https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm Marriage is a mystery, and part of it is just being kind to each other, not being selfish. en-us 2017-01-05 18:53:25 UTC 2017-01-06 06:44:18 UTC hello@padlet.com madbar555 https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145576668 I need a new look. I've already cut my hair, but I feel as though more should change in my life. I don't feel like doing much, except for cooking and scrubbing floors, it calms me. sometimes I wonder how John and Salamanca feel about the change, and the arrival of the baby soon. Then everything would be fine.]]> 2017-01-05 19:03:42 UTC https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145576668 madbar555 https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145580253 I had the baby. its a boy. I couldn't stand the fact that I couldn't hold him and that he died inside of me, he was kicking earlier this morning. Now he's gone.

"It didn't make it," John repeated. Tears started rushing down my face. As it was time to leave, I saw Sal looking, sad. I was confused, she wasn't the holding a baby for 9 months. But then I realized, she was sad because she thinks she harmed the baby]]> 2017-01-05 19:14:58 UTC https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145580253 madbar555 https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145595189 Last week, I bought my bus ticket, to get away. I'm not packing much, ill be back soon enough. I wrote a note to my family, there's not much to explain. I took my suitcase and walked to the main road from the farm. It was hard to find a ride in the country. And soon enough ill be at the bus station.]]> 2017-01-05 20:12:58 UTC https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145595189 madbar555 https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145629770 On the bus, I sat next to a woman named Margaret Cadaver. We got to kow each other very well on  te trip to Idaho together. She also told me about a tragic car aqccident that happen between her mothee and husband  and the drunk driver who's punishment was simply not enough. Shortly after, the  bus took a wild turn, and the entire bus just tumbled over down the railing off the road. To me, it was like in slow motion, like in one of the movies where something dramatic happened and the movie editor slows it down. People flew out of seats, heads were bumped blood in the air, then before my eys, the metal bar from the front of the bus stabbed me in my lower abdomen. it was a very slow and painful death.]]> 2017-01-06 05:57:06 UTC https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145629770 madbar555 https://padlet.com/madbar555/df278jqjbwkm/wish/145630195 I died. I hate the fact how my life just ended. I wish it was more peacefully and less tragic. I left my family, missed the chance to see my cousin. I think about Sal, every minute of the day. She wasn't surprised at the end of her story, meaning, she knew I was gone, she just didn't want to believe it. She was scared of cars and buses because every time she thought about it, shed be reminded of me in a bad way,

"I prayed that we would not be in a accident.(I was terrified by cars and buses)" (7)

She's brave and strong and she gets it from me, her mother. I will always be around, singing to Sal and john, in the trees.


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