I think I have been searching for fulfillment. I think I’m a very content person but just to be. I’m not sure if that makes sense but just to go with what interests me at the moment. but like longing to follow what small things I find really enjoyable at the moment. I really wish my answer was more faith based.

Often I take refuge in distraction, primarily by just scrolling on my phone, or watching tv, or something similar. When I'm stressed or just trying to ignore my problems, that's where I often go. It usually takes me until the problem has gotten really bad to realize again my need for God, and run to Him for my comfort and safety.

I think that sometimes I tend to make people my idols. I started to realize a few months ago that so much of my happiness is based on how much I feel loved by others. It's definitely the whole Fear of Man thing. There could be so much freedom in just focusing on loving other people and following God. I was talking to my priest about it the other day, and he said that loving our neighbor starts with realizing God's love for us - without God, we cannot fully succeed in loving others.

How do you spend your time? What are your daily priorities? What things do you invest time in every day?

I don't spend my time the most productive, especially right now when I feel the most pressure because of finals and a big transition in my life coming up. I tend to avoid doing the things I'm supposed to and the consequentially the things I enjoy the most or the things that would make me feel better. On a daily basis, my priorities would be spending a comfortable amount of time with people, no more and no less than what I want, and getting the bare minimum done. I invest time in my friends and my own comfort most days.

I think in terms of what I desire, I have been working for about a year now on physically strengthening my body and improving upon my endurance and physique. I don't think this is a bad thing, however, I have to be careful that I do not become obsessed with perfecting my own image of my body and end up in a sense just worshiping that image.

And for the question who do I obey, I think the answer is a little more complex than just: my parents. At a shallow level I try to obey God's will and my parents commands but at a deeper level I think I often do things based off of what my friends are doing so that I can retain their respect for me.

I hope that my strength will last a long time. Much of my time goes into doing things that require physical strength and I think it will be dissapointing when I grow too old to do these things that i enjoy doing. I have struggled in the past when I have been injured because it has slowed or stopped me from training. Also, i'm kind of thought of as "the strong one" in my friend groups which doesn't help. it just makes me lean into that as a bit of an identity even more.

I guess I could say that I hope that my friendships and relationships will last. I don't really know what I would do if I were no longer friends with certain people, or if I had developed poor relationships with my family members. But my relationships right now are good, and I don't ever want to lose them - I only want them to become deeper and better as I get older.