https://padlet.com/shandrei/i2v8xcah6cbxq2kk This is a jumbled response to the letter you gave me and my personal thoughts about u. I wrote this padlet genuinely as a token of appreciation of your whole existence. Just know that I will always care and look back for you :) en-us 2023-06-21 12:22:51 UTC 2023-06-21 13:37:43 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet.net/icons/png/2728.png shandrei https://padlet.com/shandrei/i2v8xcah6cbxq2kk/wish/2629182588 My first impression of you is you are a loud and awkward girl. It was a normal thing to see in a room full of strangers. You really did not leave a strong one in me. Unlike what was written in the letter you gave me, there wasn’t anything enchanting the way I thought about you. I was uninterested in building many relationships because I cannot maintain it. I was glad we became friends.

You were an interesting one. You have this aura around you carrying confidence as the days go by. Many relationships were made and our peers loved you too. I never met a person as young as you who can articulate your thoughts carefully and successfully. I envied the way you spoke and wished I was fluent speaking in english.

The times we ate outside was fun. There was not many things to take care of back then and we weren’t as busy as we are now. 



]]> 2023-06-21 13:11:39 UTC https://padlet.com/shandrei/i2v8xcah6cbxq2kk/wish/2629182588 shandrei https://padlet.com/shandrei/i2v8xcah6cbxq2kk/wish/2629183399 I am not one to judge nor am I good at it, I just want to say these things because I find it important for you to know.

You are a great listener. I loved our conversations! Our last date on Kkopi was awesome. I really did love it. I was amazed about the way we talked to each other that day, it felt good having someone to talk to about the things friends normally don’t talk about that deep (or maybe IT IS normal, only that I haven’t really experienced a heart to heart conversation with a friend who gets my point)

Academically, we all know that you are great at it. You were from a competitive environment before and you cannot help but bring out that trait around us. I have no problem about that. Actually, I don’t really care who is the highest in our friend group. Great results are great. That is it for me. I have never saw you as a competition, especially because there is nothing to compete about. 

I can say that you handled our relationships with our friends well from the start. We can see that it did not really expect this situation we are in right now. 

I will be honest, your biggest flaw in our friendship is that you always pour out the negative energy where there is positive energy. You cannot control your reactions when you are mad and frustrated. I don’t like it. I am not telling you to hide your emotions, I will let you feel your feelings and if you want to talk about it after, let us do just that. You cannot expect everyone to understand you—and no one will fully understand the depth you have deep deep down. Manage your emotions and treat it well. 

If you are sad and doesn’t want to talk. Stay silent and deal with it. If you can’t take it anymore, you can tell me what weighs in your mind. If you are angry, express your anger to the one’s responsible for it. If you are happy, let yourself be happy. I will be happy for you as well. 




]]> 2023-06-21 13:12:19 UTC https://padlet.com/shandrei/i2v8xcah6cbxq2kk/wish/2629183399 shandrei https://padlet.com/shandrei/i2v8xcah6cbxq2kk/wish/2629202284 I want you to change. For the better. For the future relationships you will build. I hope that you can recognize what you are feeling and deal with it accordingly.

Do not force relationships. You know what I am talking about. This is just my guess, maybe she’s annoyed that you still keep reaching out even though the line was drawn. The problem you probably caused for the rift to happen may be unknown for 5 more months, maybe she won’t ever tell any of us (not that we can really include ourselves in the situation you’re in) or maybe she will have a change of heart and continue to be friends with you. With us. 

Do not take guesses for the future. This is one of the topics in your letter where you talked about 'disappearing'. No one knows. You won’t ever know what the future will hold. Continue waking up, breathing, greeting your family goodmornings, going to church, and interacting with your other friends. There are so many things to do. Look up at the sky whenever you ride a jeepney. Watch the leaves of trees sway as the wind pass by. 

Love your life and its gifts. Hope for the good of tommorrow because again, we won’t know. Hope that it gets better, it will. Ironically, it will. Wait and wait for the good to come to you. 

Iya, you referred to me as your constant. I am not. Do not put me in an idealistic view of this kind of friendship. If you are in the wrong, I won’t take your side but I also won’t tolerate the bad that has been said when you are not around. I will not always be there for you to rely on in your battles and I cannot drop everything for you—not that you ask me to.

I feel very conflicted. I don’t want to be caught up in the middle of your personal affairs with our friends. This goes the same for our other friends too, I don’t want to be in the middle where I walk around eggshells. I can’t fully understand the situation that you two are in but I’ll give an advice to you. Stop. Do not force her to look your way and do not wait for her to ask you to sit in the table she’s at. I love you. I know that you are really not happy in the situation you are in whenever you come to school. It’s probably taking a toll on you that all you can do is frown and make an annoyed expression. Stop. 

I am saying this to you as a concerned friend who is watching you closely. I see that you’re not happy. Let the people who are not trying anymore go. It maybe really your fault, you just haven’t noticed it or you did not catch yourself doing the thing that made her feel that way about you. What can you do? She doesn‘t want to speak about it. You reached out and it seemed that no chances will be given. You should know when to stop and just take care of the things that are also important at the moment.

I love you. I wish you the very best in all aspects of life. I am not a great friend but I AM your friend. I am here.]]> 2023-06-21 13:37:43 UTC https://padlet.com/shandrei/i2v8xcah6cbxq2kk/wish/2629202284