Medications don’t help. Therapists don’t help. No one gives a fuck. People just say that things will get better. But they are clearly saying, under their breath, that it will get better for them, once I’m dead. Why would friends want to see their friend suffer so constantly, so intensely.

I’m 23, my life is over. if i can't figure it out by now, there's no chance to figure it out any later.

Only people who have been part of previous communities or part of other things are capable of finding new things. people like me who have never been part of anything will never be part of anything no matter how hard we try.

I'm just so tired of feeling like life's doormat.

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Preparing for defence exams is tough. The syllabus is huge and managing all subjects with daily life is stressful. Lack of proper guidance, costly resources, and time pressure make it harder. Along with studies we also have to maintain physical fitness, which adds more challenges. Still with dedication and discipline, these obstacles can be overcome.

To make things worse, there isn’t much hiring happening in my field right now. I’ve been trying to find something else, but I haven’t received any offers yet. My parents need me here, and I feel stuck between my responsibilities at home and the demands of my job. I’m not sure what the right move is to make this work.

Yet, despite everything, he never praises me. Instead, there’s always a complaint — about something I did, or something I didn’t. I try to make birthdays and anniversaries special, I long for a simple, happy life, but every occasion turns into an issue. It has been three years now, and I’m exhausted. I’ve tried to make things work, but for how many more years should I keep trying when nothing seems to change? I don’t even know what he truly wants, but I know I’m reaching my limit.

I’ve always wanted to be an actor not because I have experience or training, but because I feel it deeply in my heart. Mumbai calls to me. But getting there isn’t easy. I have no money, no connections, and surviving in that city is tough. Still, the desire to try won’t leave me.

But then there’s my father. We live in Delhi. He was once a wrestler in the akhada, now he runs a small general store. My mother passed away when I was young it's been just the two of us ever since. He’s aging, and I know he needs me, even if he doesn’t say it. I'm all he has.

And that’s where the conflict lies. I want to follow my dream, but I don’t want to leave him alone. I feel torn between being a good son and living for myself. If I stay, I may always wonder what could’ve been. If I leave, I’m scared of what I might lose.

All I know is, I don’t want to live with regret. I just wish I knew the right path.

This year, I am feeling peer pressure regarding my career goals, wondering whether I will make it or not.

The major thing is that I was scolded by my parents for not doing anything serious in my career, and this makes me really sad.

Sometimes, I feel so demotivated that I want to quit.

But I believe life is all about learning new things.

KVPY and several times in sports and extra curricular activities. But I every time I became wiser and ready to face any pressure and challenge. After all these, I choose to devote myself completely for the AFCAT preparation. With a lot of hardwork and preparation I cleared it. I will say that it's never the first or final. Always keep moving forward with smile on your face and courage in your heart.

thankyou

be positive

be kind

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