https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy Author- Nic Sheff en-us 2023-01-30 18:20:14 UTC 2025-10-09 15:24:29 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet.net/icons/png/1f642.png deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2463420233 Tweak. Simon & Schuster Children's Publishing Divison, 2007]]> 2023-01-31 17:44:41 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2463420233 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489128290 Nic was sober for 18 months, up until April 1st. The morning of April 2nd was when he "first" relapsed. This is also when he ran into Lauren. Any other time before wasn't mentioned.]]> 2023-02-21 03:13:24 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489128290 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489137277 After Nic gets a deal with a kid named Destiny, he and Lauren meet Gack, who sells them both crystal methamphetamine.]]> 2023-02-21 03:24:29 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489137277 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489139129 Nic recalls when he was 18 he got thrown into a treatment center. He had been doing meth for half a year and had dropped out of college. He ended up almost getting arrested by an officer after having a breakdown.]]> 2023-02-21 03:26:44 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489139129 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489145502 Nic, while driving, "runs into" his step-mom, and she ends up chasing each other, until Nic gets away, or at least that's what he thought happened.]]> 2023-02-21 03:34:42 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489145502 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489147910 Nic and Lauren "shoot" themselves, and proceed to involve themselves with some sexual activities. Nic ends up "shooting" the rest of the drugs in the bathroom, knocking himself out.]]> 2023-02-21 03:37:39 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489147910 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489186826 Nic meets someone named Joe, with Gack, who "steals" Nic's money, by tricking Nic. Gack and Nic proceed to try and sell some of what they had gotten to someone else. The person pay less than needed, so after getting a friend, they threaten the money out.]]> 2023-02-21 04:22:28 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489186826 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489192951 As Nic and his two friends walk around, he recalls meeting someone named JT. He had helped Nic get into the center to get help, and Nic actually was good for a couple months. Though he had relapsed again, and was worse.]]> 2023-02-21 04:30:45 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489192951 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489196051 Nic "shoots up" Lauren, but only a few minutes later she passes out, seeming almost to be on the verge of death. This forces Nic to call 911 to tell them what happens. Lauren does live, but now she has to go to a psychiatrist for a bit.]]> 2023-02-21 04:34:52 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489196051 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489209684 Lauren and Nic are informed that Lauren's parents are coming home, so Nic leaves early in the morning. Nic tries to get some repairs on his car, he also meets up with Gack to just wait in Lauren's car since it is cold.]]> 2023-02-21 04:54:50 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2489209684 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2491751362 Gack and Nic go pick up a friend, Ben, to head to the Glide Memorial Church for some food. After they get their food, Lauren calls Nic explaining that she has a week to decide if she will go to rehab or not. After this, Nic drove to an abandoned house to gather some things into his bag.]]> 2023-02-22 21:31:06 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2491751362 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2491783974 Nic starts feeling like he is burning up inside, a fire that won't go out. This is when he decides that he needs to stop, that he can't keep going. He does try convincing Gack to go along with him. It doesn't work out.]]> 2023-02-22 22:21:30 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2491783974 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539098666 Lauren and Nic decide to both do any and all the drugs that they have. After that, they both start heading to Lauren's parent's house. After this, Lauren's parents talk about having the two of them living on their own, just being slightly monitored. They agree to do it, though Nic goes to "hit" one last time.]]> 2023-03-31 00:30:00 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539098666 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539112269 Instead of taking the oppurtunity given, Nic calls for other help, first his dad then Spencer, his past sponsor. It's then, when everything changes. Nic heads to LA, where he stays at his own place, but now is going to a treatment center. He slowly gets better, taking care of Spencer's daughter when he gets sick. That is until Nic meets Zelda. ]]> 2023-03-31 00:40:55 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539112269 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539118054 Even after all the warnings from Spencer, Nic still stays with Zelda, and ends up relapsing again. Things go ok, Nic and Zelda go to meetings still, but Nic is doing just the same as he did before. Nic keeps getting told by everyone that what he is doing is a mistake. He doesn't believe any of them.]]> 2023-03-31 00:45:45 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539118054 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539121493 Nic and Zelda are running out of money, but they still do drugs. Both are still unemployed, even though Zelda is getting little money from it. Nic does end up getting an infection and ends up getting it removed, though he almost passes out and has a huge hole in his arm now.]]> 2023-03-31 00:48:49 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539121493 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539121624 Nic heads with Zelda to Las Vegas, though when heading there they sneak crack onto the plane. When they arrive, all three smoke in the car, but they do head to the store. It's there when Alexi, the guy inviting Zelda over, starts asking questions, which starts scaring Nic. When they get to the house, Zelda and Nic smoke, though Nic is sort of losing his mind.]]> 2023-03-31 00:48:56 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2539121624 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540389774 Nic and Zelda decide to go back home and start a life together, talking about getting a house and everything. They stay relatively "clean" until 3 days later when they start again. They do get called, their parents finding out that they relapsed, causing Zelda to lash out at Nic. They do try to hold a grage sale to try and make some money.]]