https://padlet.com/lovehours/gih382hl1goe en-us 2020-03-09 13:05:42 UTC 2020-03-19 01:57:14 UTC hello@padlet.com lovehours https://padlet.com/lovehours/gih382hl1goe/wish/456857251 love is a chemical reaction that compels animals to breathe. it is needed by humans to feel accepted and loved. it can hurt you, but it can also fill you with happiness and warmth. love is sometimes dangerous and sad, but sometimes it's healthy and beautiful.]]> 2020-03-09 13:07:18 UTC https://padlet.com/lovehours/gih382hl1goe/wish/456857251 lovehours https://padlet.com/lovehours/gih382hl1goe/wish/456860941 i've been hurt a lot. by my so-called "friends", by my family, even my (ex) girlfriend(s) hurt me, physically, emotionally and mentally. i always felt that i was second best. my "best friend" betrayed me and lied to me multiple times about how she felt about me. she always made me feel like shit but i never said anything, just like i do now. it feels like the world is testing me. just waiting for me to give up. and if i do give up, what's gonna happen to everyone who supposedly "loves" me. they'll never understand how much pain i was going through. and i'll never tell them, because i don't want to get sent away. i want them to be happy. i hate that i make them sad. i hate that i irritate everyone that i meet and wind up hurting them. it sucks to know that you're the cause of people's pain. if i ever wrote a suicide note, it would go something like this. : to anyone who finds this note after i'm gone. i'm sorry. i couldn't take it anymore. the pressure to be perfect, to be happy and smiling all the time, to keep myself upbeat. i wasn't able to do that. i tried. i really did. but even when i was happy, i was never really happy. the pressure to be the person i'm not, it's unbearable. everything is a competition. from how good of a girlfriend or boyfriend you are, competing against your own sibling, to be the favorite. that shit is hard. but, i'm sorry.
that's how my suicide note would go. i love how people love to play with my feelings and think it's okay. but then when i speak up and say something they tell me to shut up.]]> 2020-03-09 13:12:44 UTC https://padlet.com/lovehours/gih382hl1goe/wish/456860941