I was at school ,now in 2nd grade,swinging when the school bully, tommy, pushed me.

“Let me swing!” He yells 

“ wait I’m swing now” I say calmly 

“ No! Me want it Now!” He screams and then pushes me again but this time with more force

I fall to the ground 

He gets on the swing looking satisfied and that is when I completely lose it and think terrible thoughts one was that he swings so high that he passes the bar and falls. I didn’t think it would actually happen becuase everybody thinks bad things but they never happen,  but then he does exactly what I was thinking. I don’t know if it was because I was staring at him or because the thought was so evil but he did it and fell down hard but not on the sand on the concrete. Then while the teachers rushed him to the nurse I started to wonder would I get in trouble? If he dies am I a murderer? Wasn’t that funny? No it wasn’t my other mind awnsers. That scene was the first of the many outbreaks.

“Hey Ally!” Taylor says. she’s always happy and I mean always.

 “Hey taytay ” I respond

“Shh!!you know my parents don’t like that nickname” she reminds me

“ But there not here are they” I say looking around suspiciously,to mock her

“Ya, But your parents are and there the biggest snitches I’ve ever met since 1sr grade” she says jokingly 

I laugh, real,long, and hard. Not like the ones my parents make do at party’s.

“ okay where are we going to day!” taytay asks

“The rock of course!” I exclaim 

“Okay, okay calm down we need to sneak randy out.” “ He got grounded so they took away his car” she says after my questioning look.

“ oh well I guess we're using yours” I say as I hop into the car

Randy is always getting in trouble. His family is the exact opposite of mine. There all so lovey dovey with each other and don’t fake their emotions. That’s why I like going over to their house. Mrs.johnson loves me like her own daughter, which is no surprise because she has three boys and always wanted a girl. I’ve never had that with my family which makes it even worse with my outbreaks. I’ve never had anyone there to comfort me after them and I bet if mrs. Johnson knew about them she would hug me after each one. The outbreaks didn’t really bother me much, except that I was lonely. But now I’m 15 about to turn 16 in 2 weeks, July 18, and I want these outbreaks to end for good!

"Well I know now” I joke back
"Okay, want to have breakfast with me?” He says now serious
"Okay, um sure!” I stutter
"Alright!, we can go to the diner, be there in 5” he says oblivious to the fact that i sound like I’m choking on air... or he just too nice to point it out.
"Okay I’ll be there bye” I manage to say
"Bye” he hangs up
I take three deep breaths to calm down. It doesn’t work, I run around my room frantically looking for something to wear. I decide to go with pink jean skirt with cropped white tank top with my pink sunglasses. I tell my parents I’m going out for breakfast but I don’t tell them with who. I get there in 5 min the exact same time he gets there.
“Hey, Allison look great like always” he winks
“Thank you and call me Ally” I say while blushing
“Okay, it’s your rodeo” he says while putting his hands up
He’s wearing a red flannel shirt with a white tee and black ripped jeans and when I look up I fall into the ocean in his eyes. He’s not like steroid type bulky but he has a six pack and is muscular but not the nasty kind. I’m still daydreaming about him when I hear him say Ally and it sounds like that wasn’t the first time he said my name.
“What?” I ask
“Um, okay do you wanna go inside, to eat? He asks me 
“Ya, yeah sure” I say distracted 
He opens the door for me like the gentleman he is. I walk through the doors like I’m a princess and when he walks in I turn to look at him and he bows down and I giggle, out of all the things I could do I giggle. Randy was right, I am loopy.
We sit down and the waitress comes and asks us what we want to order 

“I’ll have waffles with syrup and water” I say

“I’ll have 3 bagels with cream cheese and orange juice” he says

“Okay I’ll be back with your food in 5” she says
" so wanna hear a joke” he says once she leaves 

“ yeah, let me hear it” 
“ what do you call a bird that swims over the sea” This ones easy
“A seagull” I claim
“Yeah, what do you call a bird that swims over the bay”
“Umm... a blue Martin?” 
“What! No! Where did you get that from” he cracks up
“You said a bird” I say now laughing 
The waiter comes with our food we both say thanks. When she leaves he looks back at me waiting for an awnser, when I don’t he gives up.
“Are you sure you don’t know” he asks one more time 
“ yup, shoot” I say sipping my water
“ okay a bird that flies over a bay is called... a Bagel!
 I laugh so hard water comes out my nose and he starts laughing when he sees the water come out my nose. We laugh so hard the the waiter comes over to tell us to calm down and the customers are getting disturbed but when I look up she smiling down at us and I can tell she doesn’t mean it in a mean way. We say we will and she goes back to her job. After we’ve calmed down I look at him and say
“But that’s not a bird is it?” 
That makes him start laughing again.