It was nearly dusk and we were on the road. I was looking out the window when I suddenly heard a thump. I paid no attention to it. Suddenly, I heard a louder thump and a muffled scream. I was sure that was from the trunk. Ahmad and I looked at each other with horror in our eyes. He stopped the car at the side of the road and went out to check. I was afraid to go outside and stayed in the car. He came back in with a cloth in his hand. Without having time to react, he shoved it in my face. “I’ve told you to keep it a secret,” was all I could hear before I blacked out.

However, my parents calmed me down the next morning as they suggested rechecking my Physics paper, and I believe that a miracle could happen. With the hope that my grade would change after the process, I agree to my parent suggestions. As soon as we applied for the rechecking process, I became a happy-go-lucky girl whom I always am. I played with my siblings and had some delicious food by mom.

The rechecking result came out the week after, and my grade remained the same. I went to my room and isolated myself from my family. I don’t want to be with anyone at that time, nor continuing my life. Therefore, I thought it would be better if I just end my life since nothing is going my way. Without any hesitation, I decided to commit suicide by jumping out of the window. Before I jumped out, my 2-year-old sister came in my room and looked at me mysteriously, and the last thing I said to her was, “can you keep this a secret?”

My father asked us to keep our plan from mother. This Saturday is our mother’s birthday and we were told to keep the secret until the day because it will a big surprise for her. My mother is the type that loves to have a celebration. She never missed a single celebration even she was in a busy state. Whenever out birthday comes, she will celebrate it with us yet she never celebrate her own birthday. And because of that, we planned to have a big party for her. For the planning of the celebration, my father booked a cake and bought the presents. Besides, he also booked a reservation at my mother’s favourite restaurant. As the day comes, we acted like we do not know what the day is and asked our mother we made the things that can make our mother upset. Our mother really disappointed at us and she nagged about house chores and responsibility. At that time, our father appeared from the kitchen bringing the cake and surprised our mother. The mother was shocked and we sang birthday song. Then, we apologized to her for our behaviour. Suddenly, she started crying and thanked us for this surprise. After that, we went to the restaurant but she do not know the destination. Surprisingly, she crying even more and very grateful for that day. Then, we had the celebration in her favourite restaurant. She was very happy and took many of pictures as memories. 

 “ouch, my hand!” I said. “Watch where you’re going!”. I was wondering who might be so careless to just bump into someone and not say sorry. Then I noticed something, her face. It was as if she is terrified of something. Running away from a sinister creature she saw a minute ago.

She didn’t stop running and went straight to the washroom. I don’t want to care about it too much so I just got up and walk straight to my class. Slowly, I peek at the door to see if my teacher has arrived. I was lucky because she wasn’t there. 

In the middle of the class, the thought about the girl that knocked me down occupied my mind. Is she okay? Does she need help? Should I tell the principal? So many things came to mind I wasn’t even listening to my teacher. After a while, the bell rang. As I was about to get up from my seat, I saw the girl earlier, standing outside my class. She was looking for something or maybe someone. A ton of emotions is written all over her face at the moment 

After I am done with everything, I walk out of my class like she wasn’t there. All of a sudden, someone was pulling my arm, dragging me to go somewhere. It was her, the girl. “slow down,  you’re hurting me!” I muttered. 

I remained silent after that. We ended up at the school field. She let go of my hand and start walking to a bench and pat the spot next to her. 

I sat down, and after a while she said something with a hint of worry in her voice

“Can you keep a secret?”