None of those people were you. You know what else wasn’t you?

You’re not the person who broke my heart. You’re not the person I remember every time I hear sad and heartbreaking songs. The places we went to for our dates are also not the places I hid from or stayed away from for a long time. Most of all, you’re not the person who needed all those fancy efforts just for you to fall in love with me.

Just a few conversations ago, you mentioned that you’re weren’t able to experience my fancy (and very public) efforts. But it was never problem for us, it was never an issue, even at that same moment you told me about it. Because we’re not that type of couple, and you’re not that type of boy.

I was wrong before when I said that you made me believe again. Because “again” sounds like a replay of the past, and you gave me something new to believe. You made me believe in something that I thought I already knew. You made me believe of what a truthful and fruitful relationship should be like.

COMFORT. The way we show each other’s embarrassing habits without feeling ashamed 

SUPPORT. The way we support each other’s plans and dreams for the future no matter how shallow and bizarre some of it are.

CONNECTION. The way we get to create film-worthy stories just by completing each other’s sentences and thoughts.

CONTENTMENT. They way I feel unconditionally happy to be yours for as long as God would allow.

So yes, you are not my first love. But you’re the first person to make me realize and feel all these things, all these and so much more. You’re honestly also the first relationship I had where I never questioned the universe “is he really the one?” Or “Is this all I deserve?” And I feel like it’s because for the first time, with you… I never felt like there was a dead end, I always know that there’s a future to look forward to together.

I love making plans with you. I love loving you.

And I want to take you to all those beautiful places I’ve been to, dedicate all those love songs I grew up with, and I’ll make you feel that you’re the most amazing boy in the world every single day for as long as we’re together, and for as long as I live. I’m going to give you everything I wasted on the wrong people, people who’ve hurt me in the past, because I know that this time around it’s worth it. I know that you’re worth it. And those songs and places wouldn’t be about them anymore, it will about you, where God intended.

Truly yours,
Your Ggomaengee. (≧∇≦*)