Poems of Niel by Reiniel Dela Paz

“The bright light at the end of the tunnel”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Since prehistoric times, there has always been conflict left and right.

But in times of trouble people from different countries unite.

There might be people that are always looking, in search of a fight.

But it shows that even in darkest nights, there will always be light.

Sometimes I wonder, why is conflict always present in this world?

Well maybe it’s because there are people who do not keep their word.

Always giving promises to those people who want to be heard,

And in turn, making them fall for those pretty lies that are absurd.

The only thing we all want, is for a world with equality.

But why are we spreading hostility instead of empathy?

Is it because of color, ethnicity, or ability?

Or is it because we’re close-minded to accept diversity?

Perhaps there will be unity when our lives are in jeopardy.

Then, we will learn to cooperate and coexist peacefully.

When the time when we see things differently comes eventually,

I just hope that I’m still here, so I can pass away happily.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Endless Regrets”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Sometimes I can’t help but wonder, should I really even bother

Trying to talk to her and be closer, when it doesn’t even matter?

I already got an answer, and it hurt like a sharp dagger.

So why is it that I still love her, and in my heart there’s no other.

Maybe if I had taken care of myself better, it wouldn’t be this way.

Maybe if I grew up differently, I wouldn’t feel this way.

Maybe if I’m handsome, strong, and tough, I wouldn’t be a castaway.

Maybe if I’m just like your ideal man, you would’ve fallen for me right away.

If only you knew how much I love you,

If only you knew, what would you do?

Will you be able to tell me what’s true?

Or will you try to comfort me and lie to me too?

So before I end this poem full of regrets,

I hope that you will listen to my one selfish request.

Please don’t think of me as someone who has a constant feeling of unrest,

But please see me as a person who doesn’t want his feelings unexpressed.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Unwanted”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

You know recently, I’ve been feeling so low.

I feel so unwanted and this feeling won’t go.

I can’t eat, can’t sleep, and it goes to show.

But as I remember it, I was different not too long ago.

I was happy, content, I’d even say I was in ecstasy.

It’s as if I was in a world where dreams become reality,

But the truth is, I’m really living in a world full of treachery.

What I thought was real, was actually just a

fantasy.

I thought I was unique and that I have a specialty,

But in reality, the only thing I have is mediocrity.

Now I know that I don’t have the necessary talent and ability,

To be considered a true genius or a natural prodigy.

Therefore, I can say that feeling unwanted is the worst.

It hurts so much, it’s like your heart is gonna burst.

It will take away all of your confidence first,

Then it will slowly trap you in an unbreakable curse.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Description of You”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

I can tell that there’s no sight I can call better,

Than the sight of seeing you, my precious treasure.

Not even the sight of the prettiest flower,

Can match your unwithering beauty and wonder.

Your eyes are like a diamond that’s crystal clear.

It’s telling me “it’s fine now darling, have no fear.

For I will always be right here for you, my dear.

I will always be here to wipe away your tears.”

Your smile is captivating. I’m falling again.

I’m falling every time you smile, and this won’t end.

Cause I’ll do everything to make you smile my friend,

Even if it will cause a wound that can’t be mend.

So before I end this, let me say “I love you.

I’m still hoping that you will learn to love me too,

Even though I know that right now, that won’t come true,

Cause you already have someone better. Adieu.”

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Hiling"

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

May mga gabing ako'y nakatitig sa kalawakan.

At aking iniisip, kailan kaya mahahawakan

Ang taong katulad mong punong-puno ng kagandahan,

Kinahuhumalingan at inaasam ng sino man.

Minsan ay naiisip kung may pag-asa ba talaga,

Ang isang tulad kong wala naman talagang halaga.

Magkaroon pa kaya ng pagkakataon o sinta

Na ako ay mahalin at matupad ang mga sana?

Sana ay ako na lang ang iyong tanging minamahal.

Sana ay ako na lang, ito ang dasal sa maykapal.

Sana ay ako na lang, sapagkat ikaw lang ang mahal.

Sana ay ako na lang, dahil pag-ibig ko'y magtatagal.

Pero sa likod ng mga sanang walang katapusan,

Hinihiling ng munting puso na kirot ay maibsan.

Mawala sana ang hinanakit na nararamdaman,

At ito ay mapalitan ng tamis ng pagmamahal.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Hope”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

You know, I actually thought that this time it’d be different.

I thought, after making so many mistakes, I finally found the correct inference.

But here I am talking, once called a poet, now a belligerent.

A belligerent man who’s fighting, because of his own ignorance.

I thought I learned my lesson to never fall in love again.

But it turns out that I’m wrong, cause I’m feeling something I can’t explain.

Something that was previously bound by chains that sadly didn’t sustain,

Is coming back even stronger, establishing its unending reign.

I forgot what love is, but now I’m starting to remember the feeling.

My heart that once forgot how to love, is now experiencing healing.

My heart is beating faster cause of an indescribable feeling.

An indescribable feeling that I feel when you’re near, my darling.

So even if I am fighting a war while walking on a tightrope,

I will never give up because I know that I’ll be able to cope.

I’ll be able to cope with challenges, so giving up is a no.

Because as long as there’s love in my heart,

I know that there’ll always be hope.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Friends”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

They are the ones that’s always there,

The ones that help me with problems I bear.

The ones that are with me to carry the boulders,

The ones I can lean on, and cry on their shoulders.

If ever in trouble,

They support me double,

Whenever I’m sad,

They’re making me glad.

Friends are forever,

We are always together.

Helping each other,

Not wanting to bother.

I thank God for having them,

For seeing and knowing them.

I love you all of my friends.

I hope our friendship will never end.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Ikaw"

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Nais kong malaman mo na ikaw pa rin,

Ang siyang nilalaman ng aking puso at damdamin.

Sana ang pag-ibig na ito ay dinggin.

Sa Maykapal ito, ang aking laging panalangin.

Sa bawat sandali, ang hanap ko'y ikaw.

Kahit sa panaginip, ang hinahanap ko'y ikaw.

Ikaw ang nais kong makausap sa bawat araw.

At kapag ika'y natanaw na, ang puso ko'y nalulusaw.

Pero bakit nga ba sadyang ganito?

Ako ba'y nagkulang sa pagmamahal sa iyo?

Ang mahalin mo lang naman ang tanging hangad ko.

Ngunit ngayo'y batid kong siya lamang ang iyong gusto.

Pero ano pa nga ba ang aking magagawa?

Tanging sayo lamang nararamdaman ang ganitong tuwa.

Kailan ko nga ba tuluyang mauunawaan,

Na ang isang tulad mo at tulad ko ay imposibleng magmahalan.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Signs"

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Can you please tell me exactly what are these things you call signs?

Because I think I've received these for more than a hundred times.

Are they easy to understand, just like a nursery rhyme?

Or are they signals that tell you when to resume or resign?

In my opinion, signs are clues given to people in need.

Signs are symbols that test your faith and will make you do good deeds.

They're given to people who want to know the truth and be freed.

Be freed from the wicked illusions that showcase their greed.

I asked God to give me a sign if I should give up on you,

And I think that He answered me, believe me I really do.

I suddenly felt it earlier, when I saw you two.

I realized that you love him, I know that you know it too.

So while I'm still waiting for the upcoming final sign,

I will still do my very best in order to make you mine.

So that when the final one comes from God above in due time,

I won't have any regrets on what I did back in my prime.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Cold"

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Can you please tell me why is it that I'm feeling so cold?

It's so cold here without your warmth, this feeling seems so old.

I guess I was just used to having a feeling of gold.

A feeling of gold, that unfortunately didn’t hold.

Truth be told, I’m still so used to having you by my side.

When you left me all alone, it’s true that I cried and died.

I acted strong and tough, believe me, I really did try.

But even though I try, I can’t hide the fact that I lied.

Still, my love for you will never be gone, that much is clear.

Just know that I still love you, and I’m waiting for you here.

Please bear in mind that I will always be the same, my dear.

I’m the knight in shining armor who’ll wipe away your tears.

So even if I am constantly lost in the darkness,

I will still find a way back into your arms, my highness.

Because I am your faithful servant, forever earnest.

The guy who’ll always try, to wash away your loneliness.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

”A World of My Own”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

There are times when I feel so hopeless in this world full of pain and loneliness.

I feel so hopeless and I start to think that giving my all will be useless.

Cause this world that we are currently living in won’t ask for your forgiveness,

Even though it broke you by making you feel useless after trying your best.

This world keeps on throwing standards and expectations one after another,

Without really giving attention and focus to the feelings of others.

And I think that this is the reason why other people don’t really bother,

Trying to make their own world where everything else will be considered better.

We humans are peculiar beings that can make mistakes and be led astray.

We are strong yet fragile and that’s why we should never forget to always pray.

We must always strive for the best, I think that when I hear the music play.

Because when I hear music, I can express what I normally can’t convey.

So in this world full of pain and loneliness, music is my only escape.

Music lets me live in a world where I can see lots of different landscapes.

A world where everything else doesn’t really matter and all can be reshaped.

A world where I can show my true colors, without putting anything at stake.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Sana"

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Bakit ba tila parang hindi ko tanggap?

Na ang aking tanging hangad ay di magaganap.

Ako'y palaging nakatingin sa alapaap,

Gusto'y palaging managinip at ako'y mangarap.

Gusto kong mangarap at sa realidad ay tumakas.

Pumunta sa sariling mundo kung saan ako'y may lakas.

Sapagkat sa aking sakit ay wala na yatang lunas.

At kinakatakutan kong kailanma'y di kita mamamalas.

Mas mabuti nang ako'y tuluyan nang lumisan,

Sa mundong wala akong sinapit kung di puro kamalasan.

Sapagkat masyado nang mabigat ang aking pasan.

Di ko na kayang magmahal at masaktan.

Kaya sa pagtatapos ng tula kong ito,

Sana ay mapansin at ito'y mabasa mo.

Para bago man lang lumisan nang totoo.

Matupad ang aking hiling na yakapin mo ako.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Memories"

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Can you tell me what should I do with these memories we had?
Should I keep the good ones and throw away the ones that are bad?
But every time I think of letting go, I remember the ones that made me glad.
So as a parting gift, I'll give you all this simple ballad.

Please take this poem coming from the bottom of my loving heart,
And remember the memories we shared even though we're apart.
For even if we're miles apart, you'll never have a counterpart.
Cause as long as you remember, we'll be connected by heart.

We're complete when all of us are together.
We're one family that sticks together no matter the weather.
Remember that you're a priority and you're never a bother,
Because a family is there to always help each other.

So as I end this poem created by your loyal ally,
Always remember the wonderful memories that will tie.
Memories that will tie us together, so please do not cry.
Cause as long as you remember, this will never be goodbye.

- ♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Handog ng isang Duwag”

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:32:02 UTC

Bakit ba sa tuwing nakikita ka ay may kakaibang nadarama?

At sa tuwing ika’y papalapit na, di ko mapigilang mataranta?

Marahil ito’y nangyayari pagkat di maalis ang kaba o sinta.

Di maalis ang kaba, kaya ngayon ay di pa rin makapagsalita.

Napangunahan ng takot dahil sa kakaisip na di mapapansin,

Ang pagsinta ng yaring puso, na ang tanging hinihiling ay ang dinggin.

Kaya marahil ako ay nandito, mataimtim na nananalangin,

Nananalanging tanggalin ang takot at bigyang pansin aking pagtingin.

Magmula pa noong pagkabata, ako’y tinaguriang isang duwag.

Alam kong ayaw mo sa torpe pero layuan ako, sana ay huwag.

Sapagkat ginagawa ko naman ang lahat para lang huwag matibag,

Ang natitirang lakas ng loob para makausap ka na, o dilag.

Kaya sa pagtatapos ng tula kong ito na alay sa’yo, o sinta,

Sana nama’y bigyang pansin ang hiling kahit na ako ay walang kwenta.

Sapagkat nilaan ko ang lahat dito pati ang natitirang tinta,

Ng aking pluma para lang mahandogan ka ng isang tula at kanta.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

The QR Code and link to my other padlet with my stories.

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 16:34:25 UTC

https://padlet.com/azRein_/b2hdc8wl4m0t

"Existence"

azRein_ — 2018-12-16 17:38:47 UTC

It has been days since that incident that I want to forget,

Yet tears still roll down my face as I continue to regret.

As I'm writing this poem that's becoming part of history,

One day I'll be recalling, forever in my memory.

Back in the day, I liked reading some poems and story books.

I read about how they made literature and how they cooked.
I wasn't really paying attention as to how I looked.
I just wanted to learn things regardless of the time it took.

So now I wonder, is it important to have existence?
Will history be changed if I just vanished at this instance?
Will I become a writer if I didn't get assistance,
From past poets and writers who really did go the distance?

I may not and likely will never know what the future is.
Cause predicting the future is trying to see in a mist.
We can only hope for the best and try to not clench our fist.
But one thing is for sure, literature won't cease to exist.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“What lies behind a smile”

azRein_ — 2019-02-16 19:15:15 UTC

Can you really tell when someone’s faking a smile?

Some people say that they can see it from a mile.

Though I don’t really believe that you could see something so guile;

I do believe that you could fake a smile for a little while.

A smile is interpreted as a simple sign of showing our cheerfulness.

But think about it for a second, is it really because of happiness?

Do we smile to show that we’re joyful or do we smile to hide our loneliness?

Do we smile to make others happy or simply to conceal our emptiness?

We all have different techniques and that’s why our smiles are so unique.

Some people’s smile might just be a smirk and some might reach a mountain’s peak.

This is why we should try to understand; do not just give harsh critiques.

And as an ending to this poem, remember these words that I’ll speak:

What lies behind a smile is a story we know nothing about.

It might come from the people who whisper or the people who shout.

Though the stories behind our smiles may have come from different routes,

We must bear in mind that we are all humans and try to reach out.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Pagkilala sa Tunay na Nararamdaman”

azRein_ — 2019-04-06 00:22:15 UTC

Ilang taon na nga ba ang nagdaan mula nang una kang makita?

Ang unang pagtagpo ng ating mga mata’y wala na sa gunita.

Pagkat ang paglipas ng panahon ay para bang isang kisapmata;

Napakabilis, kaya wala kang oras upang ito’y maipinta.

Ako ay nahulog sa iyo sa hindi inaasahang paraan.

Nabighani sa iyo ngunit hindi alam kung ano ang dahilan.

Lumipas ang mga buwan, inakala ko’y ‘yon na ang katapusan,

Ng pagtingin sa iyo na matatawag kong parte ng nakaraan.

Inakala ng pusong ito na matagal nang wala ang pagtingin.

Inakala na ang damdamin ko sa iyo’y tinangay na ng hangin;

Pero bakit nasasaktan ‘pag nakatingin sa iba at ‘di sa’kin?

Mali nga ba ang akala? Sa iyo’y mayroon pa nga bang damdamin?

‘Di ko man alam kung nahulog na muli o damdami’y ‘di nawala,

Alam ko sa sarili ko na kahit kailan ayaw kitang mawala.

Pagkat sa aking mga mata, ikaw ang namumukod tanging tala.

Mahal kita! Ito ay totoo kaya huwag ka nang mag-alala.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Leinier”

azRein_ — 2019-04-26 12:50:48 UTC

Nandito na naman at hindi mapakali, ‘di na alam kung ano ang dapat na gawin.

Nagsisisi sa kapahangasan; “Bakit nga ba kasi inamin sa’yo ang lihim na damdamin?”

Ang tanong sa sarili habang naninibugho pagkat ang pag-ibig mo’y kanya at ‘di akin.

May mali nga ba akong nagawa?

Bakit pakikitungo mo’y biglang nag-iba?

Nangyari ang kinatatakutan; naglaho na para bang bula,

Ang ikaw na minamahal ko, tila ba’y hindi ko na kilala.

Ito ba’y isang katha lamang ng aking isipan?

Isang panaginip lamang ba ang iyong paglisan?

Sadyang ako nga lang ba ang gumagawa ng dahilan,

Upang ang kirot sa pusong ito ay ‘di na maibsan.

Ang lumigaya ka lang naman ang tanging hangad ko.

Kahit pa ang yakap ng iba ang tanging gusto mo.

Pero sana ay dinggin mo ang hiling ko sa’yo,

Maaari bang muli mong tawagin gamit ang pangalan na ‘to?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Riding a Bike”

azRein_ — 2019-04-29 19:03:46 UTC

I like biking cause it takes me to different places.

Places with beautiful views; where I’d see new faces.

When I don’t like the presence of different forces;

It doesn’t matter where I go cause the scenery always changes.

I still remember that day when I went cycling with my granddad.

It was summer vacation that time, so it wasn’t all that bad.

My granddad was still strong back then, while I am a young lad.

We went cycling to Laguna bay and even for a minute, I never felt sad.

I miss seeing him ride his very own road racer.

I miss pedaling so hard in order to be faster.

I miss the time I smiled whenever I’m in the center

Of the road that I’m taking where I’m fast and I felt cooler.

Now that I’m a grown man and my granddad’s gone,

I can only reminisce the things that we’ve done.

How I fell from my bike and I still found it fun,

When I was riding on the countryside as I saw the setting sun.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Walking in the Rain”

azRein_ — 2019-04-30 10:43:18 UTC

Do you know why I love it whenever it rains?

It’s cause I can just stand there and hide away the pain.

Raindrops will fall down and cover my face.

No one will even notice that this boy cries always.

I can cry my heart out and no one would ever see

The fragile, ugly, and unsightly part of me.

I’ll be able to hide all the pain inside completely.

Just like how men shouldn’t cry; cause that’s how it should be.

The truth is, I never want other people to see me cry.

Cause I don’t want them giving their best just for them to try

Making me feel better when in fact I’ll just lie.

I’d say “I’m okay” even when I’m about to die.

So the next time you see me walking in the rain,

Please do not try to give me warmth just like a flame.

Cause that is the only time when I can put all the blame,

In myself for being such a weak person called lame.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“One Last Poem”

azRein_ — 2019-04-30 13:33:35 UTC

Lately I’ve been thinking, what if I sleep and never woke up?

What would happen if suddenly, my time in this world is up?

Would I still be able to see my friends, and do pranks and all those crap?

Or will I just fall into a beautiful world where I’ll forever nap?

I wrote this poem and a letter addressed to my family and friends

That would be sent by someone, if ever my life will suddenly end.

Cause I know that in this life given to us, we can never really defend

Ourselves against father time, cause with him we can never contend.

I want to thank everyone who was always by my side.

This has been a fun and a wild rollercoaster ride.

Thank you for being my guide in taking my different strides,

Even though I wasn’t able to show my sincere gratitude because of my pride.

So if ever this will be the last poem that I’ll ever write,

Please remember me even in the darkest nights.

Cause I will be the mighty knight that will guide you from a height.

I’ll help you in all of your fights; just look up to the sky and find my shining light.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Trust”

azRein_ — 2019-05-07 13:05:57 UTC

Have you ever trusted someone completely?

I did and now look where that got me.

What I once thought to be a very tiny secret,

Is now known by everybody who seeks it.

It’s not their fault for knowing it though.

I mean, it’s my fault for being such a dumb fellow.

I deceived myself that everything’s going to be okay.

But now, it seems that wherever I go everything else turns gray.

Looking back, I really messed up; so bad actually.

If only I learned from past mistakes done frequently,

Then I guess I wouldn’t be here sitting, looking so unsightly.

Cause now, I think I no longer have the capability to trust someone without having anxiety.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“What I Know”

azRein_ — 2019-05-08 15:59:29 UTC

What quality must be obtained to become someone trustworthy?

Is it honesty, integrity, or having a sense of morality?

Is it just a fundamental thing like how you sing the ABC’s?

Or is it something more complex that needs to be given more priority?

Trust is something given to us that we need to take care of in order for it not to rust.

Though people may break it sometimes, just remember that everything has a purpose.

Wounds will heal and we will eventually rise above the surface.

We will learn to trust again without getting really nervous.

Sometimes we might have impaired and clouded vision;

But we must see through the mist and follow the right direction.

We must always remember the true essence of education.

What’s important isn't the innovation but the

Heart with a good intention.

I might lack the prior knowledge to answer the questions that I asked you.

But what I know is that, I’ll continue doing the things I should do.

I’ll continue to respect, love, trust, have patience and be focused too.

As I grow to be the man I aspire; One with great attitude and core values.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Words not Spoken”

azRein_ — 2019-05-08 19:48:42 UTC

I can’t help it but wonder, “Does somebody even need me”?

How does it feel to be needed by someone? I don’t know cause I’m lonely.

I feel useless, unwanted, and forsaken by the ones that once loved me.

“I am so lonely. Someone please save me.” words not spoken cause it feels empty.

Why do people help you when it’s already too late?

“I love you. I need you.” Why didn’t you appreciate?

Where were those words that I wanted to hear when I felt the weight,

Of the world on my shoulders, when I experienced a tremendous ache.

“A hug was all I ever needed”, Why didn’t you hug me tightly?

“I just wanted you to tell me I’m important”, yet you answered me jokingly.

“I just wanted a shoulder to lean and cry on”, but you went away hastily.

“Please stay here and comfort me”, words I continued to scream internally.

People only care for something whenever it’s gone.

Just like in the endgame where you even care for your pawns.

While you’re still here, who will notice? Probably no one.

Cause the only time you get to hear the words you’ve been longing, is when your funeral is done.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“The Best thing about the Worst”

azRein_ — 2019-05-24 18:45:55 UTC

When people often ask, which batch is the worst?

It’d probably be ours that comes into mind first.

I mean, we really are the worst it’s like our batch is cursed.

But at the end of the day, I’d say everything they said is reversed.

Even though most of the time we end up having a strife,

I can’t imagine a better batch that could ever replace you all in my life.

I might have been a hotheaded and moody person, I’m not gonna lie.

But I’ll tell you honestly; The memories we’ve made are things money can’t buy.

Time will pass us by as we take our different chosen paths.

But I promise that I’ll never forget the memories and the maths.

All the times that we laughed, all the times we acted like brats;

Will be memories of gold, that will never be festered by rats.

So if someone ever tries to make my confidence burst.

I’ll just ignore them until everything’s dispersed.

Because without them knowing, this actually isn’t the first.

I now know that the best things happen when you are considered the worst.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Realizations at the top”

azRein_ — 2019-07-05 09:44:04 UTC

I never thought that this day would arrive so fast;

The day when I will smile and tear up whenever I’m asked,

About my life in Dubai which is now a thing of the past.

The day I will once again fly up and see the horizon and sky so vast.

As I will be cruising at a high 30,000 feet,

I will be looking outside the window just beside my seat.

Listening to music which certainly has a good beat,

While looking back at my experiences and looking forward to the people I’ll meet.

Seeing the view from up here makes me realize a few important things.

Like how huge this world really is and the countless possibilities that it brings.

It really is amazing, the power of our one and only King.

Our one and only God who is the supreme being.

So even though I may be moving 4,000 miles away,

I’ll never forget every lesson I’ve learned along the way.

And with this there’s nothing left for me to say,

But a friendly reminder to keep singing praises for the rest of our days!

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Nag-iisang Pangarap”

azRein_ — 2019-08-22 03:48:01 UTC

Ilang buwan na ang lumipas mula nang huli tayong nagkita.

Ngunit tanda ko pa rin ang mga salitang binanggit ng aking dila.

Ang huling pagtatagpo ng ating mga mata.

Tila ba’y di ko malimutan; naaalala pag pumikit na.

Hindi man kita ngayon araw-araw nakakausap,

Sapagkat mahirap abutin ang ating mga pangarap.

Lagi mong tatandaan na ika’y naaalala pag nangangarap.

Kasama ka sa panalangin ‘pag nakatingin sa alapaap.

Kaya kahit ang gawa kong ito’y wala na sa uso.

Sana’y pakinggan mo ang tibok ng yaring puso.

Ang huling apat na linyang kasama sa tulang ito,

Sana’y mabasa at ito’y tandaan mo.

Ang mga sinulat noong nakaraan,

Ang mga salitang aking binitawan,

Lahat ay gagawan ng paraan,

Upang ito’y maisakatuparan.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“The Mold of perfect imperfection”

azRein_ — 2019-09-02 13:15:45 UTC

As I grow older, I keep on looking for answers.

