https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l Life. en-us 2023-09-19 19:11:14 UTC 2023-09-28 18:21:04 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-uploads.storage.googleapis.com/1931339591/6c27ec7b6f44a57f0df1a345a96c4f05/rain3.png Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711435277 I think I'm scared to love, The moment I fall for someone I fall on to spikes that pierce my heart. It hurts so much. Like, I like this boy at my school, he's so kind and  smiles so bright but I'm scared he will hurt me. ]]> 2023-09-19 19:14:43 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711435277 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711437855 I don't know why but sometimes I just cant speak. Its like a heavy pain in my chest, and if I speak ill either throw up or cry. Its so dumb. I get called crybaby A LOT by my brother.. that just makes me cry more.. and more.. and more.. till I'm drowning in my own sorrows]]> 2023-09-19 19:16:43 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711437855 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711443615 Although I'm still depressed (giving that I'm still on meds) I think I'm making progress on healing. I don't want to cut myself anymore, I think that's progress. Every time I pick it up and press it against my skin, I cant do it. :)]]> 2023-09-19 19:21:19 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711443615 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711447755 I wonder if. people like me.. I know I can be annoying, and obnoxious.. but I'm kind.. (at times) and loving. I wonder if they know that there's something wrong with me, if they know that I have depression or bpd. (id only hide that from normies)]]> 2023-09-19 19:24:07 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711447755 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711454417 The boy I like gave me sunglasses like his and a panda stuffy, I named her Marcie]]> 2023-09-19 19:29:32 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2711454417 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713195345 Today was weird. It was good in the beginning. I got to school at 7:40ish (school opens at 8:15) so I got to see the boy I like. He bought me a Monster :3. In my first class of the day, I'm not sure why but my mind went blank and it went dead silent, then the air pressure changed, it hurt my ears and gave me a headache.]]> 2023-09-20 17:04:33 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713195345 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713195895  When I got to lunch the boy I like was kinda off.  Then when we got to class he was much happier, We held hands and he rested his head on me, It makes my heart flutter when I see him, even in pictures. but... I'm not obsessed.. no.. heh.. Anyways, usually when he walks me to my class we hug when we're there. but... he didnt this time... my head started filling with thoughts like. Does he not like me? Does he think im ugly? Did.. I.. do something wrong...?]]> 2023-09-20 17:04:55 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713195895 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713239071 There's a few girls that tbil (the boy I like) is a little to touchy with.. They need to keep their distance from him.. or else.. what am I saying, IM NOT OBSESSED UGHHHH]]> 2023-09-20 17:33:10 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713239071 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713240561 Please know that Mintano and Darko are 2 different people T^T I should know, I dated both of them.]]> 2023-09-20 17:34:13 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2713240561 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2716673539 I didn't know you could be addicted to someone's pheromones.. but his.... I laid on tbil shoulder and his scent was comforting. I sleep with his hoodie on so its like I'm sleeping with him]]> 2023-09-22 17:21:59 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2716673539 Rainiscool https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2725121660 Tbil gives me hugs before I get to class but... yesterday. My stupid Eng teacher told us to "disembrace" so stupid. His hugs give me warmth..]]> 2023-09-28 18:21:00 UTC https://padlet.com/Rainiscool/gnlu2yvpsz8rus8l/wish/2725121660