https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk Trying too hard. en-us 2021-01-22 15:17:41 UTC 2024-10-14 20:30:14 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet.net/icons/png/1f605.png kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122510891 While being created on this Earth is quite important, that's not what I'm talking about. There were a lot of contributing   factors to how my personality was shaped (Some more scarring than others) I'd like to talk about a lighter event first. I'm talking about an obsession I've had since I was seven... Undertale. Undertale and all of it's aus gave me inspiration. Most of my main inspirations I found out about because of my obsession with Undertale. I'm not as obsessed with it now but I still am always imagining my characters meeting some of the Undertale characters. My obsession with Undertale led me to so many things that inspire me to this day.]]> 2021-01-25 15:42:28 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122510891 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122601786 This is one of the darker things that sadly very much affected who I am today. This is one of my first actual attempt to write this down and get it  off my chest. I mean I was in and out of the hospital a lot for asthma, I even had pneumonia once, but when my Nana died of lung cancer... maybe it would have been easier to deal with if it hadn't had such a hard effect on my Mom. I don't blame my Mom for taking it hard. Honestly I think I know what was going through her head. She became distant, shrouded by the darkness that was fueled by her anger at her Mom for smoking and anger at herself for not spending every waking moment with mother. My Dad felt the impact almost just as hard as he watched his loved ones suffer. My siblings and I grew distant but somehow more agressive. Not a day would pass without us at each other's throats. My older sisters and I spent all our time in our rooms and not a day goes by where I don't regret leaving the littlest to fend for herself. Too young to understand, so instead she assumes that everyone hates her. And if all this wasn't enough school became tragic. My best friend abusive with my heart trapped in his hands. Toxic thoughts led me to the darkness I thought if I could stop the flow of time, if I could stop breathing and die that it would be fine, but I couldn't. I was scared of what would be on the other side and the light whispered that I need to stay alive even if it's only so I can play video games. ]]> 2021-01-25 15:58:23 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122601786 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122768343 My first therapist wasn't too great... she never offered a answer and when I said I was in pain she only acted like I was insane. Only searching for comfort I leaned into the clawed hands of my best friend. The crushing weight of school. Eyes everywhere and no safety or shield. To stay under the radar I became a stone. No one really knew I was alive only knew I wasn't a threat and honestly dieing seemed best, my parents dragged me to therapy, which at first I despised... but it's helped so much and it feels better than believing lies.]]> 2021-01-25 16:25:44 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122768343 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122835060 So, here I am. A writer and an animator who understands pain. I fixed things with my past abuser and I believe he's changed and if he hasn't I'm stronger now and I can cut the string if need be. Now I can better see myself in the mirror and know that I'm not perfect, I'm human and that's good enough for me.]]> 2021-01-25 16:36:25 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122835060 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122872530 I was looking up something and well...]]> 2021-01-25 16:42:15 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122872530 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122957256 I was raised in a christian family, but as I was my Mom's third kid, I don't think she had enough energy to try to make me christian. My family also hasn't really been the type to force their religion onto other people. Honestly, there are so many different religions and any one of them could be right maybe even none of them. I generally can't just willingly have faith when there's no logical evidence. Honestly, I have enough anxieties as it is. I don't want to have to worry about where we came from.]]> 2021-01-25 16:55:42 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1122957256 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123008003 Anything that created life had to have been created. Our circle of life on Earth may just be part of an even bigger circle of life. Logically there will have to be a bigger and bigger circle we're a part of and it can't just stop because how would it have been created? And there's only a small chance that Earth is the smallest part of these never ending circles. Perhaps, there wasn't a creator, maybe life was a blank slate until things started making themselves... Everything adapts... Can nothing adapt into something?]]> 2021-01-25 17:04:03 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123008003 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123053431 Logically, there might have been just an empty void before the creation of things. I'm not saying there isn't some kind of God because following my logic an all power full being could have been created. A being that could harness the power of creation. Possibly multiple beings. Maybe they didn't make the logic though so they had to test things out, starting small (Possibly making the dinosours go extinct.) Obviously I'm mostly just spitballing, but still.]]> 2021-01-25 17:11:39 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123053431 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123117458 I am a 12-year-old seventh grader at ASFL middle school.]]> 2021-01-25 17:22:27 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123117458 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123125199 Currently I working on a big project with two of my best friends, Good Nightmares Studio. We haven't posted anything on our channel yet because school (and video games) have been keeping me busy. But I hope I can post something to hold people over soon. I also am aspiring to be a script writer or storyboard artist for something like Cartoon Network (but since they're kinda going down I might have to start my own studio or find something else.)]]> 2021-01-25 17:23:45 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123125199 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123151954 I am not currently making money, but once I can get my YouTube channel up and running I might be able to make a few bucks.]]> 2021-01-25 17:28:26 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123151954 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123171859 I think I'm pretty creative. Not in a good way though. Like, I made so many characters that weren't very alike and since I didn't want to change them but still wanted them to be in the same universe this happened,

My Brain: What if you make it so you were like the God of your universe and there are so many different characters because you couldn't bring yourself to destroy or change your characters just so the public likes them.

Me: Okay, that's not the worst idea you've come up with.

