my problems by ˚₊‧‎♡oliverrr‎♡‧₊˚

my life story lol TW: abuse and s/a

stalking101 — 2023-02-26 00:46:35 UTC

i was born june 7th 2006 to the WORST parents around. (like fr fuck them bitches) i lived with them 5 years than they kinda lost us and i was forced into fostercare from 5-11 i was s/a 9 times once at gunpoint, i also tried to kms 5 times i was abused for years as well. i dont remeber alot but i know that it fucked me up. i moved with my aunt at 11 and OMG i was a slave! i did everything for her and myself. i was later thrown into a christian school dorm thing and got s/a by a teacher, he was my soccer coach. i quit that school by getting kicked out freshman year i went there freshman year so basically from 3rd-9th of being hurt. my aunt just told me it was my fault then gave me a blunt. THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN ( i still smoke ) honestly i moved out at 15 and went to my sisters for a month then went homeless lol. i was bad on drugs then but idc i was living even tho i slept on random friends couches i learned so much. i loved the shit but feduary 16th i got s/a again at a party and thats what broke me i tried to od while high and failed. fostercare came back a few weeks later and took me and here i am now lol worst 16 years ever. life lesson kids.... life is shit <3

the blame

stalking101 — 2023-02-26 16:02:29 UTC

i get so much fucking blame for my parents being such shitty humans! i hate my family so much. they say cuz i am the youngest i ruined my family. my family all are fucked up even me, my family threw me and my 2 full blood sisters(i got 2 halfblood) into fostercare when i was 5 idk how old they where but hell i know it fucked us all up. we all have been on hard drugs and i know we all have been homeless at different times i know sold my body and so has my older sister. like we all where fucked forever now. i lost hope in life when i was 12 my sister was drunk and beat the shit out of me ( i was in the hospital or abit after it) cuz i was the blame for a shitty life. honestly i wanted to end everything from that day to now. i have always blamed myself for my family but slowly i have given up on life. honestly i wish i was never born but here i am :] sadly i hope everyday i get the call of my parents death. its sad cuz i loved my dad, i remember him being my best friend. my mom never was there for me. i wish i could see them one more time and just ask why. why did this get put on me? why do i always get blamed? was it truly my fault? i am sorry i ruined everyone's life. I'll fix it all one day cuz I don't plan on being an adult.

my broken heart

stalking101 — 2023-03-20 14:23:14 UTC

ofc the man i love leaves when i need him. he said he was different and yes this heart break is very different. i truly hope you get hurt the worst. fuck you fuck you fuck you only reason you loved me was my body and i know it I had caught him doing so much and all he said was he was not smart and didnt notice. how do you not understand flirting with other ppl is not ok, telling me you fucked around with my friends and now they are blocked, your so stupid. your a whore and i knew youd only loce my body, your such a bad liar, i only stayed cuz i wanted to fix you, i thought i could make you love me, i was more than wrong. truly i hope you mess up someone and they make you pay. just wait...karma is coming my dear and frankly i dont give a damn.