Wall of Lament by Maggie Falenschek

mfalenschek — 2020-03-19 15:11:35 UTC

I feel really alone being at home

mfalenschek — 2020-03-19 15:12:14 UTC

I'm worried about my friends

mfalenschek — 2020-03-19 15:12:45 UTC

I'm sad that seniors have had their last semester on campus stolen from them

mfalenschek — 2020-03-19 15:22:26 UTC

I will miss seeing everyone on campus every day!

mfalenschek — 2020-03-19 15:29:07 UTC

cancelled events

no more hugs

2020-03-19 16:50:38 UTC

It is hard to feel like life is on hold.

2020-03-19 16:50:38 UTC

no more rehearsals with musicians

2020-03-19 16:51:37 UTC

I miss eye contact and smiles!

2020-03-19 16:51:48 UTC

singing together

2020-03-19 16:52:39 UTC

I miss gathering with others in sacred spaces that bring a sense of beauty and transcendence

2020-03-19 16:53:51 UTC

I miss singing together and hearing your voices!

2020-03-19 16:57:58 UTC

mfalenschek — 2020-03-19 17:00:32 UTC

Seeing people smiling everyday (and holding the door open)

Disney Bells. Ringers. Bronze. I miss the insanity of Tuesday evenings.

2020-03-19 17:04:07 UTC

2020-03-19 17:33:30 UTC

It sucks being away from our weird, amazing, quirky, and supportive professors.

2020-03-19 17:43:38 UTC

Saying goodbye is hard for me in general. Now I don’t even get that #Classof2020

2020-03-19 17:44:29 UTC

I don’t get to enjoy the lasts of the leadership teams/ organizations/ and hangouts before graduation.

2020-03-19 17:48:54 UTC

I miss my friends, stressing about homework, Proclaim, my teammates, working out in Lund, all of it...

2020-03-19 18:04:31 UTC

I miss day to day life, my friends, and living in such a great community ❤️
However I’m glad that I’ll have one more year to soak it all in

2020-03-19 18:52:42 UTC

I miss hugs.

I'll miss sharing what we're thankful for around the table at Sunday worship

mfalenschek — 2020-03-19 19:16:07 UTC

I will miss

2020-03-19 20:50:13 UTC

The view, the sound, the undeniable presence of the God in every crevasse

I’m sad that I didn’t get to have proper goodbyes with my friends

2020-03-19 21:25:50 UTC

2020-03-19 22:57:15 UTC

I cried saying goodbye to my room. All the memories held there & the inability to give myself time to process and prepare for the next chapter. I’m happy the proper precautions occurred to ensure everyone’s health but my heart is heavy

2020-03-19 23:56:00 UTC

As much as I’m grateful to be with family right now, I miss seeing my friends in person, I’m sad me and my roommate didn’t get to finish out the rest of year together, im sad for my senior friends, im sad I’m only going to see my professors over a screen. But I’m lucky that I still have more time at GAC, and I’ll hold onto that.

2020-03-20 16:56:58 UTC

I didn't get a chance to say goodbye

2020-03-21 03:05:18 UTC

I miss going to class. Spending too much money on coffee. Eating lunch with my friends. Being super stressed and getting no sleep because of classes. Studying. Getting pizza from Domino's after another failed dive dance. Slushies right before the caf closes. Working in the caf. The surge of people in the caf during chapel break. The silence of an empty lab. I miss it all.

2020-03-21 15:11:39 UTC

I wish Gustavus would have made this decision from the beginning instead of saying we were coming back then days later changing it. I know it doesn’t work like that and things are changing everyday with this whole thing but I would have said my goodbyes and treated my last night like my last night if I had known.

I miss Wednesday chapel.

2020-03-21 19:42:03 UTC

Hearing the choirs lead the liturgy on Wednesdays was always very healing for me!

The rest of my senior year was taken from me

2020-03-21 21:42:16 UTC

This is was my last semester at GAC and I had so much I wanted to do before I left, so many things left to experience, so many people that I didn’t get to say goodbye to all leading up to a graduation that may not even happen. I spent four amazing years at Gustavus to have it all ripped away from me right at the end.

I lost my season and my seniors

2020-03-21 22:39:00 UTC

After working my booty off to be in shape, I have nothing to show for it. After thinking I had one more go around with the people I call brothers and sisters, I didn’t even get to say goodbye. Much less share the track with them one last time.

2020-03-21 22:43:21 UTC

o many people that I didn’t get to say goodbye to all leading up to a graduation that may not even happen. I spent four amazing years at Gustavu

I didn't get to have any of the goodbyes I'd planned to have and that hurts.

2020-03-21 23:27:03 UTC

2020-03-22 00:34:26 UTC

I'm angry that I don't get to grieve for the loss of my coworker with my work family. I'm angry that her family has to bear this burden with out the in-person support of many of us that have her and then in our hearts.

I had to come back from my study abroad experience in Argentina after only 2.5 weeks. I spent the last year saving money for it and I’m never going to have that kind of immersive experience again.

