https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2 "𝐢𝐟 𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐲 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧, 𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐨𝐧 𝐚 𝐛𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐬, 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐚𝐰𝐧, 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠" en-us 2022-01-20 16:54:24 UTC 2023-01-26 03:46:26 UTC hello@padlet.com https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1629694242273-71ac9adbf6e1?crop=entropy&cs=srgb&fm=jpg&ixid=Mnw3ODI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MTB8fGJsYWNrJTIwYW5kJTIwd2hpdGUlMjBmbG93ZXJ8ZW58MHx8fHwxNjQyNjk3NzUz&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=85 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003363096 2022-01-20 16:59:40 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003363096 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003531735 2022-01-20 18:16:51 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003531735 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003538685 2022-01-20 18:19:58 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003538685 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003687541 2022-01-20 19:33:48 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2003687541 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005066199 2022-01-21 14:05:32 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005066199 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005081906 2022-01-21 14:13:39 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005081906 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005089912 2022-01-21 14:17:17 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005089912 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005090682 2022-01-21 14:17:40 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005090682 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005460092 2022-01-21 17:18:35 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2005460092 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006060704 imagine having a bsf and everyone thinks she's a bad influence and dragging you down. smh]]> 2022-01-22 03:59:08 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006060704 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006062376 2022-01-22 04:01:49 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006062376 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006062988 2022-01-22 04:02:57 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006062988 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006064972 2022-01-22 04:06:44 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006064972 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006072369 i can't do this anymore. i'm hurting myself trying to figure shit out. i constantly fake a smile so i don't have to talk abt my true feelings. it's much easier to hurt myself, bottle up my feelings and cry myself to sleep every night then admit i'm depressed. or admit i need help. i get headaches taking drugs to fix my problems. i stay up at night trying to get shit done but end up crying til i can't anymore. i can't keep living like this. i can't keep hurting myself and losing my smile. i'm losing those who truly care by not sharing my problems. sharing all these overwhelming emotions that are slowing killing me is hard. i feel like shit. i want to end things. i'm tired of trying my hardest when it clearly isn't good enough. i get told i'm not good enough, or i'm gonna fail school all bc my emotions are too much. i wish someone believed i could do something in life and keep their word. i'm just so done with everything.  ]]> 2022-01-22 04:20:04 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2006072369 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2008681071 istfg if my mom says my friends are the reason for me being so depressed and mentally drained one more fucking time, i'm seriously going to kms ]]> 2022-01-24 12:55:26 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2008681071 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009019369 2022-01-24 15:14:49 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009019369 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009033929 2022-01-24 15:20:08 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009033929 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009578137 2022-01-24 18:58:38 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009578137 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009592714 2022-01-24 19:05:12 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009592714 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009629657 2022-01-24 19:22:53 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2009629657 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2013714210 2022-01-26 14:57:08 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2013714210 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2013725651 I'm so mentally drained that I don't even want to do things that I love to do. All I want to do is sleep. 😴]]> 2022-01-26 15:01:32 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2013725651 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2014266636 2022-01-26 18:40:57 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2014266636 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2017043424 2022-01-28 01:18:11 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2017043424 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018181008 I'm at the point where I'm so mentally exhausted and emotionally unstable that all I'm physically able to do is cry, sleep and stress-eat. I'm also at the point where I don't give a fuck about anything anymore, and I don't trust as much. Ik I'm just going to get screwed over in the end. I'm going to fuck something up and hurt myself even more, like always. I'm tired of giving my all and trying so hard if it's just going to be worthless in the end. I'm so tired of being worthless. ]]> 2022-01-28 16:07:41 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018181008 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018350724 I fucking hate fake ass friends. yk- like the one person whose friends with your friend, but you actually fucking hate them, but up w/ them anyway bc you don't want your friend to be mad? yeah. them. I have one of those people in my life, who have to put up w/ all the damn time. and frankly, I'm just about done w/ their shit. i've been putting up w/ their shit so fucking long, and ideky. like- i don't like them, and they're (kind of) a bad person. they always "steal/take" (if you will) my friends, and either turn them against me, or hang out w/ them more than me, or they'll even talk shit about me directly to my friends behind my back. As if they think my friends aren't going to tell me the shit they're saying. bc ik. I just don't draw attention to it, bc i'd rather keep it to myself and let it go pass. unlike you, who drags and drags on problems that happened in the past. like - let it go, everyone else has. also, why pretend to be my friend - what exactly do you think I have to offer you? I'm not that smart, I'm mentally-ill, and I'm not popular (hence having like - little to no friends) and on-top of that I'm not rich either. I have nothing to offer, so what's the point? ]]> 2022-01-28 17:36:34 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018350724 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018385615 2022-01-28 17:55:43 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018385615 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018443808 2022-01-28 18:29:15 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018443808 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018784249 having an emotionally abusive dad and a sympathic mother is one of the worst feelings of hurt in the world. bc more often than not, no matter what you do, you're failing to please one. and then you feel awful