Letters to Hold Onto by Islan Daniskara

Hi, Adek!

2022-05-10 09:04:18 UTC

First of all, once again. Thank you for the super amazing day dan bikin hari Senin terasa amat sangat menyenangkan! You really great at holding the conversation and act like REAL Brother it actually made me wanna cry. You were a really great companion, semua pembicaraan ngalir lancar begitu aja, gak ada canggung sama sekali and i'm really thankful for that. What sadden me the most was the fact that our session have come to an end (real).

For anyone who might read this. Islan is really the best companion you could ask for, if he can do it great as a brother i'm sure he will do even better and sweeter as boyfriend. (ALSO THE AMOUNT OF PDA. DAMN)

So, adek see you when i see you, ya!

- Abang -

Dear Islan,

vantesized — 2022-05-10 17:36:30 UTC

My loveliest Islan, no words can express my gratitude and love for you. Truly grateful to have met such an amazing and beautiful soul like you. You are such a sweetheart, my sweetest, tiniest angel. Time passed by so quickly when I am with you, everything seems unreal, every bit of conversation and laugh we had really warmed me to the core.

I hope you know how much of an amazing person you are, how smart and delicate, such a hard worker too. Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey. I promise to always remember and cherish you for every moment I get. Remember to always stay safe and healthy, and most importantly, be happy, because there is nothing else I want more than to see you smile. I am probably doomed because now all I can think about is you when I wear black. Would you please take responsibility for it?

Anyways, for anyone reading this and is considering Islan to be your companion, do you really want to let go of the opportunity to spend your time this one fine man?

Good luck, Islan. You are bound to achieve greatness.

- G.

Halloo islan✨💖

2022-05-11 17:02:09 UTC

Ketemu kamu itu rasanya kaya ketemu sama sesuatu yang bikin beberapa hal tertentu di hidup aku terwujud. Sosok yang sangat ramah manis dan bener bener bisa kasih afeksi se special itu rasanya kaya wahh beruntung banget aku ketemu dia. Terimakasih buat apresiasi yang kamu kasih mau sekecil apapun itu pencapaian aku, aku seneng banget jujur pas tiba tiba kamu ajak buat ngambis bareng kek itutuh salah satu dream date aku aaaaa, aku revisian kamu selesain kerjaan dan pas timer untuk istirahat datang kita langsung sama sama nge bucin lagiii, jadi mau ditinggal karna apapun juga aku tetep seneng aja karna aku tau pas kamu balik kamu bakal tetep memperlakukan aku dengan manis hehe.. Kamu pasti cape banget sama kerjaan ya tapi masih sempet sempetnya ladenin kebucinan aku dan ngebucinin baliknya bener bener bikin salting. Aku juga seneng banget selama kita sposess hahaha soalnya aku bisa ngehibur kamu dengan lagu favorit ku😼👍 dan ternyata beneran seneng kamunya hehe jadi biar ga stres stres banget lah ya hehe, makasih juga buat lagu lagu yg kamu pake buat nge bucin gilasih beneran mau banting HP aku rasanya. Gabakal bisa lupain sih soalnya playlistnya nempel di aku hehe jadi aku bisa dengerin kapanpun dimanapun ✨ beruntung banget buat siapapun yg nanti bakal sama kamu. Sekali lagi jaga kesehatan Oke!

Buat yg baca ini dan lagi yakinin diri mau rent atau engga, cobain deh kalo kamu cari sosok yang hangat yang kasih afeksi manis lucu seru Yap betul islan orangnya! Dia bener bener tau gimana cara kasih afeksi sesuai keinginan kita. Ga percaya? Jalanin aja dulu sesinya hehe

-V

Hello, My Paradise. 🏝

tenderlover — 2022-05-13 10:18:32 UTC

Kak Islan! I’m so sorry that I took such a long time to fill this out as I’ve been trying to find the perfect sentences to describe the short time we’ve spent—and I finally found it!

Kak Islan, the time I’ve spent with you fits the word ‘blissful’ so perfectly. You make me feel so happy and put me in ease. So, it’s no surprise that I can become myself (and also show the sides I’ve never really shown to anyone else) because you welcome me with so much warm and excitement. I truly feel so loved with you.

If anyone’s reading this—please note that Kak Islan is indeed the epitome of happiness! He knows how to put himself in other people’s shoes and his empathy for others is very admirable. Also, Kak Islan loves veeery proudly and isn’t shy to tell you how he feels. Expect to be blushing with his sincerity and his cuteness (yes, he’s cute THOUGH he’s a biiiit wild.) He knows how to make anything interesting and give a good laugh. With Kak Islan, you’ll feel exactly like going on a vacation and experiencing so many wonderful things in such a short time. 💗

Again, back to Kak Islan! Thank you for bringing me to your paradise and being my safe place. Sampai ketemu lagi partner 🤖 aku!

-🧚‍♀️

unspirante — 2022-05-14 04:52:59 UTC

Kak Islan, Brother of The Star

2022-05-20 06:28:50 UTC

Kakak! I woke up feeling a little bit empty, not gonna lie. It's that kind of feeling you get when you finally go home after such a long and fun day gathering with people you love. Yesterday was such a wholesome, awesome, and fabulous day thanks to you :D

Never have I ever thought I would be spending my birthday with the stars—quite literally—, but you made it happen. It is such a memorable and magnificent birthday, really. Moreover, you even managed to prepare a playlist and a stargaze event for me in the midst of your busy life. You must be an angel in disguise, aren't you? ㅠㅠ

You treat me so well, very very super extremely well that I really tear up several times. Again, it's happy tears, I promise. I feel really touched by your kind words, by your support, by the way you treat me. Gosh, I really wish the universe treats you with the same treatment because you deserve it.

I started yesterday with some fear and anxiety, thinking about the burden and responsibility that adds up along with my age. But I ended yesterday with an open heart and heart full of acceptance of whatever the future may hold. I couldn't imagine having a better big brother than you.

Kakak, thank you for the warm words and treatments. You help me see myself from a better perspective and I really cherish you for that. I hope you never forget that you yourself are a very precious and worthy soul too. You have such a tender and loving heart!

I feel like no words are enough for you because it feels like there are still so many great things and experiences that I want to point out, but I run out of word already :(

I won't get bored of reminding you to not overwork yourself and to stay healthy, physically and mentally. May there be bliss and positivity in every step you take, kakak!

The stars are indeed mysterious and magical, aren't they? ;)

Best friend of the stars,
CLJ

dear cowok gantengku...

