𝕄𝕐 𝔼-𝕛𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕟𝕒𝕝 by MAE ANGELA COMCOM

Day before the classes

20025s — 2020-10-08 12:39:47 UTC

- Honestly speaking the day before the first day of our class. I was very happy because the classes was rescheduled in Oct. 5 according to DepEd not until sir Arnel emailed me about the schedule of our online classes. That was sunday midnight when I received the email I was so shocked and shocked, HAHAHAHAHA.

20025s — 2020-10-08 13:01:15 UTC

Week 1 of online class

- The week 1 of the online class was also a tough week for me, maybe I can say to all as well. I remember that I'm not familiar with Google meet so when I discover the pin icon there. I thought it will show myself in my screen only. So I often doing it. (Few weeks ago when ma'am Odoño mentioned when you're camera is off, pin yourself so I can see you.) Me at the moment: 😳
I think that's how I look like when I realized everytime I pinned myself my face was flashed in their screen too. I was so embarrassed and cringed at the same time. :>

20025s — 2020-10-08 13:36:21 UTC

Sharing my insights about online class

• Online class is a huge adjustment
- Because, most of us, used to the traditional class, which is we're going to school everyday, rushing for activies, spending time together, fighting or mocking on the classroom physically.

• It's hard to communicate
- Unlike physically you can approach anyone by just tapping or calling them by their names. For me that's much easier because sometimes when you're talking to somebody online. Some of the messages are delayed :) If you didn't pay attention to it, sometimes it was stocked in the outbox. It's not really big deal but, that was just my insights.

• Projects online is much easier or convenient for me
- I'm not a talented person like, I'm not good on drawing or designs using oil pastels, coloring pencils or so on. Because of the online platforms I became much creative and it's not that hassle for me. 'Cause most of the ideas was already in the platform I'll use. So for me it's convenient and easier I guess.

• I appreciate the online resources more
- When we're in traditional class before. I don't rely that much on online things. Like, I get information there, like getting typical research and all that. But now I got discovered that there so many things that I can learn from online. Although before I knew it was there but I don't appreciate it. 'Coz I can just turn to my friends to help me with something that's my mindset before, relying to anybody than learning it, myself.

• This online class I think will be the most memorable experience as a student
- Able to study at the middle of the calamity or this pandemic happening right now is a blessing. It'll be, very memorable because it's unusual experience for all of us, as a student. I think this year is a part of the history. Might be this year was a bad and tragic moments of our lives. But still, there is fun going on and we can still able to enjoy at different ways.

20025s — 2020-10-08 15:36:11 UTC

My realizations in this quarantine

•New normal has come: New normal for me is: We can do our activies or tasks with the safety healthcare protocols. Like, sanitize your hands regularly, always wear a face masks and observe social distancing.

•We are limited to go outside: Most of us are having anxiety attacks and depression, due to community quarantine we aren't able to go outside. So we can't do anything but to stay inside of our houses and continue to live and spend more time, with those who's with you and create new memories with them.

•Time is running: I remember when the community lockdown started way back in March. That's the last month that I able to go outside and since that day I'm here in Pasay, up to until now I haven't go out since March, and I haven't get back to our home yet. And I just realized the year 2020 will end very soon.

•I miss lot of people: I miss my friends so much, my aunties, cousins, my church mates, my noisy neighbors, my chikadora neighbors, the wild cats, wild dogs and so on. (The title of this bullet is about people but I included cats po, cause why not po? 🥺)

•I have so many plans in my mind after lockdown: One of my plans there is: of course wandering anywhere, going somewhere, eating street foods (aaacck! My favorite <3) and also my dream is to be in a varsity team. (Huhuhuhu, pleaseeeee.) And to glow up a little bit, hehehe.

20025s — 2020-10-09 08:33:40 UTC

My bad days

- I'll share little things about my bad days. I'm not perfect and I know all of us are having a bad days. Sometimes it's too bad as bad. I'm a kind of person that who doesn't really have a good temper, it's so seldom that I gave patience to something or someone. Like, I'll really wait for it or keep understanding it as long as I could. My family and friends know how long my patience would take, and they can even describe the measurement of it. (LOL, HAHAHA) I may easily get mad and also I get easily to calm down too. As long they won't heat me up more. When I get mad just give a little moment of peace or silence. Made me realize what I just did or what just happened and unwind for a while. After that if I realized I was wrong. Trust me I'll find a way to apologise and make it up to that someone or somebody.