Answers to satisfy my hunger, for knowledge that keeps on getting bigger.

Answering the questions, about human imperfections,

Is the only thing that makes me understand society’s interactions.

“Why are we different from one another?”

Some of you might say to not even bother,

Asking this question to our mother and father

Without us knowing that it’s good for us to ponder.

Now I’ve come to understand the reason why we are born innocent and different.

I think it’s because our friends and families are being used as an instrument.

They are used as an instrument by our God who is omnipotent.

An instrument that will change us into someone magnificent.

They are the ones chosen to become the mold of perfect imperfection.

The mold that will shape us with God and lead us to the path of perfection.

So to end this poem, I would like to show my gratitude and affection;

To my family, friends, teachers, relatives, and our Almighty God that led me towards the best direction.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“New Year, Same You”

azRein_ — 2020-01-01 00:20:47 UTC

In a few more minutes, we will enter another new year.

Fireworks, noises, and greetings that are all pleasing to the ears;

Will once again surface while some people drink beer.

Though this might be the case, we can’t deny the fact that the future’s unclear.

The future scares me but it’s not my greatest fear.

It’s also not a matter of being far from home or near.

It’s actually failing to fulfill my promises to you, my dear;

That scares me the most and it also makes me tear.

I was so happy when I finally got to see you; After about 6 months of waiting to once again hug you.

“After all this time?”, they ask me, and the answer’s “Yes, I still do”.

Just like what I always told you, my feelings for you are true.

So even if I have to wait for a month, a year or even a decade;

I will continue waiting cause I’m no longer afraid.

I will always be here. I will never be swayed.

Cause now I’m certain that my love will never fade.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“The Man with Two Faces”

azRein_ — 2020-02-12 05:18:51 UTC

It is often said that there’re different sides to all stories.

What can I say, there are surely lots of different theories.

But for me, humans have faces that can be divided to two categories.

We all have two faces, one so beautiful and one so eerie.

Our first face is desirable, loved and admired by many.

We show this face to others when we do good things; also quite plenty.

Our other face is undesirable, unwanted, hated because it’s ugly.

Not physically but internally, just like stealing a single penny.

Human acts are what’s expected from us humans in our lifespan,

While acts of man are things that should be thrown into a trash can.

We must commit to the former, and the latter shouldn’t be a part of our plan;

If we really want to be a man with just a good face, one who is truly human.

So in order for us to live forever, we must be humans who are considered legendary.

Not financially or physically, but in leaving behind a good legacy.

We must do human acts which are all part of our destiny.

Human acts which are very different from acts of blasphemy.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Araw ng mga Puso”

azRein_ — 2020-02-14 02:49:31 UTC

“Bakit nga ba nagmamahal nang wagas ang ating puso?”

Ito ay isang hiwagang hanggang ngayo’y tinatanong ko.

Ito ba’y dahil lamang sa kadahilanang ito ang nauuso?

O baka nama’y naghahanap ng karamay ang pusong malapit nang sumuko?

Ang pag-ibig ay isang usapang hindi na panibago.

Tayong lahat ay umiirog ano man ang ating estado.

Mayaman man o mahirap tayong lahat ay pare-pareho.

Lahat tayo’y nagmamahal at nasasaktan, kaya’t patuloy na nagbabago.

Maraming mga nasugatan, nahirapan, nasaktan sa digmaan;

Kaya’t marami na rin ang tumigil sa pakikipagsapalaran.

Ayaw nang magmahal sapagkat ano nga ba ang kanilang laban?

Sino ba naman ang magnanais na muling maulit ang naranasan.

Pero bago ka sumuko, basahin mo muna ito ngayong ika-14 ng Pebrero.

‘Wag ka sanang matakot umibig pagkat ito’y natural sa’ting mga tao.

Sa mga magkasintahan ay huwag ka ring maninibugho,

Sapagkat balang araw ay dadating din ang taong magmamahal ng lubos sa iyo.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Wake-up call”

azRein_ — 2020-05-22 09:24:27 UTC

Did you ever wonder why we are living in a world so unfair?

In a world where those in power are the filthy ones that dare,

Lie to the people and pretend as if we are not aware

That they are the reason why our countries are in despair.

Now I know that there are still officials who really care.

There are still those who do their duty and apply the law fair and square.

They are the ones who love their country; trying not to get ensnared

By the vines of corruption that grows everywhere.

Though there might be corruption and injustice everywhere,

I know that there will be a new hope somewhere.

A new hope that will come and free us from this nightmare,

A new hope that will take care of this world’s true heir.

So for those who are still blinded and visually impaired,

By the lies of the corrupt I include you in my prayers.

I hope that one day you’ll wake up and you’ll be aware,

Before this corrupt system is way beyond repair.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Moment of Truth”

azRein_ — 2020-06-10 20:36:30 UTC

(Note: This poem is not the original version. This is just a copy based on how I remember the original one was written. This poem is also written ONLY AND ONLY for Karylle Lorraine M. Sarmiento and the literal context of this poem no longer applies today as the love I have for her now is just friendly love/ Philia)

I am guessing that right now, you are probably startled.

Because of how I revealed my feelings that were bottled.

Out of all the women I met, you’re the only one that sparkled.

You’re so pretty and gleeful; I can’t help it but feel so marveled.

I was still a part of the aspirants when I first met you.

You still had braces back then but I immediately liked you.

I don’t know what brought me to liking you then; this is the truth.

I was searching for the answers; but now I no longer do.

I no longer need the answers to all of my questions.

Cause I already found the answers through my confession.

I no longer mind if ever you will change your impression.

Because currently, loving you is my only intention.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Bibong”

azRein_ — 2020-06-10 20:49:57 UTC

(Note: This poem was written for Jabine Mackachi’s birthday. This was my birthday gift for her.)

To start this poem, I would like to say happy birthday!

I hope you are doing just fine, and that you are okay.

Even though it’s tiring, cause we have immersion today;

I hope that you’ll enjoy reading this poem that I made.

I never really thought that we would be very close friends.

I initially thought our friendship will reach a dead end.

What seemed to me as just a single game of mobile legends;

Turned our friendship to something that will never ever end.

Last year you were just an elite, while I’m a grandmaster.

Now I’m in epic, and you’re in the tier of grandmaster.

Even though sometimes our game ends up as a disaster;

You stuck by me and we got through the hurdles together.

Since I’m running out of rhymes, I will no longer prolong;

I wish you all the best and I know that you will be strong.

So once again, let me tell you “Happy Birthday Bibong!”;

Just remember I will be here whenever things go wrong.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

azRein_ — 2020-06-10 20:55:16 UTC

Haranang Tula

Verse 1:

Sisimulan ko ang kanta na ‘to, sa isang kwento

Na nagsasabi ng pagmamahal sa iyo

Mula nung nakita kita’y nagbago (may nagbago)

Ang buhay kong ito na dati’y magulo

Chorus:

Silipin ang laman ng aking puso (aking puso)

Ikaw lang ang tanging nasa puso’t isip ko

Mahal ko tandaan mo ang pangako (ang pangako)

Hindi ko hahayaang ito ay mapako.

Verse 2:

Wag mong iisipin na ako ay lalayo.

Nandito pa rin ako laging tapat sa iyo

Hihintayin kita hanggang sa dulo

‘Di kita pababayaan ito ay totoo

Repeat Chorus

Bridge: Rap

Ikaw lang ang mahal at wala nang iba

Ito ay totoo wag kang mag-alala

Sapagkat sa akin ika’y nag-iisa

Pinakamagandang bituin at tala

Ito na ang harana, ako ang may gawa

Inubos na ang lahat ng alam na tugma

Para lang bigyan ka ng magandang tula

Na nilagyan ko ng tono, ngayo’y naging kanta

Kaya tara na, mag-impake ka na at sumama

Isama mo na rin pati ang iyong pamilya

Tayo ay maglalakbay nang magkakasama

Tungo sa sarili nating buhay at tadhana

Final Chorus:
Piano

Silipin ang laman ng aking puso (aking puso)

Ikaw lang ang tanging nasa puso’t isip ko

Mahal ko tandaan mo ang pa-nga-ko

Hindi ko hahayaang ito ay mapako.

Forte

Silipin ang laman ng aking puso (aking puso)

Ikaw lang ang tanging nasa puso’t isip ko

Mahal ko tandaan mo ang pangako (ng aking puso)

Hindi ko hahayaang ito ay mapako.

Ngayon ay alam mo na ang laman ng puso

Sana ay mapansin mo ang pagtingin sa iyo

O giliw tandaan mo ang araw na ito

Damdamin ko sa yo’y hindi magbabago

Hindi magbabago

Ang pagtingin sa iyo

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“One of the first Heroes we’ve ever met”

azRein_ — 2020-06-20 11:53:12 UTC

When we hear the word hero, the first thing that comes to mind might be someone with lots of victories;

Because growing up as kids, we’ve watched lots of cartoons and superhero movies.

Growing up as students, we’ve been taught by our teachers about heroes from different countries.

So we sometimes forget our own heroes; our fathers, papas, tatays, dads, and daddies.

They are one of the first Heroes that we’ve ever met.

When we’re in trouble they run faster than a jet.

They work hard for our sake always breaking a sweat;

Just to ensure that we’re safe and that we’re all set.

They might not show their emotions and affection frequently;

But I know that they love us a hundred percent unconditionally.

And even though sometimes they get mad at us easily,

I know that they just want us to grow successfully and decently.

So as an ending to my poem, I would like to express my gratitude

To every father in the world who contributed with great magnitude,

In molding our minds, abilities, and of course our attitude.

Thank you for helping us reach a higher altitude.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Flow of Time”

azRein_ — 2020-10-22 17:16:57 UTC

I wonder why lots of people say that “time is gold”.

Do they value it that much because they’re growing old?

Is there something special about time that is currently untold?

Or is time considered gold because it’s something we cannot hold?

Everything’s included in what we call the flow of time.

It will never cease; not a single one can stop its climb.

Time continuously flows like a cool breeze affecting a wind chime;

Just like how time passes me by as I’m here thinking about rhymes.

Today marks the twentieth year of my existence in this earth.

Two decades full of adventures ever since my birth;

Two decades of searching, trying to find my worth.

Hoping that someday my potential will be unearthed.

So as I’m trying to find the things I call mine;

I hope that someday, our paths will once again intertwine.

Don’t fear the darkness of the unknown; for it’s where the brightest lights shine.

Keep pushing forward without regrets; for the flow of time is just a straight line.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“What seems to gleam really screams”

azRein_ — 2020-10-23 04:18:13 UTC

Do you know how hard it is to just shrug everything off;

Even when your whole world’s crumbling and you’ve had enough?

Everything feels heavy; but you’ve got to act tough.

Cause you might be criticized if you show that you’re soft.

I wish I could be a superhero who’ll get stronger no matter how many times I fall.

Someone who has no fears; able to stand proud and tall.

But I’m just a plain human being; waiting for people to hear my call.

A call for help when everything else fails after giving it my all.

Sometimes I want people to hear my deafening screams.

So that they may know whenever my pain reaches the extremes.

Cause it seems that the things they notice about me are nothing but memes.

Unable to see what seems to be an endless stream of nightmares instead of beautiful dreams.

So if ever you’ll read this clumsy poem of mine.

When someone’s asking for your help; please do not decline.

Help in any way you can before any of them cross the line.

For those who are great at hiding pain, are the ones who seem to shine.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“The test”

azRein_ — 2020-11-28 11:32:49 UTC

Why do some people choose not to do their best?

If you know the answer, go ahead be my guess.

It’s not because they fear that they will lose some rest.

It’s because they fear what lies ahead right after the test.

When you do your best and have nothing left to give,

You ask yourself; “Was it worth it or not? Do I have something to receive”?

If you succeed then you celebrate for you’ll get a nice life to live.

But if you fail and face defeat; you have nothing else to do but grieve.

Most people are only there when you reach the epitome of greatness.

They’ll stick like glue; congratulate you; and smile at you for your success.

But once you fall down, or even show a small sign of weakness,

They’ll leave you one by one, till you succumb to a never-ending loneliness.

So my advice for you is to find the people who’ll stick by you.

Find those people, who’ll always be loyal and those that are true.

For if you find them, you won’t need to worry about the failures you’ll do.

For you’ll always see the truth; you won’t have to feel so blue.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Unfading Legacy”

azRein_ — 2020-11-30 02:00:38 UTC

(Note: This poem was created at the request of a relative.)

This is a story of a judge who’s a lady.

One who has done great service to her country.

Her job description is never really easy.

But she stuck with this profession, till she became a retiree.

A person with no bias and is certain to be fair;

Are qualities of a judge who’s truly beyond compare.

Just like this lady deciding with absolute care;

In order to fight looming corruption everywhere.

Lots of cases to be solved, lots of decisions to be made;

Based on what was presented, proof and evidence that were laid.

This is the job of a judge who can’t be paid.

For what she wants ain’t fame or fortune, but a legacy that won’t fade.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“My Vow”

azRein_ — 2020-12-10 07:52:47 UTC

(Note: This poem-like vow was created as my finals requirement in Theology 3)

I pray to God to help me fulfill this vow that I’ll say to show what I feel.

Lord, please make these symbols define something real to show my sincere commitment; the embodiment of my will.

Let this watch be the symbol of my love and loyalty that’s true to remind me every time, why I chose to love you.

Let these headphones be the symbol of my patience with you to remind me of the melody in listening to your views.

Let this gold coin signify my commitment to our life, to remind me of the two phases that will await us, my wife.

I’ll always wear this watch and pray, so I’ll be able to go back to this day and recall these things I’ll say whenever our skies are gray to prevent this vow from being betrayed.

I will listen to these headphones whenever we’re feeling blue so that we can get through when we’re fighting and the only thing I do, is hurt you without me having a single clue.

I will keep this coin with me so that I won’t bend a knee when we cannot clear a huge debris because that’s how things are meant to be.

Please help us God as we go our way towards our life, these things I pray.

So to end this vow these words I’ll say: Until the end of my days, with you, I will stay.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Laman ng Panaginip”

azRein_ — 2021-01-31 03:16:25 UTC

Kay tagal na rin nating hindi nagkita, “nasa maayos na lagay ka pa kaya”?

Ito ang tanong sa sarili habang ang nakaraa’y paulit-ulit na ginugunita.

Naaalala ang mga salitang “Mahal kita.” na siyang binigkas ng yaring dila.

Kasama ng pangakong iniwan na ikaw lang at wala nang iba pa.

Sinulat ko ang tulang ito dahil ikaw ay nakita ko sa aking panaginip.

Muling naramdaman ang mahigpit mong yakap pati na rin ang dala nitong init.

Di pa rin nagbago ang pagtingin kahit ang hangin ay paulit-ulit na umiihip.

Ikaw pa rin ang palaging sa tuwina’y naiisip.

Bakit nga ba ngayon lang ulit, nasilayan ang iyong mga mata.

Sa panaginip kung saan, tayo’y muling magkasama habang yakap-yakap kita.

Sa panaginip kung saan, nasilayan ang iyong ngiting di mapantayan ng mga diwata.

Na biglaang nawala nang ako’y magising na daig pa nga ang bilis ng isang kisapmata.

Kaya kahit nasa Middle East ka man ngayon at magkalayo ang ating mundo.

Ako’y patuloy na umaasang tayo’y muling magtatagpo.

Pagdating ng araw at pag natupad na ang mga pangarap mo,

Nandito pa rin ako, maghihintay sa’yo o giliw ko.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Your Name”

azRein_ — 2021-07-25 12:03:13 UTC

Note: (This poem was created for Karylle Sarmiento whom I loved before. The literal context of this poem no longer applies today as the love I have for her now is just friendly love/ Philia)

I just want you to know that I will always love you.

Keep on smiling and always remember these words are true.

Amidst the fiercest storms I will stay and I’ll be your shelter too.

Reach out and take my hand; let go of you, I will never do.

You are the most beautiful person that I have ever met.

Loving and caring, how could I ever forget?

Loving and falling for you again is one thing I don’t regret.

Every moment I was with you feels like the most beautiful sunset.

Love waits. That’s what everybody says.

Our journey is just beginning but I know no one will ever replace.

Reiniel’s heart will no longer have any empty space.

Reiniel’s heart will be occupied by Karylle Lorraine always.

As you’re reading this poem; we have no more time together to spend.

In just a few more days, the airplane I’ll be in will start to ascend.

Now as an ending to my poem, I have one more message to extend.

Examine the poem again. Read the first line and then the first big letters till the end.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Time and Distance”

azRein_ — 2021-07-28 20:42:50 UTC

Why is it that saying goodbye, is one of the things we can’t get used to?

At least in my case, that always seem to be true.

Maybe it’s due to fear of the unknown or meeting someone new.

Or maybe it’s because if I do; I might end up losing you.

I dreamt of you again and it made me miss you even more.

I was worn out but then, dreaming of you energized me to the core.

The more time that I spent, the quicker I was kicked out of dreamland’s door.

And so, I hope that I can meet you when we finally see what our future has in store.

I want you to know that you’re still a part of my prayers.

I still remember the memories we had let alone your flair.

I can’t help but reminisce the past; the pictures that caught my stare

As I’m writing this poem, filled with the intention of making you aware.

That even though you might be more than 6,902 kilometers away from me.

Though we might be 4 hours apart and you’re at a place I cannot see.

We might be separated by a river, a lake, a bay, an ocean or a sea.

I want you to know that you’re always loved by me, wherever you may be.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“The end of the start”

azRein_ — 2021-08-02 07:28:46 UTC

Here I am staring, still patiently waiting for a reply

While I am out here thinking “why did I even try”?

All I can do is sigh while looking at the night sky.

Cause when I said that I was doing fine, it was actually just a lie.

I want you to know that you will always be my one and only.

Though you probably couldn’t feel it, cause I’m not very showy.

All I want is for you to be genuinely happy

Even if it might include a life without any ties with me.

I know that you are not just a beautiful and pretty lady.

I know that you don’t want to hurt the feelings of others badly.

But that’s exactly why I need an answer from you clearly.

So that I will know, If you no longer need me.

Don’t worry about hurting the feelings of this young guy.

Please tell me if you feel like I’m beginning to pry.

Tell me what’s in your heart so that I can start to cry or fly.

So that if you’ll end up hurting me, the healing can start as time passes by.

You must be tired of hearing and reading these poems oh so wordy.

But I want to tell you that even though we may end up having a different journey

Remember that you’ll always be a part of my prayers so don’t worry

Cause even if you might end up hurting me, you’re still the one I want to marry.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Adaptation”

azRein_ — 2021-08-12 05:57:56 UTC

I sometimes find it hard to believe in fairness and equality.

Cause it feels like some of the things we share are nothing but fake camaraderie.

Maybe it’s my fault since I do most things wholeheartedly,

That’s why I end up hurting myself when the things I do for others don’t even apply to me.

I’m also human like you, I just want that to be known.

To problems and negativities, I am definitely prone.

There’ll be difficult times when I feel like I can’t hold my own.

But I don’t need you to reciprocate, I just don’t want to be alone.

I thought I was an ambivert, but I’m introverted as far as personality tests tell.

And maybe that’s the reason why I never really wanted to impel.

I just pushed through by myself until all my problems began to quell.

It didn’t matter if I was alone, I just sang myself to death with music as my citadel.

When I opened up to others, It was a brand new feeling similar to euphoria.

I didn’t want to be alone again, I ended up having insomnia.

And now that I’m back to being alone, it seems hard to breathe I feel like I have diphtheria.

But don’t worry about me. In time, being by myself will no longer be a nausea.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Pieces of my Mind”

azRein_ — 2021-08-13 08:11:55 UTC

I still remember the first poem I ever wrote titled “Friends”.

It was just supposed to be an English project, but became a hobby during the weekends.

I just wanted a different way of being able to extend

The thoughts in my head that became said via paper and pen.

It’s been years since I first wrote messages that rhyme.

I’ve expressed my thoughts no matter what, even through changing clime.

I never ever stopped and continued through each passing time.

Now a few more lines are left as I’m writing my 50th, my prime.

As a parting gift to all of you who have been very kind,

My 50 written poems, to you I leave behind.

Every single one of these, contain pieces of my mind.

Take them. Cause though temporary, our lives were once intertwined.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Meant to be”

azRein_ — 2021-11-25 16:14:32 UTC

Do you know how it feels when your world starts crumbling?

It’s like fate is against you and you can’t do anything.

I’m not ready; my eyes are heavy; and in tears I’m drowning.

Can’t help but seek what is it I’m yearning.

Of all the poems I’ve ever written, this one’s one of a kind.

Though it’s not the first, I found myself; again in another bind.

Another thing that will continuously bother my mind,

Is devouring me whole; with no fix in sight that I can find.

“If only all of my problems past, present, future, can be solved by a little pill.

I will gladly take it, no matter what the deal.

If I can drink a magic potion that can wash away what I feel.

I will drink not minding its taste. I won’t even let a drop spill”.

Thoughts like this haunt me and it scares me intensely.

For I can only fall asleep and dream of peace vividly.

In dreams where time is frozen, as I fade into the night silently.

While I’m waiting eternally, for the so called “meant to be” that will happen eventually.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Creaking Tightrope”

azRein_ — 2022-03-18 02:03:13 UTC

Everyone hears the cries of the weak.

But when it’s the strong; unrecognizable shriek.

The higher they go, the louder the creak;

life’s staircase they’re climbing, that’s the magic trick.

They say that in life, you mustn’t be swayed

But when I look at the mirror, I can see that I’ve been played.

All the orders that were given, were successfully obeyed.

Only to be left alone in the dark and betrayed.

Lots of life decisions I wholeheartedly regret.

Mistakes that I wish I can simply forget.

For in this crazy world called Earth, I always tend to get

All the wrong answers to every single bet.

Though this might be the case, all hope is not lost.

I just need a little rest, just a slight pause.

For the battles up ahead must be won at all costs.

I will do whatever it takes, so that this tightrope I can cross.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Changing Timelines”

azRein_ — 2022-03-19 01:18:08 UTC

A thought came to mind as I was riding the bus.

If the past is modified, what would happen to us?

Would I still be riding this very same bus?

Or would it create a different timeline to discuss?

If we change the world, its people, and history;

Would it provide us with a different story?

Will we be able to remove pain and agony?

Everything’s uncertain and the answer’s a mystery.

Why am I called me and you are called you?

Why are we born in this world? I want to know what’s true.

There’re lots of questions I wish I have a clue,

As to how and why, words and answers I wish I knew.

This world always finds a way to bring a catastrophe.

Yet I’ll never give in; always trying not to become a casualty.

How I wish I could just easily escape the gravity.

And live in my own euphoric rhapsody.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“In Dreams of Reality”

azRein_ — 2022-03-19 02:42:02 UTC

Lately, I’ve been dreaming a lot about you.

I can’t help but wonder, do you dream about me too?

Well to be honest I know that this is not true,

Because think about somebody else, that’s what you would probably do.

It’s been almost 2 years, 2 months, and 23 days

Since I last saw you but I can still clearly see your face.

If the time we’re not together is just another race,

I would walk a thousand miles just to end this race at a faster pace.

But I know that we both have our own lives and dreams.

Our lives are even more complicated than it seems.

When I feel like my life is about to come apart at the seams,

I’ll just take a look at your photo and my day won’t be grim.

Nevertheless, I just want to say 我好想妳。

總是知道我愛妳。

When you need someone to talk to I’ll always be free.

Just call me and I promise, right here I will be.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Tragedy due to Gravity”

azRein_ — 2022-03-21 17:18:25 UTC

Why is it so hard for me to escape?

This space I am in, this static landscape.

It doesn’t even matter whether or not I’m in top shape,

For in this world I am living in, there are no heroes who wear capes.

We all know the story about Icarus’ wings.

He flew too close to the sun, not minding the danger that it brings.

To be close to the sun, he wanted; he clings.

That is why he fell and had to atone for his sins.

I am trying not to follow in Icarus’ path,

For I do not want to suffer from the Sun’s wrath.

I’ll have to resist the pull of gravity so that there’ll be no aftermath,

Because I do not want my blood to be my own bath.

If only he wasn’t attracted by the sunlight.

