It was awfully awkward

We rarely talk to each other 

We just smile when we meet 

But after a few months we cut out all communication and i start talking to another person

You were gone 

Your voice was never heard again

they tried their best to save him but it was too late. 

‘promise me, that we’ll meet eachother in our next life and fall in love with each other all over again okay?’ he said his last words before leaving this cruel world.thats when it hits me the sharp excruciating pain . It strucked me hard making my knees give up on me as the warmth of my tears starts trickling down my face. 

it was dark all over again. everything felt so empty. the world was slowly falling apart. little does he know,love is something that’s only meant to be felt once and once only .

going to a place where i usually go to.

it’s as if a water rushing down into a cup.

my heart shattered as if a glass shattered.

the place where we always create something new.

listening to the waters flowing.

watching the 

Memories are to be recalled but not to be destroyed there.

I don’t why I feel that I have a lot of memories and I’m trying to recall all those memories I have. Sometime memories make us laugh make us cry. Some memories are memories that never happened such as dreams.

i dont remember

i dont normally remember my dream but 

on this particular day things were so familiar

till this day i can still remember

things were so familiar to the point where i remembered the exact people who asked me a similar question

waiting for your notification to appear. 

weeks had already passed, 

you had you moved on with your new friends. 

scrolling through stories, seeing you having fun. 

i can only watch you from far. 

i’m happy for you. 

yet, it’s so ironic isn’t it? 

treating you the same way you treated me and

you can’t take it. 

i opened my gallery yet again, taking a ride down memory lane of what we used to be.

our pictures. polaroids. 

that was all i had left of you, us. 

you weren’t the type of person who likes giving hugs, 

you didn’t know how to comfort me when i was crying. 

but those times you showed an inch of care towards me, it made me so happy it’s indescribable. 

after all those years, memories. 

i don’t wanna lose my best friend, my leo. 

how i wished you knew how much i fought each and every part in me to stay.

that i didn’t wanna leave you,

but i had to. 

i knew the longer i stayed, the more i’ll lose myself. 

though i left you, i was left wondering if you even noticed that i was gone. 

such a classic, dont you think?

there was something so pleasant

about that place...

the sweet, sweet, sweet innocence in his eyes..

filled with euphoria, not a single care, not a single

finger lifted in his posh-styled life.

you really think youre in control?

his smile, sparkly white... not a single cavity in that damned mouth. 

but when he speaks, its like a monarch inside a 17 year old boy,

ruling over an academic with everyone falling at his feet, mouths kissing his ass.

does that make me crazy?

despise is all that fills me when i see him,

so many things i wish i could do, none thats legal in the law.

it could be something as so simple as telling him off but...

where's the fun in that?

i remember when i was little,

"violence is never the answer, darling."

"boys will be boys.. let it go."

how naive i was. 

memories , the ones that will always give me the nostalgia of the times that we had even after 50 years go by and memories the ones that will forever stay with me even after you’re gone 

i remember you 

when i was upset, happy and in need of love

my voice jumping up and down

trying to follow your rhythm. 

walking home, i always skip everything for you

if love and hate are the same words 

i love you seoul

you trigger parts of my brain 

and evoke my emotions.

you loop in my mind - like a rehearsal 

to listen to you for the first time again,

would make my world shine.