https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes notes from the book en-us 2023-03-13 12:13:59 UTC 2025-11-29 22:56:08 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet.net/icons/png/1f975.png dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514327038 "It felt good to have a thing with dad, when i could have him to myself for forty-seven minutes, and he could act like he enjoyed my company for the span of one episode" - 18
This shows that he thinks his dad doesn't love him.

Darius also gets bullied by his dad when his dad is mad. - end of p42

"but he's got enough going in with his depression" - 60
Darius has depression. Darius also lets everything get to him anything small bad thing that happens to him throws him into sadness.

"I felt so inadequate" - end of 68
Darius thinks he has nothing to be depressed about yet he is depressed.

"Steven Kellner  didn't want to tell me stories anymore." - 76

Sohrab was making fun of Darius about how he wasn't circumcised and that made him realize he would just like everyone else that made fun of him in that locker room - 118

"you are a good brother Darioush" - 151

" I think Sohrab might be the first real friend he's ever had - dad" - 195

"That night, Dad didnt tell me he loved me. I didn't tell him either." - 225

" I slipped my tea and breathed in the jasmine and wondered  if anyone would be sad if i was killed in a car accident or something." - 223 - 224
Darius is having suicidal thoughts.

"How could i be a tourist in my own path?" - 230

"Maybe i was learning to have less walls inside me." - 251

"Stop crying! You're always crying! Pedar sag. Nothing bad has ever happened to you. You do nothing but complain. You've never had anything to be sad about in your life." - Sohrab - 279
Darius's only friend just blew up on Darius and this is going to be a big blow to his heart. probably the biggest one he's ever had.

"I thought how selfish i was. I really hated myself" - 280 
after sohrab just blew up at Darius

"Maybe i should never have tried to be something I wasn't." - 291]]> 2023-03-13 12:25:55 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514327038 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514327600 "sometimes i thought about how i didn't really feel like Stephen kellner's son at all" - 14
mom:
dad:Stephen kellner
Sister: Laleh
grandma: Fariba Bahrami
mom works as a UX designer at a firm in downtown Portland.
Only Laleh and mom could speak Farsi.
Darius and dad always watch a single episode of star trek every night and Darius likes it but still thinks that his dad is just showing him fake affection.

Darius dad uses his bullying against him. "because it's ridiculous. Did you ever think that you wouldn't get picked on so much if you weren't so . . ." - Dad p-42

"I understood my grandfather perfectly. Ardeshir Bahrami was as sad as I was." - 231

"Navid and Parviz decided that, since i was Persian too, it was time for me to learn rook." - 264

"you are a good friend, baba. and he is lucky to know you." - babou(grandpa) - 291
Darius has never seen this side if his grandfather before. before his grandfather hadn't shown any affection for darius.]]> 2023-03-13 12:26:18 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514327600 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328005 "I decided i like Sohrab." - 88

"sohrabs smile brightened into a squint. friends? I smiled too. It was impossible not to. Friends" Darious made friends with sohrab. - 131

"I wish you guys could stay. But we will always be friends. 
Even when you go back home." - 222

"But you know what? Laleh is not my best friend, Darioush. You are." - Sohrab - 237 

"He felt safe with me." - 244

sohrab blows up at darius - 278 - 279

"I'm sorry for what i said to you." - sohrab - 294
sohrab and Darius make up for what with them


]]> 2023-03-13 12:26:37 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328005 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328409 he didn't talk back to chip when he ripped open his bag, chip later said sorry but Darius never accepted his apology - 35

"Maybe i will." - 242
sohrab is convincing Darius to join the soccer team full of all the people that made fun of him. he has enough confidence to see them again and come into contact with them even though they made fun of him.

"I was even more amazed i could talk back to him while i scrubbed my belly button and my stomach jiggled like some sort of gelatinous non-humanoid life-form." - 251 
he was naked taking a shower and talking to other people after the soccer match, he wouldn't have been able to do that before.

"I wanted to know everything about her. It was like the well inside of me had finally cracked open." - 254
this is the first time Darius asked a question to learn about his grandmother. 

"I was a coward." - 280

"Why don't you try out in the fall? My ears burned. I almost told coach no. Almost. But that's what Darius would have done. Darioush would have tried out." - 307
Darius has a lot more confidence coming back from Iran.

]]> 2023-03-13 12:26:55 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328409 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328686 "The thing about Farsi is, it's a very deep language: deeply specific, deeply poetic, deeply context sensitive." - 20

"people in Iran don't think about mental health the way we do back home" - 56'

"in Iran especially in older homes, you were supposed to squat over the toilet instead instead of sitting it." - 82

"Taarof is the primary social cue for Iranians." - 78

"Allah-u-Abha is the traditional Baha'i greeting. It means something like God is the most glorious" - 95

"a lamassu is pretty much the persian version of a sphinx" - 153

"happy Norwuz" - 168

"persian casual cover a wide gamut, from slightley more formal than business casual to just shy of black tie or full military dress. button up shirt and dress pants are the bare minimum." - 169

"no one wore ties in iran it was considered a western fashion" - 169

"Allah-u-Abha" - 206]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:08 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328686 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328893 Darius's dad is not Persion and Darius is Persion, Darius is calmer than his dad.

Laleh and Darious are opposites
Laleh is extroverted while Darius is introverted. ]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:19 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514328893 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514329175 "My stomach tickled where sohrab had grabbed me, I blushed" - 104

"Hos cheeks turned red. I didn't know what could make sohrab blush. It made me like him even more" - 177

"Sohrab had no walls inside. I loved that about him." - 181

"Somehow it felt more intimate than just being naked in front of each other ." - 240]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:27 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514329175 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514329322 Darius was even getting bullied by the security guard.
"The officer laughed so hard, his face turned red"]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:33 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514329322 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514329522 "Look how much he loves being a dad." - 273]]> 2023-03-13 12:27:40 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2514329522 dakjornes26 https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2556947010 "Dad looked at me for a long moment. Like he knew there was something more." - 287
talking about being gay with sohrab]]> 2023-04-17 13:12:22 UTC https://padlet.com/dakjornes26/dkjornes/wish/2556947010