“I do, for the good and glory of Passione,” 

“Will you endure the pain of broken spirit, body and pride for the good of Passione?”

“I will.”

Your superior then fucks you. Whether it be in the ass or in the face, just to squeeze out the last dregs of personal pride. You survive all of THAT before returning the Passione pin in the pool of blood and ashes in your hand. 
d. P is notified (if he isn't the one doing it)

He lost his life's purpose, seemingly unable to find any form of happiness or other great emotion. At some point, Abbacchio would join Passione, working under Bruno Bucciarati. From then on, he was only ever happy when he received a mission of high importance because it allowed him to forget everything else

Allure arouse bare beg beguile brazen captivating climax crave delirious entice expose fascinate forbidden lewd longing pleasurable magnetic riveting lure luscious passionate pining satisfy seductive shameless enthrall stimulating tawdry tempting thrilling tight tingling unabashed unafraid untamed urged yearn furtive

March 30

March 31

April 1

April 2, 3 days before Secco fights Bucciarati.

April 5, 

April 6

TRIGGER WARNING - Narancia is underage when he (she) joins Passione, so these things happen to a minor. Sex does not occur but it is feigned.

Thanks for reading. This is my attempt at following the advice of Dr. Pennebaker’s book Writing to Heal: A Guided Journal for Recovering from Trauma & Emotional Upheaval.

Read the tags. If this is uncomfortable for you to read, please stop. Take care of yourself! I am trying to process my sexual trauma by exploring my sexual identity and fantasy world. I don’t want to hurt you in an effort to heal myself. I am trying to find my tribe so we can heal together, overcome and thrive.

Honestly, I am not sure if Narancia is trans. I haven’t decided this - and Narancia hasn’t told me yet.
I know I always hated being treated differently in spaces traditionally seen as male, which is where I often end out because of my interests and line of work. I have hidden my femininity in comes cases with baggy clothes and hats, but I never wanted to CHANGE my sex.

 

camunian rose

 
Seras has to patch Mista and Abba up and has a hard time concentrating. Pip has to ask her to tap out. She bites his thigh as he finishes dressing the wound.

 

note Bruno’s lingerie - “Nearly daily. It allows me to carry myself with confidence. Underneath it all, I am still a modestly educated fisherman’s son and a killer. The lace helps to remind me that beauty and grace still abides within, despite my background and sins I have committed.”

 

Virgin Mary, Untier of Knots

 

 

GG cocks his head like Data. 

 

They say they are Italian mobsters but I don’t hear a bit of accent.

 

When Alucard finds  

I ask PF about matching suits - GG came like that. Never came up. Didn’t notice.

 

shaking out the crimped braid

  

 

NEXT TIME he would keep his distance with the payload

 

Bb should be apologetic and proud - so YOU Want to keep her safe?

 

Too many wide eyes

 

That’s why - AT opens half lidded eyes and looks at GG 

 

Rework spit roast - they talk 

 

Orally - but then not?

 

Hey bob, I mean, bucciarati - (what was his name again?)

 

Interaction when AT hands bullets to M and A

 

Sera’s - not while I am trying to keep watch. - you’re not the only one having a hard time, you just spooked my master.I can’t tell you the last time that happened.

 

 

Nope. No confusion there.

 

Creepy Doll eyes

 

GM used SP to check the house before they filmed to make sure no one got hurt.

 

GM goes to LA when confused/scared.

In tree - too stilted

 Ninfomane – horrible

 

Let me die in your arms a little bit longer – in Keeping?

 

Seras asks how did you learn English?

Flick you flick you

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     

Like marbles rolling 

Angry ants swarming

Giorno grabs Isadora and uses Golden Experience to hide her inside an oak tree and leans against it. - make that flow better

GS - Shots or Long drink 

You actually are bi - I thought you could tell from the blood link

Ginger, not blond?

Lemon - La & bb  in italian - AT understands it. 

You look lovely. Have you met any of his coworkers?

See you at the wives’ table.

Sometimes there is so much violence and hate, but sometimes….there is so much beauty in the world, I feel like I can’t take it. I feel like my soul will cave in. 

the lips of a sinner.

sex is naked poetry

you are a drop of perfection in an imperfect world. I just want a taste

It happens like this. One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason, you feel more connected to this stranger than to anyone else - closer to them than your  closest family. Perhaps this person carries within them an angel - one sent to you for some higher purpose. 

To teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time. What you must do it trust in them - even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering - the reason for their presence will become clear in due time.

It soaks my bones like rain.

They are not your friends. They’re just people you use to feel better about yourself.

You are not loyal to me. You are loyal to your need of me. Once your need changes, so will your loyalty.

sin with me

feel my soul

Thundering velvet hand

Denied a simpler fate

Told me the punchline before I had a chance to tell the joke

failure - you can’t avoid it, you have to march right through it.

it’s not The Boss that is the problem. It’s the people right below him, that are not advising him properly

Fighting hate teaching tolerance seeking justice

We need to get your boyfriend, he has been running around in broad daylight and hasn’t even fed. He’s lucky I’m the one that bit him in the first place, otherwise he would have burnt up by now. BB feeds nightly on LA, and LA feeds on people. Total Dexter move - bad people. Which means it isn’t a perfect solution, but it will get him to the finish line, when he has to live in the shadows.