Lilith2708. by Lilith

Do You... Remember?

amatista0407 — 2014-01-08 04:56:48 UTC

How the skin of your arms was being open by that sharp knife? Do you? Because I do.
Do you remember, how hot and sharp was the knife, each time getting deep and deeper, cutting the skin, veins, and muscles? Do you remember? Because I do.
Do you remember... that sensation of.. fire, burning in the open wound, as you were pushing and forcing the scalpel to get a deeper wound, because all what you did earlier, before, all that damage to yourself wasn't enough? Do you remind about that? Because.. yes, I do.
Do you remember...the way... how intense it was burning, seeing your flesh, and then came out the blood, how magical was that feeling? when the wound was burning and the blood was turning off the fire? feeling relieved? seeing as the blood was falling off to the floor, painting in red your skin and clothes, crying with a sensation of satisfaction...yes, satisfaction and sadness at same time? knowing that what you were doing was wrong, but it felt soo right in that very moment? It's impossible to forget that right? so... Do you remember? Because I do.
Do you remember, all those times, when you got caugh up with your head, with your thoughts, that you lost the track of time, and lost the touch with reality as well, so the only escape, was cutting yourself, over and over again? Do you remember? so do I.
Do you remember, all the times when you just hurted yourself, just to see if you were able to feel something? Do you... remember? Yes, me too.
Do you remember, all the times, when you swore to yourself, "this is the last time" Do you remember? Yeah, I do as well.

amatista0407 — 2014-08-21 02:39:30 UTC

If only you knew,
The darkness I hold,
Deep within,
Deep inside,
It radiates through out,
The depths of my soul,
Like the light from the sun,
Only evil,
Blinding,
Out of control,
Smashing through my veins,
Wave after wave,
Suffocating,
Intoxicating,
Breathtakingly disastrous,
Everything I touch,
Melts,
Fades,
Turns to dust,
You make things beautiful,
With the smile played across your lips,
I destroy things,
Without even trying,
Just with a look,
From the side of my eye,
The darkness finds,
And takes,
As it pleases,
If you tried to change me,
You'd be next..

amatista0407 — 2014-08-21 02:50:53 UTC

In this exhausting life there are no guarantees,
no perfections, not one that can constantly please.
Although we wish it to be so
a quest for perfection we must let go.
When life presents to you a gift
a person that seems to fill your every wish
welcome them with love and a smile
play with them as a child
accept the flaws that make them real
let down your walls and allow yourself to feel
lives built together on ashes of the past
release the memories that hold you back
we have all travled many miles
shed tears and shared smiles
If we are lucky there comes a day
when the sweetest love comes to stay
Be bold enough to your limits
be strong enough to know when to give it
share your life like the best of friends
persue each other without end
never let one day by
without an endorphine high
chase each other as if your love is new
start and end each day with an I Love You