This tragedy due to gravity wouldn’t have come to light.

If only the sun wasn’t shining so bright,

Then maybe this knight, wouldn’t have fallen from a great height.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Mga tanong na pabulong”

azRein_ — 2022-03-23 04:00:41 UTC

Pasensya ka na at nasaktan na naman kita.

Gusto kong malaman mong di ito sinasadya o sinta.

Ngayo’y batid kong ito’y dala lamang ng selos at pag-aalala,

Pati na rin ng galit sa sarili pagkat di ako nauna sa kanya.

Sa dami ng mga tanong na sinabi nang pabulong.

Lahat ay di masabi at kinakailangan pa ng tulong.

Pagkat gusto ko man malaman ang sagot sa mga tanong,

Boses ay nakakulong, at tayong dalawa’y palaging urong-sulong.

Pero ano pa nga ba ang magagawa ngayong alam mo na ang lihim na damdamin?

Magbabago kaya ang pakikitungo mo sa akin?

Ngayong alam mo nang sayo’y matagal nang may pagtingin,

Huwag ka sanang magbago pagkat di naman kita pipilitin.

At sa pagtatapos ng tula kong ito,

Alam mo na kung paano nag-umpisa ang aking kwento,

Ikaw na ang bahalang magdugtong at magkumpleto.

Gaya ng palagi kong sinasabi, ako’y nandito’t maghihintay sa’yo hanggang sa makakaya ko.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Bangayan, suyuan; na naman?”

azRein_ — 2022-03-24 06:18:38 UTC

Bakit nga ba palagi na lang pangalawa?

Ang mundong ito ay parang wala yatang awa.

Pahingi naman ako ng kaunting pang-uunawa

Pagkat ang kirot na nararamdama’y parang naglalawa.

Di na napigilan ang pilit na tinatago

Pinapako ang sarili nabulag sa mga pangako

Sumugal ng paulit-ulit para sa minamahal ko

Ay isang bagay na di na maituturing na bago.

Pero bakit nga ba ikaw ay malabo

Kapag siya ay nandiyan ako’y tila bang abo.

Ang sakit makalimutan ng taong mahal mo

Ito ang nag-iisang bagay na di ko matanto

Ito na nga ba ang maituturing na katapusan

Ng pag-iibigang kailanma’y di pa nasimulan.

Ubos na ang lakas, araw-araw ang bangayan.

Nagsasawa nang lubusan sa walang katapusang suyuan.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Basta’t ikaw ay masaya”

azRein_ — 2022-03-25 03:29:28 UTC

Bakit nga ba ang hirap humindi sa iyo?

Ano na ba itong nararamdaman ko?

Kapag ika’y kasama niya, selos ay di naglalaho

Pero puso’y lalong kumikirot kapag ang mundo mo’y gumuguho.

Akala ko’y mas maayos kung relasyon niyo’y tutuldukan na.

Pero nang makita kitang umiiyak ay di ko kinaya.

Mas pipiliin ko pa palang, sumaya ka sa piling niya

Kaysa ang makita kang nasasaktan at lumuluha.

Gusto kong ikaw ay masaya kahit pa sa panaginip.

Makita kang masaya ang tanging hiling ng pusong sumisilip.

Ito’y hindi magbabago kahit pa ang hangin ay umihip.

Nandito ang ‘yong sandalan kaya huwag kang matakot umidlip.

Ito ba’y paghanga lamang o ito ba’y pag-ibig na?

Di pa rin sigurado pero isa lang ang ayaw magawa.

Ayaw kang masaktan dahil sa akin ika’y mahalaga.

Lahat ay gagawin para lang ika’y sumaya o sinta.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Sarmi”

azRein_ — 2022-04-01 13:49:03 UTC

Note: (This poem was created for Karylle Sarmiento whom I loved before. The literal context of this poem no longer applies today as the love I have for her now is just friendly love/ Philia)

Good evening Karylle! I hope you’re doing fine.

It’s now our graduation; it’s our turn, it’s our time to shine.

Know that I’m always here for you, and that other people’s words don’t define,

Your worth and so please remember these words of mine.

After graduation, I know that we’ll be miles apart.

But even though we will both depart,

Remember that if ever you’re in pain, I’m always here to heal your wounded heart

So always remember the memories, poems, and letters I will impart.

In just a few more moments, it will be the awaited showtime.

I’m gonna make this quick, since we’re running out of time.

I don’t know why but I believe that my feelings for you will last for a lifetime.

And so to close this poem, I’m gonna give you a few more words that rhyme.

No matter what happens, remember that you’re not ugly.

You’re the most beautiful; inside and out know that you are pretty.

I don’t care if you’re currently in a different city or country,

Just call me when you need me, I’ll be there for you, Love you Sarmi!

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Karylle Sarmiento”

azRein_ — 2022-04-01 13:50:28 UTC

Note: (This poem was created for Karylle Sarmiento whom I loved before. The literal context of this poem no longer applies today as the love I have for her now is just friendly love/ Philia)

I still remember that day when I first saw you.

It was a sunny day that time and the sky was blue.

Only a few had a crush on you back then, but I already knew;

I already knew that you’re the one for me, that’s what I felt true.

I imagined about you leaning onto my shoulders,

While we are traveling somewhere when we are older.

Our son will be driving, sitting next to his sister;

While we are next to each other, with our youngest that looks like Jasper.

Even though this is just my very own fiction,

It feels real to me because of my affection.

So even if this is just a figment of my imagination,

I will do whatever it takes to make it a nonfiction

And as time passes by, there will be growing trees.

We will wake up in bed and feel the morning breeze.

Then I will tell you as I lay on your knees;

“I love you 3000, My one and only Mantis.”

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Sa basurahan ‘pag di bag-o”

azRein_ — 2022-04-01 13:59:20 UTC

Paulit-ulit na naririnig mga masasakit na salita.

Na nanggaling mismo sa bibig ng iyong sinisinta.

Ayaw ipakita ang pagluha ng mga mata

Dahil ayaw kong ang sakit na ito’y iyong mahalata.

“Isama mo na rin ang iyong sarili sa basurahan”.

Sa iyong mga salita’y ito ang naramdaman.

Sa di malaman na dahilan ako’y iyong muling sinaktan.

Kaya napagpasyahan ng isipan na kailangan nang lumiban.

Pinagsisisihan ng lubos ang pag-amin ng damdamin

Pagkat bigla na lang nag-iba; pakikitungo mo sa akin.

Salitang iyong sinabi’y para bang iyong kinain.

Pagka’t ako’y lalong sinaksak, bagaman ayaw paluhain.

Kapag natupad ang iyong hiling, at naging bag na lang ako.

Pakiramda’y ko’y wala namang mangyayaring pagbabago.

Pagka’t ako’y palaging kasama mo, kagaya ng bag ko.

Na bigla na lang itatapon pag nasira at may nabiling bago.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Para sa’yo: Mahal ng mahal ko”

azRein_ — 2022-04-04 08:39:35 UTC

Di ko na alam kung paano pa sisimulan

Ang pagsulat ng tulang ‘to na alay sa kalawakan.

Patuloy na naliligaw; nahuhulog sa kawalan.

Pagkat kapag siya’y wala, dun ka lang nahahagkan.

Di ko itatanggi, masaya akong sa akin ka sumandal at nagpahinga.

Pero naalala ko bigla na ang dahilan ay dahil siya’y wala.

Kung siya ay naroon, malamang ako’y iyong binalewala.

Pagkat kayong dalawa’y magkasama’t masaya.

Alam kong siya lang naman ang iyong palaging hanap.

Pag wala’y malungkot; pag andiya’y nasa alapaap.

Di na kaya ng puso kong ito na magpanggap.

Makitang masaya ka sa piling niya’y di ko tanggap.

Kaya mayroon akong mensahe sa iyo.

Ito’y para sa’yo na mahal ng mahal ko.

Wag mo siyang paluluhain ulit pagkat masaya siya sa piling mo.

At kailanma’y di siya sumaya sa piling ko.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Be-For It’s too late”

azRein_ — 2022-04-14 16:52:16 UTC

Why is someone’s importance only known when they’re gone?

When the deed’s been done, and you realize they’re the one.

The one who’s been there all along, the one who gives you fun.

The one who loves you very much, the one considered to be your sun.

The one that can be called your one and only guardian angel,

Only needed to hear three words; words that only you can tell.

But now that the time’s up and you can hear the ringing of the bell.

You can only ask them to stay; unheard, so you start to yell.

If only you realized it a little bit sooner,

Maybe you would have reached him earlier.

But now that it’s too late; he’s gone, your lover.

“What could’ve been?” Are the words you start to utter.

Regret is the only thing that you’ll soon get.

When the day is over and the sun has set.

When he’s moved on and you’re in the rain soaking wet.

Looking for what’s gone; his feelings; he forgets.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Pangakong Panibago hanggang sa Sumuko ang Puso”

azRein_ — 2022-04-15 02:36:19 UTC

Binabawi ko na ang sinabi kong kailanma’y di ako susuko.

Pagkat ako’y tao; napapagod rin, kagaya mo.

Huwag sanang dumating yung araw na maramdaman mo

Yung nararamdaman ko ngayon, ito ang aking pagsamo.

Ipapako na ang pangako at ako’y gagawa ng panibago.

Ako’y maghihintay at magtitiis; hanggang sa makakaya ko.

Posibleng kayanin hanggang dulo, pero isa lamang ang alam ko.

Malapit nang sumuko ang pusong walang ibang nakamit kundi puro talo.

Di ko naman nais na ang laman ng isip at puso mo ay biglaang magbago.

Isang pagkakataon lang naman ang hangad ko; pero ito’y pinagkaila mo.

Marahil ito’y dahil di ako ang iyong gusto; di ako ang lalaking pinapangarap mo.

Kahit na ikaw yung kasama sa lahat ng mga pangarap ko.

Aminin mo man o hindi, alam kong wala akong puwang sa puso mo.

Naaalala mo lang naman ako kapag ako’y kailangan mo.

Ngayon ang tanong ko sa’yo bago matapos ang tulang ito,

“Kung ako yung nasa kalagayan niya noon, gagawin mo rin kaya sa akin yung sa kanya’y ginawa mo”?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Hinalang Tama; Tulang Patama (HTTP)”

azRein_ — 2022-04-18 20:36:35 UTC

Sabi ko na nga ba, di dapat pinagdudahan ang hinala.

Pagkat ito’y palaging tama; ito’y mensahe ng mga tala.

Naging malinaw na ang lahat, wala na ngang kailangan pa.

Nakuha na ang ebidensya, ang husgado’y nakapagpasya na.

Kailangan nang isuko ang matagal na ipinaglaban.

Binigay na ang lahat; subalit uuwing sugatan.

May mga bagay talagang di na dapat ipagpilitan.

Alam na ang dapat na gawin, yun ay ang paglisan sa digmaan.

Matalo man ngayon sa laban, ay di uuwing luhaan

Pagkat alam kong paglipas ng panahon ay lalabas din ang katotohanan.

Na ako yung taong iyong matagal nang kailangan,

Habang ikaw naman yung taong sa aki’y hindi kawalan.

Kaya sa pagtatapos ng tulang alay sa mga bituin.

Ang mga pangarap kong ito ay mag-isang susungkitin.

Maglalakbay ng mag-isa patungo sa sariling hardin;

Ako’y sasaya at ika’y magsisisi sa ginawa mo sa akin.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Panahong nakalaan para sa pag-iibigan”

azRein_ — 2022-04-21 14:07:43 UTC

Dito na lamang at magpaparinig

Ng kantang maglalahad ng aking tinig.

Sa malayo kung saan ako lang ang makakarinig,

Ng mga mensahe para sa aking iniibig.

Huwag kang mag-alala; sa’yoy kailanmay di ako magagalit.

Pero bilang respeto sa desisyon mo; ako’y di na lalapit.

Dito na lamang ako patuloy na aawit,

Di na itutuloy ang ginagawa, ang sarili’y di na ipipilit.

Di na lang itutuloy pagkat alam kong sa kanya’y wala akong laban.

Di hamak namang siya’y mas maitsura’t mas mayaman.

Kayang kaya niyang ibigay lahat ng iyong kailangan.

Habang ang pag-ibig kong ito lang ang sa’yo ay mailalaan.

Pero pag dumating yung panahon na ang puso mo’y wala nang laman,

At kung sa panahong iyo’y ang pag-ibig ko’y sa’yo pa rin nakalaan.

Wala nang kailangang dahilan; Gagawin ang lahat ng paraan.

Ika’y aking muling ipaglalaban, para tayo’y magmahalan at ang kamay mo’y mahagkan.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“The Constant Starlight”

azRein_ — 2022-04-27 16:44:16 UTC

It’s my fault for letting you fool me once.

But why did I keep on giving, chance after chance.

I can’t seem to maintain my amazing battle trance,

Whenever I was with you; whenever I took a glance.

Why was I always craving for your love and affection?

I really was a fool; now that I saw my own reflection.

I gave you everything I can give including all of my protection.

But it’s him who has your attention; that’s what your actions loudly mention.

“If only my feelings can be turned off with a switch…

If only unloving someone is something you can teach…

If only love is something that I can easily ditch…

If only your love for him is something that I can leech”.

Thoughts like these bugged me but currently, I am fine;

For I am no longer stuck in that bind.

I will continue to grind and search for the best path I can find.

Cause with or without you, the world won’t stop turning and the Sun will always shine.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Truthseekers”

azRein_ — 2022-05-05 06:30:25 UTC

We were living in a world full of bliss

But such a fragile thing, that’s what trust is.

With all the lies you were spouting; we can make a long list.

And the truth we’ve been seeking; blown away by the wind’s kiss.

There are no lies that will not be uncovered.

So just remain calm and do not be bothered.

For if you are truthful, you should not be faltered.

For you will be trusted and your legacy will be remembered.

So whenever in doubt, every time during elections,

I encourage you to give your full attention.

Remember that your vote can change the whole situation.

Our future will depend on your course of action.

For days will be dark and the future won’t be better

Until the truth finally wins, and all the liars start to shiver.

When that day comes, we’ll be your grim reaper.

Yours truly, the thoughts of truthseekers.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Nagan Mo”

azRein_ — 2022-05-07 12:37:34 UTC

(Note: This poem was made for Mae Antonette P. Recio who I liked before. The literal context of this poem no longer applies today as I no longer have any romantic feelings towards her)

Mayroon akong gustong aminin sa iyo.

Di ko na mapigilan ang nararamdaman kong ito.

Pilit man kitang iwasan, pagtitika ko’y paulit-ulit gumuguho.

Pagka’t ika’y mahal na; ito’y lalo lang lumalago.

Mahal kita! Mga salitang sayo’y di ko masabi.

Alam ko kasing ang puso mo; siya ang nagmamay-ari.

Ewan ko ba kung bakit; tila di ko mawari.

Ang gusto ko lamang ay makita ka palagi.

Ngayong alam mo na kung ano ang gustong iparating sa iyo.

Tanong ng aking isipa’y tatanggapin mo ba ito?

Oo o hindi lang naman ang magiging sagot mo.

Nawa’y maunawaan mo na ang pag-ibig ko’y totoo.

Explanasyo’y di na kailangan; sa akin ika’y nag-iisa.

Tanging sa’yo lamang nararamdaman ang gantong tuwa.

Tanggapin mo sana ang pag-ibig ko sinta.

Emosyo’y totoo kaya’t basahing muli; unang mga letra, ng bawat linya, magmula sa mahal kita.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

“Cutoff; Blastoff“

azRein_ — 2022-05-10 02:18:13 UTC

As of this very moment, I am definitely pissed.

You should prepare yourself for you will be dissed.

I have nothing more to say to you; just continue to hiss

For you will absolutely not be missed.

All the effort I exerted went down the drain.

You reaped the benefits of the sun while I perspired in the rain.

You didn’t even care how much I had to train

To get to that answer; how much I racked my brain.

You think that all of that comes from pure genius

But you don’t realize that those are the fruits of being serious.

You don’t even know how close I am to being delirious.

Cause you don’t give a damn; and that’s why I’m furious.

So don’t wonder if I’m about to cut you off.

For this time I’ll be the one who’s gonna scoff.

In my life, you’re considered as a castoff.

You’ll be sent to the void, prepare for your takeoff.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

Change in Silence

azRein_ — 2022-06-04 08:19:12 UTC

We all have a side that we don't want anyone to see.
Be it to our family and friends even relatives from across the sea.
But there will be times when I can show you for free,
I can show you right now, how cruel I can be.

They say that change is really the only constant.
Change is coming and it will soon run rampant.
Nowhere is safe, not even the strongest rampart
Can withstand this magnitude, for this is a destructive art.

I once thought that right here, I can become strong.
But now it's clear to me that I was completely wrong.
I once thought that right here, I can get along.
But now it's clear to me that I was wrong all along.

I've never been someone who relies on violence.
And I've never been known as one of great insolence.
But right now I can create my own inference.
Don't regret making me go quiet, for I can also live happily in silence.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Tulang nakalaan; isipang kinakabahan"

azRein_ — 2022-06-08 05:21:09 UTC

Ngayong linggong walang tigil ang ulan,
Hindi ko na alam kung paano sisimulan.
Ang ika 70 tula na aking lalagdaan,
Mga tulang pinag-isipan, oras ang naging puhunan.

Ang hirap mag-isip ng mga salitang bibitawan
Para lang makausap ang taong iyong gustong mahagkan.
Pagka't ako'y wala pa masyadong kaalaman.
Pagdating sa pag-ibig ako'y kulang sa karanasan.

Ilang ulit nagpabalik-balik hinahanap ang tamang paraan.
Para lang maging natural at ika'y di mabilisan.
Pagka't ako'y wala pang plano na ikaw ay ligawan.
Ang gusto ko lang naman ay makilala ka nang lubusan.

Bakit kahit sa pagsulat ng tula'y kinakabahan?
Ano na ba itong aking nararamdaman?
Akala ay simpleng paghanga lang naman
Pero bakit ikaw lang ang laman ng aking isipan?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Aking hangarin; nag-iisang damdamin"

azRein_ — 2022-06-09 16:26:08 UTC

Gusto kong malaman mo na 妳很可愛。
我想給妳多的愛，妳有問題我在。
Nandito lang ako; palagi mong kasabay.
Huwag ka nang matatakot, hawak ko ang iyong kamay.

Sana ang damdamin kong ito ay mapansin
Pagka't ika'y palaging kasama sa aking panalangin.
Kahit na ikaw ay wala sa aking paningin,
Ikaw at ikaw lang ang aking hahangarin.

Ito ang mga salitang sa'yo'y di ko pa masabi.
Mga salitang kailanma'y di mabigkas ng aking labi.
Pero tandaan mo na kahit anong mangyari, ako'y nandito nagbabakasakali,
Na ikaw na yung makakasama ko bawat araw at gabi.

At sa pagtatapos nitong bagong sulat na tula,
Na aking iaalay sa'yo, o aking tala.
Pinapangako kong ika'y di na muling luluha,
Pagka't ako'y wala ibang nais; kundi ikaw ay mapaligaya.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Apologies for being me"

azRein_ — 2022-06-12 12:26:22 UTC

It's been years since I've started making poems of my own.
Words in my head expressed through different means so that I can hone,
The foundations of my strength to survive being alone.
To avoid breaking down whenever I feel prone.

There are times when I feel like the whole world's against me.
Times when I feel like nothing's really meant to be.
Times when I want to escape and immediately break free.
Times when I close my eyes and just count from one to three.

I am the type of person who makes my own wall.
A wall so thick and tall that it seems unbreakable.
Though it may seem sturdy and impenetrable.
There is a hidden passage that leads to my wall's secret hole.

So for those who stayed with me through thick and thin.
Through my annoying phase and in times when I'm mean.
Sorry for the times that I went to you to lean
And thank you for staying with me even when things are grim.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Pag-ahon sa alon; Pagbangon sa balon"

azRein_ — 2022-06-13 06:23:10 UTC

Ang hirap magpanggap na walang pakialam.
Lalo na kung siya'y lubos mong nagustuhan.
Mas madali pang itago ang sikmurang kumakalam,
Kaysa ang malalim na nararamdaman.

Naiintindihan ko naman ang mga sinabi mo.
Kaya ako ngayo'y titigil at kusa nang lalayo.
Dahil gagawin ko ang lahat maibigay lang ang iyong gusto,
Kahit pa ang pagsunod nito'y masakit sa loob ko.

Sinubukan ko namang alayan ka ng mga rosas.
Sinubok magbigay ng perlas at maglaan ng aking oras.
Pero kahit ilang alas ang gamitin ko'y para bang malas.
Sa bubog ay naglalakad habang nakaposas at suot ang sapatos na walang swelas.

Pero kahit ganon ay naniniwalang dadating ang panahon
Na magiging ayos ang lahat kahit na ito'y di pa ngayon.
Muling aahon ang nalunod sa mga alon at sa balon.
Mas mataas na ang talon, susugal sa panibagong pagkakataon.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Sa pag-asa'y kumapit laban sa mundong mapanakit"

azRein_ — 2022-06-16 03:55:00 UTC

Ngayong gabing maliwanag ang buwan
At kasama kang nakatingin sa mga tala sa kalangitan.
Ang bawat sandali'y tila ba naging dahan-dahan
Kahit na hindi ako ang iyong nais na sandalan.

Masakit isipin na baka muling magkatotoo
Ang aking mga hinala at kutob tungkol sa'yo.
Ang mga isipin kong ito; kailanma'y di ako binigo.
Kaya naman ngayon palang ako'y nanghihina't nanlulumo.

Bakit ba kasi ganito ang mundo?
Kung sino pa ang gusto mo; siya ring mananakit sa'yo.
Ang masakit pa nga dito'y, kaibigan mo yata ang kanyang gusto.
Parang sinaksak ng patago; dumadanak ang dugo; di alam kung kailan ito hihinto.

Kaya sa mundong ito na mapanakit
Na punong-puno ng taong puro na lang lait
Kahit anong pait at pasakit ang aking masapit,
Ako'y mananatiling mabait; di titigil sa pag-awit; sa pag-asa ay kakapit nang paulit-ulit.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Sa tula at sa gawa"

azRein_ — 2022-06-25 00:10:40 UTC

Ngayon ako'y nandito nagsusulat habang pagod.
Nakatingin sa alapaap habang umiiyak ang mga tuhod.
Pero kahit na ganito; ako ngayo'y nalulugod.
Pagka't ang maliliit na hakbang ito'y lalaki pag ginawang buod.

Hindi ko man alam kung ano ang ating sasapitin
Sa paglipas ng panahon; ang tagumpay ba'y magiging atin?
Gayunpaman ika'y palaging susuportahan at ipapanalangin
Pagkat ikaw ay mahalaga para sa akin.

Kung alam mo lang na ikaw ang aking nais makapiling.
Na ikaw yung taong sa mga bituin ay aking hiling.
At kahit na anong mangyari ako'y mananatiling
Tapat sa iyo hanggang sa panahong tayo'y sa dulo dadating.

Kaya kahit anong hirap pa ang aking maranasan
Ito'y baliwala pagkat ika'y mahal na nang lubusan.
Ang pagsuyo sa iyo'y di basta-basta susukuan.
At sa panahong ika'y nanghihina ako'y nandito 'pag iyong kailangan.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"A Poet's Love Letter"

azRein_ — 2022-06-25 01:38:11 UTC

It's been some time since I last wrote a love letter.
I can say everything that I want; what could be better?
In letters and in poems; I don't care, I don't jitter.
Cause I don't need to think about what happens after.

I could sing for you for I know lots of different songs.
But I feel like some words just don't fit, they don't belong.
You might be wondering, what could possibly go wrong?
But whenever you're near me, I can never be this strong.

If I showed you that I'd do anything for you,
Will I be able to squeeze into your view?
If I prove to you that these words of mine are true,
Will you be able to learn to love me too?

Before I even got the courage to ask these questions I threw,
You already answered most of it, and you don't even have a clue.
And as a result my feelings for you just grew.
You've become my hue, days will never be blue, no matter what you do, I'll be there for you; for I truly love you...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"To: My Future Dream Come True"

azRein_ — 2022-07-04 15:55:00 UTC

Sometimes I wonder, when will you arrive?
For I can't seem to find you no matter how I strive.
Wherever I dive, wherever I drive, I can't seem to thrive.
Will a day ever come when I can feel your hug; a time when I'll feel revived?

