Love, almost graduating senior

It's times like these you need a friend, to be right by your side

We all have hurt and loneliness, we sometimes look away

We try to hide these awful thoughts, each morning of each day

We need to look within ourselves, and take the good inside

As this will help us through these times, our dignity and pride

Each day will help to heal the heart, we need to take things slow

And just remember each of us, our kindness we must show

People tend to hurt us, with reasons so unclear

We cry and sob and feel alone, we long for someone near

We seem so lost and frightened, the ache inside is real

We sometimes want to look above, and humble as we kneel

So take the good inside, and take things day by day

Things will get better, as we move, along life's weary way

We all are special don't forget, we need this to believe

That one day things will shine for us, just close your eyes and dream 

I like this poem because it really shows us that whatever horrors that are occurring currently will not last forever. Things may not be as dark as they appear, and you should never give up. If you believe that this is the as worst as it gets, then things are bound to improve right? I spend the vast majority of the last four years doings things wrong, and lamenting over the fact that I did. This year, after being accepted into my dream college, I can actually imagine where I would be in another few years. And for the first time, I was happy for being who I was. I was always wishing that I had done this better, and accomplished that, or even based off of my mom’s focus on physical qualities, wished that I didn’t look like what my parents’ genes made me turn out to be. 

This was a play we read in my Spanish class. It takes place in a family setting, where Bernalda Alba is the strict mother who acts as the tyrant of the entire family. She forces her daughters to obey unrealistic rules, such as spending the next eight years in the house, not allowed to exit the house at all or open the doors as that was the set mourning time. She has a total of five daughters. The eldest daughter’s father is different from the rest of the four daughters, so she has a pretty big inheritance from her dad, while her step siblings are poor. A suitor desires to marry her, but only for her money, since he has set his eyes on the youngest daughter of the family. He and the youngest daughter elopes, and the rest of the family finds out. Bernalda Alba leaves with a gun to shoot him, but he escapes. A sister who was jealous of the youngest one lied saying that the man was killed, and the youngest daughter hangs herself. 

During my free time and I have time to waste, I use reddit and youtube as my main sources of entertainment. /r/aww is filled with pictures or short clips of adorable animals doing really cute stuff, like climbing the stairs for the first time, or playing with one another. I think my favorite post was a clip of a mouse chasing a cat. I like the second subreddit because it makes note of many daily things that I never realized. For example, in those movies or TV shows with naughty dogs, ironically, those dogs are the most obedient of all. They were originally trained to do bad things, so they are actually very smart and obedient. The third subreddit keeps me updated on news across the world. I rarely read the news, and sadly, my sole source of news are from my parents across the dinner table at night. My fifth subreddit is my favorite game, and my first mobile game. 

-9th grade

-did not get to class late on the first day

-joined my first clubs:D (Speech and Debate and ArtReach)

-the only time i applied to an officer position

-volunteered to help with children with Down’s syndrome

-10th grade

-first time feeling stressed out

-got my graphing calculator and was super excited

-bought first movie ticket

-spent majority of time playing Tetris

-11th grade

- a blur of stress and sleepiness

-nothing really worth remembering

-really looked forward to the summer

-made my staying up and staying asleep records (30 hrs and 13 hrs respectively)

-12th grade

-turned in College Sheet late

-rushes of happiness

-decided on my major after months of being clueless

-Senioritis hit after AP Testing

-Graduation

-Visiting grandparents

-First visit to China