MESRA MINDA UNTUK SEMUA by sarah alia

sarahalia006 — 2024-01-01 01:57:38 UTC

hi, i hope all of you are doing well. just want to rant for a bit. have anyone here ever felt like they regret the choices they made back then ? like you’ll always wonder, what if i choose that path instead of this one that i’m pursuing, wouldn’t it be any better ? because i do, i always regret what i chose and at this point it has affected my mental state. the endless ‘what if’ questions keeps on lingering around my mind and it makes me sad just thinking about it. i feel like i don’t have any goal or dream anymore. i want to have a solid plan and dream too, just like everyone else. i’m really lost and tired mentally. all i’m trying to do now is just survive every day but i’m not enjoying the process and it doesn’t feel good.

sarahalia006 — 2024-01-01 01:59:45 UTC

i dont know where to start but i swear i dont feel like living anymore. my soul feel so empty. i desperately want to die but i know im not ready. living is hard but dying is much more harder. so in order to prevent myself from do sth that will harm myself i hurt myself a lot. should i seek for help. if i do seek for help, people might think i sakit mental right or they probably think yang i ni mengada ngada bcs that what i heard from my family and friends. my mom literally said that org sakit mental ni sebab mengada je, jauh ngan tuhan and etc. my friends pon sama, from what i see they see people with mental illness as someone yg crazy yang memang nampak tak betulnya. so i always afraid to tell them what i felt or even show what i've done. saya takut jugak kalau bila jumpa counsellor or psychologist they would say the same thing

annesssophieaa — 2024-01-17 16:26:40 UTC

Hai, banyak benda saya nak share sebenarnya dengan kawan-kawan saya tapi saya risau mereka rasa saya mengada-ngada. Saya rasa saya ada masalah depresi tetapi saya masih cuba untuk deny benda tu. Saya rasa apa yang saya buat sekarang adalah okay.

annesssophieaa — 2024-01-17 16:35:19 UTC

Assalamualaikum, saya harap semua orang dalam ni sihat je. Saya saja je nak share pasal kawan saya. Saya intake baru memang first year baru masuk sini. Saya cuba untuk berkawan ngan semua orang tapi orang macam taknak rapat dengan saya. Benda tu buat saya rasa macam saya tak layak kawan ngan sesape pun , kadang saya benci diri sendiri

annesssophieaa — 2024-01-17 16:37:43 UTC

Pernah x korang rasa mcm nak bunuh diri. Sy hari hari ada thoughts macam tuu

annesssophieaa — 2024-01-17 16:39:12 UTC

Goodnite peeps, hoping tomorrow will a better day for everyone