The dim summer sea, a sunset-colored wind
I think of you again, that feeling when
I love you

Feels like coke, cool wind blows
Between the gaps of the universe, hear the heart beat
You're in the same place as me, I hope you see
Please just stay with me, just stay with me
You'll find it out at once, that feeling when
This moment only we know
Sharing each scene, everything
Special
So special

That feeling when we're here
Such a good vibe 
That feeling when we’re here 
Such a good vibe, it has just begun

That feeling you know

A subtle color light, a puppy that made eye contact
Feels so cozy
Can't take my eyes off you, yeah
"Excitement" is my quote
No expression can explain this feeling

Rather than sloppy words
A heart beating faster
I want to give you this nervousness
I love you

Feels like coke, cool wind blows
Between the gaps of the universe, hear the heart beat
You're in the same place as me, I hope you see
Please just stay with me, just stay with me
You'll find it out at once, that feeling when
This moment only we know
Sharing each scene, everything
Special
So special

That feeling when we're here
Such a good vibe 
That feeling when we're here
I would say, I like you

That feeling you know

Reasons why I LOVE THIS SONG. No songs can beat this one so far.

Let’s just begin with the vocals they were so good. Those falsettos and instrumentals? OMG one of the reason I’m still alive. The lyrics was good tho. I also memorized the dance so I could vibe more for sure. For your information, I once played this song for 3 hours. I don’t know what to describe but this bop feels catchy and so breezy at the same time. Honestly, I didn’t like this song at the first hear but days passed when my Spotify playlist played this song, it grows on me so much. Maybe this song is not your typa cup of tea, but it's mine anyways.

This month update:

• 10th in merentas desa

• played for basketball

• silver medal in 4x400

• a goalkeeper for netball again

• participated in 400m again but I got the 5th place

1) 20^th Century Girl

   This is a romance Korean movie because why not? The storyline was saddening ( I cried in this one scene where they were leaving each other ) but there was cliffhanger in this movie I sobbed.

2) Casper

    This movie is a breezy comedy but the storyline never make me feel uninterested. This movie was about a girl who made friend with a cute ghost. For your information, I have watched this movie thrice and it still gave off the same vibes. Highly recommended by me hehe.

3) The Good Dinosaur

    Proud to say that this was the saddest movie I have ever watched. The story is about a young dinosaur who was lost and he can’t meet his family for years. The ending of this movie was so heartbreaking.

You gave me a sight

Never knew that it will end tonight

Until tomorrow you have felt

We knew it was a fright

But it was just a start

We ran to find the daylight

And realized that we were just hunting for a ghost

The clock stroke on the exact

I have nothing to rely and rent

Our days was just an experiment

Live to count what are left

The path was on the right

But you picked the opposite side

We were eventually lost

Heart was torn apart

I dislike thousands of things but here, I just list some of them. Peoples with no respect to others, soda drinks, that kind of games like mobile legends and free fire, coffee except for mocha, make-ups, shows with action genre like those avengers movies, staying in the hotel because I felt so uneasy (I don’t know how to describe but I have a very strong feeling of something), that kind of expensive perfume smells and the subject additional mathematics (I have to stay quiet on this).

    Omg I literally can’t describe my love for this hobby. Not actually a hobby but a routine for me. I dance for every minutes even with doing the smallest moves. Mostly, I dance to hip-hop genres because I think that suits me more than traditional dances. So far, I have participated in four dance performances. One at my kindergarten, one at my primary school and two latest performances at KPPN. I was so proud of myself when it comes to I’m performing those dances because I did what I like and interested to do (It hits different trust me).

2) Singing especially attempting to do high-notes

    So when I dance to a song, I would sing along too. I listen to Korean songs a lot and I will sing them in every way in every time such as when I’m washing dishes, going upstairs and downstairs, while reading books and much more. I once performed as a singer in a talent show and I don’t even know what did I sounded like but it’s okay for a first time. Some of my friends said that I’m a good singer and I loved that compliment hehe. Instead of singing ballad songs, hip-hop songs, R&B songs, I love rapping too because I felt damn great.

3) Writing and composing

     I claimed these two as my therapy. I love writing my own stories and I created a novel out of it. For your information, my latest novel (I’m still working on it) titled ‘Ivory Clouds’ have reached 21 pages for 1 week of writing. That was the most successful one so far. Other than that, I love composing poems and lyrics. I just thought that these are very interesting to do. I have my own collection of my own written poems (mostly are sad ones). For lyrics, I have a habit to rewrite my own lyrics to an existing song. I mean, changing the lyrics to any other themes for example sad to happy so I have two versions to sing. That’s it.