I hope that wherever you may be; you're just doing fine.
Know that I'll wait for the day our paths will align.
Though I wish that there'll be some sort of sign,
From God to let me know you're the one destined to be mine.

So while I am waiting for the time of our romance.
Before I even get to take a look and have a glance
At you for the first time, I'll gladly take this chance
To leave this message for you in advance:

If you only knew how long I waited for you;
How you colored my world that was once blue,
How long I waited to hear the words "I love you too".
How I prayed for this dream, a you, that finally came true.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"A year that is new, for tomorrow's me and you"

azRein_ — 2022-12-31 09:34:37 UTC

It's that time of the year once again.
The start of a new year means the current's end.
New memories, new trends, new stories and friends;
New chances and opportunities; for what's broken to mend.

It's funny how wild of a journey this year is in rewind.
Lots of different binds; hills climbed, all of which contained steep inclines.
It somehow feels like the graph of sine and cosine.
At least to me, that's what I can consider mine.

I'm gonna admit, there were a lot of times when I cried like a child.
There were times when I felt everything's gonna fail no matter how hard I try.
I guess it's normal, I'm just that type of guy.
It's normal for everyone aiming for something high.

So before this year ends, let me be the first to say.
Time is indeed precious, so I won't delay.
Happy New Year everyone and enjoy your day.
For all of our happiness and dreams I pray.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Damdaming ilalatag pagkat 'di na naduduwag"

azRein_ — 2023-01-06 05:49:36 UTC

Nandito't nag-iisip habang nakaupo sa tren
Iniisip kung paano nga ba maisasalin
Ang mga salitang nais na maiparating
Mga salitang bibitawan na magsasaad ng aking damdamin.

'Di maipaliwanag ang saya na nadarama,
Magmula nang nakilala ka mundo'y para bang nag-iba.
Tuwing iniisip ka'y tila ba di mapigilang mapakanta,
'Di mawala ang ngiti sa labi pag ang reply mo'y nandiyan na.

Wag kang humingi ng paumanhin sa iyong kadaldalan.
Ang lahat ng yan ay tinuturing kong karangalan,
Nandito lang ako kahit pa ika'y matagalan,
Nakasuporta sa iyo; palagi mong masasandalan.

Ang mga pangyayaring to'y talaga bang nakakapagpabagabag.
Pagkat ako'y para bang barikada na biglaan mong nabuwag.
Sabihin mo lang sa akin kung sa kalooban mo'y labag
Ang mga dadaming at intensyon na aking ilalatag
Pagkat tanging hinahangad ng pusong nabihag
ay ang makita kang palaging panatag.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

PMA is the way for the rest of our days

azRein_ — 2023-01-06 16:42:06 UTC

Here I am writing for the third time this week.
Rhymes pop out of nowhere just like a magic trick.
As of writing I am tired and my knees are feeling weak
But that won't stop me from completing this poem that I seek.

The first week of the year has been sort of fun.
Last week of the semester; glad that it's finally done.
Chilling, singing, writing, and maybe cycling to see the setting sun?
Enjoying's my only plan before these days are long gone.

This is no time to be feeling lonely and down
Don't let challenges turn your smile into a frown
Maintain that PMA to retain your shining crown
Or that R will turn to L and you'll be the only clown.

Though it's just the beginning of this new year,
My wish is for you to be strong, my dear.
Lots of things can still happen, that much is clear.
But don't let the unknown overrun you with fear
For I am here with you; I will wipe away your tears.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"The heart remembers what the mind forgets"

azRein_ — 2023-02-01 03:06:45 UTC

Why did I dream of you after such a long time?
My mind must have been thinking for a dream so sublime.
Is dreaming about someone considered a crime?
Or are all dreams interconnected perhaps part of a systemic paradigm?

I thought I no longer have any romantic feelings for you.
But did I just trick my mind into thinking that this is what's true?
Is loving you deeply something I still do?
Or does dreaming about someone mean they're missing you too?

If I'm correct it's been around 3 years and 1 month since we last saw each other.
I don't know why I'm still counting, why do I still bother?
Are you still doing okay, do you still have no lover?
Why am I asking these questions, do I still love her?

It's useless to think about things I can't control.
So for now I will set course for a nearby goal.
I'll search for the missing pieces of my soul,
So that when I finally meet you again, I can face you whole.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Empathy; somehow it's killing me."

azRein_ — 2023-08-10 04:35:29 UTC

Do you know what happens to those who stay neutral?
They become so miserable, what remains? A life so dull.
They're the ones who'll get crushed when opposing forces clash.
When there's nothing but war, what remains? Dust and ash.

I always thought that empathy was the key to serenity.
But that's not the case when we're blinded by animosity.
When it's just you who empathize with the conflicting parties of the community.
You'll find yourself to be the first one to fatality.

I guess that ignorance really is the ultimate bliss.
For when ignorance is at peak; problems would cease to exist.
While the battles are nonstop and while everyone's making a fist,
I'll be the first to take shelter and find refuge in the mists.

So while waiting for everyone to obtain the word I call empathy,
I will be out of sight, observing so casually.
For when I am hidden; I guarantee my neutrality.
While protecting myself from the curse of humanity.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"From me to you; myself who is lost"

azRein_ — 2023-08-18 01:13:26 UTC

Lately I found myself thinking, what does the future hold?
Is it a bright future that will then be told?
Or is it a dark and lonely future in which I'll be left in the cold?
The only thing that's certain is that we'll know it as we grow old.

All of the experiences I've had serve as my stepping stone.
To push me further and further into the domain that is unknown.
In order for me to expand my zone,
I must venture alone and risk everything I call my own.

I've always been one to take all my chances.
That's why I have to live with all the consequences,
Of my actions that involved using my different senses,
Even if it means removing all of my defenses.

I know that I've done lots of things that are wrong.
I might have days when I feel like I don't belong.
There might be days when even singing a song and writing poems won't make me strong.
But when I feel like my search has been lifelong, I'll be able to hear the gong, and realize that you've been there all along.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

「我的每天，現在我的再見」

azRein_ — 2023-08-18 09:33:27 UTC

As the clock's hands move, I am ready to depart.
Ready to leave a place I hold deeply in my heart.
Just two years ago, I couldn't wait for the start
Of my student life here; a masterpiece, an art.

Lots of lessons and questions; add all of the banters.
Memories made thanks to us being together.
Some memories that could be better; some memories to treasure forever.
All of which made me stronger, and just a little bit wiser.

I couldn't finish this poem before leaving Taiwan.
But now I found the rhymes in order for this poem to be done.
Before time passes by; before these memories are long gone,
I will store them in my heart; forever drawn until the last dawn.

So even if problems continue to spring,
I will face them head on with the lessons I'll bring.
From all of my failures; which all hurt like a bee sting,
I'll spread my wings; in hope I'll cling; so that someday I'll be a successful king.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Maybe someday, somewhere, someway"

azRein_ — 2023-08-21 07:33:45 UTC

Now that it’s easy for us to talk with strangers,
Why did I get attached after just talking to her?
We don't feel the danger of strangers, for we feel understood by each other.
So my only regret, is that I didn't even get her number.

Just like how things quickly started,
It also became the speed how it ended.
I might not know the certain things that had happened,
But I hope you fulfill the goals you said when I listened.

You said some things that will forever be engraved in my mind.
Things that feel orchestrated and magnificently designed,
Just for me to hear those words cannot be explained nor defined.
For it was a moment I was happy with what I was able to find.

What's destined to be yours will be yours eventually.
So I'm not one bit doubtful of the things happening currently.
I may not know your name, for you speak to me so silently.
If secret; you're back. Then maybe, just maybe; our tracks again meeting, once more a possibility.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Ulan, ulan; ano ang 'yong dahilan?"

azRein_ — 2023-08-22 14:13:54 UTC

Ngayong gabing biglang umuulan nang malakas.
Nakatangan sa kalangitan inaantay ang pagwawakas.
Sa pagbuhos ng ulan; ako ba'y makakatakas?
O ako ba'y maaabutan at hindi makakalikas?

Buti na lang ay nakahanap pa ng silong,
Ako ngayo'y ligtas kahit walang dalang payong.
Pagkat di sapat ang mga panyo na nakapatong,
Sa aking ulo kaya’t ako'y humihingi ng tulong.

Napaisip tuloy kung bakit nga ba umuulan?
Bakit lumuluha ang langit, ano kaya ang dahilan?
Di ba kaya ang suliranin at kailangan ng sandalan?
O ito ba’y biyaya na para ang tagtuyot ay mapunan?

Ang daming mga katanungan habang inaantay ang pagtila.
Ako'y tila ba isang batang walang alam kaya’t nawawala.
Naghahanap ng gagabay, nakatitig sa mga tala.
Inaantay ang liwanag na ang bukas ay may dala.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"A lonely place I can't replace"

azRein_ — 2023-08-27 09:50:49 UTC

Why'd I wake up early to the tweeting of the birds?
Now I have some questions that I want to be heard.
Curiosities that gave me questions left unanswered;
A world that might crumble due to a single word.

I never really noticed but you’ve become my rest.
A place I can go to when I'm not in my best.
When everything's uncertain and I can only guess,
You're there to help me get through life's test.

But why is my mind boggled with uncertainty?
Hurt by the fact that things always aren't meant to be.
Always asking the questions, "Why can't it just be me?
What is it I'm lacking? What is it that I can't see"?

The rain is falling while tears run down my face.
Why can't sadness just go away and disappear without a trace?
I just want to escape into my very own space.
For I am forever situated in a dark and lonely place.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Do you? Taboo; do I have to lose you too?"

azRein_ — 2023-08-27 11:31:14 UTC

I don't really know where to begin; where to start.
So here I am writing, with words to impart.
Ever since I met you, my decisions haven't been smart.
Though you added color to my once called greyscale art.

So I don't know why my heart hurts so much.
Why I can barely breathe and why I need a crutch.
Why did you caress me with a gentle touch?
If you'll just break my heart, not one love as such.

I'm scared cause I feel like I'm slowly falling.
But it seems that for you there's nothing happening.
But can I blame you when you're just so lovable and charming?
When I don't even know what it is you're feeling?

If I would acknowledge these feelings as true,
It would be doing something society calls taboo.
I might lose everything and that includes you too.
Now I don't know what it is I'm supposed to do...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Tulang panghinaharap para sa nag-iisang pangarap"

azRein_ — 2023-08-27 18:21:40 UTC

O aking irog, kailan ka nga ba makikilala?
Kay tagal ko nang naghihintay; nananalangin sa mga tala.
Ikaw ba'y dumating na? Ilang beses nag-akala.
Pagkat sa piling ko'y wala ka pa; lahat ng iyon ay maling hinala.

Sumulat na sa Ingles ng tulang para sa'yo.
Nagbabakasakaling ito'y mababasa mo.
Ngayon nama'y Filipino na ang gagamitin ko,
Habang inaantay ang pag-ibig mong totoo.

Maaaring nakilala at nakita na kita noon.
Maaaring hindi lang tayo nagtagpo sa tamang panahon.
Ngayon ang tanging hiling ko sa ating Panginoon,
Ay protektahan ka niya saan ka man naroroon.

Kaya't lagi mong tatandaang mahal na mahal kita.
Kahit siguro ngayo'y may mahal ka pang iba.
Pagdating ng panahong tayo'y para sa isa't-isa.
Pangakong pag-ibig mo'y 'di pakakawalan na.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

「天氣；愛妳；永遠在這裡」

azRein_ — 2023-08-28 02:51:51 UTC

我正在寫九十號詩這個星期。
以後下雨有好的天氣。
如果我說愛妳，請不生氣。
雖然妳很遠，到那裡全部我會騎。

這是我初次寫詩用中文，
我可以明白漢語但是不是中國人。
我只寫用菲律賓語和英文，
所以不知道如果我中文對，往妳有很多試問。

妳最近怎麼樣?妳感覺很好嗎？
妳有很多問題嗎?
我永遠在這裡，妳的旁邊好吧。
叫我如果妳的世界很重，如果問題很大。

當然妳的快樂在我的榜首。
我永遠愛妳，永遠妳的朋友。
我每天有空如果妳要幫一雙手。
即使如果妳的愛，只他有，我沒有。

-♪∩¡ε∟♪ ｜裴瑞尼

"Hiling sa bulalakaw; para sa nag-iisang ikaw"

azRein_ — 2023-08-31 06:36:49 UTC

Paulit-ulit na tinatanong kailan mo nga ba mapapansin?
Ang mga sulat at mensahe kong tinangay na ng hangin.
Di mo ba naririnig, tibok ng puso't damdamin?
Di mo ba nakikita, mga titig ko at pagtingin?

Alam ko namang maraming nagkakagusto sa'yo.
Kaya siguro sa ngayon ika'y litong-lito.
Sa dami ng manliligaw, sino nga ba ang papansinin mo?
May panlaban ba ako bukod sa tula kong ito? Sana'y oo at ako na lang ang mapa sa'yo.

Pero bakit ngayo'y nagdadalawang isip sa nararamdaman?
Totoo bang ito'y pag-ibig o baka simpleng paghanga lang naman?
Pagmamahal na ba ito o kilig lang ang tanging laman?
Kung 'di man ikaw, hahandogan pa din ng isang kundiman.

Kaya kahit ang lahat ng ito'y hindi pa malinaw, ako'y hihiling sa mga bulalakaw.
Paninindigan ka pagka't ang nais ay ikaw.
Pupunan ko ang kulang; kung sa pagmamahal ika'y uhaw.
Para ang kongkreto mong pader at nagyeyelo mong puso'y dahan-dahan kong matunaw.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"The compass to bring you back to us"

azRein_ — 2023-09-01 05:33:56 UTC

Why is it hard for some people to just sit back and listen?
Even yelling doesn't work, did your hearts and ears harden?
Do we have no choice but to let certain things happen?
Will we be stuck here, can we escape the placed we're trapped in?

In school, they taught us the formula for stress.
Force over unit area, that's the answer; yes!
But why do some people force us and obsess,
Our supports who should help, are the ones who oppress, they can't even guess, why we're stuck in this mess.

So my message for all of you who feel suppressed.
I'm here for you always, you can talk to me and confess.
I will help you with things that you can't freely express.
For I am someone who can feel you, I want to help you reach success.

I promise to always listen, I am someone you can trust.
I will stay here beside you, I won't leave you in the dust.
If you ever feel lost, I will be your mighty compass.
I will be the one to bring you back on track to us.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"A nursed verse for a very special nurse"

azRein_ — 2023-09-03 01:56:26 UTC

It's been some time since I wrote a poem about you.
Know that I'm here for you, even if the whole world turns against you.
I still love you, I do; but now only as a friend who you can always talk to.
Know that I'm happy for you, so I'm writing a farewell poem for you too.

It feels like your chapter; in my life has come to a close.
I have no regrets and ill intentions; though I'm not the one you chose.
I'll forever be your friend; here if you need me in your highs or lows.
A mysterious future that awaits, only heaven knows.

Because of you I was able to love without wanting anything in return.
I was able to navigate love's unending twists and turns.
Loving myself is something I was able to learn.
Though incomplete; still, I am able to yearn.

Thanks to you I was able to face my fear of heights.
You helped me when I couldn't see what's wrong from right.
To never hurt someone by holding them too tight;
The one who made me realize, that there will always be light, though yesterday wasn't too bright.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Just about to be burnt-out"

azRein_ — 2023-09-08 14:45:15 UTC

I am once again so close to finally giving up.
Cause It seems that I'm the only one who doesn't know the setup.
And what's worse is that it stings like a hard breakup.
Though a grown-up; mind's made up; just a buildup, should I let up?

I don't know why things always don't work out for me.
Why do I find it hard, but for everyone it's too easy?
And those who've been blessed are the ones with the audacity,
To play with others' feelings, torturing a prisoner in captivity.

I've been waiting here patiently, maybe for far too long.
I don't even know what happened, don't know where things went wrong.
Will I still be able to continue? Do I still belong?
Or will I just sing a song for my heart that's no longer strong?

It's hard when you're drained and completely burnt-out.
I shouldn't have given my all, and went all-out.
Cause now that I'm in deep, I'm already being left out.
Don't know the route, have lots of doubts,
Now cast out instead of having a breakout.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Love's a gift to lift you from the rift"

azRein_ — 2023-09-08 17:53:12 UTC

A few days ago, some words made me awe-struck.
It definitely left a mark; words in my mind, now idly stuck.
Not putting these thoughts into writing, for me would really suck,
For words left unsaid begets regrets; unending bad luck.

"You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving".
A simplistic statement that can yield different meanings.
What's given could be anything, but cannot be without thinking.
For thoughtlessness, a sign, that conveys shallow feelings.

To give without loving, quite a noble gesture.
To love without failing, so smooth with no texture.
To fail without learning, unforeseeable future.
To learn without giving, loveless life without venture.

The best gift to give, without a doubt called forgiveness.
For give forgiveness, and receive healing from illness.
All kinds of hurt you'll avert, with promises of no relapses.
Then, be able to love with fullness; just goodness, not distress.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"心口；alam ko; love's scope"

azRein_ — 2023-09-09 17:52:50 UTC

雖然要睡覺，我感覺很好。
瑞尼在這裡，妳永遠可以叫。
看妳很開心，那個我只要。
如果妳傷心，那裡我會到。

Ang mga salitang ito lamang ang tanging alam ko.
Batid mo ba ang sinulat, alam mo ba ang tulang ito?
'Di kailangan pang mangamba pagkat paninindigan ang pangako.
Kapag ako'y kailangan mo, lingon lang; ako'y palaging nandito.

Because no matter what language may it be that I'll use,
There's only one message, in unison, they produce.
For feelings that are true, will never give an excuse.
And my love's scope knows no bounds, that I can deduce.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪ | 裴瑞尼

"Things to wonder before the slumber"

azRein_ — 2023-09-15 15:55:14 UTC

For the first time ever, I don't know what I need.
I don't know the next step, where does this door lead?
Are my instincts dulled? Did my superego suppress my id?
Or did I subconsciously decide, that for now, I'll concede?

It's been a long time since I started to look,
For the warmth I'm seeking; in every cranny, every nook.
Read all the advices written in every guide and book.
But why am I still gullible, why do I keep on getting juked?

"Good things come to those who wait".
But is this just a trickery, is this just a bait?
I'm starting to lose faith in this thing we call fate.
Stuck at the gate, is it too late? Now thinking I'm just bound to get irate.

Though tired I will still keep on pretending.
Pretend till I heal; till I find something.
Till I get the answers for the questions I'm asking,
I will be here sleeping, waiting, still longing.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Rain? Rein, why are you being drained?"

azRein_ — 2023-09-17 16:07:50 UTC

It's been 7 years since I started my hobby of writing.
Poems that I've written with the sole purpose of expressing
My feelings and thoughts that I'm not openly showing.
Now close to a hundred, one more today I'm adding.

There's something that soothes me, something about your voice.
It makes me feel wanted, so much I want to rejoice.
But it also makes me wonder, do you entertain other boys?
Am I just an option, or am I your chosen choice?

At this point in time, I'm tired of asking about why
It's a constant struggle between wanting to fly and wanting to die.
I'll lie and cry till my eyes are dry.
Though I try to fly high in the sky.

So as I'm waiting for the stoppage of the rain,
I'll train my brain to hide the pain and unlock the chain.
For this is the only way for me to remain sane.
In this indescribable reality, yours truly, Rein.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Overthinking; answer seeking"

azRein_ — 2023-09-19 19:15:50 UTC

It seems that once again, the heavens couldn't hold it in.
When it all feels heavy, on whom can I lean?
Repeating the questions, how have you been?
Are you fed up of me? Is your patience wearing thin?

It's very obvious I'm not, your fiancé nor your beau.
I'm not entitled to your time, this I do know.
But why do I feel this way, even though I don't have the right to do so?
Did I force you to lie low? Do I have to let you go?

No matter what I do, I always tend to overthink.
Even as I'm writing I can say I'm on the brink.
It's at times like this that I want to have a drink,
I want these thoughts to sink; am I easy to hoodwink?

It seems that all of these are unnecessary rambles.
Brought by the defeats in my countless gambles.
Will I be stuck in a maze of brambles?
Or are you the one destined to save my life that's in shambles?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"My Everyday's Highlight"

azRein_ — 2023-09-26 16:41:11 UTC

Note: This poem was made for Justine Chua whom I liked before. The literal meaning of this poem no longer applies today.

I didn’t know why I couldn't seem to find the starting line.
Like the stars in the night, you gave me light, for you brightly shine.
You came into my life then suddenly everything felt fine.
My feelings slowly grew so now my only wish is that you'll be mine.

Since this is the 100th poem that I'll write,
Justice must be served, so I'll write with all of my might.
Unknowingly, I looked forward to every day and night.
Slowly but surely you're becoming my highlight.

Time will tell if we're really meant to be.
I'm only hoping that the one you want to see is me.
No matter what happens, know that I'll listen to your plea.
Even if everything falls apart, I will stay loyal to thee.

Choosing to like you, albeit unplanned, couldn't be any better.
Happiness, I've found, with you as my shelter.
Unafraid to say that I want to be with you when we're older.
Allow me to give you the message of the bold words and letters.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Lost in Motion; no sense of direction"

azRein_ — 2023-09-27 07:23:38 UTC

Lately I've been feeling so exhausted; so low.
I feel the stagnation, in me there's no more growth.
It might not be obvious cause I don't want it to show.
But deep down it hurts, so much so when I'm alone.

Can't help but overthink, about things beyond my control
As I wander aimlessly, as I take my morning stroll.
I don't know where to go, don't know what's my role.
Where are the missing pieces of my soul? Will I be whole?

For the first time in my life, I've lost my sense of direction.
I don't even know if I'll ever find the solution.
This bind that I'm in, an undesirable situation.
A crumbling platform, I might fall into oblivion.

So if you see me walking, just listening to my headphones,
Know that sometimes, I too hate being alone.
For every moment of mine where strength is clearly shown,
Lies a vulnerable side, that's considered my weakest zone.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Kalupaan, karagatan, kalangitan; kahit saan"

azRein_ — 2023-10-05 18:07:26 UTC

Hindi ko alam kung bakit sobra-sobra ang sakit.
'Di na malaman ang sagot at pilit tinatanong kung bakit
Muling nandirito at nararanasan ang pait.
Ang kahapong mapanglait, muli-muli ay umuulit, tila ba'y gustong ubusin ang natitira kong bait.

Akala ko'y alam ko na ang sagot sa mga tanong ko.
Umasa sa mga salitang lumabas sa bibig mo.
Pero bakit ngayo'y lahat ng iyon ay parang naging abo?
Ako'y litong-lito, hindi ko mapagtanto, saan nga ba tutungo, kailangan bang sumuko?

Hindi na mapigilan ang sarili sa pag-iyak.
Ang pusong humilom ay parang muling nabiyak.
'Di ko mapigilan, patuloy lang ang pagpatak
Ng mga luha kong ito, kasabay ng aking bawat yapak.

Gayunpaman ay umaasang lahat ng ito'y maiibsan.
Ang mga sugat ay hihilom, di ko man alam kung kailan.
May tiwala sa sarili, upang hanapin ang daan.
Patungo sa'yo, aking inaasam-asam, kahit
saan.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Repeat, this I'll do; if it's you that I'll meet"

azRein_ — 2023-10-06 04:13:14 UTC

When will this pain eventually subside?
It's been hours since I felt this way; hours since I cried.
It seems that once again, my wishes have been denied.
Queries to be made, undone cause I'm terrified.

If what you said was about me, Oh, heaven it will be.
If not, on bended knee, for hell I can see.
Who am I? Jealousy; That's my name to thee.
Since nothing's free and you might flee, might as well destroy my heart's key.

For the words of affirmation, I desperately wanted to hear.
Maybe the only solution, to you not being here.
If only I have a concoction to make all the problems disappear,
I'll go through any harsh condition, just to be with you, my dear.