20025s — 2020-10-12 13:27:20 UTC

FACTS ABOUT ME

- I'm lazy, HAHAHAHA. I admit that I am lazy. Most of the I just want to do nothing, but to chill.
- I easily get tired or bored, this what I noticed to myself that I can't continuously do, what I like to do. Like, I can't be addicted to games, that is so seldom to happen. I tried different online games but I always ending up uninstalling them within 2 days, the longest game I play is one week? Yes or a week and half. I just get easily bored that's why I'm uninstalling them, and to people same thing. I get easily turned off. When I'm turned off with somebody, it's not that I won't treat them nice. But, I avoid them often, rather than talking to them. Yeah, because for me idc what's happening about them.
- I like watching videos from YouTube, why YouTube? Because it's free and I can watch anything there, I won't risk my device just to watch something on other websites. But, if I'm really interested on something, I'll risk my device. HAHAHAH, lol. But I often watch YouTube videos. Like vlogs, something informative but more often is I am watching reality shows.

Yeah I guess I'll end it here.

The End 😗

20025s — 2020-10-12 14:28:01 UTC

Padlet difficulties

Yeah this is my diary so I think I am allowed to rant here po. Shout out to the Padlet application that keeps deleting my notes. It just deleted my four notes! How fun 😑. While I am having difficulties here, I am also having family matters. It also affects me, I am pressured. Sorry ma'am you might read my roughness but this the only I think I can wrute right now. I don't feel good emotionally and mentally and I have to prepare for the exam later on. I need to set a reminders and do multitasking. Because the deadlines waving.

20025s — 2020-10-13 03:29:14 UTC

Early morning...

- I started on a rough day, hehe. Me and my mom had a little argument about some personal matters, and last night I really had a bad mood. Coz my few notes here. Disappeared 😃. Yeah, I almost about to blow because it took me hours to write those, and it will just disappear. How fun. Hehe. So I freaking out right now.

Checklist

20025s — 2020-10-13 04:34:46 UTC

Review - 2:30 PM
Filipino projects - 12:35 pm
Bath - 3:00
Preparations 4:30
Exam:

Perdev : 5 pm
Pagsulat: 6:30 pm

Edit video blog: 7:00 pm
Filipino projects/Empowerment website- 10:30 pm

:This not my sure checklist po, or my actual schedule, and I don't really do checklist but atleast I have now, so I can navigate what will happen to my day.

Last week and this day

20025s — 2020-10-13 04:43:31 UTC

Let me share little things happen about my last week. I am cramming this past few days, hehehe. I am not in mood to do my projects, unless deadlines is near 😚. Not a good habbit po so I am very sorry po. HAHAHAH, and I usually sleep at 3 AM in the morning it's either, I'm doing some of my assignments or watching reality shows, HAHAHAHA. Unhealthy habbit again, I'm sorry po. Let's go about this day naman. Uhmm, few moments ago shoppee delivery arrived. Because my mom accidentally ordered something there in my name. How bad we unable to cancel it because it's ready to be delivered. So it just arrived today and my mom already bought me one of it yesterday. Yeah, so I already have a two products today. So I guess the other one will be my stock instead.

My funny thougths

20025s — 2020-10-13 09:14:43 UTC

- I don't know if it's normal or not, HAHAHAHAHA. I love imagining things or scenarios and make fun of it. Like example I watched something funny and will rewrite the story in my mind. Example me and my friends walking in sidewalks and there's a dog attacked us, in my imagination I pushed one of my friends then laugh hard and quickly ran. HAHAHAH, and I can imagine they're faces right now.

Insert

20025s — 2020-10-13 09:21:32 UTC

- I just want to insert I wrote yesterday that is one of my favorite because I draw a cats there. In that one able to took a screenshot, then the rest is part of my memories :(

Midterms Insights

20025s — 2020-11-17 13:57:18 UTC

- Few months ago, before the midterms exam. I was wondering what midterms was? I thought it is really something intense or hard tasks or anything to do, because that's what I heard on some of the people have been through it. So I am kinda nervous and uncertain about it, hahaha. Then the teachers explained what midterms was, and based on my own connotation. Midterms was like a half of first quarter or also called as first semester. I just find it funny somehow, HAHAHAHA. Idk why.

