2 birds, flying in the breeze,

2 flowers interwoven with each-other,

A fire and its coals,

A king and his queen.

Because in this lifetime, you and I could never be.

In this lifetime we will only ever be,

A sheep and a wolf,

A rose and its thorns,

A deer stuck in a bear trap,

Lungs and cigarettes.

Its for the better that we aren't together.

At least in this lifetime.

I did not eat the sweets he'd given me.

I thought, "Oh... interesting"

"And smart"

"And funny"

but I was in no way about to take a bite.

But by the time I realised,

the sweets had expired.

I could not look away

From the way he looked at me

A wink and a quick dip in his pocket

Made me find twenty cents.

I wanted to return the money

As a thank-you.

But I have forgotten his number

He told me I should be able to remember it because it's so easy 

It's 999 555

Add it up and you should be able to get the median.

"I did not mean it like that!"

I said to him the other day

but he did as little as ignore me.

Now the only thing left to do

Is write in unarchived literary journals and quasi-notes.

He says I'm just a g word

And he is right and sound

If by that he means gregarious.

I am not a hangers-on

He just leaves me hanging like a coathanger

If he could only do this for me

I wouldn't have to have no penny

And for that I remain unsatisfied.

Emma's to my right.

The cool shade of the trees keeps us cool.

But still I sweat.

'Everything will be alright' I think.

'She'll understand'.

My legs ache from the strain.

We reach the top.

The plantation smells of pine.

Pine as far as the eye can see.

The green trees inviting. 

But still, I worry.

'Have you seen the pond?' my sister quizzes.

I shake my head, too nauseas to speak.

We begin to walk back down, turning right at a path. 

The trees are suffocating. 

The path opens to a clearing.

The sky reflected on the muddy water.

I feel sick.

I feel scared.

I say the words.

She laughs.

She thinks I'm joking.

Then she doesn't. 

I need to vomit.

She laughs.

She hugs me.

She knew.