My dearest Jahn Aschër, it was nice and lovely to spend my time with you, to feel the love I never thought I needed. How I wish that we could have another chance to spend more time together, Jacey. Please remain this way, and let it be the way I could remember us having our best time. Keep healthy, and don’t be too hard on yourself. I’ll always be here, praying for all the good things in life for you, and rooting for you. Until our paths cross again, I love you the most Jaceyeya! :3

Immersed in a BxG dynamic, I remain devoted to Ms. R as her lover, embodying the Dominant role with intentional resolve. My gratitude resides in a realm far loftier than language can ascend.

you’ve been an amazing friend to talk with, you always make me laugh, you’re someone i can count on. i was touched by the way you looked after me—each gesture stayed close to my heart. your attention felt sincere, never forced. you matched my kindness or sometimes doubled it back. i loved our silly late night banter and the way you patiently answered every single one of my questions. you felt genuine. you noticed the small details others might miss, and that’s why i adore you.

at first i was a bit sad and a tiny bit disappointed karena our schedules were packed PACKED, apalagi waktu aku kena accident. but i understood we both had responsibilities so i didn’t complain. i thought we’d only talk sebentar aja but ternyata we ended up chatting past midnight—which made me feel guilty for keeping you too long :[ though partly my fault juga karena keasikan ngobrol hehe.

i’m glad i got to wind down with you after long days. it was cute how you actually menyelipkan aku di tengah-tengah schedule kamu. kabar yang kamu kirim selalu jadi the highlight of my messy day, like a pause to catch my breath. even if we were both super busy, ajaibnya our conversations felt maximalised, as if every moment counted. i love that our talks weren’t just flirty sweet nothings but also thought-provoking discussions. it was truly fun.

i know i’ve said this often but thank you for letting me into your world and sharing pieces of it. thank you for lending me your shoulder, for holding me gently when i needed it, for sharing your warmth. i’m sorry if i ever hurt you unintentionally. i’m also sorry i couldn’t give you much because i was busy. i hope my writings and the playlist i made sit well with you. i meant every word i poured into them, and i pray that every time you reread them you’ll feel some sort of comfort.

i’ll try to knock on your door again when things aren’t so messy. i’ll let you be the first one here to know about my future milestones since you’ve been supporting me like my number one cheer captain. you really are my day one. i wish everything goes smoothly for you. please maintain your health seriously dan makan enak selalu, i’ll definitely miss your surprisingly detailed reviews! 💛

Immersed in a BxG dynamic, I remain devoted to Ms. J as her lover, embodying the Dominant role with intentional resolve. My gratitude resides in a realm far loftier than language can ascend.

first, YOURE TOO SWEEET... we do medium to low rls, and you do it so well, even perfect! 😩 like.. kok bisa ya ada orang yang semanis ini.. dan seMANTAP ini buat dijadiin pacar di kala kesibukan yang juga ga kalah mantap? (apalagi gebrakannya manis manis semua..) you gave me a bouquet of flowers (EVERYDAY), it was too sweet.. 🥹

i was so surprised and wondered how you could amaze me with your PDA? i mean.. aku nolak pda di form biar kamu nya ngga perlu susah susah, but i got was the best thing in the world! SERIOUSLY... PDA kamu tuh mantap banget 😞 and i think i should have taken many days to be with you longer HUEHUE. 

I thought, that I would regret it.. cause of having a medium to low rls with you, my Aschër. and it turns out i'm the one who regrets not filling out the form about the length of our rls for the rest of my life! >__< AKU PENGEN SAMA KAMU SELAMANYA!!

you always try anything to accompany me longer at night.. cause you can't accompany me full time during the day (padahal aku gapapa banget karena aku paham BANGET) :[ and i feel guilty for keeping you too long! uhng. tapi salahku sih malah kesenangan buaanget ditemenin sampai mengantuk dan ketiduran t__t

my Aschër :[ you are happiness itself for me. kamu selalu ucapin aku semoga hari ini bahagia, padahal bahagia aku berada di kamu. with you, i feel that i am wanted, i feel grateful, i feel loved, and i feel enough.. thank you for making me feel it all, my Aschër :] 

you really made my day, my Aschër! aku beneran merasa SANGAT AMAT NYAMAAAAN sama kamu.. udahmah aku dipamerin, dibikin salting mampus, dibikin kesenangan mulu.. plsplspls 😞