After Midterms Exam

20025s — 2020-11-17 13:58:46 UTC

- After the midterms exam, it's not so busy because we just have to do normal activities and lessons as well. But it's still kinda challenging everyday, we must do the same routines or time schedules. But we have different tasks to do and new things to learn. I am still adjusting up until now, idk why hehehe.

Asynchronous Week

20025s — 2020-11-17 15:27:02 UTC

- When I heard about the asynchronous week and teachers said: "You don't have to join in the Google meet, we will mark y'all as present." Yeah, all I'm feeling that time was I'm so excited because there is no classes and "activities" 🙂. That's what I thought, not until Ms. Odoño chatted in messenger gc in Macintosh and said "We have an activity and the deadline is tommorow 4pm." I was so shocked and wondering at the same time, because all I thought we don't have to do anything in asynchronous week. But I was wrong, hoho 😭.

Asynchronous Week 2.0

20025s — 2020-11-17 15:36:49 UTC

- Things I did while I don't have classes are: Wake up, ofc I need to wake up first before anything else and.... don't forget to open your eyes first. I'm just kidding, HAHAHAHAHAH. Then, wash my face and brush my teeth 😁🖌️. I don't eat breakfast so it's either I'll drink milk or coffee, the reason I don't eat breakfast because of the diet, hehehe 😁. Then when I'm done drinking my coffee or milk, I will go to YouTube and search for the exercises that I want to do. So far, I am doing it continuously up until now, heheh. The type of exercise I do is, aerobics exercise. After that, I won't eat immediately but it depends on the food 😙. HAHAHAHAHA, then I will check the time or my battery of my phone. After the exercise, I usually put down my phone and watch tv with my lola.

Asynchronous Week 3.0

20025s — 2020-11-17 15:48:18 UTC

- This is the continuation of the 2.0 hehehe, I chopped it into pieces for I will have more entries with few topics. Just kidding, but it's true HAHAHAHAHA. There was a saying "Hitting two birds with one stone." and this my own version of that saying "Hitting multiple ants with one Baygon." Just kidding again, HAHAHAHAHAH. I hope you find it funny ma'am, hehehe. Okay continuation of my day in asynchronous week. After watching TV with my lola, we're going to eat lunch then my lola will sleep and my mom as well. And more radiation for me, because I'm going to surf the internet all day long 🙂, but I will have a one hour or more screen break, because I am going to take a bath and do some little skin care, hoho 😙. I know it's unhealthy to be always in front of the screen, but it's my escape from here in our home, it's like my outside world in virtual version hehehe. Then when it's evening, we are going to prepare dinner and it depends of I'm going to eat a meal or just drink a milk. But even I eat a meal or not, I still drink a milk because for me I'm growing taller when I started drinking milk in the evening, hehehehe. After that, I'm going to wash the dishes and surf in the internet again and wait until midnight, then sleep 🤗. Hehehehe, that's my asynchronous day routine.

Exhausted days?

20025s — 2020-11-17 15:48:42 UTC

- There's a time that idk ma'am, that I am feeling exhausted with no reason. Or maybe there was, I haven't figured it out or I just don't want to admit it to myself. But when I feel exhausted, I am often want to sit somewhere and not talking to anybody just me and my mind or also called as 'me time'. I just want a quiet place or a personal space, where I can think about anything or just want a relaxation. Exhaustion gives me discouragement most of the time, it sometimes hinders me to do things I needed to do. So it's important to start my day with a motivation and positivity. I will avoid some toxic things just to cope up with myself and to keep me going.

Privacy?

20025s — 2020-11-17 16:28:41 UTC

- Before, I was this type of person that I tell everything to anyone just to make a topic and explain myself to them. And I will get mad of them, because they doesn't like me and they judged me at the same time. But things changed? I can say being private is much better, because I don't have to tell anything and explain myself and they're free to judge all they want. Because they doesn't know anything about me, so I'm good with that. Also if there's something bothering me, or things I can't keep in my self anymore, I will look for one person that I can share about it and asks for her insights. Just to know what she's thinking about it. And that's enough for me rn and I don't need more ears just to listen to this kind of thing. Is it a sign of maturity ma'am? hehe, because if is, I'm not ready yet or I'm not into it. Being childish or immature like is fun 🥺.

Elementary Days....

20025s — 2020-11-17 16:51:44 UTC

- I remembered some of the funny experiences and memories way back when I was an elementary student.

