https://padlet.com/yoursafespace/8wn3ssyxuwn3ythq Feel free to tell me anything, this is your safe space. Feel free to be you, you are anonymous. You may vent out, share your stories, or tell me about your day! en-us 2021-10-12 11:09:50 UTC 2021-10-15 05:28:54 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet.com/yoursafespace/8wn3ssyxuwn3ythq/wish/1816282908 I just feel so overwhelmed with everything haha pain]]> 2021-10-14 07:20:44 UTC https://padlet.com/yoursafespace/8wn3ssyxuwn3ythq/wish/1816282908 https://padlet.com/yoursafespace/8wn3ssyxuwn3ythq/wish/1818748849 My world only revolves around my friends, that’s a fact. Kasi I’m not close with my family so I got used to having my friends around and maybe because at some point they are the one who understands me most.

So maybe I will only feel validated if my friends show appreciation or they think about me man lang.

My boyfriend is really excited about my birthday like 1 month; bago my birthday he talks about it a lot na and I was like, “what’s something to be excited ba?” I’m being so pessimistic and gloomy kasi tbh I don’t really want my birthday because I know—

That my friends whom I consider as my world, won’t remember it unless I have a celebration with them, or someone or I, myself will post it on social media, or one of them greets me then they’ll tell the others na, “uy birthday niya ngayon” yada yada.

To some, it’s mababaw, and others will say na, “sus para yun lang,  okay lang yan, hayaan mo na sila” pero the fact na all of my so called “long-term friends” (the one that I knew and knew me for a long time) didn’t even greet. Some greeted naman I’m thankful I’ll understand kasi we are busy na and it’s not like high school that we can petiks petiks pa. It’s just sad na those I’m not that close with, remembers my birthday without others reminding them and early morning pa sila nag greet. Who wouldn’t want to start their day of waking up to receiving tons of greetings diba?

It will never be the same. Given na it is pandemic, I am not allowed to celebrate my birthday with my friends so maybe they didn’t remember? Maybe may rule na “invitation before greetings”? Idk. I still tried my best to make my birthday a little depressing. I fixed my make up and hair and got dressed because thank the heavens for my boyfriend who keeps on hyping me up.

I don’t want to acknowledge the fact that my friends only want me when I am accompanied by alcohol. But I know naman na IM NOT EVERYONE’S FAVORITE FRIEND, despit of having a lot and different circle of friends, kumbaga I don’t have a constant friend.

I’ve changed pero I don’t think na they want the better me.

Don’t forget to check up on your friends kasi you may say na I should be grateful for surviving another year but, what makes you think na I still want to live?  ]]> 2021-10-15 03:12:59 UTC https://padlet.com/yoursafespace/8wn3ssyxuwn3ythq/wish/1818748849 https://padlet.com/yoursafespace/8wn3ssyxuwn3ythq/wish/1818951722 If you would just try to look at yourself a year ago, then you’d have more than a reason to be proud of yourself. 

Be your own strength. 

You are loved! ]]> 2021-10-15 05:28:54 UTC https://padlet.com/yoursafespace/8wn3ssyxuwn3ythq/wish/1818951722