu).

Kak Kayi selain baik, lucu, softie— I could go on for hours, dia juga suka tidur guys :3. Throughout the session I feel like we literally are that perfect Molor BF x Molor GF couple, not that I'm complaining xd. Kakak pays attention to so many things; never in these days did you ever say the word sorry to me (as I asked), not even once, and I appreciate that sooo much. It’s such a simple thing, but it really matters to me. And for that alone you deserve so, so much, sayang.

Thank you again Kak Khailo, for your time, your words, affections, and gifts. I'll keep on wishing you happiness and so so much love from everyone.

Tand so… another thank you. actually, there are going to be a lot of ‘thank you’ in this, but i still feel like i have to say them—no matter how many times. so, thank you for loving me. i’m not trying to sugarcoat anything, but i can really feel that your love is genuine. the warmth i feel from you, the way it hugs me, never feels forced… so i can truly accept it and feel safe being around you.

thank you for always listening to all of my stories and yaps. i know the way i explain things can be confusing sometimes, but you never complain. you take your time, and somehow… you still get it. like my ramblings become something worth your full attention. and honestly, that makes me feel seen. makasih banyaak, yiyo, for treasuring me like i’m someone truly important to you.

i also love how our humor clicks so naturally??? talking to you feels like therapy, it keeps me giggling and blushing (sy mengakui ini benar). and another thing that shows how amazing you are is how attentive you are. maybe i’m repeating myself, but i really don’t know how else to put it because there are just so many things you’re good at. you know how to position yourself, how to read the situation, and how to respond in the best way possible.

i really love how well we communicate. i feel so comfortable with you that i could even call you my home (asik). it’s like there’s this strong magnet pulling me to always stay close to you. i feel so lucky that i got to meet and know you. every time i learn something new about you, it just makes me want to know more—you’re seriously that interesting.

i can tell you really read everything carefully, and the way you show up for me makes me see how much effort and commitment you put into this. wow… this turned into such a serious talk, but i really mean every single word. serius dipangkat jutaan miliar. bahkan, every time i see anton, it somehow reminds me of you HAHAHA. kamu beneran anton kan? gapapa ngaku aja kok hehehe. but still, i love you the most because it’s you, mayiyoooo.

lastly, please don’t forget to eat and stay hydrated, and try not to eat too much spicy food all the time yaa. i hope you always get a good rest at the end of the day, and wake up with lots of good luck and energy. once again, it’s so, so nice to know you, mayiyooo. ❤️

Words aren’t enough to express my gratitude toward everything you’ve done and given for me. Thank you for accompanying me these past few days, Kaikai. I highly appreciate your efforts in making me laugh, smile, and sleep in comfort (I feel warmth whenever I’m full of love ♥️). This is quite personal, but I’d love to convey my sincerest gratitude because you didn’t see monkeys as cruel creatures… :—( May you be surrounded with tons of love, luck, and joy, Kaikai!

Really, I love having conversations with you, Kaikai! HIHIHIHI, the answer is: Yes! I do like you THAT much and I hope my love is never enough for you because you deserve more love from anyone :3 ♥️

Kaikai… Thank you for accepting me in your arms—thank you for embracing me with comfort warmth. Thank you for allowing me to share love and care with you. Thank you for being patient whenever we were together. I wish you to receive all kind of kindness from anyone and anywhere 🏡♥️

Let me uncloak the honesty here, may I? One thing from you that made me fall in love deeper is the way that you seem secure by yourself. You didn’t try to act like another different person to gain my attention. You acted like yourself, the real you. You weren’t afraid to act adorable and… I admire you for that. What you’ve shown to me is raw, is pure, as if there were no any barrier between us. Therefore, I’d love to thank you for opening up to me, for considering me a safe place :—)

Once again, as I’ve stated prior, I love that you are not considering monkeys cruel creatures :—( Some would be upset when they got associated with monkeys, while they actually aren’t as bad as society has been framing. Thank you for being an adorable monke for this bizarre monke (read: me)

Kaikai, thank you for being a lovable person and for showering me with abundant love! I hope the world will always treat you kindly ;—) See you in another moment!