[Am probably gonna use this too lol]

I've been sort of depressed for a few months now, I of course never wanted to label myself as depressed or anything that has to deal with disorders (except dpdr cause ik I have that..) but I might just have it.. I hate all these "disorders" and stuff like that it pmo and I feel like an attention seeker whenever I say I have something like that or that people or going to judge me like if I said i had autism, Or they will just not believe me and say I'm lying but i'm not. I'm really not lying. but enough about this, I use to vent to MYSELF but I deleted the place I used to vent to myself (and it's permantally deleted) so I can't see when or what i vented but I do remember venting about how I wanted to kms and all of that because of my dpdr (the episodes were really bad and they are WORSE now..) but i said my motivation was because of my future and i do still care about my future but it's so far away.. The people I'm with currently are better and I'll try to stay for them because I know they need me and when they don't i'll just be here for them.