2022-05-25 15:10:35 UTC

yh yh kmbali lg dgn saia brsama kmbing ksynganny✌️😎 maaf yh rasanya agx sulit menghilangkan kejmetan yg sdh mndrah dging ini🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵 oke cukup sampai situ wkwk. islan makasih banyak buat 2 harinya kemarin yaaa. asli deh kamu tuh soft bangeett, perhatian dan emang pakarnya flirting HAHAHA ngga boong beneran. terus islan anaknya lucu banget, suka tiba-tiba kirim stiker lucu apalagi yang meong itu DUHHH😣😣😣😣 dan pda kamu.... OMG AKU BENERAN BERASA DIBUCININ BANGET SAMA KAMU, bawaannya mau terbang. kamu suka balesin mentionan dari aku. kalo aku tebak kita perhari bisa sampe 30 mentionan deh aku rasa. dan aku NGGA PERNAH MENTIONAN SEBANYAK ITU DALAM SEHARI🥺 apalagi thread dari kamu ituu AAAAA masih suka aku baca dari semalem😢😢😢😢 entahlah tapi aku rasa kamu jago banget bikin orang gembira walau cuma dari chatnya, bikin orang ngga sabar nunggu notif chat dari kamu AWKWKWKWK dan kamu selalu bales setiap bubble chat dari aku yang sometimes ngga jelas banget dan konyol. makasih juga islan mau pahamin aku yang sempet ngga bisa ngobrol 5 jam dulu pas hari pertama😄 TERUS PETNAME YANG KAMU KASIH ITU LUCU BANGET ASLI?? aku ngga bisa berhenti ketawa pas kamu bilang suka gigit pipi aku. i mean... thats really adorable🥺🥺🥺 aku bener" appreciate sama efforts kamu yang udah bikin aku seneng bukan main selama 2 hari kemarin! aku berasa lagi pacaran sama matahari tau, soalnya kamu vibesnya cerah banget wkwkwk. dan... thank you so much buat playlist bucinnya!!😻 aku ngga pernah nyangka bakal dikasih playlist dari kamu. gimana ngga makin excited akunya coba😭 nanti bakal aku denger kok kalo lagi kangen sama islan, tenang ajaa✌️😎 apa lagi ya... hmm... ohya imagine kamu beneran bikin aku salting terus. aku seneng dipeluk, dicium, sama disayang", apalagi dielusin rambut sama kamu😳 rasanya mau clingy sama islan dulu deh. apa kamu punya magnet atau something gitu ya? wkwkwk yaudah segitu aja deh buat islan mah. yaudah segitu aja deh. islan jaga kesehatan terus yaa, dan makan yang bener! kalo ada waktu buat istirahat, kamu harus istirahat biar ngga kecapean, okay??😄 stay hydrated and have a great day islaann, see you soonnn🖤

p/s: jangan bosen ketemu aku lagi yaaa islan jeleekk :p

sincerely from your cupcake,
-V.

For my Jimin

shiningmoon — 2022-05-27 07:45:21 UTC

ALLOOO KAKAK IYAANN. Maaf ya aku telat isi nya :(( Kakak Iyan baik bangeettt, 2 jam kemarin tuh gak berasa banget pas sama kakak. Makash ya kak udah temenin aku kemarin, udah kasi aku banyak comfort words, udah bisa jadi bangku yang baik alias dipangku kakak nyaman banget :((. Kakak Iyan sehat-sehat terus yaaaa, jangan lupa mamam sehat, jangan lupa mimi air yang banyaaaa, jangan begadang juga ya kakakk, semangat kerjanya. POKOKNYA AKU SAYANG KAKAK IYAANNN💗. Semoga kita bisa ketemu lagi othay othayy?? OTHAYYYY!!!
See you when I see you kakak baikk!!💗
-bubul othayy

Hi Kara,

2022-05-28 11:31:03 UTC

I'm sorry it took me awhile to leave my trace here. I've been dying to write about you but work killed me just too quick :( But anyway, I've been resurrected! So now, please let me leave you a message that you (and many potential lovers of yours) deserve to know.

Many people have loved before, and each of human beings must have seen each other fall for another. Among the mundanity of loving and being loved, I must say that Islan looks like someone who has used his big heart to love so hard that he now has become a professional at loving. He always has so many things to offer as a lover. He offers compassion, understanding, and he knows that love is a constant choice and work, and he will make sure you know that you are loved by him.

"You want it? I got it." That just sounds a lot like Islan.

Islan has the softest heart and he's one of the kindest person you'll ever encounter in life. Not only that, he is also very, VERY funny. Like genuinely funny! And friendly too. He's just a very nice companion, one that will leave you smiling when you go home.

Kara, if you read this too, I'd love to thank you once again for giving me the chance to spend time with you, and most importantly... to know you. Thank you for always making me feel so warm, and thank you for appreciating me to the fullest (You're too kind, always too kind, really).

You made a saturday night feel like a proper fun saturday night after it's been so bland and lackluster for a long time, and you remind me once again why having a genuine conversation and connecting with someone is something precious.

You should know that one of the things that make our difference not hinder us from getting together is because you're always ready to compromise. You're willing to accept people just as they are, and you're just so... patient and gentle.

I do hope you'll be loved just as softly and strongly as you love others.

I'll surely treasure you and your presence for as long as I can, Kara. Because now everytime I get a taste of mint choco, you and your name will come to mind. So as long as mint choco still thrives in the ice cream parlors, that means I still keep you in a room of my heart. At least I can promise you that.

You always deserve to be loved and to be remembered.

I'll be seeing you when I see you, Kara! Hope you'll still welcome me if we have the chance hehe.

Until then, please take care.

With love,
N.

P.S. You should try Oma Elly's Mint Choco gelato called Mint to Be, by the way. It's so good, you won't regret it!

buat mas ganteng! ♥️

2022-06-04 09:14:59 UTC

halo mas!
kalau habis baca ini tau ngga ya ini siapa? hahaha
maafin aku ya mas baru sempat isi huhu maafin.
aku mau bilang, makasih banyak udah nemenin aku!! sejujurnya aku juga pertama kali rent kayak gitu, dari belum kenal, terus kenalan, pacaran, menikah hahaha maafin kalau kesannya kayak ngulang ucapan, tapi aku seseneng itu sama mas huhuhu kau bahagia terus, seneng terus. si paling ganteng, paling baik dan pengertian, paling bikin kangen, semuanya ada di kamu! lama juga ngga ngerasa kayak gitu huhuhu suka ih JADI KANGEN YA GIMANA INI 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️
lagi nulis padlet aja udah kerasa kangennya.
mas nanti ketemu lagi ya! ngabisin waktu lagi! aku mau date macem-macem ah! nanti aku susun rencana dulu 🤫🤫 masih rahasia!
mas sehat-sehat ya! bahagia juga! mam sehat! jangan mie melulu ✊🏻✊🏻✊🏻
♥️♥️♥️ buat mas!

k.

Dear my oppa korporat

2022-06-07 11:17:13 UTC

More bucin days about budak corp will be coming so brace yourself wkwkkwk ily okkk 🥺🥺🥺❣❣❣❣ 2 jam beneran ga kerasa ngomong with you huhu i feel better and encouraged buat feel ok meskipun aku submit document telat huhu it means a lot 🥺❤

Hi Ian,

2022-06-12 19:49:09 UTC

To be honest, i really have no other words for this since aku bilang aku cuma pengen drop testi yang super panjang in our session when we were doing our closing privately (padahal pas dibaca ulang kok berasa panjang juga ya hehe). But as promised, i’ll try to write one for your other potential lovers yaaaa. So here u go:

The session with you was so magical and felt so real. I actually got to feel what a normal boyfriend and girlfriend would do after such a long time. I sincerly thank you for that because that was just i really need at the moment. And oh, i also wanna thank God for your existence. Your warmth, love, and golden soul will always remains in my heart, Ian.

Please do not be tired with korporat gf x korporat bf or freshcare gf x panadol bf thingy because i hope there are more to come (if you welcome me too) haha. And when the time comes, i hope you will be able to give me the love just like before. See you when i see you!

Much love🤍

dear, kak ian.

2022-06-13 07:24:34 UTC

kakak, maaf ya baru sempat nulis di padlet kakak sekarang, padahal sesinya udah lama selesai.

pertama, jiya mau bilang makasih banyak karena kakak udah mau nemenin jiya selama empat hari kemarin. my days with you were filled with laughter. i truly felt happy the moment i was with you.
every time your notifications pop up, it brought this tingling feeling in my stomach (does that make sense? no, but i can't really describe it).

kedua, kakak bener-bener jago gombal ya? jiya beneran dibuat salting maksimal sama kakak. if only you could see how red my face went hahaha. but i liked it, so much.

thank you for taking care of me, thank you for making me feel loved, and thank you for being the dream boyfriend i always wanted to have.

you truly are a good person, you are so full of love and you know how to take care of people. but please take care of yourself, ya? jangan keseringan begadang, kakak. you are already busy having to do your work, i don't want you to get sick. makan yang teratur, minum air yang banyak, jangan lupa minum vitaminnya ya. mlem.

jiya loves kakak <3

To the brightest star in my sky, My Islan.