kita beneran pacaran hebat yang aku pengenin dari dulu dulu.. actually, I'm a bit awkward when talking to new people, but with you, i don't feel that and immediately become bayi hiu mungil yang ingin disayang sayang :33 ah iya.. you remember the little details i gave! how sweet you are 🥹 biasanya orang orang bakalan lupa dengan detail kecil, TAPI KAMU NGGA! dan aku seneeeeng buangettt sama hal itu 😵‍💫

ah iya, i love how you treat me with your sweet gift (bouquet of flowers) everyday.. y__y hue manis banget, mana kamu selalu cium cium aku, pukpuk aku (dibuatkan videonya jadi kita tau dipukpuk dan diciumnya kayak gimana) bener bener gemeeees 😢 habis itu kamu selalu muji reaksi aku.. YAAAMPUNKAMUGACAPE JADI ORANGGEMES???

you really fulfilled my wish.. my hubby.. please.. wait for me.. because i will knock on your chat room, and said 'ayo pacaran hebat lagi, my Aschër'  <3 thank you for accompanying me and talking warmly all day long I'm in love with you, sayang! I'm sorry my dear, if i have done a lot of wrong to you.. maafin akuyaaa plsplspls, masih bayi soalnyaaa..

please take care of yourself and stay healthy.. my Aschër! i will be waiting for our next warm conversation!! see you when i see you, my Aschër! :33

Immersed in a BxB dynamic, I remain devoted to Mr. S as his lover, embodying the Dominant role with intentional resolve. My gratitude resides in a realm far loftier than language can ascend.

I’m not sure what more to suggest, but i think you did lebih ngabarin aku sekarang (or is it just my imagination?). I don’t know if the frequency was that different from before but it surely does feel like you did something more this time. It feels a bit different in the best way possible.

You’ve always been wonderful as my boyfriend. I love love love how present you are in each moment and how you notice even the smallest changes. It’s apparent how much effort you put into being the best partner. I hope I can be just as good a lover to you. Please stay this way for a long time, because you’re already more than enough. Honestly you’re too charming for your own good (and i mean that lovingly). Je t'adore, mein süßer Engel. 😇

Sekali lagi, terima kasih—for lending me your shoulder and ears, for the adorable gifts you prepared, for sharing your knowledge, for feeling my sadness as your own, for charming my heart, for our mini date with a side of funfacts, and for always being so honest and communicative. Time spent with you will always be one of my favorite memories. I’m so glad I found you.

Please, please, please. Never skip meals just because you don’t feel that much appetite. Your schedule is already so packed, and kalau gak makan, where will you get the energy to keep up? Right now your responsibility isn’t only about college tasks and paperwork as a secretary, but also about taking care of your own health. I know sometimes you get so focused on your duties that you forget about yourself, but I want you to remember that your well-being is just as important. Even small meals count, snacks can help juga. Aku harap you won’t mind me nagging you tentang ini, because it comes from love. Makan enak terus yaa, sayangku, jangan lupa treat yourself with food that makes you happy 💋🥰🩵

Immersed in a BxG dynamic, I remain devoted to Ms. J as her lover, embodying the Dominant role with intentional resolve. My gratitude resides in a realm far loftier than language can ascend.

My dd bocah kemsayangan Kakak Amy, I'm really happy I could spend the last two days with you. :] If I could be honest, I've been feeling blue before I met you and genuinely nothing could cheer me up no matter what I do. But then, someone I knew recommended you to me, and ever since then I feel giddy and nervous about spending my time with you. And truly, you didn't disappoint me at all, throughout our session the only thing I could feel is happiness because you make me smile a lot.

At first I felt awkward because it's been a while since I did this kind of thing... But after interacting with you some more, it doesn't feel awkward anymore. You have a very fun and easy-going personality, and that makes me feel comfortable around you. You know how to treat me well, and I feel flattered. 🌸 Aku disayang-sayang terus oleh my dd bocah kemsayangan, I feel very happy. 🥺 I'm also happy the we have a lot of similarities, including our spice tolerance yang kayak anak bayi itu. Aku dikelilingi orang-orang yang suka pedes, and I'm happy I finally found my people. 🫂 And also other moments I enjoy yang kalau disebutin satu-satu kayaknya bakal kepanjangan banget, I'M SORRY. 😭

Overall, I truly enjoy my experience with you dd, kalau harus menyebutkan rate I will give dd an infinity out of ten!

