I have never thought we would be on our separate ways. I always thought we will be together forever, going through everything, facing every obstacles, every hardship and hurdle. That we would rely on each other more and more after every argument, every misunderstanding and even on the boring days. We would never give up on each other, just like our pinky promises :) Do you still remember them? Well, I do.. I always do.

Even after months of you cheating behind my back, lying and giving me false hope that we would be together till the end, letting me beg for your attention every day not knowing you're giving them to her easily.. and the fact you take me as a joke and treat me like I'm some kind of entertainment to you.. was it fun to fool me? Was it funny when you lie straight to my face every single day for the past 6 months? Was it funny sayang? When you did that to me?

You said the thing i did to you hurt you in the way you cant go back to your old self. You know for a fact that was an excuse to justify your action afterwards. You know what's funny? I was so ready to forgive you and let you back in my life even after all that.. I was willing to give chances after chances for you, even if it cost me losing myself. Because i would rather lose me than not having you in my life anymore. I was ready and preparing myself that you are not perfect and that is fine, because so am I. I'm willing to accept every flaws of yours. I was ready to choose you again and again everyday when i woke up.

And that's the different between you and me. You replace me so easily because of one thing that I'm lacking, but i stayed, again and again even after you broke me completely. We're not the same.

Im sorry i didnt reply to your chat on locket. Trust me, i badly, desperately want to type something back.. But I cant. I know i cant. And so do you.. It might be easy for you to be just friend again.. but not me. Not yet. I have never love someone this much.. Its hard to let go the feelings i once swore to kept forever in my heart.. Im sorry my love. I am trying..