2022-06-17 14:36:03 UTC

well well, please accept my apology for taking a long time to fill this padlet, sir. i just want to write the testimonials with a pure heart and clear mind so that i can pour all my love through it.

for the next parter of Islan, please don’t be hesitate to rent him as your companion ya? believe me, he will fulfill your expectations.

My Islan, thank you so much for the session we’ve had, i enjoyed it so much. i think everyone can find the meaning of ‘love’ itself when they starts talking to you, Lan. loving you is so easy and warm. it feels like eating my favorite menu for dinner, full of hunger and never get enough of it. loving you also feels like drinking my favorite milk tea, full of sweetness and somehow, taste so familiar.

Islan, thank you so much for being a very good partner. thank you so much for choosing this path, to pour your love into everyone, i just hope you will feel loved as much as you love others. thank you so much for the kind words you gave me, and also for the little reminder and daily encouragement. you are so sweet, kind, and lovely. i think Islan is the best partner that will fit everyone’s criteria.

i hope you will be surrounded by many good people. have a good meal everyday, and please have a good sleep everyday too. jangan keseringan begadang ya? pokoknya i hope you will take care of yourself like you take care of me.

oh to mention a point plus of Islan, you are really good at portraying your muse and i’m so thankful for that one. you understand your muse and your clients very well. so in love with that part of you.

once again, thank you so much Islan! i’m sorry i couldn’t give you a 5 star, because now i realize, the star itself is you, Lan. you are the brightestestest star. live well!

candy!

Hai tengil...

2022-06-21 05:27:13 UTC

Islan Islan Islan. Satu kata yang bisa mengartikan dirimu, yaitu matahari. Kamu tuh layaknya sebuah matahari yang ngga pernah berhenti memberikan sinar kehangatan untuk hatiku. Menjalani hari-hariku bersama Islan selalu membuat rasa bahagiaku membuncah. Tau ngga sih aku nemuin kamu tuh kayak nemuin berlian tua yang lama mengendap didalam pasir. Islan selalu bisa bikin hati aku berbunga". Iya, kamu tuh selalu bisa bikin hariku menjadi menyenangkan. Seluruh bebanku terangkat begitu aja pas kamu nyenengin aku. Kamu selalu punya cara bikin aku tersenyum lebar dengan kata" manismu itu. Makasih ya kamu udah sabar hadepin aku yang suka bawel dan ngegas ini hehehe. Aku senang banget bisa jadi terbuka gini sama Islan, dan Islan jago nyeimbangin energi aku. Jangan bosen ya kalo kita ketemuan lagi? Aku pengen cerita" sama kamu. See you!

Sincerely from your lover,
-V.

to mas iyan sayang

2022-07-01 19:00:17 UTC

Hello! It's me, your little one. I'm sorry it takes a long time for me to come here, I hope you don't mind hehe

Yang pertama aku mau bilang makasih dulu, makasih karena udah mau nemenin aku selama 2 hari kemarin. Makasih udah jadi pacar terbaik yang pernah aku punya. Walaupun waktu yang kita laluin bareng cuma sebentar, tapi aku beneran ngerasa disayangin banget sama mas

Pacaran sama mas iyan tuh harus nyiapin jantung cadangan sih karena dia ga melewatkan sedetik pun buat bikin pacarnya salting! Coba bayangin baru first greeting aja udah digombalin! Belum lagi dia nih suka muji-muji pacarnya dan selalu ngeapresiasi hal kecil yang pacarnya lakuin. Pokonya mas iyan terverifikasi 100% anak woa banget!

Terus kalo aku boleh bilang, mas iyan tuh jimin versi lokal banget! He loves to teasing his lover and flirty all the time but when it comes to giving affection, he is so attentive, delicate, and warm, kaya jimin banget kan? Selain itu mas iyan juga suka ngirimin pap musenya jadi aku beneran berasa pacaran sama jimin tau ga🥲

Yang terakhir aku mau bilang tolong jaga kesehatannya ya mas? Kalo udah tau sering lembur, tolong jangan suka telat makan apalagi makan cuma sehari sekali. Minum air putih yang banyak dan sering konsumsi vitaminnya biar badannya ga cepet drop. I love you, with or without 1000 reasons, mas iyanku sayang🤍

UNTUK KAAA ISLAN PACARKU PALING GEMAS!

2022-07-10 04:18:28 UTC

HAAAAAAAALO CEK CEK 1 2 3

OKEY KITA YAK!

Halo Kaka pacarku yang ganteng banget ,tebak aku siapa? Kalau salah aku marah beneran ya😡😡

Hehe btw makasi banyak yaaa Kaka mau nemenin aku ,aslii deh seneng bangeet ditemein kakaaa! Bahas COOKIESSS! HAHAHAHAHAHA YOUR GIRLFRIEND LIKE COOKIESS A LOTT🥺🖤

KAKA JAGA KESEHATAN TERUS YAA?! MAKAN YANG BENER NANTI SAKIT LAGI POKOKNYA BANYAK BANYAK MINUM VITAMIN OKAAAAY?!!!!!!!!

Hehe makasi banget mau nemenin aku disaat aku gabut walaupun Kaka lagi sibuk kerjaan pasti selalu ngabarin aku dulu. Kaka semangat terus okay kerjanyaa? Nanti dapat hug yang banyak dari akuuu

See u When i see you gantengnya aku!

I love u🖤🖤🖤

Dear my Islan,

2022-07-30 17:08:02 UTC

I have written all of the things I wanted to say to you in the letter, so I won’t reveal a lot of things here. So here is for every future partner of Islan. Don’t worry too much, okay? Islan will take very great care of you. He’s the perfect lover for everyone. He genuinely cares for you, he will give you all the love and affection within his soul. He will never, ever give anything half-hearted. Even though he’s juggling between his busy schedules, work, and stuff, he won’t ever let you down. He’s the kind-hearted person we all need in our life. He will cheer you up, but also cry with you, and laugh with you, so you will never have to feel lonely.

He told me that I was love personified, but I think I have to disagree. If you ever want to see the real-life personification of love, he will be the answer. So if you ever think twice about being with him, please don’t. Go, spend time with him, and feel the love embedded within him. I’m sure, he will set a new standard for you, the walking green flag he is.

I think that’s it from me. I wish you nothing but happiness, you deserve a lot of them, Islan. Please take care of yourself too, Islan. Don’t eat too late, and remember to drink at least 8 glasses of water each day. Please know that I’ll be here, cheering for every step you take and every achievement you make. Until next time, then?

Will never get bored of loving you,

Your L.

Hi Ian!

2022-08-03 18:27:36 UTC

First of all, i am really sorry it took me quite a while to write on your padlet. But you know i’ve poured all my heart into that one, long-ass paragraphs when we did our session, right?

So hmm, what should i say for this padlet?

Well, may i ask what did you put into each part of our sessions? i’m guessing that you did put some little magic in it, am i right? :)

When i said i feel content when i’m with you, i really do. I love your energy, aku berasa kalo kamu bisa ngimbangin pasangannya gitu, i also think that you’re a pretty good match in many conversations. Aku juga suka berasa kamu bisa genuine gitu kalo pas pacaran and i’m happy with that hehe. I felt that you really try to be the best that you can be. I truly felt that.

You’re a gentle, kind, and lovely human being (and not to forget the cutie & sexy too😉). Yah, i’m in love even with your bdmt text, pouty lips, pelar pelor, and golar goler behavior (because it’s cute? hehe). And oh, i think kamu bisa potray jimin pretty well. Jadi siapapun yang baca ini, kalo mau pacaran sama jimin, trust me islan is a good choice!