Cause even if I'm tired of my countless defeats,
I'll do it over again, I'll do everything in repeat.
I'll repeat all defeats without missing a single beat,
If it means that in the end, it will be you who I'll meet.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Paano na 'ko, 'pag pangako'y napako?"

azRein_ — 2023-10-06 06:26:21 UTC

Sana'y ang lahat ng ito’y panaginip lang.
Sana'y paggising, ako'y di pa marunong magbilang.
Isang batang walang kaalam-alam, isang batang walang kamuang-muang.
Isang batang ang tanging alam ay kanyang pangalan lamang.

Kay raming panahong ginusto ko nang sumuko.
Ang bigat na ito'y hanggang kailan kailangang itago?
Sino ba ang matatakbuhan, kung walang nakakarinig sa sigaw ko?
Yung akala mo'y kakampi mo, sila pang nagbibingi-bingihan sa'yo.

Pagdating sa dulo, walang kasama kundi ang sarili.
'Di dapat naniwala sa mga nangakong mananatili.
Dahil ang katotohanan ay palaging, sarili lang ang pinipili.
At ang pagsisisi'y palaging natatagpuan sa huli.

Kaya ang payo ko sa'yo bago matapos ang tulang ito.
Mahalin ang iyong sarili, higit sa lahat, buong-buo.
Huwag umasa sa mga pangakong binigay nitong mundo,
Nang hindi ka matulad, sa may likha nito, ako.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Completely ensnared, a love now declared"

azRein_ — 2023-10-09 11:17:38 UTC

A thought came to mind after all of these events.
If there's any other; what your words and actions meant.
I'm not demanding reciprocation, for all the love that I've sent.
That's the only certain, where even constants can be bent.

I have no right to your actions, for it's out of my zone
But I do have the right, to be responsible with my own.
For love is a two-way street; I can't go in this alone.
So I'm just waiting for you, 'till your feelings are clearly known.

Cause as time passes us by, I find myself falling further and further.
To me, there's just me and you, and to me, there's no other.
I don't ever want to be a huge boulder on your shoulder,
I only want to be here for you, never wanting to bother.

And in seeing you sick, I'm so close to despair.
It pains me that I'm far, and not close to you there.
Can only voice my concern, but not show how much I care.
Though you're always in my prayer, it somehow feels unfair, and it's giving me a scare, when someone even dares, to make your world tear, as if they're not aware, that to you no one can compare.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Bangon, padayon; panahon, puhon"

azRein_ — 2023-10-11 08:48:00 UTC

Ngayong pakiramdam mo'y kalaban mo ang buong mundo.
Ako'y nandirito, sumandal ka lang sa balikat ko.
Saan man ako patungo, kahit ako ma'y nasa malayo.
Ang mga pangakong ito, umasa kang paninindigan ko.

Habang tumatagal ay lalo akong nahuhulog sa
Iyo, o aking giliw, sa'yo aking prinsesa.
Di pa rin maipaliwanag, ang kaba na nadarama.
Kapag ika'y nandiyan na, at kapiling ko sinta.

Kaya bago matapos ang tulang para sa'yo.
Sana'y tanggapin mo ang pag-ibig na alay ko.
At sa tuwing ikaw ay nanghihina't nanlulumo,
Tandaan ang mga salitang kasunod na sasabihin ko.

Kung malakas ang mga alon, ako'y iyong matibay na pundasyon.
Problema'y gagawan ng aksyon, bago mag dapithapon.
Ano man ang panahon, saan ka man naroroon.
Tuloy lang tayo, padayon; biyaya'y patungo, puhon.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"A month that has passed, a love that will last"

azRein_ — 2023-10-12 07:12:24 UTC

It's been a month since we started talking to each other.
I was immediately attracted though you were still a stranger.
Albeit unplanned, you changed my days for the better.
Now my only wish is that, you'll let me be your only lover.

Your eyes are like the stars, for they constantly sparkle.
Your skin so soft and smooth, like the most pretigious of marbles.
Unexplainable as it seems, I can't help but to marvel.
I don't ever want you to leave just because I made you startled.

I know that no matter what, I will be here to endure
The pain that I might go through for you're my only cure.
These genuine feelings of mine, always pure.
Want to be with you 'till we're older, of that I'm sure.

For with you by my side, I could go on for days
Without doing anything but just stare at your face.
To hold you in my arms, I can think of many ways.
The only question to answer is, will you go with me to the next phase?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Healing is coming, just keep on believing"

azRein_ — 2023-10-17 15:23:36 UTC

There are and will be times when we're gonna be burdened.
Times when we feel the weight, times when we're overwhelmed.
By the problems that surface, all of which never end.
When we're broken into pieces and feel like we'll never mend.

We question why these certain things have to happen?
Why can't all of our moments, just be bright and golden?
Why do we have to experience, living in a land so barren?
We become scared of being hurt, hence stop loving, heart will harden.

We put up walls around us, and we wish to isolate.
Without us realising that it's the reason why we're desolate.
But know that God is out there, He will always wait.
He'll never leave us in a bad state, for He will always set things straight.

When we feel that everyone around us isn't listening,
When we feel that our world, is slowly crumbling,
Know that He's there, preparing for everything.
Healing is coming, just keep on believing.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Maaari bang malaman, ano ang 'yong dahilan"

azRein_ — 2023-10-17 16:45:23 UTC

Bakit biglaan ang iyong naging paglisan?
Ano ba ang nagawa, maaari bang malaman ang dahilan?
Bakit padalos-dalos ang desisyong ako'y iwanan?
Pagkatapos mong iangat, iniwan sa ereng luhaan.

Sadya kayang mapaglaro ang tadhana?
Nagdasal na ang pinangarap, ay ikaw na sana.
Pero nalaman ko na lamang, na ikaw pala'y sawa na.
Bigkas ng mga labi'y "Ako'y patawarin mo, tumigil ka na".

Ako'y lubos na nasaktan, walang tigil na sinasaksak.
Ng mga salitang iyong binitawan, walang humpay ang pagsapak.
Ang mga mata'y luhaan, di na mapigilan ang pagpatak.
Malapit na ang kaarawan, ngunit luha'y di dahil sa galak.

Akala'y anuman ang mangyari, magiging matatag tayo.
Ngunit ikaw pala'y bumitaw na, at pinili nang sumuko.
Gayunpaman ika'y mananatili sa puso ko.
Nais kong malaman mo, Ikaw pa rin ang mahal ko, saan ka man patungo...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Liham para sa nag-iisang prinsesa"

azRein_ — 2023-10-18 08:59:25 UTC

Ang buong akala ko'y gusto mo rin ako.
Nangarap na ako sana ang taong sa iyo ay bubuo.
"Snow, paki-alagaan mo palagi ang mommy mo".
Habang 'di pa dumadating yung taong mag-aalaga sa inyo.

Kayo'y parte na ng buhay ko bagamat panandalian.
May mga bagay lang talaga na 'di na dapat ipagpilitan.
Ano man ang mangyari, kayo'y laging nasa aking isipan.
Ala-ala'y iingatan, hanggang sa dulo ng panahong nakalaan.

Prinsesa ko, lagi mong tatandaan ang mga salita kong ito.
Gusto ko lang ay lumigaya ka, kahit 'di iyon sa piling ko.
Sana'y huwag kang paluhain ng taong mamahalin mo.
Pagka't ang iyong pagkalumbay, ang pinaka-ayaw ko.

'Di ko man alam kung hanggang kailan kita mamahalin,
Ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo'y sa lahat ng lengguwahe maisasalin.
'Di man maituturing ang hinaharap para sa atin.
Lagi mong tatandaan, na ika'y mahal sa akin.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Hindi na hihinto, hanggang sa bagong yugto."

azRein_ — 2023-10-18 09:02:23 UTC

Kinaya kong mabuhay noon kahit na wala ka.
Nang dumating ka'y biglang nagbago, pamumuhay ko'y nag-iba.
Ngayong ika'y umalis na, naglaho parang bula.
Matatagalan ang paghilom, ngunit babalik din ang sigla.

Sa isang iglap lang, nalunod na sa kalungkutan.
Iniisip ko na lamang, lirika ng kantang napakinggan.
Ang mga salitang "Lahat ng bagay ay may dahilan".
Walang panlilinlang, ang mga 'toy katotohanan.

Na 'di man ako yung taong nakalaan para sa'yo.
Sana'y masaya ka nasaan ka man sa mundo.
Salamat sa mga magagandang ala-ala mo.
Kahit pa ang pag-alala'y masaklap, o sinta ko.

At kung may pagkakataong, ulitin ang lahat ng ito.
Wala akong babaguhin, alam ko man ang huling kapitulo.
Pagka't ang pagmamahal sa iyo kailanma'y
'di ko tinuring na laro.
Kung muli mang magkita, sana'y naghilom na ang puso.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Isang mensahe para sa umibig at nasaktan"

azRein_ — 2023-10-21 13:37:10 UTC

Lagi mong tatandaang 'di naging mali ang magmahal
Nang wagas at buo, kahit sabihing ika'y hangal.
Sadyang may mga bagay lang, 'di tinadhana ng maykapal.
Kaya marahil 'di lahat ng bagay ay nagtatagal.

Kay tagal inayos ang pusong paulit-ulit na nasaktan.
Muling sumubok sa pag-ibig, muling bigo at sugatan.
Kung gaano katagal naghilom mula sa nakaraan,
Ganon din kabilis muling iniwang luhaan.

Bakit ba paulit-ulit tila wala itong katapusan?
Ginawa naman lahat 'wag lang magawi sa dating naging daan.
Sinubukan lahat ng paraan, ginamit lahat ng kaalaman.
Pero bakit muling nahihirapan at nandito na naman?

Habang buhay bang ganito ito ba'y ating kapalaran?
Ang sagot dito'y hindi, may maganda tayong kinabukasan.
Marahil ito'y 'di pa sa ngayon, sa di alam na kadahilanan.
Huwag mo lang kalilimutan, may tamang taong sa ati'y nakalaan...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"A new realization after a short vacation"

azRein_ — 2023-11-03 08:55:36 UTC

Often times we find ourselves locked in our own bubble.
Always trying to achieve something like what happened with Hubble.
But by simply trying too hard; we'll find ourselves stuck in the rubble.
And the key to avoiding trouble, is through us being subtle.

So when we find our whole world beginning to crumble,
And our problems never cease, yet they seemingly double.
Don't be afraid to ask for help; don't forget to stay humble.
For breakthroughs arrive to those who often stumble.

Don't be afraid to go on another getaway.
Go on an adventure; go somewhere far away.
The lessons, hardships, and memories will stay.
Hold onto hope and you'll get through every night and day.

And as I bring yet another poem to a close.
Remember nothing's constant, everything comes and goes.
All will come to pass, even the lowest of lows.
For His plans for us are far greater than the things we desire most.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Heart that stopped beating, finally finished healing"

azRein_ — 2023-11-21 10:28:06 UTC

It's been a while since the day fated; since the day that you departed.
Just like how fast we met and started, that's how things quickly ended.
Just because I was so enchanted, you took my feelings for granted.
I'm used to being broken-hearted, but I was still hurt by the words you imparted.

This heart that stopped beating, finally finished healing.
The endless nights of crying, finally came crashing.
I thought I was done trying; I thought nothing could stop the bleeding.
But now I'm not denying, even the coldest nights I'm surviving.

Nothing can stop this head full of dreams.
Lots of wishes to fulfill, willing to exceed the extremes.
Now brimming with determination; confidence bursting at the seams.
This is the found answer. This is what my heart screams.

And as I continue my adventure at this height.
A new realization, I found in this new sight.
No longer afraid to soar and take flight,
For what shines in the darkness, is the starlight shining so bright.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Restart then depart"

azRein_ — 2023-11-24 11:25:57 UTC

Lately I've been thinking, why don't I feel the tremendous pressure?
Lots of things to do but I find myself, prioritizing time spent in leisure.
Unmotivated to do things I have to, always searching for an adventure.
Just wanted to feel the pleasure; wanting to search for the next treasure.

I'm ashamed cause I know about the things that I must do,
But was unable to do so, cause I've been searching for something new.
I've been searching for something, and I think I found it by looking at you.
It's all thanks to you; for you're the one who gave me the clue.

I was lost because I was too focused looking at the "now".
Too focused on the present that I forgot the word "how".
How can I reach my dreams? How can I fulfill my vow?
Now aware of my faults, slacking off is something I'll no longer allow.

I can once again endure the endless calculations.
For you've given me the newest key to my ignition.
I think that I've found, one of the correct solutions.
Though it's unbeknownst to you, my newfound inspiration.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Keep moving forward"

azRein_ — 2023-11-26 14:15:13 UTC

In times when we find ourselves stuck in the past,
hoping to go back in time, to undo the mistakes that were sure to last.
Just to go back to that moment when our choices were considered vast.
Just to lessen the losses our decisions have amassed.

What else can we do but to keep moving forward?
It's better than feigning ignorance and running away like a coward.
Saying sorry for our mistakes to avoid being devoured
By our regrets is the conclusion I came to when I scoured.

I'm sorry for my actions that made the irreparable crack.
I know this is overdue but, sadly we can't go back.
If only I had another chance, regrets probably won't stack.
So allow me to ask forgiveness; allow me to take the flak.

And if the opportunity to start over should ever arise.
Let us all take that chance, that is my one advice.
For moments like these are fleeting; time flies.
Wipe the tears of our eyes, and take the chance to get the prize.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Bakit"

azRein_ — 2023-11-30 15:12:53 UTC

Sa isang pagkakataon, inisip kong ayos lang ang managinip.
Pero lahat pala ng ito'y katha lamang ng aking isip.
Inakalang may bagong pag-asang biglaang sumilip,
Pero lahat ay naging abo at tinangay ng hanging umiihip.

Bakit ba ang pagbitaw ay parang napakahirap?
Lalo lang nasasaktan sa aking bawat pagkurap.
'Di na alam kung may mukha pa akong maihaharap,
Pagka't lahat ay malabo pati na rin ang hinaharap.

Sa bawat segundo at minutong lumilipas,
Tibok ng yaring puso'y bumibilis kasabay ang bawat kumpas.
Ano ba ang dahilan, bakit damdamin ay lumalakas?
Imbis na magwakas, ang kinalabasa'y naging wagas.

Bakit ba sa pagtingin mo tila ako'y uhaw na uhaw?
Bakit sa bawat pagtulog, ang panaginip ay ikaw?
Ano ba ang kinahumalingan sa mga kilos mong pahapyaw?
At hanggang ngayon pagdating sayo, buong pagkatao'y nalulusaw.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Alone"

azRein_ — 2023-12-01 03:13:43 UTC

It's at times like these, when I want to unendingly yell.
I want to throw every rock, every pebble, every seashell.
Such are the times when I consider this life hell.
Times I want to disappear without a trace, to be alone, I can tell.

I'm already beyond my limit, I no longer want to lend a helping hand.
Cause when I'm the one in desperation, I'm all alone when I stand.
I'm tired of always giving, this life is so bland.
Always there to listen, no one to soften the fall when I land.

Every listener needs someone who listens too.
Every helping hand, wants help too cause this is true;
In this short and crazy thing called life, being alone is something you can't do.
Yet alone is all I own, without you? There's nothing new.

It's at times like these when I am one with the darkness.
Times when I'm tested, times when I'm in my lowest.
But ironically it's at my lowest that I can fully show my prowess.
The strength in being alone, is now shown to be the strongest.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Hanggang"

azRein_ — 2023-12-01 06:39:28 UTC

Minsa'y napapaisip ng mga tanong na nag-uumpisa sa hanggan.
Hanggang kailan ba maghihintay para lang ika'y mahagkan?
Hanggang kailan kakayaning pigilan ang pusong 'di ka kayang iwasan?
Bakit 'di pa rin sumasang-ayon? Tadhana yata'y tampalasan.

Sadyang ako nga lang ba ang siyang nagmamadali?
'Di makapag-antay pagka't natatakot na sayo'y lahat maging huli.
Bakit ba sa paglipas ng mga araw ako'y 'di na mapakali?
Bakit 'di na mapigilan ang pagtinging pilit ikinukubli?

Bakit ba ayaw tumigil, at gustong-gustong ipilit?
Ang unang beses na nakita ka'y aking laging inuulit-ulit.
Sa iyo lang naging makulit, ang ako na 'di marunong humirit.
At tuwing nakikita ka'y 'di mapigilang ngumiti at umawit.

Ngayon ang mga tanong sa pagtatapos ng tulang ito,
Hanggang kailan kaya magtatagal ang nararamdaman ko?
Matututunan kaya ng puso ang salitang pagsuko?
O kakapit hanggang walang hanggan ay marating ko sa dulo?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Sa aking gunita"

azRein_ — 2023-12-01 13:33:45 UTC

Habang aking isinusulat ang ngayo'y pang-apat,
Na tula sa isang araw, 'di na alam kung nararapat.
Kahit pagsamahin ang lahat, ng mga tula ko'y 'di sapat.
Upang ipahayag ang damdaming palaging sayo ay tapat.

O kay raming mga salitang gustong sa'yo ay sabihin,
Pagka't nabihag ang damdamin, at tuluyang naging alipin.
Gustong lamang silipin ang mga ngiti mong mahinhin.
Pagka't sa'yo lang may pagtingin, ano man ang ihip ng hangin.

Sinabi sa sariling mananatili na lang sa gilid.
Pero 'di rin natupad, pagka't puso'y 'di na muling manhid.
Ngayon gagawin ang lahat kahit pa ang daan ay makitid,
Hanggang sa dumating ang panahong damdamin ko'y iyo nang batid.

Kaya naman sa pagtatapos ng tula, o sinta.
Mapansin mo sana ang kislap ng aking mga mata,
Sa tuwing nakikita ang ikaw, isang diwata.
Bigyan sana ng pagkakataong, makilala pa kita.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"123"

azRein_ — 2023-12-08 08:06:05 UTC

There's not an hour that goes by, when you’re not in my mind.
Countless wishes a day, spent for your heart that's so kind.
Every moment of the week, hoping your smile's what I'll find.
My feelings grow as time passes by, and it cannot be confined.

In the present, still attracted; by what was seen in the past.
Others might laugh and say that things are moving too fast.
Nevertheless, I have a feeling; this is something that will last.
Though uncertain all I know, is that this I can forecast.

For similar to its title, there's only 1 thing I know.
It is 2 tell you that I'm here and this ain't just for show.
The 3 words commonly spoken that I don't easily throw,
Might be reserved just 4 you, which only time can bestow.

I might not know how things work, is destiny ours by design?
I was always searching, always looking for a sign.
But now I'm done waiting for all the stars to align.
So I'll just do my best while hoping you'll be mine...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Haraya? Hanaya"

azRein_ — 2023-12-10 01:57:47 UTC

Sa paglubog ng buwan at pagsikat ng haring araw
Hindi pa rin nagbabago, ang tanging nais ay ikaw.
Sa tuwing dumadating ang gabing mapanglaw,
Ikaw lamang ang siyang sa aki'y pumupukaw.

Bakit nga ba nang makita ka'y bigla na lang bumilis
Ang tibok ng aking pusong, sa pag-ibig pilit lumilihis.
Ang dinulot ng nakaraang mapait na hinagpis
Biglaang naglaho na tila ba lahat ay winalis.

Ano ba ang mayroon sa iyo? Bakit lahat ng ito'y kakaiba?
Ang kaba'y nawawala, gusto'y lalong makilala ka.
Ang masasabi ko na lamang, ay huwag ka nang mag-alala.
'Di kailangan nang mangamba, pagka't tunay ang aking pagsinta.

Wala na ngang ibang hiling kung 'di makita kang masaya.
Ang makapiling ka ay isa na ngang, maituturing na biyaya.
Kahit pa ang lahat ng ito ay isa lamang haraya,
Hiraya manawari. Nagbabakasakali, o' Hanaya.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"My only wish is"

azRein_ — 2023-12-11 10:21:07 UTC

Life is full of surprises; things happen unexpectedly.
Even if we try to plan for everything, we can only act accordingly.
There are times when I wonder, is this really meant to be?
Maybe it's just me, but I really wish that you would see

Every passing moment, I find myself more attracted.
Little by little, I hoped that to you is where my destiny led.
I know that this sounds cheesy, and you might think it's exaggerated.
Knowing and seeing you, I was and still am very enchanted.

Even if it might be unrequited, giving up? No, not one bit.
Your smile is worth it, I'm willing to exhaust all of my wit
One by one, just to prevent you from falling into the pit
Underneath that smile, where sadness lurks though you often times don't admit.

Remember I'm here; won't let you get stuck in the abyss.
On this day, I'll allow myself to give you a lasting promise.
A promise that not only applies when in bliss.
Hear these last few words, for my only wish is

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"A message, my dream"

azRein_ — 2023-12-11 14:26:30 UTC

You are very special, from the day you were born.
Are all these things planned, ever since that first morn?
My countless wishes that were all seem torn,
Dream endlessly, I did, but now my days you adorn.

Rays of sunshine were absent in my sky oh so blue.
On the day I first saw, that was no longer true.
A you that came down from heaven; gave my hue.
How did they know I've been longing for you?

As time passes by and I can see the sunrise,
Do you hear my heart beating, do you know what my heart implies?
Oh I can think of words, but my work, a reprise.
Resplendence that I've found, while looking in your eyes.

Now that I've finished setting the theme.
A message I have hidden, that will showcase my dream.
Don't look at the schemes, for it's simple, not extreme.
On all the words and letters, comprising a single stream.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Christ, must!"

azRein_ — 2023-12-24 10:13:59 UTC

As another year will soon come to a close,
Challenges and difficulties, from the ashes we rose.
No matter the social status, be humble, don't boast.
For you, who made it this far, I offer a lasting toast.

As we grow older, Christmas no longer feels the same way.
Some might feel low, and can't see the Sun's rays.
Others might be lost in a place so far away.
And some of us, sadly, are no longer here to stay.

Though that might be the case, don't forget His birthday's essence.
It's not about the price of the gifts and presents,
But it simply lies in the way others feel our presence.
What matters is the love and messages that we sent.

So as an ending, I give you all my greetings.
Happy Holidays! May you enjoy the coming evenings.
For those suffering, may you experience healing.
As Christmas is coming, may our hearts continue beating...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

"Amnesty: will there ever be?"

azRein_ — 2024-01-16 06:02:16 UTC

Sometimes I ask myself, will I ever really learn?
Cause I always tend to mess up whenever it's my turn.
Risking it all for the dreams and treasures I want to earn.
But failing most of the time so to the bottom, I return.

Nothing can save me from this latest blunder.
Wasn't paying attention to myself; now sinking 6 feet under.
I couldn't hear the warning, for I was deafened by the thunder.
The thunderous beating of my heart, that wants nothing else but her.

Don't know if you'll believe me, but that wasn't really my intention.
Only wanted to show my emotion, but all I did was create confusion.
I was under an illusion; couldn't recognize my reflection.
Didn't realize I looked stupid, desperate for attention and affection..

So now that I've awoken to the worst possible catastrophe,
Brought about by my fallacy, I should probably kneel silently.
For my blasphemy cannot be fixed by an apology.
I'm sorry your majesty, pardon me, grant amnesty...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"A mess of mixed emotions"

azRein_ — 2024-01-18 16:14:37 UTC

In times such as these, I'm glad I'm in control
Of my own emotions, for that has always been the goal.
When I'm about to explode, I'll just hide under my hole.
Because that's the only way for my soul to remain whole.

I'm sick and tired of always being misunderstood.
For my own sake, If only I fought and stood,
Then maybe the blame won't always be mine, as it should.
I've always been the scapegoat, for what everyone considered good.

When everything's unclear, is there someone I can trust?
Should I stay, should I go, ought to leave everyone in the dust.
For I am so tired of being the one to always adjust.
Can I, just this once, leave this life that's unjust...

I've been keeping silent, keeping my emotions in a bottle.
Just waiting for that time, I can go full throttle.
If the time comes, when I'm fed up, I'll be sure to topple,
Your whole world, so be careful, for I am ready to toggle...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"To: My Future Dream Named You"

azRein_ — 2024-01-19 06:49:52 UTC

I once created a poem; "To: My Future Dream Come True".
I didn’t know why I did, but I hoped that it would find you.
Now it seems I've beaten my own poem, for I'm the first to view,
Your smile that definitely blew my mind out of the blue.

