Who am I as human being ; a student ;a son and a brother ; and a friend?

In this blog, You've better know not only my identity but also my experiences, memories , feelings, relationship, values, strength and weaknesses and thought that defines my personality. Some people might be clueless what I want to be or what I want to do.

Reading these personal blog of mine might give you a chance to picture out or imagine the best version of my personality by giving you a chance to be my friend.

I Am As Myself

I am a boy in med-teenage . Im also an Ambivert person, a good listener to talk with. From childhood, I love to enteract people by socializing, traveling and making them friends. Accompanying people will give motivation, inspiration, and a lesson to face the many circumstances in daily life. I also know my limits in everything to avoid my family worrying about me. If I travelled alone or with my friends I always keep in touch/ chatting my parents to let them know that I'm safe. I also have a helping hand and volunteer myself if needed to make things possible like my parents do. I am happy to serve and work with my colleagues anytime.

I Am In Relationship

Yes! I am in Relationship with god and my family. I may not always in church everyday but God knows that I'm his believer and one of his child. My family is my top priority. They are my favorite person who teach me everything or something that they want me to know as a teenager. I am a boy who currently avoid temptation by girls and prevent social vices to aim my goals. I always choose to decide the right thing without having depend to others .

I am a Son and a Brother

I am a son and a brother that come from an ordinary family. I have 7 siblings in the family and only 1 female . I am the 2nd eldest son/ a brother who can willing to do everything to help and support my family. I try to show good habits and maintain to achieve what I want for my siblings. I have a quality time to play with them, sharing my problems in school activities and I always reminding my family that I love them with care. I respect my parents decisions over myself. I appreciate small things from the hardwork of my parents to feed, support and letting us to pursue in college. I am a son who already know the multi-tasking activities at home to have an extra income for the monthly expenses. I am a son who find ways to solve the problem of my parent. I am a son who afraid to lost my golden strength.

In my young age, I learned the different types of responsibilities to survive . At the age of 15, I'll become a helper in masonry, carpentry, a welder, and now I'm a barker which I support my studies for additional allowance in college. I am proud to let people know my family status who we are and where I come from.

I Am a student

I am a student who manage my lesson very well. I'm a dreamer and give hope to my parents were they can appreciate my efforts and dedication in life.

In my Elementary and Secondary level I am a consistent student who never neglect my teachers proposal to join many extra curricular activities with the support of my family and friends like scouting, pageants, drummer, and become an athlete. I don't hesitate to ask my professor if there is a thing that I do not understand. Also, I am so grateful to my fellow classmates, friends, teachers and families for helping when I got struggling the lessons and need them to rescue. Without them, I don't know what Im gonna do.

Therefore, I considered my self as an achiever, lovable , responsible, and most discipline person. I can stand in my own feet for better tomorrow and become a hero to my beloved family .

My beloved readers I will let to remind you that "There's always a rainbow after the rain".

" MY BIGGEST FEAR "

Fear is an illusion. Facing fears will unlock potential. Life of fragility remind us to live fully cherish each breath for the love ones.

There's a lot of fears that we might be encounter in these world about work, goals, personal lifestyle and love ones.

My biggest fear is losing the people I love were I can relying on ; they are my inspiration and my motivator to reach out my vision, mission, and goals in life. My love ones is my everything . They are my fuels were I could gain my strength from weaknesses ; without them my world stop or stuck in the storage room. The thought of living without them is unbreakable. My life is nonsense if they're not around.

Everyday, I worry about their safety, health, and happiness. What if something terrible happens? What if I lose them forever?

This fear affects my relationship to others. Maybe it making me clingy and over protective person. I can't stop myself to let go struggles. Sometimes, my mind spirals into worst-case scenarios like accidents, illnesses or irreversible losses. These dark thoughts haunt me, stealing peace and joy.

I tried to comfort this fear by practicing mindfulness and presence, focusing an cherished moments, have self-care and must seeking support from my loved ones.

Therefore, I believe this inspirational quotes " Face your Fears and they will disappear"- Anonymous.

" WHAT KEEPS ME GOING "

What keeps me going is You .

Yes! It's you Mother dear.

You're the main reason why I wake up everyday.

You're the main reason why I study hard and to have a part-time job.

You're the reason for my achievements .

You are the reason who give hope and light our inner and outer space.

You're the main reason why I don't quit the task .

You're the main reason why I have a good heart.

Everything is YOU.

Because of you I learned how to be responsible for my brothers, I manage my school duties, I can handle and stand in my own feet what ever happens. You give light in our home in bad times and good times. You're dreams is my dreams for better life . I don't want seeing you crying for problems financially but we can't excuse that problem because it's already given. I owe you my life by raising us in a good way.

Mother , I do my best to stay strong no matter how hard life gets sometimes.

But there are just times when I get overwhelmed. It can be something small that pushes me over the edge or just the weight of it all crushing my spirit. No matter the reasons, who, why or how. Sometimes, the tears just come bursting out in silence.

And often, that’s just what needs to happen. Maybe I need a quick cry in silence when I fall asleep to let it all out. I don't want to felt sorry for myself . I understand you when you I saw you crying in front/ behinding us.

Whatever the reason is, I know that those little moments of emotional release keep me moving forward sometimes.

I am not weak and I am able to overcome anything, so I am never going to cry because I can not handle to deal with it.

I can deal with anything life wants to throw at me.

But at the end of a long day full of frustration , a quick outburst just seems to do the trick.

It doesn’t make me weak.

It makes me human.

And I’ll take real, emotional passion over lackluster and dull any day.

I use the tears, the failures and the struggle to fuel the fire that keeps me burning brightly every day.

I won’t say every day is a win or that I always have it all together,

But I’ll never stop rising up out of the ashes of a bad day, broken heart or emotional wreckage.

I’m a strong young man who prioritized my love ones , have faith in God and a contented. And this is my life.