So yeah, i have nothing left to say since i’m not really a sweet talker but i’m happy that i found you because you’re one of the best boyfriend i’ve ever had, and my heart is always full of love when i’m with you.

Until we meet again ya, my boss baby?👶🏻🤍🦋

Kenapa kambing suaranya embek?

2022-08-13 03:41:06 UTC

Islaaannn, maaff baru isi padlet kamu sekaraangg :(( aku mau bilaang makasih udah nemenin pacaran selama 2 hari waktu yang sangat amat worth!!🥺🥺🥺 walaupun kamu lagi sibuk sama kerjaan, tapi kamu selalu sempetin buat balesin chat HUHU you are too precious to keep😔 islan selalu punya berbagai cara buat balesin topik apapun yang lagi dibahas, kayak KOK BISA AJA BALESANNYA LUCU" GITU??😔 Islan juga jago nyamain energi makanya ngga pernah ada kata bosen tuh kalo lagi pacaran sama kamu. Apa lagi ya... Aku ngga bisa merangkai kata" bagus buat kamu wkwkwk yaaa pokoknya worth to rentlah cowo keren en kul senusantara ini🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 akuu ngga akan pernah bosen ingetin buat selalu jaga kesehatan kamu, haruss!! Makannya yang bener, rajin minum air putih, jangan banyak minum kopi. Islan ngga boleh sakit" lagi, okay?? Nanti dicium embek lagi loh wkwkwk.

sincerely from your lover,
-V.

mas iyan, my strongest soldier<3

2022-08-18 17:36:42 UTC

Hello, your little one is coming back again! Sebelumnya aku mau bilang makasih karena mas udah mau nemenin aku lagi selama 5 hari kemarin, those 5 days I spent with you were the happiest moment in my life. Love language WoA & QT yang dicantumin di carrd itu bukan cuma omong kosong doang. Kalo pacaran sama mas iyan, kalian ga bakalan ngerasain yang namanya kekurangan kasih sayang because mas iyan will always reminds you that you are a lovable person who deserves to be loved by everyone, and also he will make sure to appreciate every little things you've done. Untuk QT-nya, meskipun pagi-malem mas iyan sibuk kerja dan itu bikin dia agak slowresp tapi kalo kerjaannya udah beres semua, dia bakal kasih semua waktu yang dia punya untuk nemenin kamu! I really love having a midnight conversation with you, especially the day where you said you were sleepy at 1 am but you still accompanied me until 4 am because the conversation was getting more exciting. I will never forget that day, really

Actually I'm not good at love-hate relationship but I had so much fun doing that dynamics with you. It's fun to teasing you and you don't overdo it either so I can still enjoy it. Terusss mas iyan juga bisa banget ngimbangin energi aku pas PDA, apalagi pas hari terakhir itu... I swear to God kita PDA kaya orang kesetanan ya, beneran nonstop hampir 2 jam mentionan ga berenti. Aku juga ga nyangka mas iyan orangnya seapresiatif itu, aku kaget waktu kamu ngepost ulang videonya setiap hari sampe bikin viewersnya jadi sebanyak itu padahal niat awal aku bikin video itu cuma buat konten ngajak balikan tapi berkat kamu sekarang aku gabisa berenti senyum tiap liat video itu karena keinget kamu yang udah menghargai usaha aku sebegitu besarnya

I have to agree with your ex who said that you set a new standard. Even when I want to searching for a new companion, you're setting the standard so high for others. You're really an all in one package, mas iyan. Jadi pacar yang penuh kasih sayang? Bisa. Jadi temen ghibah sampe subuh? Bisa. Jadi temen gelut perkara bak mandi & bathub? Bisa. Bahkan jadi pacar mesum yang ngomongin 🔞 tapi tetep jaga batas suci pun kamu bisa. Pokonya semua yang kalian cari pasti ada di diri mas iyan. Aku kadang mikir, you are too good to be true tau mas

OKEH karena ini kayanya udah kepanjangan, yang terakhir aku mau bilang please take care of yourself ya mas? BENERAN JANGAN SAMPE SAKIT LAGI, AKU SEDIH BANGET YA ALLAH LIATNYA #RIL. Jangan suka telat makan, minum air putih yang banyak, rutin konsumsi vitamin biar badan ga gampang drop. I hope you will always be surrounded by good people and good things, mas. Please remember that I will always love you with or without reasons and in any condition, mas iyanku sayang! See you when I see you, microhubby🤍

Wrrr🌬🌬

2022-08-27 11:27:45 UTC

Hai A iannn! I’m trully sorry baru bisa isi padlet kamu yaaa, jangan marah yaa nanti km aku turunin jabatan dr ceo paguyuban kita itu wrrrrr😬 A ian makasih yaa kmrn udah jadi pacar yang bisa jadi semuanya, km bisa jadi temen aku ngobrol, temen aku mengeluh dan juga jadi pacar yang baik, dan yg terpenting km bener-bener bisa nanggepin semua keanehan akuu🌬🌬 Terimakasih untuk selalu bisa kasih aku apresiasi, makasih karna beberapa kata2 kamu itu skrg kalau aku lg capek aku bakal buka bubble chat kamu dan sadar kl banyak orang yg masih butuh aku di dunia ini hihihihi

A ian jaga kesehatann trs kamarnya jg jangan lupa suka diberesin wkwkwk, May happiness always around you ya A iannn🌬🤍

iyan iyan iyan, suami kecilku!

2022-09-08 16:13:41 UTC

Hallo mas iyan! Makasih banyak ya udah mau nemenin aku kangen-kangenan yang berkedok ngobrol biasa itu wkwkwk. Emang mas iyan tuh woa-nya paling juara sih, bisa banget bikin aku salting melulu. Belum lagi pemikiran random kamu yang tiba-tiba bikin lamaran dadakan kaya tahu bulat, aku ga nyangka kamu bakal lakuin itu karena waktu yang kita punya cuma sebentar. Thank you for doing that, I can't stop smiling every time I read your proposal. Ditunggu kelanjutan ceritanya ya? (Re: akad nikah & resepsinya😋). Sampai ketemu lagi, suami kecilku!🤍

Hi Ian,

2022-09-18 17:18:05 UTC

I’m very sorry for my tardiness for adding this to your padlet just now since our session ended last month. I don’t have much left to say for this since I always pour my hearts on the closing in our sessions.

I just wanna say that you’re my first person, you are my home, and I can’t thank you enough for letting me in again in a home of ours.

And again, I just want to remind you that you deserves every little good things in this world. I hope that you will always surrounded with love, happiness, blessings, and I hope that you can get through everything in this life.

Thank you for all the lovely memories we’ve shared, and I do really hope that we can write and share another story somewhere near the future.

With love, one of your lover🦋

Dear my Yiyan,

2022-09-20 16:51:03 UTC

Have I ever told you that spending time with you was and will always be my favorite thing to do? Like going on a beach during hot, scorching summer, or playing in a field of flowers in the flourishing spring. Being with you just feels— right. Everything seems to click at the moment. The sorrow and the tiredness from a long day of work are all gone when our hands touched at night. I always love to talk to you because you never, ever miss a point from my stories— all of them. You always know the right thing to say, the right thing to do. Even until this very moment, I used to think to myself, “What did I do to deserve such a gentle, sweet human being like Yiyan?”

I love us in everything. I love us in our deep, emotional talks. I love us in our silly, not-so-funny yet still funny jokes. I love us in our can’t-let-you-go whispers while tucking each other to bed. I always found myself smiling before going to sleep, thinking about how happy I am when I’m with you. Before the letter is getting longer and longer, I just want to assure everyone who wants to be with Islan that he is the perfectly-baked homemade cookie personified. He is warm, not too sweet but sweet enough that you feel like you can’t get enough of him, and you will feel like you’re at home— a safe place, a place for you to come back and be wrapped inside his warm embrace.