2020-03-22 01:16:29 UTC

2020-03-22 02:01:35 UTC

I am so incredibly upset for the seniors and I'm scared it will happen to our (2021) class too. I'm worried for the full-time caf workers, janitorial, and administrative staff that are no longer able to work. I miss the chance meetings with friends, the walks to River Rock and Diamond Dust, and the beauty of the arb. The communication and organization during this process has been terribly lacking which is so frustrating. I am so thankful for the profs, peers, workers, and all the kindness I have seen during this mess. Love to ya all!

2020-03-22 02:38:23 UTC

I was really loving teaching my classes this semester. I made a lot of changes that seemed to be going well. I’m so sad I won’t be able to see my students and that I can’t help them process this in person.

2020-03-22 02:39:40 UTC

I’m so scared for our most vulnerable students, staff, and contingent faculty.

Ughhhh

2020-03-22 03:10:34 UTC

I am feeling a lot of emotions but the most evident one is confusion. Flying home gave me a sense of security but what about my friends? Staying would have been extremely isolating and difficult but at least I'd be in my own comfortable space. At the end of the day, I'm glad I'm living one day at a time but I anxiously await my senior year and to see all my beautiful friends <3

My dad has cancer

2020-03-22 03:45:02 UTC

I am so scared to be home with him right now. What if he gets sick? What if I get sick and he can't take care of me? What if something happens to me and all of a sudden I'm all alone? School was offering me a reprieve from the onslaught of these feelings but now all I think about is how scary this is going to get so fast. What if we can't return for fall semester? What if things are never the same?

Not getting the most from remote learning

2020-03-22 04:12:16 UTC

The nature of the classes that I take means I'm going to be losing a lot from no longer having face-to-face interactions with my professors and peers. I trust that the classes will be designed the best they can be going forward, but I hate thinking about how much my education will be suffering by moving these classes online. I'm always going to wonder what I will have lost because of this and how much it's setting me and my classmates back from where we could be.

Whole lot of thoughts

2020-03-22 05:14:38 UTC

I had 3.7 amazing years at Gustavus. I’m so sad and regretful I didn’t say proper goodbyes to anyone. I have so many friends I may never be able to see in person again (Some went back home abroad, some out of state). It hurts my heart to think about. I just went home in shock and had no time to give last goodbyes to all the people that changed my life. I had so many senior spring semester plans because it’s the time of people’s life they “always remember and love”. I don’t get that.
But then I worry about people that are not as fortunate as me and might not get the care they need. And people losing jobs, businesses and homes. Everybody is impacted and it is so much bigger than school.
I’m out of my routine and quarantined away from my mother and sister. I don’t get to hug them or do anything really for an unforeseeable future. So many thoughts and worries and regrets and fear and unknown. I just miss my gustie community.

2020-03-22 05:26:04 UTC

I’m worried about the job searching process as a senior. What am I supposed to do? I live in a rural town with little opportunity. In order to get the most out of my degree I’d have to move, but now that process seems so hard.

2020-03-22 06:25:54 UTC

I joked a lot at the beginning of this semester that I couldn’t wait to get it over with, but now I’m eating my words. I’ll never get that time with my roommates, friends, and other people I love at GAC back, and I wish I had been more present for it.

2020-03-22 07:01:18 UTC

I worked so hard to write my name on those damn tunnel walls during senior week.

2020-03-22 07:58:12 UTC

I’m sad that my hard work will not be shared with others in the way we had all planned it to. I’m worried I will be missing out on things that will be beneficial for my future. This is not how I imagined senior year to go. So many milestones, performances, and important projects down the drain.

From a college junior

2020-03-22 13:08:12 UTC

I’m sad I’m missing presidents ball, I’m sad that my cousin died and she can’t have a funeral, I’m sad that my 21st birthday won’t be like everyone else’s with friends surrounding me at our local bars. This year was a tough one, I got through so many medical issues and hospital stays, switched my major and finally found something I’m passionate about and now I’m at home wondering what could have been.

2020-03-22 14:46:42 UTC

I'm afraid for close friends who thought they would get to stay on campus but now might be denied their petitions and be forced to leave. I'm disappointed that a spring break backpacking trip that I've been looking forward to all semester has been cancelled. That's a small thing to give up when others are experiencing such instability, but the grief of all the little moments lost still hurts. I was looking forward to soaking up time with the seniors I look up to, frolicking around the arb, being ridiculous on campus together amidst sign of spring...it's such a shock to have all that torn away. Of course it's for the safety of us and our community, but it still hurts.

2020-03-22 15:30:06 UTC

As a result of staying true to my beliefs and making the personal choice to social distance myself, I am out of a job now. I feel for all my 2020 Gustie friends as they cannot finish their college careers at GAC. My heart just hurts.

I'm sad about all of the live music opportunities that we are missing out on. Rehearsals, concerts, recitals, tours. Making music together in person just can't be replicated with everyone flung across the globe.

jvickerm — 2020-03-25 00:14:50 UTC

2020-03-28 04:13:46 UTC

I’m worried that all the work myself and other students have done this year to bring sustainability into the college’s agenda will be for naught because any progress has now been halted. I’m afraid administration is going to sweep it all under the rug and move past it when we fought so hard to make even an inch of progression.