It's nice to know someone like you, dd. :3 Forever grateful to Kakak Hakam because he's the one who recommended you to me. But don't tell him!!! Aku malu nanti. ✨

To get to know you a little more, is what I'll be looking for in the future. I hope we could meet again some other time yaa, dd. When I first heard dd sakit, aku sedih banget... 😭 I don't want you to push yourself too hard, I hope you'll get the rest you needed after this yaa, dd! Cepaaatt sembuh my dd bocah kemsayangan 🥺🌸

Immersed in a BxG dynamic, I remain devoted to Ms. S as her lover, embodying the Dominant role with intentional resolve. My gratitude resides in a realm far loftier than language can ascend.

akhirnya kita ketemu lagi, akhirnya kita cerita lagi, dan akhirnya kita pacaran lagi. senang sekali rasanya bisa melepas rindu setelah banyak hal yang terjadi! at this point, being with you feels like my monthly occurrence that can’t be budged. ah, leganya aku kemarin karena kamu bilang aku gak membosankan.

i know it’s been a while since we met, but every time i see you it still feels unreal. setiap bangun tidur dan aku cek notifikasi, yang ada di kepalaku hanya “how could someone be this kind?”. bukan karena aku gak percaya kamu, itu salah besar, aku bingung karena consistency is not an easy thing to do. yet you, jahn, could keep up with me and stay consistent. maka dari itu, kamu perlu diapresiasi. kamu perlu dirayakan.

you’re wonderful. thank you for listening to my worries, about you, about my waiting, about my longing. i’m relieved that me missing you didn’t make you uncomfortable. a week and a half ago, i was prepared to be rejected or not get any reply at all. five days ago, i was mentally ready to say my last goodbye, because i thought about stopping altogether out of fear of what was happening to me whenever i thought of you. so this was supposed to be our last session.

but the future proves to be unpredictable, doesn’t it? and fortunately, time does tell. all my plans and arrangements were totally flipped and gone out the window the moment you stayed beside me just like you always do. i yield to your sincerity and consistency. i’m still afraid of the effect you have on me, but now i’d rather face my feelings head on than lose you completely. #janji enggak kabur atau kepikiran untuk pergi lagi. 👋🌸

so what i’m saying is this won’t be our last time seeing each other. this is me saying see you later to you too, hoping you’ll still want to see me even after this very close‑to‑the‑sun response. also, a reminder that your words sometimes mean more than just words to people other than me (a little nudge to be more careful). i trust you will own up to your words, but hati-hati lagi aja biar gak ada yang kelupaan or overlooked.

i hope my revelation sums up how goated our reunion is. just so you know, i’m not one to fold easily ;) (writing this feels like i’m in an actual confessional booth LOL). terakhir, aku minta maaf sering merepotkan kamu. aku mohon jangan segan atau sungkan bilang kalau aku menyinggung perasaanmu atau melakukan kesalahan okaaay?

Immersed in a BxG dynamic, I remain devoted to Ms. J as her lover, embodying the Dominant role with intentional resolve. My gratitude resides in a realm far loftier than language can ascend.

Our conversation feels very easy, dengan ratusan ribu topik yang kita bahas dari tukang batagor sampai jadi bahas anak pejabat flexing mobil. You always treat me very gently, kamu manis banget, dd... Kamu aslinya gula ya...? Serius, you really know how to my heart flutter.

Setiap kamu lagi sibuk, kamu juga sempetin waktu untuk ngabarin aku. It's a small gesture, but I truly appreciate it. Terima kasih yaa sudah mau meluangkan waktu kamu sebentar untuk ngabarin aku. And for the bouquets, aku seneng banget... I will forever treasure it inside my heart. ♥️

Lastly, I would like to apologize if I made you uncomfortable during our session. Maaf juga yaa, BBC-nya banyak bangeeet... Maaf sudah bikin kamu capek... I truly enjoy our time together, I hope we could meet again soon yaa, dd. ♥️

Immersed in a BxG dynamic, I remain devoted to Ms. S as her lover, embodying the Dominant role with intentional resolve. My gratitude resides in a realm far loftier than language can ascend.