Thank you, Yiyan, for everything. Please don’t forget to take the chicken out from the freezer at least 30 minutes before you can cook it, okay? Take care. I’ll root for you, always.

Yours,

Memory of Denim Jacket at a Coffe Shop

aarovmontague — 2022-09-28 01:39:54 UTC

The time we are spending together, I am holding tight on it. The look in your eyes when we met for the first time thanks to coffee and cookies you served for me that time. I will remember all of it and so I am writing this not only for you, but for us to remember.

I sincerely want to thank you for choosing to stay with me. To love you, to be loved by you, and loving the feeling when I love you. I get to experience all of that. Talking with you is like staying at a coffee shop, because it makes me comfortable. I don't know if it's because of its smell or the appearance of it, but it always gives me comfort where I can read my book comfortably as well or just to work. It feels like we've known for a long time. It's not an easy thing to do but you make it possible.

I am not a man who can arrange long and beautiful words as I am quite straightforward with what I feel. Everything I say to you and I do, they are all sincere gesture from me to you. Also, as much as you give love to other people, you deserve so much love as well in return. You're so easy to love. I hope you always take care of yourself and don't work yourself too hard.

I want to keep seeing a smile on your face.
Whatever the cause, I hope you'll be happy.

A man whose denim jacket you wear,
A.M.

Islan!!

meissyaaa — 2022-10-02 04:18:23 UTC

You need to know how grateful I am for our encounter. Even from our first conversation, I knew that I would be the luckiest girl to be yours. I want to thank you for the 2 days full of loving gestures and also the steamy nights.

Okay, here goes the NSFW part, hahah.

Let's talk about how good you are in bed. You and your words that made my legs trembled, even when we were just casually teasing each other while we were at work. I love how you treated me as your personal slut (which I was), and proceeded to treat me as your princess after that. You really know how to build the tension, making our session enjoyable and full of pleasure. You also know how to deal with my bratty side. You fulfilled all my needs and I couldn't feel more lucky.

I love both of your sides when you are on bed. The Islan who degraded me to the point I got goosebumps out of excitement and the Islan who praised and worshipped me with his sweet, sweet words.

Alright, back to the PG stuff, lol.

I enjoyed our talk a lot! I love the light conversation we had back then. We just randomly talked about food and the conversation just went on and on, hahah. I truly had a great time with you, I also felt so much loved by you. You are a very warm and caring boyfriend.

Islan, I wish you a good luck with your job, please do not overwork yourself. I hope you could get a proper sleep at least 3 times a week. Stay hydrated and be healthy always. I loved you <3

- Your M

Dear Kak Islan,

2022-10-15 12:32:03 UTC

Hiii kakak!
Maaf ya telatt bangett mampirnya?
Aku cuma mau bilang terima kasihh sebanyak-banyaknyaa karena udah nemenin aku beberapa hari. It was woooooonnnderrffuuull. You were so caring, loving and gentle (kecuali waktu lagi ***) hehehe

Also, you can portray your muse verryyy weell. Mau as main atau side, you did great on both! Thank you for always making sure about my conditions, feelings and everything. I feel so lucky to met you.

Pokoknyaa, jangan lupa jaga kesehataan and stopp overworkk!!!

-R.

Hi, Kakak pacar. 🐥

lidolkitten — 2022-11-04 14:29:05 UTC

Terima kasih Kakak untuk waktunya, meskipun singkat tapi aku seneng.. beneran seneng. I’m not very good at expressing my words tapi Kakak harus tau aku full senyum semalaman berkat Kakak! 🥺🤍 semuanya malam itu.. still feels like a dream.

Aku mau ngomong ini sekalian karena udah ada kesempatan, aku mau bilang that you're potraying Jimin so well! Dualitynya Kakak itu beneran Jimin banget. 🥺 tmi.. aku kadang suka buka akun Kakak terus lihat Kakak interaksi itu kaya lihat Jimin beneran HUFT makanya aku tuh sedih banget karena udah nungguin bulan ini taunya Kakak udah full lagi.. untung tetap dapet hourly. 🥰 ketemu sama Kakak kaya ketemu harta karun buatku, Kakak harus tau gimana senengnya aku bisa bareng Kakak meskipun enggak lama.

Untuk videonya bakalan aku masukin ke PR Mimi & Kak Islan, aku pasti bakalan muncul lagi tapi belum tau kapan.. Kakak harus persiapin diri buat ketemu Mimi lagi! 😾👊🏻

-tebak

2022-12-06 01:00:59 UTC

islan islan islan, si lelaki manis dengan jiwa sepekat biru samudra, begitu menenangkan dan menyenangkan. kamu adalah satu paket lengkap dari cinta, kehangatan dan kasih sayang yang melimpah. aku gak akan pernah bosen bilang kalo aku bener bener beruntung bisa ketemu sama orang hebat kayak kamu deh. you always prioritized me first meskipun kerjaan kamu lagi banyak, minta maaf kalo lagi gak bisa kabarin, selalu excited sama apa yang aku ceritain, terus aku tuh kayak yang apa ya- bener bener tersentuh banget sama setiap perlakuan kamu. i do really love your manner and politeness, lann ❤️ walaupun kita sering lemparin kata kasar (dalam artian bercanda) ke satu sama lain, kamu selalu tau boundaries kita masing masing. yaa pokonya kamu ngerti gimana bikin orang nyaman, i'm glad you read my form carefully so the session went well between us. kayaknya gitu aja deh, aku udah tulis banyak di chatroom pas kamu closing jadi bingung mau nulis apa lagi KWKWKWKW 😭

hormat dan salam perkambingan,
—V.

From our bakery, with love.

2022-12-12 12:28:10 UTC

dear kakak iyan, sometimes i can still smell our freshly baked bread, coming in batches from our oven. sometimes i can still feel the warmth of your presence and i found myself thinking more on how much i missed having you around to color up my days. yesterday i watched a video on how to preserve butter in the best way, kakak, and it immediately reminds me of you.

kakak, having you around to accompany my days have proven to be quite addicting, because even now your excitement over everything still rings clearly in my head. i love talking with you, i love being excited with you, i even love sending stickers with you. you are love in the kindest form, kakak iyan, and you brought me so much joy just in the past few days we were together.

i can never thank you enough for building our bakery from scratch with me. i believe that love and kindness will always pour out gently from your hands, and it will always flows to whoever's receiving your affection. i sincerely wish that there's more of you in this world, just because i want everyone to have their own kakak iyan.

kakak iyanku yang baik, please always remember to take care of yourself, okay? you still make time for me and put a lot of effort in everything despite having work on top of it, i just hope you're taking enough rests in between. i'll always be here to wish you good health and happiness.

thank you for your kind love, kakak iyan. i'll always cherish you and our bakery close to heart.

xx

Untuk Kak Islan! ♡

thisekala — 2022-12-13 05:58:03 UTC

Halo halo! Gimana hari ini, Kak? Lancar semuanya? Semoga hari ini indah, ya. Soalnya orang yang baca ini juga super indah, hehe. You deserve to be happy, never forget that, okay?

Makasih banyak udah ngasih waktu yang harusnya dipakai istirahat, tapi malah ladenin misuhanku yang gak jelas. Maaf, ya. Jangan kapok ketemu aku, karena kayaknya aku kena pelet Kakak deh. Mau sama ketemu lagi soalnya. :(

Kakak, jaga kesehatan, ya? Jangan telat makan dan istirahat yang cukup. Semoga nanti bisa ketemu lagi dengan waktu yang lebih banyak biar pacarannya lebih afdol. :)

Makasih banyak udah jadi pacarku yang super manis, lucu, bucin dan POCECIP. Alaypyupul, Kak. See you when I see you. ♡

Took my chance, would do it all over again

calliology — 2023-01-20 00:46:11 UTC

Here’s to the two sides of Islan that I love equally: the sweet and the spicy. Have I told you that I still smile over the reminiscence of both? Trust me when I say it is true, because it really is.