Whenever I see you, my heart can't stop but flutter.
Though I always stutter, and find wrong words to utter,
I hope that you give me a chance to fix my actions called a clutter,
For in my eyes, there's just you, there's nobody better.

The funny thing is that I haven't even met you.
Don't know your likes and dislikes; nor know the things that you do.
But why does it feel like I've known you longer than what's true?
The first moment you came to my view, I knew my future dream is you...

Still, I know that who I am right now, is not my best version.
So I'll strive to be the best I can be, that's the right course of action.
While waiting for you, and the time I can fulfill my ambition,
Working so I'll be most deserving of your love and affection...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Message Of The Songs (MOTS)"

azRein_ — 2024-01-19 16:19:48 UTC

As we prepare ourselves for an adventure of a lifetime,
A head full of dreams is but our only lifeline.
Don't panic, everything's not lost; in time, you'll shine.
Everglow, bright yellow, every teardrop with its purpose, trust me, you'll be fine...

When life's moving faster than the speed of sound,
And the ticking of the clocks, makes you bow down to the ground,
It's just us against the world, in life's problems don't be bound.
Everyday is biutyful, you're the champion of the world, stand up and be crowned.

If broken, He'll fix you. He's the only Higher Power.
God put a smile upon your face, every minute, every hour.
From sunrise till midnight, His blessings overpower
The trouble you're facing, they'll be toppled like a tower.

So if you're still thinking, you're not over the hardest part,
Remember that nothing can stop the loving human heart.
Go up, and up, don't look back and just depart.
A sky full of stars is waiting for you if only you decide to start...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Reawakening"

azRein_ — 2024-01-20 10:14:45 UTC

After that sleepless night, when I was wide awake.
I realized it was myself, the one I chose to forsake.
My own reawakening, exactly at daybreak.
Finally figured out, the source of all the ache.

Blunders have been determined, and the assessment's been done.
Still far from over, yet redemption has begun.
When all is said and done, my progress won't be none.
Cause my success won't be outdone, by mistakes that can't be undone...

For it's not arrogance but my renewed self-esteem,
The reason why I am going ahead full-steam.
Dreams won't be dreams once I fully redeem,
Myself from the void; for with light I can gleam.

So while I'm starting my own reawakening,
I'll adapt to the circumstances, and seasons ever changing.
Listening to the wind howling, and waves that come crashing,
All in the right timing, without forcing the things happening...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Curveball, right call?"

azRein_ — 2024-01-23 07:11:30 UTC

I 've been thinking about you, same songs in repeat.
S trange, isn't it? Your voice, heard in every beat.
T his 11th poem; a blank sheet, for someone I didn't even meet.
I nterestingly a feat, for I thought all was complete.

L ife really does throw lots of curveballs.
L eft, right, center, it's like being in a free for all.
L ast time I checked, I was hiding behind my wall.
I didn’t know if I'd recover from that great of a fall.

K indness overflowing, dreams and goals slowly achieving.
E very step of the way, with people who never stopped supporting.
Y esterday's lessons became the fuel I'm consuming.
O nce more, I am able to continue my dreaming.

U nderneath the surface, there's another hidden layer.
R esting hidden message, for a person like no other.
N everending rhyming, the timing doesn't matter.
A sentence that can be formed, and considered my prayer...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Hero, not me though"

azRein_ — 2024-01-25 09:00:02 UTC

I used to believe in stories of superheroes.
In happy endings and such, where anything goes.
But now it's clear, they're only seen in tv shows.
For in my eyes, heroes are nothing but zeroes.

When all is in chaos and there's an illusion,
Heroes have a hard time for their values are in collision.
What must they sacrifice, their dearest or the mission?
I'm no hero for in me, there's no confusion.

I don't care if I'm branded as the villain of the story.
I don't even care about the fame nor the glory.
My loved ones' safety is my only worry.
That's my only priority, so I won't even say sorry.

Cause that is the truth, I hope everything is clear.
For my love is greater than what I consider my greatest fear.
Even the darkest of paths, in that direction I would steer,
If that is the only way to protect all I hold dear.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Mata mo; matamo"

azRein_ — 2024-01-27 09:52:43 UTC

Bakit ba ang unang titig ay laging nasa mga mata?
Dahil ba ang pagtingin natin ang pinakahalata?
Marahil sa mga mata mo'y nabighani o sinta,
Kaya hanggang ngayon ako'y nauubusan ng salita...

Ang mga mata ay nagsisilbing pinto sa ating puso.
Sa mata makikita ang nararamdaman ng isang tao.
Ang mga matang mapupungay, sumasalamin sa ating pagkatao,
Kailanma'y 'di maikukubli, pilit man nating itago.

Sinta, o bakit ba, kakaiba ang nadarama
Sa tuwing nasisilayan ang iyong mga mata?
Sa isang sandali lamang ay nabighani na talaga,
'Di inaasahang ikaw nga, ang pupukaw sa pusong manhid na.

Kaya bago matapos ang tulang gawa para sa'yo
Na likha lamang buhat ng isang proyekto sa Filipino,
Iiwanan ang mga salitang "Ikaw ang tanging pangarap ko".
Gagawin lahat para matamo, ang pagtingin ng mga mata mo...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Yellow"

azRein_ — 2024-01-30 04:56:38 UTC

The one word I'd use, to describe you is yellow.
The first words you said to me, is definitely "Hello"!
When I first tried to reach out, expectations were already too low.
Would you really talk to a stranger, someone you don't even know?

Yellow is the color associated with radiance.
Your eyes; your smile; your voice and your dance...
Passion overflowing, joy always in abundance.
For you I'd take the risk, even if victory's but a miniscule chance...

This poem is already the 20th made for you...
Believe me, I am quite shocked too.
I never thought this feeling of mine, would stick like glue...
What wrong did I do? What mess have I gotten myself into?

But do you know? Like yellow, for you I'd bleed myself dry...
This fellow, for yellow, give all the stars in the sky.
From the shallows, to the gallows, for yellow, I'd defy.
Your yell's echo, my yellow, when in trouble, I will fly...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"143"

azRein_ — 2024-02-02 14:45:48 UTC

Why is 143 almost always "I love you"?
Sometimes, 143 can be "I need you".
For me, 143 are the words "I feel you".
Yet its real meaning is only "I like you"...

Though I know only rarely can I write a nice pun.
A new poem for you is my goal so I made one.
If in danger just remember towards you I will run.
The greatest triumph is mine if from you there's a love won...

Will you let me if I say; if I ask "can I help you"?
My poems contained all the promises I gave you.
Without you, darkness will overcome the view U made new.
Without you the sky will always be a blue hue.

These words, "I only like you"; a true vow..
Writing these lines & verses R hard now.
It's been long so it's time to N this, how?
Allow me to give this poem A last bow.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"To: All the girls I wrote a poem for"

azRein_ — 2024-02-11 07:52:51 UTC

Though I may not know where you are, I'm rooting for you; all the best.
May you be anywhere from North to South and East to West.
Through poems and confessions, my emotions were expressed.
All poems written and given are genuine, that I can attest.

Looking back at it now, in me, there's still no regret.
Nearing 150 poems yet each of them I can't forget.
All of them are special; all of them made me sweat.
What did I get from those I've met? A lesson learned from every lost bet.

Nevertheless, thank you for being a source of inspiration,
Every time I found myself approaching stagnation.
Scenarios I simulated, all considered to be fiction.
A hopeless romantic that didn't ask, but still hoped for reciprocation.

So even though the literal context of your poem no longer applies.
The feelings that it contained; cannot be smeared by this world's lies.
At a certain point in time, you were the most beautiful in my eyes.
And that time, forever frozen; encapsulated by the lines of your poem even though the time really flies...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Salamin sa aking paningin"

azRein_ — 2024-02-12 00:24:05 UTC

Bakit ba ang pag-ibig ay itinuturing niyong laro?
Kahit na 'di naman dapat, pagka't ang umibig ay 'di biro.
Ano ba ang dapat kong gawin? Ako ngayon ay tuliro.
Lahat kasi ay malabo, bukod sa mga mithiin kong klaro.

'Di maipaliwanag ang nararamdamang sakit
Sa tuwing 'di pinapansin ng iyong mga matang kaakit-akit.
Ang tanging naiisip, ay ang salitang bakit.
Bakit ba ganito? Mundo ba sa aki'y may hinanakit?

Tinanong kung kailan matatagpuan ang saya;
Kung ito ba ay darating, ito ba'y aking makakaya?
Nang makilala ka ay naranasan ko nang maging maligaya.
Naging malaya at payapa, dala ng paghuni ng mga maya.

Kaya 'di ko man alam kung sa akin ika'y may pagtingin,
Kung ang nararamdan bang ito'y mabubura sa pag-ihip ng hangin.
Matalinhaga man kung maituturing, ang dulot mong damdamin.
Sana'y makita mo ang nakikita ko, sa iyong pagharap sa salamin.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"A bitter end"

azRein_ — 2024-02-12 04:39:38 UTC

I used to think that waiting for others, for me is a must.
Used to think that helping and waiting for others is just.
But that's not really the case; so now I'm ready for the next gust.
I'm ready to remove my limiter; ready to leave you all in the dust.

No one's gonna wait for you when you're the one struggling.
It's just you; only you, who's gonna solve the problems you're facing.
Instead of being left behind, it's better to be the one who's leaving.
At least I don't have to worry, how to match their own pacing.

I don't really mind walking this path on my own.
No matter how many stones at me have been thrown.
My wounds and injuries, by myself, I have sewn.
I know I have the strength and courage to go alone.

So it's okay even if there's no one left to call my friend.
I have done everything I can, just for me to blend.
But it still wasn't enough, so this time I have to fend
For myself, unable to extend, a helping hand and mend, other people's broken pieces, nor am I gonna pretend, that in this world ruled by trends, there's no bitter end.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"A Promise Renewed"

azRein_ — 2024-03-01 15:11:53 UTC

My intentions for you; always nothing short of pure.
My feelings for you is not just because of your allure.
I can proudly scream "I like you" for I am a thousand percent sure.
When in a bind just rest assured, for you I will find the cure; extreme conditions I'll endure.

You must have been shocked by my unexpected confession.
Though I was unable to see, could still imagine your expression.
I guess that's what I get for putting my feelings in compression.
An explosion followed by, questions why this was set in motion.

The promise "I will wait for you until I can, my dear".
A promise of a lifetime, that will last till my final year.
Every word you'll be saying, from now on I'll lend an ear.
You know where to find me; know I will always be here.

This promise that was given to you I now renew.
This promise, my dear; with all the stars I imbue.
I'm prepared to set sail with you, to find the most grandiose view.
You're the one I will pursue, along with future plans I drew; plans for the future that I will see through with you.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

Hinto

azRein_ — 2024-03-01 15:14:19 UTC

G usto ko lang malaman mong 'di ako nagbibiro.
U maasang pagkatapos umamin, sa akin ay 'di ka lalayo
S ubalit 'di mo na pinapansin magmula nang malaman mo
T uluyan na akong iniwasan, ano bang mali ang nagawa ko?

O' kay hirap ng ganito, ang pag-iwas ba ay kailangan?
K ahit na ang gusto ko lang naman ay iyong maging kaibigan?
I ntensyon ko lang naman ay makilala ka nang lubusan.
T anging hangad ay mapalapit, ngunit nangyari'y kabaliktaran.

A lam ko naman sa sarili ko na iba ang iyong gusto.
A t ayaw ko rin namang ipagpilitan ang sarili ko.
A aliyah Faye Zabala, pasensya na sa pangungulit ko.
L ahat ng ito'y kalimutan mo, pangungulit ay titigilan ko.

I iwan ko na lamang ang mensaheng para sa'yo.
Y ugto ng tulang ito ay tapos na ihahandog ko.
A ng huling mensahe bago ako tuluyang lumayo at huminto,
H anapin ang unang mga letra ng bawat linya pababa at ito'y basahin mo.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Alin? 'Yan ang ngalan ng Anghel"

azRein_ — 2024-03-01 15:15:25 UTC

A lam mo ba ang aking naisip mula nang una kang masilayan?
A no kaya ang pangalan nitong babaeng puno ng kagandahan?
L ubos akong natuwa, sumaya nang 'di ko namamalayan.
I kaw ay isang anghel; ito'y 'di na dapat pagdudahan.

Y aman nga kung maituturing ang ikaw na aking hinahangad.
A ng lahat ay gagawin hanggang sa makakaya ng abilidad.
H ihintayin ang panahong pagtingin mo sa akin ay ang realidad.
F eliz, lo soy; porque tú eres mi felicidad.

A ko'y kaibigan mo; ano man ang mangyari ay nandito.
Y aring pusong may pagtingin; tutulong sa anghel na tulad mo.
E ksplanasyo'y di na kailangan pagkat damdamin ko ay totoo.
Z afiro ay hahanapin ko hanggang sa dulo ng mundo, para lang sa iyo.

A lam kong ako ay nangakong ika'y 'di na muling kukulitin pa.
B inalak umiwas at lumayo, pero ito pala ay hindi ko kaya.
A ng hiling ko lang ngayon, sana'y hindi ka na muling lumuha.
L angit ay nalugmok nang bumaba ang anghel na kay ganda.
A no ang pangalan ng anghel? Malalaman 'to sa pagtingin mula sa langit hanggang sa lupa.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Rain Jasper"

azRein_ — 2024-03-01 15:16:17 UTC

R emember that I am here for you always.
A lone, you are not; kuya will always find ways.
I t doesn't matter even if we haven't seen each other for months or days.
N o matter how far apart, I will support you for I'm your ace.

J asper, you will always be botchog to me.
A s you are turning 11, a year older you may be.
S till you're my youngest brother, so it is clear to see.
P rotecting you from harm, will always be a part of my duty.

E ven though sometimes, you're a little annoying,
R emember that my annoyance, is not everlasting.
D on't hesitate to call me when you need help with something.
E leven years old you may be, but you're still a youngling.

L astly before ending this poem; Happy Birthday!
A s a gift for you, this poem, I made without delay.
P utting into writing the wishes for you I want to say.
A poem that was made for you who's far away.
Z oom into the first letter of every line in a vertical way.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"If in his shoes, will I still lose?"

azRein_ — 2024-03-01 15:36:33 UTC

Sometimes I can't help but think, why do I always lose?
Would I finally win if I was him, or if I'm in his shoes?
Don't want to sound like a sadboy but, oh boy, it's just another bruise...
A bruise added to the collection; for he's who my muse always prefer to choose.

Are these questions and frustrations of mine considered valid?
For what's happening is on repeat; there's not a single thing varied.
A surge of dark emotions, unforseen for it's rapid.
Melting my whole being, for it's the most powerful acid.

I'm once again reminded of a pain that is immeasurable.
It's all coming back, this point when I'm most vulnerable.
Just when I thought I was on track to being invincible,
Come the reasons why I consider this life to be abominable.

Once more I'm so close to being delirious.
I'm just great at pretending that's why it ain't really obvious.
Can someone tell me, for I am undoubtedly curious.
When will I ever be? Will I ever be victorious?

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Acceptance"

azRein_ — 2024-03-03 09:13:29 UTC

Until now there's still no sign? Or am I just blind by design?
I didn’t notice it pass me by, for I was looking at a straight line.
If I was my own guardian angel, I guess I'd just perpetually whine.
For I am dense to all the signs, I'd just be fed up and resign.

I once thought that I was special, a little blessed among the rest.
But it turns out that I am just above average at best.
I need to put in more effort without the luxury of a good night's rest,
If I want to achieve something in this life full of tests.

But now that I've come to terms with my own shortcomings,
One thing became clear, and that is I don't want you hurting.
Though I still wish to ascertain if you're the one I've been dreaming,
For now, I'll do my best to show you my genuine feeling.

Cause whether you like me back or not, it doesn't really matter to me.
What matters most to me, is seeing you smile daily.
Please don't ask why, it's cause you're my one and only.
Wishing you're always happy, for my only wish is thee, and now yours truly...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Reign Justine"

azRein_ — 2024-03-05 02:40:35 UTC

I just want to say Happy Birthday to you!
R eign Justine Dela Paz, my first brother among the two.
E ven if we rarely talk, and butt heads is what we mostly do.
I am also one of your pillars, always ready to support you too.

G reat things, for you, are soon bound to happen.
N ever stop dreaming; choose the skills you should sharpen.
J ust trust the process, and you will no doubt be golden.
U nder the pressure lie the opportunities that are ready to be taken.

S till, your college life, will be a new venture to the unknown.
T here will be times you'll be tested and vulnerabilities will be shown.
I n times like this, know that you are not alone.
N ever ever doubt yourself for you have the abilities to take the throne.

E ven though I am about 6,904 km away from you.
D ubai and Manila might be separated by an ocean or two.
E very passing day, there's not a moment in which I don't miss you.
L ittle bro, I know, that you are working hard too...

A nd to end this birthday greeting, there's one more message to extend.
P ray to Him and all of your wounds will definitely mend.
A lways remember these words of mine that are now penned.
Z ero victories come to those afraid of risks; so go ascend. Read the first line and then, the first big letters till the end.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Sumisilip na Panaginip"

azRein_ — 2024-03-08 17:51:04 UTC

Ngayong gabing maliwanag ang kalangitan.
Ikaw ang tanging iniisip, ikaw kaya ay nasaan?
May pag-asa ba sa'yo? Sagot dito'y nasa aking kaalaman.
Alam kong ito'y malabo, pagka't tingin sa aki'y kaibigan lang naman.

May gusto akong sabihin ngunit 'di pa pwede sa ngayon.
Malalaman mo rin ito pagdating ng tamang panahon.
Pagka't sa oras na malaman mo'y 'di ko alam ang iyong magiging reaksyon,
Sa mga salitang aking bibitawan, sa kaarawan mo ang rebelasyon.

Alam mo bang ikaw ang nakikita sa aking bawat panaginip?
Bakit ba palaging ikaw? Ito'y di ko lubos maisip.
Ano bang mayroon sa ngiti mo? Bakit ito'y laging gustong masilip?
Babasahin mo kaya itong mensaheng kasabay ng hanging umiihip?

Na kahit sa aking pagpikit ay 'wag nang magising,
Kung sa panaginip nama'y ikaw ang aking kapiling.
Mga salitang ibinubulong, kasabay ng aking bawa't hiling.
Mga hiling na sana'y pagtingin mo'y sa akin na lang nakabaling.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Don't budge; Bon Voyage!"

azRein_ — 2024-03-12 08:35:37 UTC

Everytime pitying myself comes to the back of my mind,
Compared to me, I tend to see other people in a bigger bind.
Whenever I start to feel that I am lagging and slowly falling behind,
People less fortunate, still going on and still fighting is what I find.

When bombarded by huge boulders, who leaves; who stays?
I don't know where to put myself, I don't know my own place.
When I'm feeling tired and hopeless, I just rest, not counting days,
And I think of other people with heavier burdens they need to face.

There's no life without problems; life's not always a breeze.
There are always ups and downs, just like the ever changing seas.
Time will never ever freeze even if we fall down on our knees,
But as the seasons change the trees, time will cure any disease.

So let this be a gentle reminder that in this place we cannot fail.
Take deep breaths, inhale, exhale; when we feel our life's about to derail.
Stormy seas may knock down and destroy all of our boat's sails,
But as sailors on a lifelong voyage, you'll soon perceive, in the end we will prevail...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"The J of my RJ"

azRein_ — 2024-03-17 23:06:24 UTC

I just want you to know that I will always love you.
J ewelries and other luxuries aren't enough to show how much I do.
O ut of every poem I made, I haven't made one, specifically for you.
S o for your birthday, allow me to give you one too.

E verything I ever needed, you made sure to provide for me.
F rom the moment I was born, you took care of me before I could even see.
I owe everything to you, thank you for being the best mommy.
N o matter how far apart, you're there to support me when I'm on my knees.

A lthough as the firstborn, I know I have lots of shortcomings.
D idn't show my appreciation for all the love I've been receiving.
E nvied others for the things I lack, and always started complaining.
L osing patience cause I didn't know I've always had what I was searching.

A s this poem comes to a close, I can't find the right words to say.
P lease take care of yourself and know that I love you always.
A ll the letters of your name from the second line's J,
Z, as the last letter, can all be seen on the left today.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Kailan"

azRein_ — 2024-03-18 18:53:41 UTC

Ang mahabang pagpapaliwanag ba ay isa pa ring kailangan?
Saang banda naging malabo, bakit ngayo'y nagkakailangan?
Sobrang dami ng mga tanong, ang pinakamarami ay kailan,
Ulan, o kailan; pagbuhos mo'y ano ba ang naging dahilan?

Ako'y naglakbay na mula Pilipinas hanggang gitnang silangan.
Naglakbay patungong Norte, sa bansang ngalan ay Taiwan.
Ngayon, saan bago kailan, saang bansa ba ang iyong tahanan?
Kailan ka ba darating? Kailan ka nga ba mahahagkan?

Kailan kaya mauubos ang pasensya kong kailanma’y 'di naging kalakihan?
Kailan kaya susuko ang taong walang sinapit kundi kamalasan?
Ang kamalasan sa pag-ibig, kailan ko nga ba mapagtatagumpayan?
Kailan ko kaya malalaman ang mga sagot sa lahat ng aking katanungan?

Kailan, o kailan, sa pagsabi ng kailan ako'y naka ilan?
Kailan mapapagod magtanong ang makatang tumutula sa kawalan?
Kailan kaya titigil sa pagsulat ng mga tulang pag-ibig ang nilalaman?
Kailan, o kailan, mawawalan ng mga katanungang umpisa't dulo ay kailan?

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Courting Aphrodite"

azRein_ — 2024-03-27 10:06:58 UTC

A sudden question arose while singing as I sit and stare.
Why do we fall for the people who don't really care?
They can't reciprocate our feelings, of that we're aware.
But why is it always the case, can you even call this fair?

Every heartbreak and heartache gave me a new lesson to learn.
But for the first time ever, courting you is what I yearn.
I promised myself I wouldn't, until my own money I can earn.
Cause in courtship, I know, reciprocation is not always given in return.

The galaxies in your eyes; a pure and innocent smile.
There's something about your style, that this world cannot defile.
For you really are Aphrodite, can you stay for a little while?
If not for a while, can you stay with me and be my bride walking down the aisle?

I know this is nothing more than a hopeless romantic's delusion.
A mirage, a phantasmagoria, nothing more than an illusion.
Nonetheless, these words of mine, do not contain any confusion.
Is it obvious that I want to court you? Yeah, a foregone conclusion.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"My love; I do. Will you; come true?"

azRein_ — 2024-04-06 11:15:51 UTC

Hey, my love, how are you doing?
I'm sorry if I'm grumpy and currently tired of waiting.
I'm now tired of being the one who's always trying.
The one who's always giving; now the one who is seething.

I still like someone, I don't know if it's you.
She doesn't want to be courted. If only she has a clue
That she's aphrodite in my eyes; the one I always want to view.
Is she you or someone new? The one standing at the altar, waiting for me to say "I do".

Will you ever be near me, or are you nonexistent?
Are you really meant for me, or are you just my imagination's figment?
Thinking about it is useless for I'm no longer sentient.
All of my senses, now dulled as a result of being too lenient.

So to my future dream come true;
To my future dream named you.
Please wait for the day when I can finally hold you.
The future meant for me and you, from then skies, nevermore blue.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"To: All the girls who changed my core"

azRein_ — 2024-04-06 11:16:31 UTC

This is a sequel to a poem I wrote before.
The one titled "To: All the girls I wrote a poem for".
Gratitude, I offer you, for it's you who changed my core.
Thank you for the things you've imparted, thank you for opening my door.

Though you all broke my heart and gave me a terrible heartache,
You are the reason why I analyze all the decisions that I make.
At some point in time, you were the risk I was willing to take.
I told you words I fully meant and gave you promises I'll never break.

To the girl who made me realize that not everything is about me,
I really wanted to be there for you; remember you're not unsightly.
To the girl who helped me overcome my fear of dogs though it wasn't easy,
Thanks for showing me, dogs are lovely, now my childhood trauma no longer scares me.