> 2023-04-01 00:31:38 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540389774 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540392261 One of Nic's friends dies in an accident, so he ends up calling his mom, while high, and they get into an argument. A day or so passes, but another event comes up, but this time, everyone wants Nic to go to rehab, even Zelda. This is when everything takes a turn, where Nic goes to detox first. ]]> 2023-04-01 00:39:02 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540392261 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540392859 After detoxing, Nic is in a lot of pain, wanting to hit again. He also wanted Zelda to go with him, but she refuses, which makes him feel even worse. He does make it, smoking from time to time. Once he gets out, he does get sent to another rehab camp, in Arizona.]]> 2023-04-01 00:41:02 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540392859 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540393453 Nic meets his group and for the first few weeks, things are tough for Nic. He learns to accept what he struggles with though, and bonds with the group, and slowly gets better. He slowly but surely gains motivation to get through this, with support for everyone else. After a few months, he sees his parents, together, for the first time in a while.]]> 2023-04-01 00:42:51 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540393453 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540394567 "Lauren was not someone I thought about a whole lot...I don't even recognize her at first...Honestly, I was as surprised by my own actions as anyone else. The morning of my relapse, I had no idea I was actually going to do it" (3).]]> 2023-04-01 00:46:22 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540394567 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540396230 "My dad helped me get into rehab...I love drugs...I could not, NOT give that up...They released me thirty days later and I moved into a halfway house in the city. I stayed sober three days...my behavior grew more erratic" (18).]]> 2023-04-01 00:51:17 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540396230 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540436009 "I shoot myself up and we go over to the bed...Someone's knocking at Lauren's bedroom door and I feel a rush of panic...I decide to suck up the rest of it and shoot it" (40).]]> 2023-04-01 02:35:38 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540436009 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540438862 " 'That guy Joe... He just ripped me off.' I don't think all the heroin in the world could make my stomach stop cramping...He reaches his hand into the front pocket, pulling out a crumpled twenty...I hear the man cursing behind us and I fee like I need to wash my hands" (54).]]> 2023-04-01 02:42:58 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540438862 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540440010 " Seeing Lauren on the floor, turning blue...grab the phone, dialing 911...She's sitting on a white cot...Doctors and nurses pass bits of paper...enter information into computers...She has to be evaluated by the psychiatrist..She keeps pleading to get her psychiatrist on the phone (71)]]> 2023-04-01 02:46:03 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540440010 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540441130 "Seven candles burning and smoking-lit-seven flames of doubt, fear, sorrow, pain, waste, hopelessness, despair...I sit rocking on the street corner. No, I can't keep doing this...'This is all so pathetic,' I say. 'We can't go on like this.'...'You ever think of getting out?' 'No.'" (111-112).]]> 2023-04-01 02:49:08 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540441130 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540442402 " 'Lauren...I need help. I think I'm ready to get help.' ...'Then we'll come back here and my parents'll help us.' ...We shoot most of the crystal in a couple days, so she gets real high. I drive..." (117-118).]]> 2023-04-01 02:51:51 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540442402 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540770151 "I've been out of work since last Friday...I'm not sure what the hell I'm gonna do for money now. Zelda is getting unemployment every two weeks now that the commercial finished shooting...a swollen, painful lump growing on my arm...Zelda tells me it must have been from a dirty needle...It hurts so bad...'I guess we'll try to just it locally at first'...After they drain the whole thing there's this giant, gaping hole in my arm" (148-250).]]> 2023-04-01 18:51:38 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540770151 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540776651 "Alexi...offered to fly Zelda up to Las Vegas...he agrees to pay for my ticket as well...Zelda has the crack hidden...Alexia meets us out front and we immediately start smoking crack...While Zelda's in the drugstore, Alexi begins asking me all these questions...I feel really almost scared of him...Zelda and I disappear into the studio...smoke a little bit of the crack Alexi gave us in the closet...My mind can't seem to focus on anything but finding more crack" (251-255).]]> 2023-04-01 19:08:41 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540776651 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540780619 "Jordan is dead. He crashed his motorcycle into a tree...Then I call my mom and she answers. I try to explain what happened, but before I can she is yelling at me-saying she knows I'm high...Then suddenly Zelda flips out and starts screaming at my mom...Finally, I just hand up the phone...It's midday now...It's been over five hours when the knock comes at the door. Somehow I come out of my psychosis long enough to open it...Zelda told everyone she wants me to go into rehab-no more fcking around. Spencer wants me to go to rehab. My mom wants me to go into rehab. Even Ron says I need help...my dad calls again. He says there's this detox in the Valley...He says I better go or I'm gonna get arrested...So I go" (269-275).]]> 2023-04-01 19:19:47 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540780619 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540780729 "The guy takes me down for a cigarette outside in the warm Valley aair. After that they give me a bunch of meds to knock me out...I basically just sleep for three days straight...The hospital is designed only for short stay, just to get you through the physical detox...I don't leave with Zelda. I ask her, again, to go into detox. She promises she will...My dad and mom are forcing me to check into a treatment center in Arizona...into a program they've named Serenity" (277-285).]]> 2023-04-01 19:20:05 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540780729 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540794316 2023-04-01 19:56:56 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540794316 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540795119 2023-04-01 19:59:18 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540795119 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540795987 2023-04-01 20:01:33 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540795987 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540798296 2023-04-01 20:08:07 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540798296 deleryl000 https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540799274 2023-04-01 20:10:42 UTC https://padlet.com/deleryl000/h1crlpusqq48adpy/wish/2540799274