Journaling for mental Wellbeing. by

I am so happy to be here :)

parulenso — 2021-10-01 16:40:08 UTC

Hey, I am great. Thanks for this opportunity to journal with like minded people!

2021-10-01 16:50:06 UTC

2021-10-02 14:32:16 UTC

This is calming

I hope that this expression of thoughts should give opportunity to vent out in a better way. Thankx

2021-10-04 04:32:09 UTC

I felt good to express myself and look at positive side rather than flaws.. it was relaxing exercise..

parulenso — 2021-10-04 06:51:29 UTC

04/10/21

2021-10-04 08:42:04 UTC

I am proud of myself for taking up things that allow me to push myself. <3

2021-10-04 10:50:28 UTC

It's okay to not be okay.

What are the things you feel proud of yourself?

2021-10-04 17:08:06 UTC

1) my existence as a human being!
2) that I receive love and care!
3) to be happy and enjoying doing little, little things in life. It gives me immense pleasure! (watching the vast open sky, the ocean, listening to chirping of birds, staring at rains, beneath the palate feeling the squashing sound of pani-puris, randomly calling up the near ones and getting on to a long conversations, taking care of my plants, etc...)
3) to laugh on silly and stupid acts of mine!
4) to the empathy that I feel for others in their pains and sufferings!

I am proud of the way I am handling the things .

2021-10-05 00:43:42 UTC

I am proud of the fact that I try and keep my family connected well.
I am proud that I speak to my both side parents and stay connected daily communicating s with them.

I'm proud of being me, warts and all!!

2021-10-05 03:50:41 UTC

Things which make me laugh (5.10.21)

parulenso — 2021-10-05 05:37:02 UTC

🤪remembering old memories and fun times with friends

Watching random comedy things 📺

Making jokes on myself in front of eveyone.😂

Laughing about things which I took too seriously earlier in life .. 🤭🤭🤭

Making messy art.🖍️🖍️🖍️

Nightouts.

Dancing like no one is watching 👯‍♂👯‍♂

Playing with kids

Doing cheating while playing board games ♟️

Enjoying the moment without worry, tension or any baggages of future or past

I realised while writing it .. I have become too serious in life .. and I need to add humour and take things little lightly 5.10.21

parulenso — 2021-10-05 06:14:12 UTC

Things that I am proud of

2021-10-05 11:16:13 UTC

I was one of the two people who cracked GATE in first attempt in my collage till that day.

I had developed a product for a very reputed company which they could not for a very long time.

I feel proud that I am schedule driven.

I am proud to get admission in a college where my father was denied admission.

People from my past organization still remember me, not only for my work, but for the person I was.

2021-10-05 14:39:49 UTC

An evening walk, a sound sleep at night, peaceful mornings,chatting with friends, being positive are the small things that make happy and satisfied

Things that make me happy

2021-10-05 15:54:33 UTC

Food, sometimes even smell of some good recipe

Sweets, Chocolates, Cake

Somebody remembering my likes and dislikes and doing something about that, may be even a small thing

Meeting close friends and family

Nice cool breeze

Secluded mountain tops or calm beaches

F.R.I.E.N.D.S and Big Bang theory

Things that make me happy and bring laughter and also makes me feel at ease.

2021-10-05 17:00:46 UTC

Watching romantic movie makes me happy .
Feeling loved makes me happy.
My son comes running to hug me makes me happy.
Gifts make me happy.
Spending time with good friends brings laughter on my face.
Talking to Ni and thinking how easy that feeling bring back the easy feeling .
Now just being with myself makes me feel relaxed and easy.

2021-10-05 18:17:26 UTC

Being with friends
Long Drive
Watching a good movie
Flowers
Spending good time with my family
Accomplishing a decided task
When I cook something really good
Reading favourite authors

I m proud of myself for

2021-10-05 18:21:37 UTC

My sincerity
My transperency
My faith
My adjustable nature
My academic achievement
My ability to take efforts

parulenso — 2021-10-06 06:19:43 UTC

I feel my stress is like big snow ball. Which is made up of diffrent things .. and cumulatively which results in stress. these things are need of perfection , not able to prioratize , worrying about others per perception , fear of failure , unrealistic goals.
All these things are colourful and somewhere admired by society ( perfect person , person who is liked by everyone ) buy when these things come together It has lot of weight and I feel exhausted.

How does my stress looks like

2021-10-06 16:36:26 UTC

Please don't mind since I did not gave colours.

Image

2021-10-06 16:36:31 UTC

_{🙄🤕🥴🧵❓❓
Red}

How does my stress look like

2021-10-06 17:56:00 UTC

color red

Part of my life that I have put on hold

2021-10-07 03:06:11 UTC

Maybe being in relationship

And there are two three reasons for that.
Maybe I don't know what exactly I am looking for in a relationship,
Somewhere had a feeling that right person will enter in life automatically at right time,
And Felt like there were certain other things which I was chasing, which at moments were more important for me, so I used to feel that I am wasting my time. Maybe because it was not the right person in front of me.

Things I have put on hold.

parulenso — 2021-10-07 06:34:31 UTC

1 a need to live in current moment .. cause I m constantly planning or juggling things so I have put spontanity on hold

2 . I have put on hold mu expressions over others needs

3. My priorities while prioratizing other people in my life.

Things I hve put on hold

2021-10-07 16:53:23 UTC

There are many small things and don't exactly know why?some are due to constraints because of kids and family
Small road trips
Rainy picnics
Exploring Mumbai
Online shopping
Meeting up with buddies
Swimming
Learning to play some musical instrument
.............

I have put on hold...

2021-10-08 06:12:23 UTC

My life that I have imagined it to be. Due to choices that I made.
My own priorities toward me that shoud have come first .
This is out of sheer ignorence toward me.
My sketching/ painting that I use to love doing ..out is sheer lethargy.
My dancing or exersizing.. due to my physical condition s and my not acting towards it to rectify.

I feel.very secured when I am around N.

2021-10-08 06:15:33 UTC

Also When my father is around.
I feel grounded when I read something and about some really good imaspiring personalities like Abdul kalam.

I love to listen to songs like " Ganga baheti hai kyu "
Which makes me feel really grounded .

parulenso — 2021-10-08 09:26:41 UTC

I feel secured with my husband and kid , i can actually discuss anything with them on this earth. I also feel secure with my father although we dont get much time these days. I always feel connected with him. I feel secure in my earlier room where i feel i can be myself , there are no masks no pretends , no need to behave in any particular way , i m much more relaxed there , i also feel very comfortable when i get tight hug by my loved ones, i feel grounded and supported. I feel relaxed when i can express my feelings and they are heard , when i hear Shaam or ye hosala song.

The thing that make you feel grounded

2021-10-10 09:45:18 UTC

My sis

3 ways I m hard on myself

2021-10-10 09:52:48 UTC

1. Scolding kids for their overuse of internet
2. Occasional low feeling
3. Being criticised by close people