bc it feels like you constantly have to chose between one or the other and that's not how things should have to be. ]]> 2022-01-29 00:10:21 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2018784249 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2019231539 I told my mom that my bsf dropped out of school yesterday and that bitch really said "good, now maybe you'll be happy" like- wtf- ]]> 2022-01-29 15:23:43 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2019231539 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2019505889 I am so beyond tired of having a dad who keeps hurting me emotionally, and thinking "it'll be better tomorrow." bc it's clearly not getting any better. especially, when he keeps telling me I can't do anything, or he's disappointed in me, or that I all I'm going to flunk and have to repeat the entire grade. then he acts like that's supposed to make me work harder, but in reality it just hurts and breaks me down even more, and I'm not just going to sit here and let him shit all over me and make me feel awful for trying to succeed and make him happy. I'm done acting like nothing's wrong around him. bc, the only reason something's wrong is bc of his bullshit excuses. don't get me wrong, I love him beyond belief, but I just can't let him emotionally screw me over and pretend like everything's all fine and dandy when it clearly isn't. my father also doesn't like to admit that he has a daughter who's mentally unstable, either. he's one of those people who'd rather go around pretending he lives a perfect life, and has the most perfect children, than admit otherwise. and that especially hurts knowing he knows something really is wrong, he just would rather not shed light on the problem at hand. I'm completely fucking done w/ it. ]]> 2022-01-29 22:20:17 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2019505889 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2019512078 2022-01-29 22:30:16 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2019512078 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2022051129 2022-01-31 19:06:00 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2022051129 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2022527927 having an emotionally abusive dad who lacks in the attention giving department sucks ass. all I ever want is his attention - for him to say he's here for me and that he's willing to listen to my problems instead of telling me I'm okay or that I'm being brainwashed into thinking something's wrong. bc something clearly is. I'm not okay, and I wish he'd understand that. even if he actually does, it would at least be nice for him to tell me that he does, so I could talk to him and confide in him when I need help instead of just having my mother being there for that sort of thing. However, when he does give me attention, I tend to cling to him bc I don't want that feeling to end. I want to have his full undivided attention when I need the most. ]]> 2022-02-01 01:59:34 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2022527927 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2023983226 2022-02-01 18:20:41 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2023983226 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2042993560 you know what. at this point, fuck everyone.
im tired of being a pain
im tired of crying
im tired of trying
and most of all im tired of feeling worthless 
i just cant do it anymore 
no matter how hard i try i always end up hurt in the end 
im done pretending to be happy
im done trying to appease others if it means ill end up hurting myself in the end 
i would like to believe that everything happens for a reason and that life has one big plan for you but how can i think that when all lifes done for me is throw me in a shit hole
for one i just want to be happy but at this point i just cant ]]> 2022-02-11 18:47:20 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2042993560 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2056424644 2022-02-19 11:38:57 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2056424644 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2060715215 why don't parents apologize for things they do when it hurts just as bad as if it happened w/ someone else? ]]> 2022-02-22 14:49:37 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2060715215 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2061822635 currently hating my dad again. don't ask. I don't want to talk about it. ]]> 2022-02-23 03:29:26 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2061822635 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2066772944 2022-02-25 17:53:05 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2066772944 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2067595734 2022-02-26 15:55:35 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2067595734 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2085222362 spent the majority of my day crying and feeling shitty. fucking hate today.]]> 2022-03-09 02:48:26 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2085222362 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2097999246 just had the worst morning ever. made my mom cry so that just made things worse. I hate making her cry more than anything in the world. that or seeing her cry. and I should be able to let it go. but I keep thinking about her crying, and then I get worked up all over again. ]]> 2022-03-16 13:14:02 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2097999246 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2101993715 had a horrible night last night, and now my Dad's disappointed in me. never wanted things to go this way... ]]> 2022-03-18 14:07:54 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2101993715 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2101996263 2022-03-18 14:09:24 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2101996263 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2101997836 2022-03-18 14:10:14 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2101997836 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2102004251 2022-03-18 14:13:37 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2102004251 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2104234448 is it just me, or are parents sometimes the absolute worst?]]> 2022-03-21 01:02:35 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2104234448 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2121798107 istg school is gonna be the death of me]]> 2022-03-30 15:56:37 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2121798107 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2140896397 just had the worse day of my life.]]> 2022-04-12 14:15:14 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2140896397 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2164552469 gotta love being burnt out and drained :)]]> 2022-04-29 16:07:49 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2164552469 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2168622187 2022-05-03 16:40:04 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2168622187 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2168625941 hating life again]]> 2022-05-03 16:42:23 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2168625941 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2186504995 all i want is to be treated like an adult. is that too much to ask?]]> 2022-05-16 22:47:27 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2186504995 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2211600821 i have a gut-retching feeling that my depressions getting really bad again and i hate it because i'd like to be able to get through the last week of school w/o feeling miserable as fuck.]]> 2022-06-06 00:04:01 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2211600821 lordofbaggins https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2212283175 kinda just done with everything at this point]]> 2022-06-06 14:31:15 UTC https://padlet.com/lordofbaggins/bo83n0ds6a11ait2/wish/2212283175