In this moment tainted by darkness
Let me take you to paradise
The moon behind the revealing clouds
You're getting intoxicated by me, baby
Won't you let me in? Our own secret
An irresistible attraction, oh, oh

You and I under the moonlight
The sun is behind the night
Tonight will become eternal
Dancing and getting drunk all night long, oh

Just the two of us
Getting deeper into moonstruck
Oh, you make me go
Crazy over you, you, baby
Let me hold you close
Flying over the rising moon tonight
Crazy over you, you, baby

Brown hair fluttering
Flying through the twinkling stars
Riding the magic carpet like a dream
Baby, now you're in my blood

You and I under the moonlight
We bloom in the night
Tonight the flower of eternity will bloom
Let's get even more intoxicated all night long, oh

Just the two of us
Getting deeper into moonstruck
Oh, you make me go
Crazy over you, you, baby
Let me hold you close
Flying over the rising moon tonight
Crazy over you, you, baby

We can take it slow
Moonstruck in ecstasy
Oh, you make me go
Crazy over you, you, baby
Let me hold you close
I want to feel you until the end of this night
Crazy over you, you, baby

Oh I knew that I have a lot of fav songs

This song is just beyond my expectation. Hello, the lyrics literally make me go crazy. Can we just appreciate the perfect flows and instrumental? So amazing.

Ooh, when it hardens enough to touch finally become my world

Even my small heart
And the me growing inside it
Breaking, hardening
Melting away
Only then can you see my eternity

Love between people
Gathering together
Hoping for eternity
Diving in with body and soul

Finally, our world becomes perfect
With love
With love

Even my small heart
Like small waves inside it
Breaking and pushing forward
Melting towards you
Only then can you see my eternity

- We 2K4 played volleyball together for Physical Education session (suddenly became too active) but that’s not the point! It was the boys in my class giving so much cooperation which happens once in a blue moon. Teamwork got so much easier then.

- Understood mathematics which is quite hard. So I would like to say that I’m proud of myself

- One of my comment on Tiktok has reached 1000 likes and it was my first time getting thousands.

Afternoon: Nothing other than struggling

- So, this is the story

I went to BAIS and saw a group of my juniors (the Zenith batch) gathering, struggling in front of the vending machine. I wonder what they are doing until I saw it myself. The vending machine was stuck because of too many coins! As a nice sister or a functioning PRS, I joined and help them with the problem (Wow, I was so nice back then). We tried, tried and tried for half and hour and finally managed to get out the coins from the vending machine. We counted them and it was RM17.20 in total. That was so many right? My hands also got so red and sweating so bad.

Evening: Something like the word amazed

- ENHYPEN released the preview for their new comeback album. My jaw literally went to the outer space after watching that preview video.

- Finally finished the Chemistry presentation about the hardest subtopic (soaps and detergent). Like… how soaps and detergent works are so complicated to brief with.

1) XOXO – Axie Oh

   No words but I love this book. It really feels like you’re watching a k-drama but this time you’re reading it in a book. The storyline was so fun and breezy. I read this novel while putting on my earphones, hearing some good music and OH MY GOD that feeling just hits different.

2) Six Crimson Cranes – Elizabeth Lim

    This book is so fantasy! The storyline is on my top tier and really give off Disney vibes in my opinion. The best things in this book was the characters. Like, they knew what are they doing and it was so right.

And going on Brooklyns in Brooklyn
Your Chelseas in Chelsea
Hope that eases the pain
So you remember to miss me
And you sold your car
Now you walk for miles
Bet your feet feel numb
(Crosswalks in my mind are shaky, so please hold on tight)

All my demons run wild
All my demons have your smile
In the city of angels
In the city of angels
Hope New York holds you
Hope it holds you like I do
While my demons stay faithful
In the city of angels

Summer's endin' now and the nights are coolin' down
Remember last winter when we would drive around?
Silverlake, Hollywood, pretty little white lies got me good
Thought this was love, I was misunderstood, mm

Feelin' low on the low, drivin' through NoHo
If I'm honest, I'd call, but I'm trying to let go
And I hope you're happy, livin' life in taxis
But you'll always have me, you'll always have me

All my demons run wild
All my demons have your smile
In the city of angels
In the city of angels
Hope New York holds you
Hope it holds you like I do
While my demons stay faithful
In the city of angels

If you like your coffee hot
Let me be your coffee pot
You call the shots, babe
I just wanna be yours

Secrets I have held in my heart
Are harder to hide than I thought
Maybe I just wanna be yours
I wanna be yours, I wanna be yours

Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours

Let me be your leccy meter
And I'll never run out
Let me be the portable heater
That you'll get cold without

I wanna be your setting lotion (wanna be)
Hold your hair in deep devotion (I'll be)
At least as deep as the Pacific Ocean
Now I wanna be yours

Secrets I have held in my heart
Are harder to hide than I thought
Maybe I just wanna be yours
I wanna be yours, I wanna be yours

Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
(Wanna be yours)

I wanna be your vacuum cleaner (wanna be yours)
Breathing in your dust (wanna be yours)
I wanna be your Ford Cortina (wanna be yours)
I will never rust (wanna be yours)

I just wanna be yours (wanna be yours)
I just wanna be yours (wanna be yours)
I just wanna be yours (wanna be yours)

My top comfort song. I personally liked this song so much not just because the amazing instrumental. For me, the main character is the lyrics. Hold on, they're so creative for composing this kind of songs.