To the girl who sparked my interest in billiards and formula one,
I still hope that it's you. I still hope that for me, you're the one.
To the girl I once considered as my everlasting sun,
Thank you for the memories and regrets that count as none.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Ironies and Variabilities"

azRein_ — 2024-04-08 04:22:53 UTC

Here I am once again while riding the train.
A random thought emerged, and made me wrack my brain.
Though it may be scorching here, in someplace else there's rain.
I might be happy as of the moment, but someone else may feel pain.

This ironic world we're living in, filled with countless choices considered variable;
It's big yet small; circumstances incomparable.
In this humongous Earth what are the odds, that upon you, I'd stumble?
8.1 billion people, yet falling for you is inevitable; and so I crumble.

There's more to life than just black and white, that's what this world shows.
The variables outweigh the constants, it can't be tabulated by columns and rows.
How many are basking under the sun? How about those playing in the snow?
How many are suffering the desert heat?
How about those having a winter sorrow?

The people who want to travel, and the people who don't want to go.
The people who have to bid farewell, their thoughts are something we don't know.
We can never really compel, this world to stop the passing time's flow.
Though some excel, some unwell; we can't tell, so take time to dwell. Be kind, don't yell. for we should know, not long ago, the status quo, an afterglow.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Heartbreaker"

azRein_ — 2024-04-15 06:39:36 UTC

You know, I once asked myself, who is my biggest heartbreaker?
Time and time again, I am shown that there is somebody greater.
This time, this poem, a new one without filter. For now, I know my question's answer.
So the question I have left is, why the fuck am I my greatest heartbreaker?

I might seem friendly, bubbly, outgoing or extroverted.
But the reality is that I am all those when inverted.
An introvert, whose confidence, easily shattered and subverted.
Though Reiniel, I just yell. I can't rein
these emotions that are daunted.

John, why is it, why do I cry a ton?
John, why is it, why is love not fun?
John, why is it, why can't pain just be gone?
John, why is it, why do I want to hide and run?

And so, the ending to never forget the feeling of being alive,
I must never ever forget love's rule number five.
Myself, Reiniel John, never tread the shallows, never dive.
These newfound conclusions I have derived are made in order for me to survive...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"My bestfrienemy; future MD"

azRein_ — 2024-04-18 16:02:35 UTC

M ay His blessings for you never ever end.
R einiel wishes happy birthday to an extraordinary friend.
I am very grateful to you and your willingness to always extend
A helping hand no matter when, on you, we can always depend.

N o matter what happens, know that you can always count on me;
J ust like how I can count on you, like a child counting from one to three.
O ur journey will be more challenging, as we're nearing the version we aspire to be.
H appy Birthday once again, I know you're happy though I can't actually see.

N ever doubt your intuition, always trust in your ability.
A ll the hardwork you've put in, will surely lead you to prosperity.
L ots of people in this world; befriending you was just a possibility.
B ut that possibility made a friendship that will never be a liability.

E nding this birthday gift on a high note will be super.
R emember that things will always work out for the better.
B ecause the letters of your name are found in every line's starter;
A gain, look on the left, you'll see your name there, mister.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Maybe-ttersweet"

azRein_ — 2024-04-25 09:48:07 UTC

I was once bombarded by my own questions of maybe.
What-ifs, maybes; all of those made it hard to see.
I was too blinded to clearly see, who I am really supposed to be.
Yet the answer's always been in front of me, for I'm supposed to simply be me.

These memories of you, will always and forever be bittersweet.
But I'll still do these things on repeat; know these lines of mine have no deceit.
I'll knowingly and repeatedly experience defeat, if it means our paths will once again meet.
For meeting you outweighs the heartbreak; meeting you helped make me complete.

This new term I have created for these bittersweet what-ifs and maybes,
Maybe called maybe-ttersweet, for now it definitely is what it is.
I know I'll be alright when the time comes for me to cross the seven seas,
Though there are no guarantees, in me there'll be no sign of unease.

For a new chapter only unfolds after the last one's farewell and goodbye.
And so we must take some time to dwell, but not too much that we must cry.
Cause we must adapt so we can tell when things are about to go awry.
To my last what-if I hope you're well, though I may not be the love of your life.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"The sun without w; my life without W"

azRein_ — 2024-04-26 14:02:47 UTC

There's a reason why the heart is placed below the head.
Be rational and unemotional; that's the conclusion that can be said.
Now I'm back to being logical, there're things I should've left unsaid.
Look at where my decision led when I dreamt a false vision while lying on my bed.

You are a short-lived dream, I could stay trapped in forever.
A dream where all constraints are nonbearing and don't matter.
Do you know I wanted you to be the best for me so that nobody's better?
But like all dreams, it must end; though if I was asked, I would've said never.

No Sun, no Sol, so L, that was my darkened life's view.
Without sunshine, without color, that can be considered true.
Like the sun that gives energy, you saved me, and you don't even have a clue.
You're the sun without the w, your nickname; there's no W without you.

The w of the sun is swapped with an l; that's how our story ends.
You're also a lesson to me; more than a person dear to me; that's the message my poem sends.
Though here, all our paths lead to different dead-ends,
Maybe in another universe, a love story's possible; maybe there we can make amends.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Till I can no longer"

azRein_ — 2024-04-26 14:03:30 UTC

To be completely honest, I can't find the right opening, the right word.
Complete silence in the dark, nothing; there's not a single tweeting bird.
Today is one of those days, I can describe using a single word; absurd.
Excruciating pain once more, so I scream till I can no longer be heard.

I've been in this situation, honestly, more than a couple of times.
And everytime, I find comfort in writing poems with lots of rhymes.
Not just fluent in writing flowery poetry, I am also fluent in silent mimes.
I may be a prisoner of love, till I can no longer consider these as crimes.

This poem like no other, serves as my own reminder.
A reminder that not every love story will have a happily ever after.
You are a dream I sought after; a dream I wanted till I can no longer.
But I was never the source of your laughter; I am your happily never after.

And so I'll admire you from afar, till I can no longer.
I'll let these wounds bleed, till I can no longer.
I'll keep on crying out your name, till I can no longer.
I'll break my heart into a million pieces, till I can no longer.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"From the present, my past's future; a present from my future's past."

azRein_ — 2024-04-27 00:22:36 UTC

Hey kiddo, it's me, the one considered to be your future.
This poem marks our 170th, who would've thought this will be our adventure?
I know you've been trying though your decisions are still unsure,
But I'm glad to tell you that we've overcome that dark and negative enclosure.

Today is April 27th, of the year 2024.
We're about to finish our long dual-degree course.
Though I wish I could tell you just a little bit more,
I do not wish to spoil you, about what your future has in store.

And so now, to my future, is the earth still intact?
Have our plans gone awry, or are we still right on track?
Are you still single? Are you successful? Are you happy? Is that a fact?
I have lots of questions, so I'm sorry if they are stacked.

I attached this poem to the email sent to you 6 years from now.
When we're about to turn 30, can I ask you, how art thou?
Did we stay true and loyal to all of our created vows?
I would've loved to talk with you, if only time allows...

- Reiniel Dela Paz (23)

"The end of our tutorial, no longer in denial; he has your love vial, now time for my revival"

azRein_ — 2024-04-27 09:53:45 UTC

Now that I found something I probably shouldn't have found out.
I've finally figured out the lesson that our encounter is all about.
I can't even shout even if I wanted to go all-out.
Cause you ate your own words; you're the cause of this drought.

I was made to believe all those statements that are nothing more than lies.
I thought I couldn't be deceived, for I was looking straight into your eyes.
But like contact lenses that change eye colors, you were in fact wearing a disguise.
Though it resulted in my demise, and I can be called unwise. You, my dear, I will never ever despise.

They say that giving up is never the right solution,
But sometimes, letting go and giving up is the only viable conclusion.
I hope that he won't break your heart, and that loving you will be his only intention.
May your relationship be founded on trust; a love that's sure without confusion.

And so I am now a thousand percent certain, that no matter how hard you try;
It won't matter even if you give her the whole world and all the stars in the sky.
If she doesn't like you, in the end, it's still you who she'll deny.
For you will never be the guy she dreams of even if this you try to defy.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Calculus: the mathematics of change"

azRein_ — 2024-04-29 07:12:18 UTC

I believe I told you before that Calculus is the mathematics of change.
Like Calculus, you changed my life and I find that a little bit strange.
I only helped you in Calculus, but you gave me something better in exchange.
A valuable lesson that I have learned; a lesson that can never be gauged.

You gave me a lesson of most importance, it is a lesson about life.
While all I gave you were scars and traumas; poems that hurt like a sharp knife.
I'm really sorry for the hurt I gave you, I'm really sorry for that strife.
If I knew how much I'd be hurting you, I never would've come into your life.

Hurting the people dear to me, is the source of my greatest pain.
It is something of greater magnitude, all of this world's words cannot explain.
I wish I could take away all your pain, if only it was something I can obtain.
But I know the hurt I gave you, cannot be taken away, for it will forever remain.

Like Calculus, I want to change and be better, though it's hard.
For my toxicity hurt a person dear to me, you, who I have deeply scarred.
I really hope that you'll forgive me when all is said and done.
My dear, I'm so sorry. I really wish for all these things to be undone.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"A poet to be admired, a new lesson I acquired"

azRein_ — 2024-04-29 07:31:30 UTC

When you really like someone, do you know what's the most essential?
I forgot about that part, though it was really a fundamental.
When you really like someone, you hold their feelings as something sacred and special.
You're not selfish and egoistic; you just want them to reach their full potential.

I was so preoccupied thinking that I was the only one who got hurt.
It didn't even occur to me, that I might've hurt you first.
The hurt brought about by my knife that kept on stabbing you a million times
Was concealed right before my eyes; that itself is a thousand crimes.

I was a blessing to some, and a toxic curse to others.
Now the damage has been done, I can only atone by striving to be better.
Even the sincerest of my apologies are not enough, they don't matter.
I'm sorry, I really am. I know it will never be enough even if I keep this up forever.

So to the poet to be admired, thank you for the new lesson I acquired.
I'm really sorry for how things transpired; this isn't really what I desired.
To the person I hurt the most, I'm really sorry about that post.
If given 3 wishes after this poem's done, I wish for mistakes to be undone, all your hurt and troubles begone, and for a bright future to come.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"The artist I want to see; My ate, the one and only"

azRein_ — 2024-05-07 14:47:57 UTC

A lways remember that I'm here supporting and rooting for you.
T hough we may be miles apart and seeing you is something I cannot do.
E ven if we're separated by hours and a sky so vast and so blue.
J hye, Ate Jhye, you're the older sister I never had; I miss you, wish you knew...

I 've always written poems about love; poems about people I liked romantically.
R einiel's poems were always like that, but now it's about all of the people dear to me.
E xpressing my emotions through writing, to thank you for pointing things I couldn't see.
H onestly, I can't think of a better way to show my appreciation for thee.

E very time I have problems I thought was too heavy to bear,
U nknowingly, I was eased, for you were always there.
N o matter what happens, do know I'm here and I care.
I am always here for you, ate, that is something I can proudly declare.

C ounting life after high school, it's 5 years that we've been apart.
E ven though we rarely talk, you'll always have a special place in my heart
F or you'll always be my ate, always the one with lessons to impart.
L et's meet again soon; I want to see my favorite artist's latest art.

O nce more to end this poem I want to greet you on your special day.
R eread the left side letters for there's something more that they convey,
E very letter when combined spells your name; it's on display.
S o the last message I want to say to you is Happy Birthday!

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Iris"

azRein_ — 2024-05-10 20:15:25 UTC

Do you wonder how does it feel when you can't even feel a thing?
If I'm immortal, am I numb to all the challenges this life will bring?
Is a life of immortality a life you could deem worth living?
For me that's not the case cause I'd give up forever to touch you who I've been longing.

What we really want in life is to be understood;
To be understood the same way as how other people would.
To find the person who understands and to constantly feel assured.
Through all the pain we've endured; find the one who'll stay till the future we've secured.

There's this feeling of being bound and I just simply can't be me.
There's this fear of being misunderstood, when the whole world is there to see
The vulnerable and fragile part of me that's unsightly.
All of which are hidden beneath the iris; look into my eyes and see the key.

So to the one who'll be my life's biggest surprise; I consider you as my iris.
You give color to my eyes; make me see a life of pure bliss.
I'll know the answers to my whys; why certain things seem amiss.
Upon meeting you, my iris, I will look up to the skies; for you're my faith and hope, but above all, you're the light that made me rise from the abyss.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"The one who always cares, mother, to you no one else compares"

azRein_ — 2024-05-12 04:52:03 UTC

Today's the second Sunday of May this year, just so you know.
So it's time for us to greet them; it's time for us to show
Our appreciation and affection to the one who conceived us not long ago.
Happy Mother's Day! Everything about ourselves to you do we owe.

We wouldn't be living in this earth, if it weren't for you.
You gave us the gift of life, that fact is undoubtedly true.
Without you, I won't even be able to write this poem, sing, and do the things I love to do.
So to all Mothers, Mommies, Mamas and Nanays, in 3 languages, Salamat po, 謝謝媽, thank you.

As Mother's day is celebrated today from East to West,
Though not showy, here I am, writing a poem so my gratitude is expressed.
Thank you for being the best, and for giving all of our requests.
Words will never be enough for the time that you invest in taking care of us without rest.

They say that a mother's love for her children is the greatest of them all.
They were there for us before birth, before we were toddlers who knew how to crawl.
From when we were still tiny and small, their names were the first we would call.
To all mothers: do know we love you so, I hope the feelings this poem contains breaks the fourth wall.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Talatang nagmula sa alaala ng unang tula"

azRein_ — 2024-05-22 18:43:06 UTC

Ngayong gabing tahimik ang lahat at aking ginagawa ay wala,
Naisipang kong gamitin sa pagsulat ang oras na sayang tuwing tulala.
Kailan nga ba masisilayan mga tala't bituin na siyang dala
Ng iyong mga matang kaakibat ng iyong labi na kay pula?

Matagal na rin mula nang ako'y huling sumulat gamit ang Filipino.
Pinag-isipan nang maigi; ano ba dapat ang paksang isusulat ko?
Ano ba ang mga dapat kong sabihin? Paano ko nga ba sisimulan ito?
Saan kaya makakarating; ang mensahe ko'y saan nga ba patungo?

Ang talata kong ito na sa alaala nagmula;
Alaala nang sinulat ko ang aking pinaka-unang tula
Na nilikha para lamang sa binibining ninanais makilala.
Sino ang mag-aakalang ang babaeng iyon ay ikaw na pala?

At sa pagtatapos ng tula kong panibago,
Sana ako'y patawarin kung ang gawa ko ay malabo.
Ako'y kulang pa sa tulog kaya lumilipad ang isip ko.
Bagaman tula ko'y 'di ginto, sa pagsulat ako'y 'di hihinto.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Noon, ngayon, at sa panghabang panahon"

azRein_ — 2024-05-25 04:49:16 UTC

Parang kailan lang mula nang ako'y nagsimula.
Nagsimulang mangarap nang mataas; tanging puhunan ay ang tiwala.
Ang tiwala sa sariling hinding-hindi susuko ano man ang pagsubok na dala
Ng tadhana para makamit ang mga pangarap kong kasing-taas ng mga tala.

Napansin niyo ba na kay bilis ng takbo ng panahon?
Dumating na ang mga bagay na pinapangarap lang natin noon.
Ang mga pangarap na kay layo, mas malapit na ngayon.
Malayo pa, pero malayo na. 'Wag nating kalimutan ang mga aral na siyang ating baon.

Bigyang pansin ang hinaharap ngunit 'wag kalimutang harapin ang kasalukuyan.
'Wag kalimutang gumawa ng mga alaalang 'di mabubura sa ating isipan.
Pagka't higit na matimbang ang ating oras kaysa sa ginto o kayamanan.
Bawat lumilipas na sandali, kailanma'y 'di na maibabalik, kaya ito'y ating pahalagahan.

At ngayong patapos na ang tulang bago sa aking koleksyon
Na ang intensyon ay ipaalala ang kahalagahan ng pabago-bagong panahon.
Ikaw man ay nasa malayo, ano man ang iyong sitwasyon,
Nasaan ka man naroroon, tandaang mong lahat ng bagay ay may dapit-hapon.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"From their ghosting to our long-lasting"

azRein_ — 2024-05-31 05:45:52 UTC

Nowadays, the easiest way to detach from someone is through ghosting.
There'll be no explanations from me so you'll get the idea and feeling.
Only recently, have I learned the lesson about giving and taking.
In only taking you'll end up burdened, in only giving you'll have nothing.

Remember that in all things, everything must be in balance.
In every step we take, we must boldly take a chance.
For in this world of 8 billion people, there will surely be someone with whom we can dance.
The one destined to be with us, our complete life's one and only circumstance.

So don't mind what you've lost, for they're not meant to be yours anyway.
You'll surely find what you're looking for, though it might not be today.
Don't mind their ghosting and just wait till our long-lasting is found someday.
Keep on searching while enjoying; don't settle for less, don't just stay.

A few more words I'd like to say in this poem's message I have penned;
23 chapters I have lived, some bad, some good, with many more to spend.
For my sins, moving forward is the only way to make amends.
A new chapter can only begin after the previous one ends.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

Complete 180

azRein_ — 2024-05-31 07:13:07 UTC

If you, yourself, know that you're lovable and beautiful
There won't be a need for this poem so deceitful
Hesitation comes even when you're just a little bit doubtful.
The mind of the human being really is powerful.

If you should ever hear that you're very ugly
Don't believe the statement of the unwise, they're so many
Cause your innate charm and beauty surpasses Aphrodite.
These are all lies. For me, you're just not pretty

From top to bottom you'll see your perspective, your wrong vision.
From my name, to you, there's the truth, it's my mission.
The real message is actually seen in inversion.
Know the way you see yourself is nothing more than an illusion.

For I truly think my perspective is something you should see
Know that all of those words said to you are lies made by me
It's time for me to apologize cause you might feel unsightly
Now that your confidence took a complete 180

- Reiniel Dela Paz

Note: now read the poem from the last line going backwards.

"The risk worth taking"

azRein_ — 2024-06-15 05:01:23 UTC

These past few months marked the beginning of my metamorphosis.

I've been absorbing lessons one after the other, it's really such a bliss.

I can say without a doubt that what I've been searching for is this.

I missed this feeling of bliss brought to me by the wind's kiss.

I'm beginning to comprehend the complexities of love.

I now understand that what's meant to be will fit like a glove.

We must never force things, maybe just give it a little shove.

But don't force it if it won't budge, instead just ask for a sign from up above.

But why can I feel the butterflies once again, am I out of my mind?

Why am I attracted to you, may I know the reason behind?

I hate it when I'm starting to like someone, for I am prone to being blind.

Always clinging to hope if there's even a tiny strand I can find.

I'm willing to risk it all even if there's no guarantee that you'll be mine.

But can you at least give me some sort of sign?

Am I starting to annoy you? Do you think I'm becoming a swine?

How do you feel about me? Tell me, my lovely sunshine.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"If not her, will I still do?"

azRein_ — 2024-06-20 15:49:11 UTC

Let me ask you a question. Do you believe in destiny?

Is destiny written on our palms, like what someone told me?

Are all of the things happening currently, really meant to be?

Or is destiny just a fallacy and our future, nothing more than an uncertainty?

To be honest, I still don't believe what the gentleman said.

I still can't see myself working here in the Philippines, that's what I think while lying on my bed.

I still can't see myself marrying unexpectedly; for I've no relationship experience, what more of suddenly becoming a newlywed?

So will destiny really unfold and make me eat my words or are all of these just in my head?

The girl I like is now probably asleep as I'm writing.

I'm slowly falling deeper as she answers the questions that I've been asking.

I've never been a fan of the game that's called waiting,

But if destiny is true, I want it to be her, the one I've been longing.

If it's not her, will I still do? It's such a scary thought indeed.

Though I say I'm used to it, it still hurts whenever I start to bleed.

I'm fine with being alone but a soulmate and partner is still someone I need.

So if destiny is true, can the end of my red string lead me into her arms? This wish of mine, please heed.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Impermanence"

azRein_ — 2024-06-24 16:04:27 UTC

One of the constant things in life is the impermanence of everything.
Even moments captured in photographs fade as the clock continues its ticking.
Even our voices constantly change as we continue to sing.
For change and impermanence are the gifts that only tomorrow can bring...

I've always wished for good things to become permanent.
Permanent happiness and permanent people, but now it is evident
That everything has an end for impermanence can't be bent.
And some things are just meant to be lessons we needed at the moment.

We are not getting any younger, remember that anytime we can die.
So we must learn to treasure every moment that passes by.
Live like there's no tomorrow; don't ask the reason why.
Love like there's no tomorrow. Heartbroken? Cry. Heal first then retry.

For the way I view love has changed countless times through adolescence.
Thanks to every encounter that led me to believe that nothing's a coincidence.
We must stop questioning why this world is full of impermanence
And start to embrace this ever changing world while exuding unwavering confidence.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"A Father's Day Poem"

azRein_ — 2024-07-04 09:44:44 UTC

First of all, I want to thank you for being such an amazing dad.

Thank you for being there for us especially when we're sad.

Even though most of the time, you easily get mad.

You're still the first person we go to whenever things go bad.

Thank you for supporting us and being our number one fan.

Especially for our future like with my decision to study in Taiwan.

Thank you for the love that will never ever be gone.

I hope that I can give you both a better life when all is said and done.

Though the future is unclear and there are lots of uncertainties

I know that I'll never give up because you taught me all of my abilities.

You gave me a heart that can withstand all difficulties.

I'll always look up to you, for you gave me so much more than my necessities.

I know it must've been hard for you to work abroad when I was still three.

But you did it anyway even if you had to leave me and mommy.

You endured being far from home just to provide for our family.

For that, you'll always be the greatest hero to me.

Thank you for all of your efforts, especially those that we can't see.

Now that I'm about to finish my 5 year long dual degree,

I hope that you're proud of Jasper, Justine, and me.

I know that you'll continue helping us to be the people we aspire to be.

I know you'll be there when we fall, feel hopeless and on bended knee.

Even though you rarely show your emotions and you rarely say I love you,

We can feel how much you love us cause it's seen in everything that you do.

I don't know if you'll believe me, but this statement is true:

Daddy, for me, Superman's nothing compared to you.

So to end this poem, let me say Happy Father's Day!

I hope that you liked the messages I want to convey.

Remember that we love you, even though we rarely say.

We're your children after all, although it might sound cliche

No matter what happens, we're here to stay.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"The coin of love and pain"

azRein_ — 2024-07-04 15:04:45 UTC

They say that the poison and the antidote are two sides of the same coin.

The heads and tails, polar opposites; together do they join.

But I think the same thing applies for the feelings of love and pain.

One cannot exist without the other; in one's absence, there's no sustain.

You must be prepared to get hurt when you start to fall in love

For love is an uncertainty; It's not an easy thing to have.

Though love is often associated and symbolized by a white dove,

There are times when love brings pain, with challenges life brings from above.

You will never know love if you have never felt pain.

Likewise, there's no pain; if love, you do not wish to obtain.

In loving someone, there's a wish, for all their hurt to be slain.

And in great pain, another wish, that is for love to remain.

As light cannot shine brightly without the existing darkness,

Love cannot be seen fully without feeling the loneliness.

Love doesn't come easy, it always comes with sacrifices.

It comes with pain, but above all, it comes with neverending compromises.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Comet; Sunset"

azRein_ — 2024-07-27 15:29:52 UTC

I didn't see it coming; this sudden and hidden curveball.

I thought everything was fine for there were no signs after all.

Is it really something that's beyond my control?

Or was I mistaken? Am I the only one to fall?

Just as the distance between us suddenly grew,

So did our hearts, far apart, now broken in two.

The feelings that were shown though genuine and true,

Still lost in the end no matter how many plans I drew.

You're my brightest comet, everglowing from afar.

The one I look up to, though just a passing shooting star.

You're one of the main highlights of my very own memoir.

Just to meet you once more; I'd relive every wound that left a scar.

My darling, sunsets are really beautiful indeed...

