A conscience that currently lives in me by Sung Jun Choi Hong

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Here's what I remember.

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Midnight.

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Schubert.

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Mind disordered.

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Cold.

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Exhausted.

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Attributes

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Swollen eye = black wolf
Winter journey = Dyrk Wyst
Lies = Beth Wonson
Enough = Shane Ede
Complaints = Iowa Attorney General Tom Miller
Excuses = Loriann Garner
Conversation = Alan B Katz
Ponder = Chen-en-lee
Mind disordered = Julicious Photography
Midnight = Lets Eatt Rainbows
Schubert =postcardlady1
Exhausted =Sura Ark

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It was in the middle of the school week as I was procrastinating on my homework the night before like usual. I was just working on my Topics homework, with my textbook and music ready, but felt unmotivated to understand it and to just do it.

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But as the song Erstarrung, from Winterreise, began to play, my mind and senses awoke.

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This all started in my room, while I was sitting on my worn out, squeaky chair. Erstarrung, with its’ hysteria like moments, and repetitive swaying of emotions, lectured and questioned my way of life.

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It felt as if the song was telling me,

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Grasping these kinds of thoughts, it made me THINK about hard work and the time I have. I asked myself, “Why am I not working hard to accomplish or to truly understand something when I have so much time to do so?

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I wanted to talk with Schubert. I wanted to learn his direction in this song. Moreso, I wanted him to tell me how I should be living my life.

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As I replayed the song, my mind left reality and envisioned a man wearing his winter jacket, his scarf hanging around his neck, his eyes swollen from tears, his eyes looking vastly into the snow, his body sauntering, his feet in haste, and his facial expression showing desire but confusion.

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176310 — 2016-12-27 05:06:45 UTC

I let Winterreise play on, thinking to myself that I know what I should be doing right now, which was finishing my tasks and seeing another day in life.

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But the wanderer…He resides in my in the back of my mind, constantly reminding me to not be like him but to move past these despairing moments in life when you want to quit and to seek for an answer in life by working for it.

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