Titled by Pena Kana

The First

penakana — 2024-03-13 05:04:20 UTC

Unto the death, wish upon the stars. I will forever be a living dead.

The Second

penakana — 2024-03-22 09:18:32 UTC

Oh... you are wonderful! Your love is everlasting. I've fallen too hard... I couldn't stand no longer.

I tried to reach you out. Funny to see a lunatic person like me thinking that I could touch the sky. I fell, I fell, dear.

I've lost myself; I am no longer me, and I will keep on going, my dearest.

The Third

penakana — 2024-03-23 23:20:26 UTC

MC, huh. People are always yearning for a hero. The type of hero that is always on the virtue side. I've been thinking a lot about it: people who think that they're heroes are less than just hypocrites.

They seek virtues, trying to vanquish sins. They have a high sense of pride without realizing that pride is part of sin as well. They will never realize how sinful they are.

The Fourth

penakana — 2024-03-26 11:31:30 UTC

I've always wanted to leave this world. But then I got someone who make me unable to do so. I'm not sure whether it's a curse or a blessing.

The Fifth

penakana — 2024-03-28 13:43:16 UTC

I do feel the love from you, but at the same time my distrust haunts me — leaving me blind of what you are trying to express.

I believe that my biggest flaw is my own distrustfulness towards you — towards people... I sincerely apologize for that, truly.

The Sixth

penakana — 2024-04-14 02:49:21 UTC

The room I'm in is nothing but a void. The more I spend my time here, the easier I get insane.

Outside my room, however, is a burning hell. The hell in me is the people I witness, I communicate with, I hate, and I adore.

Hell is other people.

The Seventh

penakana — 2024-04-14 02:51:30 UTC

If one is lost for a soul, it will end.

The Eighth

penakana — 2024-05-21 15:18:31 UTC

Title: Uneven Star

Tiles were all reflection of you

I believe that my shadow

will remain vanish

Your eyes match the gray ocean

It has no color to begin with,

only the appearance is

I cannot reach you

No, not a bit

I know that I'm just

an uneven star

With lunatic urge to reach you out

The Ninth

penakana — 2024-06-03 09:32:37 UTC

We are like water and oil, with the help of soap liquid, it will never be enough.

We went too far.

We went too harsh.

We were too innocent.

I am me, and you are you.

We are completely different individuals.

And that is okay.

The Tenth

penakana — 2024-08-28 09:07:46 UTC

You're attractive. I want to be as friendly as you, without any fear. I just want to be you.

The Eleventh

penakana — 2024-09-27 01:02:49 UTC

The one who listens is me, I listen so much, too much, too much that I am now deaf.

The Twelfth

penakana — 2024-10-28 13:05:58 UTC

Everything feels so cringey

I cannot hold myself but to think:

"What the hell is wrong with me?".

Aren't I too egocentric of a person, dear?

The Thirtieth

penakana — 2024-11-21 12:24:26 UTC

I lived long,

I now none, none, and none.

I am far beyond good and evil

The Fortieth

penakana — 2025-04-25 01:21:52 UTC

I don't have a family to begin with, or

I am not considered as a human to begin with.

The Fiftieth

penakana — 2025-07-08 15:30:54 UTC

You're always my fantastic

With all the ecstasies

Due all of my sanity

I forbid you to die with me

As I am no longer yours

... And you're not mine as well

Goodbye

I've always loved you.

The Sixtieth

penakana — 2026-01-16 07:41:42 UTC

"Write something fantastic..."

It's been a total sun and moon phase, dear.

How have you been?

Are you still considerably alive?

Am I still considerably alive as well?

What will you answer, my dear?

The Seventieth

penakana — 2026-01-16 07:49:39 UTC

My dear, everything has awfully happened.

To me, already in filth, being drowned— frowned,

with those filthy hands of hers and his.

This womb that bears the unbearable birth of a satan,

will be baptized to meet it's final end.

The Eightieth

penakana — 2026-04-19 02:18:11 UTC

Soaring sky

Dear soaring sky

To where and to whom you appear dazed

As I gazed in millennia only to seek you

Tell me, whose heart are yours?

The Ninetieth

penakana — 2026-04-19 02:21:04 UTC

Abid Anew

I bid anew of the one caged in ribs

As I seek for a help, you need not one

To my surprise, you seem comfortable

I shall bid you farewell, dear

And bring life anew

As I am too, going to fly

with a wing of mine

which the other you already ripped apart

The Twentieth

penakana — 2026-06-24 14:01:55 UTC

Someone has reborn.

Truly amazed of how magnificent it is

to one just simply morph.

Selfish as it is,

selfish as it was.

However, aren't you still beaming red, dear?

You can never run from your fate.

The Twentieth First

penakana — 2026-07-26 16:02:36 UTC

Fool.

You are a fool.

You truly are a fool.