But no matter how pretty, in the end; a farewell we must bid.

Night comes after no matter how much we beg and plead,

For only in darkness do we appreciate the light we so badly need.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"My Alcestis; hiraeth"

azRein_ — 2024-08-06 10:47:30 UTC

Now that you've seen my darkest parts that are unsightly,

Would you still accept me and love me completely?

I'm ready to beg and plead for you to not leave me,

But I won't blame you if you should decide, to walk away, my baby.

I am far from perfect, I am only human after all.

I've been making lots of mistakes ever since I knew how to crawl.

If my mistakes were to be added, it would be like Burj Khalifa three times tall.

For I know I'm a complete mess, just like a messy street brawl.

So my love, my dream, are you still gonna stay with me

Even if the real me, is someone you don't wish to see?

I know that I hurt you, and left a wound that runs deeply.

But will you still stay by my side, can you answer me clearly?

My love, I'm so sorry, for I know how much I hurt you.

I just hope that you'll be able to forgive me too.

No matter what happens, know that I'll always love you.

And my wish is to hear you say the words "I do".

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Ang pinakahihintay"

azRein_ — 2024-08-16 06:23:03 UTC

K ung alam mo lang na kay tagal kong naghintay.

I lang taon na nangulila sa pagmamahal mong walang kapantay.

S a dinami-rami ng mga taong sa mundo ay nabubuhay,

S a'yo ko lang pala mahahanap ang pag-ibig na tunay.

E lementarya hanggang kolehiyo ngayo'y tapos ko na.

S ubalit ang pagmamahalan natin, ngayon pa lang mag-uumpisa.

D adalhin kita sa lahat ng lugar na gusto mong makita.

E ksplanasyo'y 'di na kailangan, dahil sa akin ika'y mahalaga.

L ahat ng mga tala at bituin susungkitin para sa'yo.

O' sana'y pakinggan ang regalo na tulang ito.

S a lahat ng mga problema, ako ay laging katabi mo.

S andalan mo ako, giliw ko; sabay nating haharapin ang mundo.

A t sa pagtatapos ng aking mahabang tula,

N ais kong ipagtapat sa'yo ang aking tunay na nadarama.

T unay ngang kakaiba ang dulot mong saya at sigla.

O bhetibo ko'y nakamit na, ngayong kaarawan mo'y aaminin ko na.

S ana'y basahin mo ang iyong pangalan sa kaliwa pagkatapos kong sabihin at amining "Mahal Kita"!

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Asleep too deep"

azRein_ — 2024-09-21 16:37:50 UTC

It's been some time since I last wrote a poem this deep.

Only now when my darkness, once again, starting to seep.

All the negativities that were always there piled up to form a heap.

All the seeds that I sow, now full-blown is what I reap.

So if ever my heart stops beating as I sleep tonight,

My only regret is that we couldn't resolve the fight.

If ever I don't reach the beginning of daylight,

My only regret is that my wrongdoings I couldn't right.

For you're the last person I think of before falling asleep.

And you're the dream I want to stay trapped in no matter how deep.

If I wake up without you, I know I'll forever weep.

For without you, this lonely life, I no longer wish to keep.

And so my love, I wish you good night.

I'll be here looking after you so please sleep tight.

To protect you and care for you, I'll use all of my might.

I love you, my angel, know that you're my brightest light...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Araw-Araw"

azRein_ — 2024-10-10 13:34:00 UTC

Ngayong gabing mabigat na naman ang nararamdaman,

Hinahanap ang liwanag na dala ng mga tala at buwan.

Ang mga pangarap ng yaring pusong ikaw ang tanging laman,

Ipaglalaban hanggang sa dulo, pagka't mahal ka magpakailanman.

Habang bumabiyahe ay tahimik na pinakikinggan ang "Araw-Araw",

Inaalala ang pangakong kailanma'y sa'yo ay 'di bibitaw.

Kahit patuloy na nasasaktan at ang mundo ko'y gumugunaw,

Ikaw pa 'rin ang pipiliin habang buhay sa mundong ibabaw.

Saan ba ako nagkulang? 'Di mo ba nararamdaman

Ang pag-ibig kong inalay, na sa'yo lang naman nakalaan?

Parang ako'y mahal lamang pagka't ako ang siyang kailangan.

Kailanma'y 'di naging sapat kaya iniiwan sa ere nang luhaan.

Gayunpaman alam kong ang saya ay muling dudungaw.

Mahahanap muli ang sigla pati na rin ang kulay dilaw.

Kahit paulit-ulit pang masaktan, damdamin ko lagi ay malinaw.

Bawat segundo, minuto, o oras na lumilipas, hanggang sa huling hininga, hanggang ang katawan ko ay maagnas, ano mang paghihirap ang aking maranas, ikaw at ikaw lang ang pipiliin ko araw-araw.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"From the ashes"

azRein_ — 2025-05-13 14:18:29 UTC

Why do we even celebrate a New Year?

Is it because we're about to shed new tears?

Is it because a new year gives us new thrills and fears?

Or is it because a new year means our dreams are getting near?

Saying "Happy new year" when new year isn't happy; not just a greeting, but a wish.

A wish that this new year is when we finally break the leash.

The leash that's binding us from starting anew,

Is the thing that's holding us back; it is something we must first undo.

Like a phoenix, we must rise once more from the ashes.

We must rise above every difficulties and challenges.

Don't mind our wounds, bruises, and all of our scratches,

For it is through these things that we are forged to be our strongest.

So if you feel like you're under immense heat and pressure,

Remember that in forging, there must be heat exposure.

Even broken swords can be reforged in the future.

And like a phoenix rising from the ashes, you'll be rebirthed for sure.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Envy, leave me"

azRein_ — 2025-05-14 01:41:21 UTC

I used to envy other people, what more can be said?

I used to pity myself while I am lying on my bed.

But now, I'm thinking, this is where my path led.

To write a poem about envy; a feeling of being dead.

We will do everything we can, just to bring other people down.

For our unjust sense of superiority, makes us chase a false crown.

Envy slowly blinds us, until our minds completely drown

In lies and in hypocrisy; now we're the so called clowns.

Envy, oh envy, you are deadly indeed.

Envy, oh envy, why'd you make our eyes bleed.

Envy, dear envy, please leave me, hear my plead.

Envy, deadly envy, I don't want to sprout your seed.

So to everyone who will read this, heed my final warning.

Let's be mindful of the person that we are becoming.

For if envy is all we have, envy will shape our whole being.

And that path will just lead us to more pain, death, and suffering.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Easier said than done; To you O' Lord I run"

azRein_ — 2025-05-17 04:38:01 UTC

I've always really enjoyed singing Our Father.

But now, I realized, that it's indeed the hardest prayer.

Following God's will just keeps on getting harder,

Especially when faced with problems, and you never cease to suffer.

Forgiving those who trespass against us, so difficult indeed;

Especially when they keep on repeating the things that they did.

It doesn't matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to forget,

For the wounds that they gave you; in stone are all set.

My God, please help me; take all the pain away.

Don't lead me down this path; don't let me be astray.

I no longer want my heart to be filled with bitterness.

I just want to move forward; please help your child so powerless.

Please give me courage; please give me unwavering strength

To conquer the laid tracks with difficulties of great length.

Please give me patience and understanding; to stay forever still.

To know that you are God, to be led in accordance to your will.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Looking at a Mirror"

azRein_ — 2025-06-08 09:25:03 UTC

I realized how important it is to see our own reflection.

Being that it makes us see our goodness, despite our own imperfections.

Looking at a mirror shows the uniqueness of every person.

We can see that all have varying quirks, traits, actions, and situations...

However, looking at a mirror can bring endless comparisons.

It is a double-edged sword, that can dull our comprehension.

For if we compare ourselves with others, it can give us negative emotions.

Jealousy, envy, anger, and the like; atrocities that stem from our own dissatisfaction.

So my wish for us all, is to compare us to ourselves yesterday.

Maybe then, we'll see, that we're capable of being better today.

Maybe then, we'll see the peace that lasts and stays.

Maybe then, we'll know, why things have to go a certain way.

So to my dear brothers and sisters, from me, a fellow sinner like you.

May God bless us in all of the things that we do.

May everything that is false be conquered by what is true.

And as we're looking at a mirror, I hope that we can see our uprightness too.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Home"

azRein_ — 2025-06-08 09:46:18 UTC

You ever feel what it feels like to lose a home?

Just a few days ago, I left my own home.

My home isn't a place, but the people where I belong.

My home's a person, so special, and so without her I ain't strong.

I used to consider places as my home, until I met my own person.

I realized that she loves me for who I am, despite my imperfections.

But like every other person, it seems my home is but another lesson.

Oh, the pain and misery, tell me this is just an illusion.

My home wasn't strong enough to weather the deadly storm that came.

We couldn't make it past, oh indeed, it's such a shame.

It feels like no matter what we did, the outcome would always be the same.

But still, what my heart yearns for, is to rebuild this home, that's my aim.

So while waiting for the time that we can start the repairs,

I'll hold on to the memories, and I'll handle them with care.

The pictures that we hung there, that make my eyes tear every time I stare;

Though it's hard for me to bear, I will keep on repeating my prayers, that when the right time comes, you and me, the perfect pair.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Kumusta?"

azRein_ — 2025-06-09 21:40:06 UTC

Kumusta? Nakakagulat nga naman ang bilis ng panahon.
Tandang tanda ko pa yung una nating pagkikita, na para lamang bang kahapon.
Tandang tanda ko pa ang kislap ng iyong mga mata, sa aking paglapit bawat pagkakataon.
Pati na rin ang huli nating pagsasama, pagtapos ng dapit-hapon.

Alam mo bang, sa hinaharap, ako'y tila ba sabik na sabik?
Dala ang aking mga salitang binitawan, na sa iyong piling lamang babalik.
Pinanghahawakan ang mga alaala; ang mga yakap mo't halik.
Inaantay ang panahong, pagmamahalan nati'y hitik na hitik.

Lagi mong tatandaang, ingatan ang iyong sarili.
Lalo pa ngayong wala ako sa tabi mo upang maging haligi.
Tandaan mong mahal na mahal kita, sa'yo ako'y mananatili.
Kahit pa dumating yung panahong, ako'y hindi na ang iyong pinipili.

Kaya kahit gaano kahirap, ako'y patuloy na kakapit.
Kahit hindi man sang-ayon ang panahon, at nag-uumapaw ang sakit.
Aantayin ang araw na ang landas nati'y muling maglalapit.
Sa oras na wala nang hihigit, sa pagmamahalang minsa'y pinilit, ikaw at ako ulit, pagka't sa iyo, kainlanma'y wala namang pumalit.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"See sea; hope mope"

azRein_ — 2025-06-24 15:21:50 UTC

They say that the hardest battle is a battle with oneself.

That may be true, for I can't imagine fighting myself.

When fighting oneself, you'd have to consider fighting a war buck naked.

All vulnerabilities exposed; a battle of attrition till you're jaded.

It's hard to keep the faith when you've been bombarded by rejections.

What more do you need, do you need more introspection?

You'll start to question everything, you might even experience dejection.

The blame, the guilt, and the anger that shows our imperfections.

I no longer know, what is there waiting for me?

More heartbreaks, rejections, failures that will be?

Triumph, a victory, no longer I can see.

An anchor, a wave, a me, drowing in the sea.

So when you feel the weight of disappointments forced unto your shoulders,

To whom do you run to; the place of resting soldiers?

Your tired and weary heart, desperately clinging to hope.

Body that's heavy, soul trapped in a den of ghouls, hope nonexistent, only an endless mope.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Strangely Familiar; a familiar stranger"

azRein_ — 2025-07-10 17:32:58 UTC

Here I am in the metro, riding this familiar train.

Back to seeing these familiar sights, but now with the experiences I hoped to gain.

I'm back in a familiar country, yet I feel that something is definitely strange.

Is it me? Is it this place? Or maybe it's the both of us that the years have changed?

There's something eerily familiar, yet strange at the same time.

Maybe because of a farewell, due to an obstacle we couldn't climb.

But you know what, there's beauty in accepting that everything's bound for a goodbye.

There's beauty in letting go, and in not asking the reasons why.

Familiar? Strange? Everything's supposed to change anyway.

We can never relive a moment, not even a single day.

So no matter how messy our current lives may be,

Remember that the sights that we currently see, albeit different, tailored for you and me.

So to my favorite stranger, I pray that we'll both change for the better.

Thank you for the memories, the lessons, the love, and the pain altogether.

May we be guided by God's will, as our faith in Him grows stronger.

Till our paths cross once again, farewell; Love, a familiar stranger.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Kahel Ba? Dilaw Sana"

azRein_ — 2025-08-04 14:29:27 UTC

Alas singko, palubog na araw; ang kalangita'y muling kulay kahel.

Sa mundong 'to, ang hanap ay ikaw; ang kinahuhumalingan kong anghel.

Iniisip kung talagang tapos na, sa buhay mo'y wala na bang papel?

Akong isang mortal na mahina, di ba abot ang iyong lebel?

Sa paglipat ng aking kamay sa susunod na mga pahina,

Sa kwento ng aking buhay, alam mo bang ikaw ang paboritong kabanata?

At habang patuloy kong binabasa ang kwentong isinulat ng tadhana,

Ang nais ng yaring puso? Pangalan mo'y muling makita sa susunod na mga talata.

Sapagkat sa kwentong ito'y iisa lamang ang iyong palayaw.

Ikaw, at mananatiling ikaw, ang pinakatangi-tangi kong dilaw.

Sa'yo ko pinipiling ibuhos ang pagmamahal kong nag-uumapaw.

Ikaw, aking dilaw, ang nagbibigay ilaw sa araw-araw.

Kaya hangga't ako'y may nakikitang kahel na langit tuwing dapit-hapon,

Di maiinip sa paghihintay kahit lumipas man ang ilang taon.

Dahil alam kong kahit 'di man sa ngayon, ay darating ang panahon

Na ang pagmamahala'y uusbong tulad nang kahapon.

At sa bagong pagkakataon, di na magigiba ang pundasyon

Sapagkat tayo'y pinag-isa na muli ng Panginoon.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Alam mo ba?"

azRein_ — 2025-08-04 14:29:54 UTC

Alam mo bang ako ay may tinatagong mga munting lihim?

Mga bagay na hindi ko masabi; dating nananatili sa dilim,

Ngayo'y nag-uumapaw mula sa karagatang pinakamalalim.

Isinulat na sa tula, wala na ngang mas mataimtim.

Alam mo bang ikaw ang hinahanap at ninanais ko sa tuwina?

Ikaw lang ang siyang nagbibigay sigla sa mundo kong wala nang gana.

Ang tanging nagpapalakas sa pusong nanlulumo't nanghihina.

Ikaw, o sinta, ang tanglaw na nag-iiwas sa'kin sa sakuna.

O giliw, Hiraeth, alam mo bang ikaw ang aking Hiraya?

Hiraya Manawari, kung sakali'y di masusukat ang saya.

Kung kasalanan ang ika'y ibigin, ayos lang makulong at 'di makalaya.

Sapagkat 'pag kapiling ka'y nasa'kin na ang pinakamagandang biyaya.

Mahal, alam mo bang marami pang kulang sa mga sinabi kong ito?

Sana'y pagbigyan mo; dinggin ang pagmamahal kong totoo.

At sa pagtatapos ng tulang inaalay ko lamang para sa iyo,

Tandaan mong sa'yo lang ako naging ganito; ako'y sa'yo lamang narahuyo.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Hiwaga"

azRein_ — 2025-10-16 14:21:55 UTC

Kung tutuusin, ako'y isang taong, sa paulit-ulit ay mabilis magsawa.

Ngunit sa iyo'y kakaiba, sa aki'y ano nga ba ang iyong ginawa?

Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, talaga nama'y maituturing na mahiwaga.

Sapagkat 'di nagsasawang ika'y pagmasdan, O aking bituin sa hilaga.

Mahiwaga, ako'y naging mistulang kabayo, sa harap lamang nakatingin.

Sa iyo lamang nakaharap, pangarap natin ang aking tanging mithiin.

Ang kabayo sa disyerto, kakayod ng dalawang-daang porsiyento

Para mabigyan ka ng magandang buhay hanggang paghinga nati'y huminto.

Mahal, sana'y naipaparamdam ko sa iyo ang mahiwaga kong pag-ibig.

Ang pag-ibig na di nagpapapigil, gaya lang ng rumaragasang tubig.

Parang apoy na naglalagablab na nangtutunaw bawat titig

At banayad na simoy ng hanging nagdadala ng magagandang himig.

Kaya mahal ko, tandaan mong ikaw ang aking hiwaga.

Sa iyo kailanma'y hinding-hindi ako mauubusan ng tiyaga.

Aantayin kitang walang sawa dahil sa iyo'y buo ang tiwala.

Aantayin ang iyong pagbabalik sa piling ko, o aking tala.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Mga matatamis na halik"

azRein_ — 2025-10-16 14:23:55 UTC

K ung pagbibigyan ng isang hiling, ito'y habang-buhay na makasama ka.

I to lamang aking hihilingin sa ating Panginoon na may gawa

S a dami ng pwedeng hiling, alam mo ba kung bakit ito pa?

S a dami ng pwedeng hingin, ito'y dahil mahal kang talaga.

E pektibo kaya ang mga tulang ito sa pagpaparamdam ng pagmamahal ko?

S apat kaya ang mga gawang ito para maramdaman mo ang yakap ko?

D istansiya sana'y wakasan ng pagmamahalan nating totoo.

E ksenang pinapangarap ko ay ang marinig sa altar ng simbahan ang iyong oo.

L ahat ng mga pangarap ko'y nag-iba nang ikaw ay aking makilala.

O ras na ikaw ay aking kapiling, bakit nga ba bitin na bitin pa?

S a ilang buwan nating nagkasama, kakaibang sayang sa 23 tao'y 'di nadama.

S ana ang "tayo" ay pagbigyan, bigyang basbas ng Diyos Ama hanggang tayo'y kunin niya na.

A ng mga matatamis na halik kung saan pangalan mo'y hinango

N gayo'y napanindigan na ng mga halik at yakap mong klarong-klaro.

T unay ngang makapangyarihan ang panalangin nating mga tao.

O mahal ko, o Kisses ko, biruin mo, sa laki ng mundo, tayo'y dalawang beses pilit pinagtagpo.

S a sobrang dami ng hiling ko, lahat sa iyo'y sumakto; ikaw ang mahal ko, basahin mo ang pangalan mo.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Spectrum"

azRein_ — 2026-01-15 06:42:32 UTC

Truly fascinating, that is the color spectrum.

Galaxies, with bright lights they bring; the stars in the sky and the kyber crystals of Ilum.

Light that shuts out the darkness — a magical "Expecto Patronum!"

Generating a subtle warmness — life, lasting for thousands of millenium.

It's been a long time since a poem I have written.

You can even argue that poetry is a skill I've forgotten.

I don't know what I'm doing; there's no direction, no meaning.

The different colors I'm feeling, all jumbled up — I see black; nothing.

But now that black is all that remains, I can finally remove my facade.

There's no need to keep on smiling even when I just want to feel sad.

While there are no eyes that pry, I can finally start to cry.

There's no need for me to try holding back the tears that want to run dry.

So you see, the color spectrum is something everyone can relate to.

Be it the highs, the lows, or in between the two.

New dimensions open up when we learn to stay true.

Beyond the known spectrum, a unique color tailored for me and you.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Biyahe"

azRein_ — 2026-01-15 14:02:14 UTC

Mahaba-habang biyahe na naman ang tatahakin bago makauwi sa'king tahanan.

Walang hanggang desyerto ang tanawin habang nakadungaw sa bintana sa'king kanan.

Kailan kaya makakamit ang mga pangarap, matutupad ba ang mga ito dito sa Gitnang silangan?

Ako'y nagdarasal at humihiling; nag-aantay ng sagot sa mga katanungan.

Lumipad ng ibang bansa, at iniwanan ang aking lupang sinilangan

Sapagkat 'di sapat ang pagmamahal sa sariling bayan upang makamit ang mga pangarap kong hanggang kalawakan.

Ako ba'y isang gahaman kung ang nais ko lamang ay kayamanan?

Ang kayamanang pinakaaasam-asam, walang iba kung 'di ang tunay na kasiyahan.

Ano nga ba ang magbibigay sa akin ng di magmamaliw na kagalakan?

Ito ba'y pera, sasakyan, bahay at lupa, o magandang kalusugan?

Isang kabiyak na makakasama ko sa biyahe ng buhay hanggang sa kamatayan?

Hindi ko mawari kung ano, kailan nga ba ako maliliwanagan?

Saan nga ba pupunta, saan ba ang aking patutunguhan?

Ang kasaguta'y 'di muna kailangan, ako'y mag-aantay na lang nang may katapatan.

Alam kong tapos na ang walang hanggang biyahe at makakangiti na nang walang kasinungalingan,

Pag dumating ang panahon na ikaw ay akin nang mahagkan at masilayan.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Amnesia"

azRein_ — 2026-01-16 14:37:14 UTC

This is Poem number 205. I never thought this hobby of mine would still be alive.

Now I can't find rhymes I've never used before no matter how hard I strive.

Did I already reach my peak, am I starting to take a nosedive?

Will I find something new once I'm done waiting; once my other half finally arrives?

I still remember every person I once wrote poems for.

I was left heartbroken for they all closed the door.

I was dumbfounded every time, swore I'm done with love as I was crying on the floor.

But I was proven wrong time and time again as I kept on giving more; found new lessons that got embedded into my very core.

There were times I thought, what if I got amnesia and forgot everything I ever knew?

I'll be rid of all the heartbreaks and the lessons that came with it too.

I'll be able to forget these poems, these rhymes, and then finally start anew.

But that would have been saying that these feelings of mine weren't true; forgetting feels like parts of me, in the garbage can I threw.

I am who I am today, thanks to all of you.

Amnesia? No, thank you. I'll keep on going and see where my great capacity for love leads to.

Be it defeat or triumph, I'll go and see it through.

Keep taking the risk, that I'll do, so I'll have no regrets when my time is due.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"Lovesick; love tick"

azRein_ — 2026-01-23 14:40:51 UTC

There are times when I can feel your ghost, times when I'm lovesick.

Days when I miss you most; feels like days pass by when it's just a single clock tick.

Despite my travels, I can't boast, for in my mind, you stick like a silly magic trick.

As I go from coast to coast, can't help but think, "why is cupid such a prick?"

What was I made for? Was I made for loving you?

My heart, apart I tore; what for? Is it a necessary thing to do?

What does the future have in store? Heartbreak or a love undeniably true?

One step forward, two steps more. Three steps backward now I'm on all fours. I come crawling back to your door; is this part of me healing too?

The future plans I drew, shall I mark as obsolete?

Plans that barely got started, not even halfway complete.

Now I'm starting anew for I'm finally back on my feet.

No longer brokenhearted; unafraid of treading paths barely lit.

Cause in this life full of many chapters, defeats prepare me for a victory none greater.

All these crumpled love letters, a mere training for when I meet my significant other.

Cause for better and for worse, for richer and for poorer, in sickness and in health, till death do us part.

So for my lover, one more verse; I promise to love her and hold her, with faithfulness that's always felt, till my last breath, she'll have my heart.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

"To: My future dream, adieu."

azRein_ — 2026-02-14 17:59:30 UTC

I never expected the next chapter, my poem, to be this way.

My future dream, where did we go wrong? Why did you walk away?

I am led astray; can I even make it through this day?

Why is it that my love is the only thing that ever stays?

My love is not just feelings, it is a lifelong commitment.

So hearing the hurtful words you told me, was our love just my imagination — nothing more than a figment?

It seems my dream will always be a dream,

and it will never ever come true.

My future dream, it's you, it seems that our time is due.

Thank you for the memories and for letting me love you unconditionally.

Thank you for accepting and loving me wholeheartedly.

I release you like leaves carried by the wind, and let God decide if there will once again be a you and me.

As my final act of love, I'm now setting you free.

So to my future dream that came true,

To my future dream that was named you,

For all I am and all I feel, in this poem I imbue.

I love you, I do; but now, my future dream, I must bid you adieu.

- Reiniel Dela Paz