Having you around is like eating a bowl of warm soto semarang at the dining table while it’s raining outside; the sense of warmth and full of love. The love we shared was the love I’ve always dreamt of and I believe I won’t ever find it elsewhere.

You were very careful. There were times when I felt so underserving to be held that I almost crumbled when you held me safely. It’s the way your arms circle my waist very gently, and how your lips plant kisses on my temple at the very same time. Gilbert, I don’t know how to express how grateful I am to have you by my side. Sama kamu hari-hari terasa berlipat-lipat kali diatas tingkat menyenangkan. Menyenangkan, lebih ringan, hangat, dan penuh cinta. Sama kamu, aku bukan hanya merasakan kasih sayang, tapi banyak hal lain, aku banyak sekali belajar hal baru dari kamu dan tentang kamu. Akupun berterima kasih untuk banyak hal yang udah kamu kenalkan ke hidup aku. Aku bisa merasakan kebaikan disetiap kasih sayang yang kamu kasih. Thank you, for putting a smile on my face, for making me comfortable to the point that I love the version of myself when I’m with you. I can’t mention all the things I’m thankful for you because it’s gonna be a long one, but thank you for making me feel the euphoria that has been long gone. 

I really appreciate your understanding of small things with care. It's a simple move that not everyone can do it likewise, and you are not taking consent as an eye-sided matter which makes me think you are very considerate. Honestly, kamu tuh.. so attentive and so sweet, you always pay attention and obeserve those tiny details to your lover. Nothing else matters when we were together. I have to mention that pesona besar kamu adalah manis dan hangat di waktu bersamaan. 

Hmm, I swear I’ve never been one to welcome guests in an instant, but I opened the door widely for you without thinking twice and now you’ve got the lock in your hands. I will never find hands as warm as yours, lips as sweet and tempting as yours, and shoulders as safe as yours. I’m certain too, that no one will ever be able to put me in my place like you did. I wanna kiss you one more time on your forehead because I am so thankful for your presence. 

I will carry the piece of your heart you’ve left on my palm wherever I go, and I hope you’ll be carrying my whole heart with you wherever your feet take you too, and keep it warm until I get to settle myself in your embrace again. I really hope life will be kind to you. My sole wish is for you to only meet kind-hearted in this world as you are the kindness itself. The world is so lucky to have you, Gi. Semoga hati kamu nggak pernah terasa kosong, semoga kamu selalu bisa merasakan cinta seperti yang selalu kamu berikan kepada orang lain ya. Always make sure to eat well. Aku tahu kamu pasti juga sudah setiap kali masak makanan sehat dan enak. Aku juga belajar masak, tau. Agar aku tetap sehat, tetap makan enak, walau mungkin belum se-enak buatan tanganmu yang hangat dan lebih besar dari tangan mungilku ini. Hope you always have a warm shower to make your muscles relax after work, so you’ll have restful sleep. Hope that you enjoy listening to your favorite song over and over. Please spare the time to congratulate yourself each time you’ve done something great, even though things have been occupied with the responsibilities that you have on your shoulders, but I hope that you’ll have someone to share, I know that you are loved by many. Please take care of yourself when we were apart. I wish I’ll find my way back to you someday, Home. I am already homesick as I write this.

With warm hugs,

Your brightest moon.

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