My brain: ALSO, make it so you broke apart into three different characters. Keith who is like, super focused and banned your other parts from creating so that they wouldn't ruin anything, Htiek, who is like the opposite of Keith (which is why their name is Keith spelled backwards) and they think they'll never be as good at creating as Keith is and they tend to have really big emotions. The third one will be Blue Angel, the other two will look like you because they're more of your outside being and Blue will be this cartoonish being to represent the person you are deep inside.

Me: Everyone's going to think that's dumb and Mary Sue like though...

My Brain: But you're going to do it anyway, aren't you?

Me: I'm gonna do it anyway. ]]> 2021-01-25 17:31:54 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123171859 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123293635 I've always loved writing and, according to my family, I'm pretty good at it as well. I guess there was just something about being able to express myself in a super easy that I can almost do without thinking. Once I start writing I'm not gonna stop for a while. ]]> 2021-01-25 17:52:48 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123293635 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123316589 I'm not the best at animating and drawing but it's still really fun. One of the reasons I started the Good Nightmares Studio YouTube channel is so I could watch how I progress through the years. With every new trick I learn I can add even more to my work, what more could I want?]]> 2021-01-25 17:56:38 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1123316589 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141728285 I feel Amazing World of Gumball explained life pretty well when their song "Life Ain't Perfect".

Let me give you a quick run-down of the song and why they sang it.

The episode is about how Allan (a goody-two-shoes who's really nice) loses faith in the world and stop doing all his charity work. Since he was the only one nice enough to do all the charity work the world starts to fall apart.

Gumball and Darwin, not wanting to do it themselves sing this song:

Gumball and Darwin: It's one big shade of gray!

Gumball: and the dark kind I'm afraid to say.

Gumball and Darwin: Because there's war and fighting and the bad guy often wins, so you have to find some comfort in the smallest little things. There's shouting and there's stealing, there are mortgages to pay
But that's a grown-up thing and you are still a kid today.

The prospects for society are turning for the worst
The environment is suffering and might not be reversed
But at least the nasty kid who makes every day so rough
In the end gets hit by karma which will kinda make you laugh.

Darwin: And sure the future's looking pretty grim
The light on the horizon is pretty dim

Gumball and Darwin: But you're a kid and all of life is still ahead of you

Darwin: Unlike the ninety-something guy who caught the avian flu.

Gumball and Darwin: Life ain't perfect, it's... muh
Some bits are okay, but most of it's {Retches}
Life ain't perfect it's... meh
You gotta find the good that's in this great big load of {Raspberries}

Gumball: And yes, the more you work on it, the worse it seems to get {Explosion}

Darwin: Looking at the news can make you break out in a sweat {Explosion}

Gumball and Darwin: That's the way life is, so you gotta deal with it
There's not much else to say right now to lift your spirit

Allan: Tell me how's all that supposed to make me feel better?
My life's unraveling just like threads pulled from a sweater
There's no sunshine in my future, it is gray, desaturated
Tell me why I shouldn't feel so deflated

Gumball: Because... Because...

Gumball and Darwin: If you stop halfway up the mountain, you will never see the view
When you look how far you've climbed, you'll find the courage to pull through
You'll wonder how on Earth you can put up with all of this
Then you'll come across a memory of perfect bliss

So keep following the light
No matter how much your heart aches
'Cuz this sad old world will need your hope to fix it when it breaks
And in times when you can't take it, and you want your day to end
Take my hand
And you will find
Life is beautiful, my friend.]]> 2021-01-29 17:41:18 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141728285 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141828239 As a twelve-year-old watching every one else make adult decisions it honestly makes me worried for the future but I still find the good bits that make it worth while.]]> 2021-01-29 18:03:30 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141828239 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141838516 I feel like everyone's agreed on what a bad person is. but it's not black and white like that. Generally I can get really angry with how somepeople are but they're still people and I think sometimes people need to be reminded of that.]]> 2021-01-29 18:05:45 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141838516 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141858040 If you've ever gone to school You've most likely experienced one of these things, filling the void or destroying the void. Let me explain, filling the void is when school has you so stressed you begin to stress eat... a lot. Destroying the void is when you want to fit into an unrealistic look so you don't eat. I tend to lean towards filling the void although I was borderline trying to destroy the void but the addictive properties of food were too strong.]]> 2021-01-29 18:09:54 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141858040 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141891205 As someone who's had social anxiety since I was born I don't really talk to people normally the extent of my conversations are:

Other Person: Hi!

Me:Hi...

And then I run away before they can say anything else.]]> 2021-01-29 18:17:00 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141891205 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141907015 My idea of fun is walking around in circles outside while listening to music, sleeping, eating, playing games, daydreaming, writing.]]> 2021-01-29 18:20:26 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141907015 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141919606 I'm almost the farthest you can get from a health fanatic. The only reason I haven't died yet is because of my parents.]]> 2021-01-29 18:23:10 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141919606 kairipierce https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141927747 Oversized Hoodies, fluffy hoodies, too small hoodie, minecraft hoodies, gray hoodies, grey hoodies, black hoodies, you name it I've probably worn it before.]]> 2021-01-29 18:25:01 UTC https://padlet.com/kairipierce/8qaad62vtmbhbttk/wish/1141927747