Taking a chance with you might be one of the best decisions in my life, it was heart-thumping, warm, full of fun roller-coaster rides, brought butterflies to my stomach; it was everything that I am looking for in love. There was no time when I didn’t want to just spend my time laying in bed, letting my legs move on their own, all because of the overflowing joy that I feel from our encounters. You never failed in spurting sweet words to me, and seconds after you cracked the funniest joke of the century. In all of those, I found comfort, I found serenity, I found love.

Falling in love with you feels like coming back to my highschool days, where watching bands performing on stage becomes an intimate thing that two can do. The rest of the world doesn’t matter since we live in a bubble of our own. We’d squat down and play with our self-made paper cranes, ones that look pretty because we already mastered the way to make them. All in pastel colors, shades of pink that were mine, and yours will be in between the hue of blue. When our favorite song got played, we’d scream the hardest, you’d let me lay my head on your shoulder as we had our fingers intertwined together. We’d share a comfortable silence as we were focusing ourselves on the silly messages that we sent to each other, and heard them from the vocalist on stage. You’d bop my nose, saying that I’m silly only for me to find out that you did the same, too. And when they started singing, I’d cry, because the song hit too close to home, too close to our story, too close to the fact that the distance was between us. But still, I’d take a chance with you, a million times more, do it all over again because I could survive reliving all of those as long as I have you with me.

Despite the delicateness that you bring, when the curtain closed and the walls became the only witness of our deeds, whatever you did only made me want to chant your name over and over again. Things were rough but sweet, sinful enough for hell to have us, but at the same time, heavenly. Whenever your lips left their touch against my skin, I could only wish to have more of you. You let me experience the most of all my senses, provoking every single one of them until I reached the peak of my sensitivity. Don’t you love it too, when slurs of your name kept on echoing inside the room, knowing that it was all your doing?

Even after all those, we’d exchange banter again, while you rubbed your palm against my face, swiping all the sweats and tears away. You’d look straight into my eyes, and you’d see stars there, shining brightly just for you. I’d snuggle myself closer to your chest, listening to the rhythmic sounds of your heartbeat, and I’d hope tomorrow never came, for stopping the time and staying in that moment forever are the only things that ran on my mind.

Islan, when it comes to comfort, you speak it the best. Either through acts or words, it is comfort that you always bring to the table. Even when we talk about wounds, you always kiss them from the scar of my skin and at that very moment, I feel nothing but contentment in my heart— that you are holding within the gentleness of your palms. Now they are healed, now the cuts are mended, now I don’t even remember why they got there in the first place, now I can only see the flowers that you drew around them.

Until now, I am still not sure about how to return all those to you, they are priceless, they are precious; just like you. While wishing to have you back in my arms, I hope happiness would always be on your feet, as well as health and serenity. Islan, Ion’t think any thank yous will ever be enough for everything, but since words are the only way to convey it, I hope it suffices, at least for now.

Your blooming petal,
C. A.

Greetings from your one and only Alien 👽

2023-02-05 19:37:55 UTC

I know it’s been hella late since the last two sessions we’ve had (and I really apologize for that) but I still wanna drop by and say thank you through this padlet.

Well, I feel like “a best friend-shaped love” is a really perfect way to describe you. The more we’ve spent our days together, the more I realized that I found my best friend-shaped love in you. I feel like I got to hold the world in a palm of my hand from all the love, memories, and even the crazy, but funny moments we’ve shared.

You feel like a happy virus to me because you always bring joy when you’re around. And oh, to be able to experience A LOT of stuffs that we did without regretting it (like you said to me too), is one of the most priceless, memorable moments of us and will always be one of my favorite (Alien) things to do when I’m with you.

Thank you for letting me to love you once again, and thank you for loving me the way I am.

Please take care and stay healthy, Ian!

-👽🤍🦋

2023-02-15 13:52:51 UTC

semenjak dari pertama kali kita sesi bareng, gue udah ngerasa kalo lu tuh punya kepribadian yang asik, ceria, friendly, dan nyambung sama gue, eh apasih... satu serverlah ibaratnya. dan buktinya semakin terasa pas lu jadi kakak gue 😼 jujur gue seneng banget bisa ngerasain jadi adek lu dan gue emang ngerasa seberuntung itu?? gue berharap lu juga ngerasain hal yang sama kayak yang gue rasain, lan. once again, thank you for being there for me, being patient with me, and being the reason behind my smile. thank you for allowing me to showing you my absurd slash orgil personality. lu selalu nyoba buat ngerti keadaan gue, selalu dengerin bacotan gue, dan selalu ngasih saran terbaik yang lu punya. kita gak bisa setiap hari ketemu, tapi setiap sesi bareng, gue selalu ngerasa nyaman ngobrol sama lu. bahkan obrolan kita yang terlihat konyol ataupun bodoh bisa lu tanggapin dengan baik. words are not enough to describe how lucky i am to have you as an my old brother. gue tau ini cuma virtual tapi lu selalu berhasil bikin gue seneng, naikin mood gue, lu udah ngajarin banyak hal buat gue. ketika jadi adek lu, gue ngerasa dunia dan semesta mau berteman sama kehidupan gue, entahlah... tapi rasanya kayak lagi berdamai sama hidup? YA GITU POKONYA WKWK. gue bakalan KANGEN BANGET BERANTEM SAMA LU sambil ngeledek ngeledek lucu macem tom dan jerry!! anjir ini kenapa udah kayak surat perpisahan?? MASA ADEK LU TIBA TIBA JADI CENGENG GINI.

aNDD i do really appreciates your efforts yang udah lu lakukan ke gue selama ini entah itu pda, opening, closing, your validations bahkan surat yang lu kasih ke gue. thank you for treat me very well as your little ninin, lan! :D

kalo lagi gak kuat dan capek, lu istirahat dulu, nggak boleh maksain diri! kadang gak semuanya berjalan mulus, tapi seenggaknya lu udah buktiin kalo ini adalah diri lu. kalo lu lagi ada apa apa jangan dipendem yaa, lu cerita ke orang yang udah lu percayain so you will feel better. udah sih segini aja dari gue mah, nanti lama lama gue menjelma jadi mamah dedeh ke elu.

semoga hari lu menyenangkan begitupun hari seterusnya! :D

—dari adek lu, tunangannya sasuke.

2023-04-04 23:18:42 UTC

buat bang islan dan bang raja, gue cuma ingin menyampaikan sedikit pesan kepada kalian, ini nggak akan banyak, hehehe.

buat abang abang yang hebat dan selalu berusaha memaksimalkan waktunya buat gue, buat abang abang yang berjuang setengah mati untuk melindungi adeknya. semua perhatian yang udah kalian kasih, semua pengorbanan kalian demi gue, semoga Tuhan membalas semua kebaikan kalian selama ini, karena gue yakin Tuhan sengaja mengirimkan 2 sosok hebat dan istimewa untuk menjaga gue, si adik paling kecil di keluarga ini. kalian selalu siap mengantar pergi kemanapun kaki kecil ini melangkah, tak pernah sekalipun gue mendengar keluhan dari kalian selain mendengar gelak tawa bahagia kalian saat kita berjalan bersama saling merangkul bahu satu sama lain. walaupun kita sering ribut ribut kayak kucing dan tikus, tetapi gue semakin paham betapa indahnya persaudaraan kita, gue semakin yakin alasan Tuhan mempertemukan gue dengan kalian karena cuma kalian yang bisa menghilangkan kesedihan ini disaat nggak ada yang mampu memberikan secuil harapan dan juga kebahagiaan kepada gue.

udah ah anjing panjang banget, nanti nggak kelar kelar. makasih udah mau sayang adek kalian yang aneh dan nyebelin ini 🤍

adek lu yang sebentar lagi nikah sama sasuke,
—V.