• Chinese Garter - I remember before that I'm putting it inside of my skirt's uniform pocket, because if I put it on my bag, my parents will remove it. One time my father noticed that my pocket was bloated, and he asked what's inside of my pocket. And I answered it's just my rolled face towel that's why it looks big on my pocket. I didn't removed it, until we arrived at school. Then after class, I didn't go outside the school yet because I am seeking for a playmates to play a chinise garter with me. (note: you are useless in your playmates, if you don't jump high. But I'm exempted because I'm the owner of the garter 🥰.)

• Choco choco - choco choco is a chocolate cream stick. Way back when I was a grade one, choco choco is a trend in our class room. We bought it from our teacher and eat it at class. And we're doing a weird thing there hahaha, I called it weird because I just realized that it's disgusting. This is what we do to choco choco, we will get a paper and pour choco choco in the middle of the blank paper (the paper we used is a pad paper or notebook paper). And we're going to flip it but we need to secure that it won't leak, then after flipping the paper with choco choco. We we're going to put it on the feet? of our chairs? (idk what's the proper term for it, HAHAHA. I hope feet is valid.). and wait for few minutes and it will get harden. Then after few minutes when you get it from the feet's chair, you'll removed it from the paper and enjoy your instant chocolate cube. Bon Appetit 👩‍🍳.

• Bilao - I remember way back before, in CAA elementary school. There is a traditional? I considered it traditional way of buying the food. It is called Bilao. The Bilao looks like a big rectangle basket contains with different kinds of snacks or foods. There is two people assigned to pick it up from the canteen and returning it to the canteen. I know every elementary female student studying at CAAES, dreamed to be a one of the Bilao girls. Because Bilao girls has advantage to go out instantly and take their time outside the classroom as long it's not yet recess time. Sometimes Bilao girls can go out 30 mins. earlier before recess. The teachers agrees to that because the line in the canteen is unpredictable. And I am one of a Bilao girls when I was in grade six. One of the happiest moment in my life as a elementary, HAHAHAHAHAH.

Today (Friday, Nov. 20, 2020)

20025s — 2020-11-19 17:46:45 UTC

- Good morning, it's around 1 am and I am not sleepy yet so I decided to do my activities/projects little by little. By the way, I woke up around 9 am earlier and I wash my face and brush my teeth. Then I exercise immediately, but I stop in the middle of my exercise because I felt dizzy and nauseous. So I decided to eat breakfasts and drink a coffee. After that I rest and watch TV with my Lola, I scrolled im the internet because I am feeling lazy to do our tasks hehehe (in short I'm cramming.) Which is not a good habit and I'm working on with that, then before 3 I took a bath then prepare for my online class. Then Elinda called me, we just talk about things happening on school and also our activities. Then now I am here recording what happened in my day. In the end of the daI, I realized the things you've done, matters. That's all thank you.

Today (Sunday, November 22, 2020)

20025s — 2020-11-22 06:44:34 UTC

- Today is Sunday and I just watched CCF Sunday service. And I was so enlightened about things in life, God always impressed me with His wisdom. I always learned something new from him, too bad that I don't frequently study about His word. Let me share some of my takeaway from the service, Pstr. Tan-Chi said "Be deeply rooted in God. So when the storms of life come, you and I will stand firm." By that simple phrase, it changed my perspective quickly, I always trying to rely on my own strength (that's doesn't bad at all) but I am sometimes trying to be alone or do things by myself (which is so bad at all) I frequently forgot that I have a parents, who is there for me for better or for worse. I also have friends who can understand and sympathize you as well. But I am always trying to do things all by myself not trying to get someone's sagacity or wisdom who might helped me with my things (not even to God). So this makes me realize that I need to be deeply rooted to God that can help me to be more strong and not be shaken by the storms of life.

What are the top characteristics that I'm looking for in a relationship - family, friends and significant other?

20025s — 2020-11-25 11:52:37 UTC

The first top characteristics that I am looking for is, understanding. I know to myself that I am not perfect and I have flaws too, I need someone who can understand me. Next is, same vibe. It's easy to create a relationship with friends, family and significant other if you and them have a same vibe. Next is, comfortable. I doesn't like awkward feeling among them. I want them to feel comfortable with me, so I can be comfortable with them as well. Next is, trustworthy. Nowadays, I am having a trust issues and uncertainties about being honest about myself with the people around me, I tell them some but not everything. Last is, can accept me. I can't develop a relationship to anyone or anybody if they cannot accept who I am. Although I can adjust myself, but not all the time.