Honestly, high school creates a way for me to embrace myself in sports. I started to join the netball club and basketball club which gave me opportunities to shine on the field on sports day. Well I guess i did a good job. Following that, I also got the chance to compete with athletes on track aaaahh. It was such a huge experience to me that I got places. Last year I won silver medal for 4x400, and bronze for netball. Oh, lastly not to forget, I finally got to play futsal (oh what do we call that in english?) Nevermind, because I literally scored the first goal for emerald teammm!! I've been waiting so long to play futsal by the way, and that day makes me so happy.

Fingers entwined and so were our minds crying, “I don’t want you to go”

You wiped away tears but not fears under the still and clear indigo

You said, “Baby don’t cry, we’ll be fine

You’re the one thing I swear I can’t outgrow”

My mother said the younger me was a ‘Pretending’ prodigy well nothing, then, much has changed

'Cause while you’re wolfing down liquor

My soul it gets sicker

But I’m stickin' to the screenplay, gotta say I’m okay

But answer this babe:

How is it now that somehow you’re a stranger?

You were mine just yesterday

I pray the block in my airway dissipates and instead deters your airplane’s way

But heaven denied

Destiny decried

Something beautiful died too soon

But I’m letting go

I’m giving up the ghost

But don’t get me wrong

I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song

I guess this is where we say goodbye

I know I’ll be alright

Someday I’ll be fine

But just not tonight

(Ooh!)

Plunging into all kinds of diversions like blush wine and sonorous soirées

But even with gin and surgin’ adrenaline, I see you’re all that can intoxicate

Oceans and engines, you’re skilled at infringing on great love affairs

Cause now my heart’s home, all I’ve known, is long gone and ten thousand miles away

And I’m not okay

But I’m letting go

I’m giving up the ghost

But don’t get me wrong

I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song

I guess this is where we say goodbye

I know I’ll be alright

But just not–

Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia 2 years ago

And the first time I learned real world

Superpowers lived in 3 words

They revitalized my fraying bones, Oh!

Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down, you’ve lost all solid ground, both dreams and demons drowned, and this void’s all you’ve found and doubts light it aglow?

I have so many questions

But I’m pouring them into the ocean and I’m starting up my engine

And I’m letting go

I’m giving up your ghost

It’s come to a close

I marked the end with this last song I wrote

I’m letting go

This is the last falsetto

I’ll ever sing to you my great, lost love

When you do your best, hell, that′s all you can do

You and me and anybody else

So they always start talkin'

Runnin′ away from where I'm from

Never can stay with no one

Lovin' you almost feels like something

When no one′s around me

You lost and found me

I was surrounded

With open, open, open, open arms

Open arms

You keep me open, I′m so devoted

You keep me open

Open arms

I'm so devoted to you, to you, to you

Spent your life bein′ hopeless

Chokin' on insecurity

I know ownership is bad

But please put a leash on me anyway

Who needs self-esteem anyway?

I hate myself to make you stay

Push me away, I′ll be right here

With open, open, open, open arms

Open arms

You keep me open, I'm so devoted

You keep me open

Open arms

I′m so devoted to you, to you, to you

Went through your phone again, I feel pathetic

Leave me alone, I can't take another lie

I don't wanna hear your tryin′

I just spent the whole night cryin′

I'd rather just f*** on my ex again

At least he still loves me for who I am

Ain′t no changin' me, oh, there ain′t no changin' me

You been just ashamed of me

I guess I gotta go (ooh)

I guess it′s time to go

I gotta let you go (gotta let you go, gotta let you go)

Gotta let you go, gotta let you go

I gotta let you go, I must

You're the only one that's holdin′ me down (ooh)

You′re the only one holdin' me down (only one)

′Cause I'm the only one that′s holdin' me down

Oh, oh, baby
둘만의 낙원에 취해
아무도 우릴 찾지 못하도록 (도록)
이 시간의 문을 닫아, mm (Time, than time with you; Oh, oh)
Baby
All the quarters, nickels and dimes (Ooh)
조금도 흩어지지 않게 담아 (담아)
There's nothing more precious than time, than time with you
Mm-mm, timе capsule 속에 숨겨둘래, 행복의 촉감과 황홀한 scent
맞닿은 hearts, 떨리는 brеath (Breath), 우리를 비추는 햇살의 shade
하나하나 (Ah) 소중히 담아 (Ah)
바래지 않게 지켜내 난
이대로 stay, 다 뒤로한 채, 깊숙이 두 눈을 꼭 맞춘 채
사치스러운 평범에 찬란한 night and day
우리만 허락된 our scene, 꽉 잡은 손을
영원처럼 남겨 놓치지 않아
Oh, oh, baby
둘만의 낙원에 취해
아무도 우릴 찾지 못하도록 (도록)
이 시간의 문을 닫아, mm (Time, than time with you)
Baby
All the quarters, nickels and dimes (Ooh)
조금도 흩어지지 않게 담아 (담아)
There's nothing more precious than time, than time with you (Time, than time with you)