Dear my lovely, Islan 💐

2023-07-27 00:28:23 UTC

I didn't think I tell you this but I have been struggling to sleep for the past few weeks, but then, with you last night, it was so easy because being with you made me feel so safe and secure. You are a bubble of comfy. Thank you ya Islan, for giving me the chance to spend such a memorable time with you. It was such a great short hours with you. Best believe that I woke up with a big smile today.

If you are worried about being rusty then you can ease your worries. I can vouch for that. You are so lovely and loveable. Thank you for loving me so much, Islan. I will never forget the butterflies in my stomach that caused by you. The giddy feelings, the excitement. Mana aku salting terus deh pas lagi sama kamu. Thank you for making me feel that I am worth to be loved. Thank you for taking care of me. You are such a perfect partner that everyone needs (real). and as much as I wanna gate-keep you, but I can't do that. I hope that everyone will get a chance to be love and to love you because it is pure happiness to share this feelings with you. Islan my love, please take care of yourself ya? I hope in the future we can get more chance and more time to spend with each other. To be honest, I really am looking forward to see you again, really soon (bucin real). Goodluck, Islan! I will always be here to support you! Thank you so much ya sayangku. and take care ❤️

- I.D.H

To the prettiest boyfriend,

2023-07-30 17:22:33 UTC

I'm glad that I exist and have found my way to you.

For a long time, I could only admire you for afar. You're fun, gentle, and just... pretty. But that night, I could finally spend the night with you. Not only it was fun, it was also intimate, somehow. In no time, you made me feel like I was safe. It felt like coming home.

I wish I could gatekeep the tiny side of you, but until we meet again, I can only wish. I still remember you cute and tiny you were.. how easy it was to make you blush.

Kak Islan, I will always remember.

Love, The Abby to Your ****.

Sincerely, the father of the 3 muskeeters.

airlanggasa — 2023-08-03 14:40:35 UTC

Words cannot fully capture how grateful I am for the incredible warmth and love you've brought into my life over the past few days. You truly are a pill of happiness, brightening up every place you step into. Your adorable nature only adds to the joy you spread. It's as if you have an enchanting aura that draws people in and makes them feel at ease.

It's the little things you do, the sweet gestures and thoughtful words, that have a profound impact on my heart. Your presence brings a sense of serenity and contentment. Thank you for being such a wonderful presence.

Signed, A.

🤎🍂🍁🧡

2023-08-18 00:16:01 UTC

Hello, my favorite autumn. That has to be the biggest compliment I ever give to someone because you know how much I love autumn (the season, the song, the every aesthetics) and you go beyond them, sitting on the top of the list. Because you deserve it. Thank you for taking care of me, showing me how warm love is like how I hide inside your arms when the rain on autumn comes. How gentle love is like the autumn breeze caressing my skinㅡas how your fingers do on mine. Thank you, for bringing autumn to me, with all your magic words and spells.

My warm Islan, my sweet Islan, my loving and loved Islan. I have been thanking the universe for guiding me to you, what once just a simple crush from afar, turns into a delicate feeling that kept growing whenever you were around and now lingers as we part ways. May time allows our autumn comes again. Until I see you again. 🤎🍂🍁🧡 (kali ini aku nggak perlu copy karena mereka berempat sudah jadi serangkaian recent emojis yang berderet)

ㅡ V

dear calon ipar sasuke <(￣︶￣)>

2023-09-02 15:50:16 UTC

haaaii abang abang jelek dan bau dosa :3

gue mau banget menyampaikan betapa nggak cukupnya kata-kata buat ngungkapin rasa terima kasih gue karena kalian udah nemenin gue selama tiga hari terakhir ini. serius, gue ngerasa beruntung banget punya abang-abang sehebat kalian yang selalu ada buat gue.

kalian nggak cuma abang, tapi juga temen gue yang nggak ada duanya. kapan aja gue butuh orang buat curhat, ketawa-ketiwi, atau malah bercanda receh, kalian selalu ada dengan senyum dan bantuan tangan terbuka. tiga hari ini buat gue kayak petualangan yang gak akan pernah gue lupakan, dan itu berkat hadirnya kalian.

terima kasih atas segala kesabaran kalian ketika gue super drama, dan atas dukungan tanpa syarat yang udah kalian berikan. selama tiga hari ini, kita udah alami segala hal, dari drama paling gak penting sampe kejadian yang emosional. semua itu udah bener-bener mempererat hubungan kita.

gue nggak bisa ngungkapin betapa berterima kasihnya gue buat kalian yang udah jadi tulang punggung gue selama tiga hari ini. kalian adalah bukti nyata bahwa keluarga itu yang paling berharga. gue setiap hari merasa bersyukur punya kalian sebagai abang!! (real)

gue harap kita bisa terus bikin kenangan-kenangan asyik kayak gini. makasih banget, abang-abang gokil, dari lubuk hati gue yang paling dalam.

dari adek lu yang bentar lagi nikah sama sasuke,
—V.

Tonight, I hope my light reaches you once again.

2023-10-17 18:58:59 UTC

Haiy :D Your sunbeam slash moonlight is here! I’m writing this while munching on your favorite fruit (yes, I still remember it). Isn’t it kinda strange that a lot of things we’ve talked about have become something familiar to me and everytime I come across it, all I can think about is you. Perhaps that’s how great the impact of the love you shared with me. Love that is safe—love that makes me feel like I’m home.

Little did you know, I also get to unleash this lively, silly, and even vulnerable side of me because of you, Islan. I’m not the type of person who easily shows it to just anyone, but you make things easier for me. Talking with you feels like I’m talking with the person I’ve known for a long time—it all came naturally. And you held my heart so gently that there's not a single trace of wound left behind, only the warmth of your hands. So if we bring that one question of yours back to the table, I think you are the one who possesses the magic, no? (or maybe we both are?)

Besides your sweet and caring self, I actually love the way you tease me until I become all flushed. I also love how effortlessly you match my silliness. It's funny that you respond to all of the asbuns I've thrown and take my silly questions genuinely. I literally lost count on how many times I giggled at your responses. Thank you for loving me the way you do and making me feel immensely loved, ya.

I’m happy, Islan. I’m happy when I’m with you. I would love to learn moooooreee about you next time we finally have the chance. Until then, I hope everything good always comes your way and as what Kafka said, may Heaven shower some comforts on you. Take care, orang gede kesayanganku.

Your little sunbeam and shining luna,
A.

2023-10-29 04:56:13 UTC

mulai bingung ingin mengisi dengan kata kata apa disini (atau haruskah gue masukin lirik indonesia raya kesini beserta link websitenya ea,,) dahlah pokonya gue tidak pernah menyesal bertemu dgn abang yg selalu sabar menghadapi segala kerandoman, keabsurdan, kebokeman gue yg sudah mendarah daging didalam tubuh gue enih tapi gapapa bang gue masih tetep cinta indonesia kok 🥺🥺🥺🥺 pa lagi yh,, pokonya lu jgn bosen bosen ktemu gue adik lu yang super biyutipul ini ok dan semoga abang sukses tobat denger lagunya N word tahun ini (abang islan km pasti bisa abangku ada adek disini yg sllu menghibur kegundahan abang)

sincerely from adek lu yg paling kece dan sanggup meluluhlantakkan org org yg menyakiti abang gue,

—V.

How does it feel holding you close to me?

