Conscious Leadership Session: Virtual Community Board by Maaso Kalema https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2 Throughout the session and after post any comments, questions, thoughts, acknowledgements & appreciations here! en-us 2020-03-16 00:05:45 UTC 2025-11-19 19:26:58 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet.net/icons/png/267e.png Appreciation cbreiner https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526919706 Adam, I appreciate your vulnerability. My thoughts are with you while you're healing. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:04:30 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526919706 Article https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526921572 This article may be helpful for you Adam or any others that are loss due to COVID-19.  

]]> 2020-04-23 21:05:49 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526921572 Ambiguity: lack of clarity from our leaders - when dealing with COVID-19. https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526922772 Uncertainty: about our students, families, communities, and schools.

]]> 2020-04-23 21:06:31 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526922772 Complexity https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526923599 Story: I have to fix everything. I have to be everything to everyone. And I have to work even harder than I did before. 

Acknowledgement: I realized I can't fix everything. & I also realized that if I don't take care of myself, I can't take care of others. I'd like to be acknowledged for taking a day off tomorrow to give myself some rest & time to clear my head. (I recognize this is coming with deep privilege to be able to have a job that allows me to take the day off, paid.) ]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:03 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526923599 Uncertainty https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526923761 Hearing everyone's stories heightened my sense  of uncertainty. People that I have thought always have it together are going through so much right now and it's hard to see them feel uncertain, which then leads to  more uncertainty for me. 

]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:10 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526923761 asmith https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526923923 I tend to overthink things regardless of it is through this tough time of COVID-19 or otherwise (something Travis, Liz, and Adam know quite well... APPRECIATE YOU ALL!). I create stories about how I'm going to fail finance class, lose my summer job, become more and more separated and introverted...

However, I am trying to find the time to ground myself in conscious leadership, especially right now. 

Story: I lost my summer job.

Acknowledgement: That has not happened. 

Story: I am going to fail finance.

Acknowledgement: I'm currently rocking a B in that class. Where did that come from?]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:16 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526923923 Complexity https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924108 I pride myself as someone who "figure things out," and it's been pretty tough to not be able to figure COVID out or be in control of anything around that. 
I want to be acknowledged for attempting to let go of that tendency, and find peace with some of the complexity, even when it's a struggle]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:24 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924108 Complexity: I'm struggling with ways I can effectively yet understandably support my scholars and their families in the ways they need while still taking into account what I need in these moments. I feel like I'm not doing enough or I'm doing too much and am being overwhelming. https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924109
Acknowledgement: I want to be acknowledged for the efforts I have made and that my actions are coming from a place of truly caring and loving my students. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:24 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924109 Volatility. https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924254 Story: So much is changing no matter what I do or plan it will irrelevant and unhelpful for myself or others.  Looks like freezing, numbing emotions. 

Acknowledgement: I'd like to be acknowledged for noticing being in a mode of "over producing" and stepping back to see what's there. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:30 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924254 Uncertainty https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924393 I find myself often worrying about my personal, family's, and the communities in which we serve safety during this time. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:36 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924393 Uncertainty https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924432 Im very type A and feel I am my most comfortable when I know expected outcomes and this time has made me feel stressed about things I was unprepared for ]]> 2020-04-23 21:07:38 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924432 I try to always find a LOGICAL answer to everything and plan from there. I have found that under that present circumstance logic is not working, because this situations is so interdependent of so many factors that has taken by surprise everyone. Now I am more in an adaptation phase, and more than planning I just try to keep up day by day. https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924679 2020-04-23 21:07:48 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526924679 Uncertainty https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526925847 As someone who struggles with anxiety, the uncertainty surrounding how our way of life will be effected now and long term has been emotionally taxing. 

]]> 2020-04-23 21:08:38 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526925847 Volatility: I am use to change and change at a fast pace, but with COVID-19, I feel that I am not in control of the changes that are taking place so fast. https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526927687 2020-04-23 21:09:59 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526927687 Volatility and Uncertainty adam286 https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526928094 Aside from the passing of family I am constantly worried and uncertain about my other family members. My sister is a medical professional working on testing covid patients and we have chosen to not to see our mother to protect her in the event we both get exposed and that has been really hard for me. 

]]> 2020-04-23 21:10:17 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526928094 Uncertainty: My Mother is 81 years old and my Brother is 64 years old and they are my family, and their ages are those of the most susceptible people. That's my daily worry. https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526931243 2020-04-23 21:12:32 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526931243 Predicted Future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526935722 I haven't thought about this. I keep telling myself, if I just give 200% this week, I can "rest" next week. And that was 6 weeks ago. thinking about my immediate future, if I don't break this, "stressed me" and the way I have been operating will burn all bridges and relationships.]]> 2020-04-23 21:15:45 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526935722 asmith - predicted future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526935870 If I do not change, I will fail my classes. I will also allow myself to deteriorate to the point of crippling depression. As someone who struggles with mental health issues, I know that if I do not reflect or take the time to work on myself during this time, I will reach a low. Once I did not take care of myself well mentally and only got out of bed to teach, then immediately collapsed into my bed again. Eating and showering felt like chores with no rewards. I need to take care of myself so that nothing becomes this extreme again.]]> 2020-04-23 21:15:52 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526935870 Predicted futures https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937337 If I continue this way I tend to harshly judge myself and other's contributions to "fixing" the problem and become less generous with the way I see myself and others. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:16:46 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937337 Predicted Future: Depression, Sadness, Burn-out, Loneliness https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937641 2020-04-23 21:16:59 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937641 Predicted future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937680 If I don't pause & take care of myself, I won't be able to take care of others. My emotions will be volatile, and I'll feel helpless. I'll become distant to people I love the most & I won't experience the joy of life that could be there for me if I choose something different. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:17:01 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937680 Predicted Future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937737 If I do not change I'm not only going to be failing my current students but also my future students. This will also majorly effect my anxiety as a teacher and allow me to not believe in myself like I had been able to do the past few years. 

]]> 2020-04-23 21:17:03 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937737 Predicted Future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937887 High levels of stress and anxiety that I then spread to the people in my life that I care about the most; dissatisfaction with my own life; depression]]> 2020-04-23 21:17:10 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526937887 Predicted Future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526938017 If I do not change, I will continue to further misalign myself with what I want to be true. I will burn out and isolate myself. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:17:16 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526938017 Predicted Future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526938254 If I don't change I will not be able to be my best self for others. I need to prioritize myself and give myself more credit for the things I do]]> 2020-04-23 21:17:25 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526938254 More worried for my husband than for me. Because he is in job considered essential. https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526941619 2020-04-23 21:19:42 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526941619 Possible Future https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526945002 Have - I want to invent the possibility about having peace with what is unknown & to approach each day as a new one, not with the same dread I normally have. 

Be - it calls me to be peace and joy, and it also calls me to be compassionate to myself and to others. 

Do - Instead of starting and ending my day on the phone, I'm going to start and end my day with gratitude, whether it be a random text to someone, a phone call, or a conversation with my partner over coffee. I'm also going to hold time for myself to use the Headspace app & move my body & not shame myself for whether it was a world renowned workout or not. I just need to move. ]]> 2020-04-23 21:22:01 UTC https://padlet.com/maasokalema/dbh5s9hg8pl2/wish/526945002