2024-01-28 04:30:57 UTC

I. It felt like we're talking heart to heart without even saying a word

People say silence is good, but I think silence is tedious if you're not caught in my orbit. It feels like I, who usually talk a lot, can afford to be silent for hours while watching you focus on a book that you've been wanting to read for a long time but just got around to it. I would not be able to blink my eyes as your little fingers slowly turned the pages of the book as each sentence on the page was transmitted into your head. Let's just keep it this way, four hours, you and I sat across from each other without a word but it still felt like a heart-to-heart talk.

II. It feel like love is there, in the simplest things around us

Things that normally go by the wayside when it's just me become more meaningful. I like to put meaning into the simple things in everyday moments that you and I may or may not realise. Perhaps I find love in the cloud of steam from your favourite bowl of Mie Gaga jalapeno, how you smile over there and stare at the bowl of hot noodles ready to shift to your mouth at any moment. Perhaps I also find love in the foams from doing the dish-washing after piling up dirty dishes two days in a row. Perhaps I find love in every inch of the tiles in the house, which you clean every weekend even though you sometimes have to nag me because I like to step on them unintentionally. Perhaps I even find love in the stacks of cute lunch boxes that we impulsively buy just for looking cute. I swear to God, Islan, everything is so simple but with you it's so much more joyous.

III. It feel like I could make the moment forever evergreen

Islan, the digits on the clock just need to be bamboozled for there are only twelve and I need more digits of time spent with you. Despite the short time and you shining so beautifully that night, I want to keep the memory safe. A huge heartfelt gratitude, because my night never had a star as bright as you before. As Westlife sang "I'm gonna take this night and make it evergreen", I'm gonna take the night I spent with you and plant it inside me so that it will always grow within me and will always be evergreen.

Light of the night (but not as bright as you), M.

Hai kakak jelek (lovlingy) 😋

2024-02-10 17:04:09 UTC

Aduh aku bingung mau bilang apa ya, tapi aku tuh ngerasa cocok banget sama kakak dan ternyata kita berdua sama-sama enjoy + happy barengan hihi! Terima kasih ya kakak udah mau nemenin aku, aku beneran seneng banget ketemu sama kakak. Kita berdua kaya bawel banget gak sih ih seru deh wkwkw (nulis ini senyum² sendiri) berasa dunia milik berdua yang lain ngontrak. Meski yang diobrolin kadang gak jelas tapi itu yang bikin kita berdua cocok ahayy (sama-sama gak jelas soalnya) HAHAHA. Beneran ngabisin waktu berdua sama kakak tuh gak berasa banget, rasanya mau sama kakak terus aja hehee. Makasih banyak ya kakak udah bikin aku seneng + senyum-senyum mulu tiap ngobrol. Kakak juga sabar banget ngadepin aku yang gengsi dan suka malu-malu ini hihi.

Thank you for making me feel loved, kakak! Sama kakak berasa banget dicintai secara ugal-ugalan wkwkwwk. Pokoknya aku seneng banget banget dahhh, padahal kita baru pertama ketemu yaa tapi berasa udah kenal lamaaaaa. Beneran absurd banget dah kita berdua. Seneng banget akuuuuu!!!

Kakak stay healthy yaaa. Jangan lupa istirahat yang cukup dan mam juga yang bener!! Semoga kakak dikelilingi hal-hal baik yaaa. See you when I see you, kakak!

- Onyiw 🌹

Halo, Islanku.

2024-02-22 16:25:59 UTC

Islanku,

Daniskaraku.

Jika suatu hari nanti ada peneliti yang menemukan fakta bahwa ternyata dunia kita saling beririsan beribu tahun yang lalu dan terus berulang hingga masa kini, mungkin aku akan percaya begitu saja bahkan tanpa perlu memvalidasi satu per satu bukti temuan si peneliti.

Sebab seluruh rasa familier yang terkecap oleh indera ini rasa-rasanya tak masuk akal untuk sebuah pertemuan pertama.

Bagaimana bisa sebuah konversasi mengalir begitu saja tanpa perlu waktu lama untuk saling beradaptasi dan memahami?

Bagaimana bisa dua orang asing yang baru bertemu pertama kali memiliki cukup banyak kebetulan dan kesamaan preferensi?

Tak lupa dengan segala hal—bahasa cinta, cara berkomunikasi, gaya candaan, dan lain-lain—yang terasa pas dan cocok sekali.

Mungkin memang benar dunia kita selalu beririsan dan berulang baik di kehidupan sebelumnya ataupun di kehidupan mendatang.

Mungkin kita adalah burung dan ranting ia ditenggeri di pagi hari pada suatu masa ratusan tahun yang lalu; atau orang asing yang duduk bersebelahan di kereta sepulang kerja lima puluh dekade kemudian.

Mungkin, perlu kubuat satu hipotesa dan teori baru yang harus kuteliti bersamamu di lain waktu, dengan harapan jika apa yang akan kita temukan itu bisa menjelaskan rasa familiar dan rasa nyaman yang membuai seperti candu itu. Hehe.

Namun, mengesampingkan rencana besar penelitian yang pastinya membutuhkan berbagai macam persiapan dan waktu yang panjang, ada satu fakta absolut yang aku yakin takkan terbantahkan oleh teori manapun yang telah lebih dulu tercatat dalam sejarah.

Fakta bahwa presensi seorang Islan Daniskara menghadirkan rasa nyaman yang membawa tawa dan bahagia bagi siapapun yang menjadi cintanya.

Islan Daniskara adalah dia, si cowok lucu yang penuh jenaka, perhatian, dan menggenggam banyak cinta di tangannya—dari sudut pandang Nona.

——

Lan, I really mean it when I said my heart feels full and filled with so much love when I was with you; that gave me a really good sleep afterward and made me realize that I don’t even remember when was the last time I felt this alive and content.

Bahkan waktu hampir dua kali dua puluh jam itu rasanya cuma kayak sekelebat, though we’ve talk about literally almost everything, the important and the mundane (jadi lirik lagu… tapi serius).

Terima kasih untuk dua kali dua puluh empat jamnya yang berkesan ya, Lan. Semoga akan ada kesempatan lain buat kita ketemu lagi sambil makan sate atau bakmi, dan mewujudkan rencana penelitian yang akan jadi penemuan terbesar di abad ini. (Amin)

Until then, please stay healthy and happy! Don’t skip your meals and water intakes. Add some multivitamin too, cause the weather and the air been a bit hostile lately.

Dari halaman seratus tujuh puluh tujuh;

yang akan kamu ingat selalu,

Nonadhiramu.

Dear, Islan.

2024-04-21 07:05:23 UTC

Dear Islanku,

Daniskaraku.

First of all, I sincerely apologize that it took me soooo long to come here, because I was imprisoned by life ever since the holidays ended. :’( I hope you were doing well and healthy in the meantime ya, Lan!

Lan, I think “thank you, grateful, lucky, etc”, these words are not giving justice to represent my feelings for our brief yet meaningful time on Eid days. But still, I am truly… very grateful for the new and memorable experience I’d never forget through the seasons’ change; I can guarantee that. Even I still feeling giddy and being such a goofy everytime I recall the “kerja kelompok” activity that we accomplished, until now. AAAAAAAARGH.

Doing the mundane things in a relationship has always been my favorite idea of love all this time—an idea of love that is simple but full of genuinity. And it always feels

like a dream comes true when I’m with you since I guess, genuineness is something you excel at and everyone who comes here will undoubtedly agree with me.

Terima kasih ya, Lan.. I hope we still have another time to accomplish our next “kerja kelompok” and submit another reports to come. Until then, please stay happy and healthy, Islanku.

— Nonadhira.

P.S. It was my pleasure to spare you a bowl of warm Bakso made by Mamah on the day two! Mamah said, she’d cook a whole pot for you whenever you came home. ;)