by Zailey Wilson

The beginning . ..

kittencheekz — 2013-08-19 23:26:33 UTC

so im guessing this is basically a blog... not a big fan of blogging..but i guess i can always try something new, tho there's going to be ALOT of random shit and stuff on here, whether its daily or whatever, so if anyone's reading this well thanks i guess =P

the ACTUAL beginning . . .

kittencheekz — 2013-08-19 23:51:30 UTC

soooo today was the first day of skewl ... yay -.-, as a sophomore!! lol tho i still cant believe that my little brother is actually a FRESHMAN this year!!!!!!! tho over summer break we had to read this retarded book called The Uglies. at least it wasnt as fucked up as the book i had to read for 7th grade, The Eye The Ear and The Arm! that book was FUCKED UP! lol tho doubt anyone will actually be reading this but there's nothing else i can actually do on these shitty school laptops!! tho i was introduced to this thanks to my 6th period class, which is Physical Science...not a big fan of science...

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2nd day 8/21/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-20 16:54:43 UTC

well i was late waking up this morning, not really happy about that but i still made it to school around the time i was hoping for. english was actually pretty interesting, we learned about dystopia, which was pretty cool, but we basically have homework tonight. -.- but i ALWAYS mistake english for history cause last year i had coach Groves for US history and this year i have Coach Sharp for english but i wuld always see coach sharp in coach groves room last year!!! now 2nd period, i HATE taht class!!! im NOT going to like that class!!! lol i miss Ms. McBeth!!!!!!!!!! last year's schedule was PERFECT for me!!! lol but that was last year, lol im in history with Coach taylor right now and i made 5/20 on the Edmodo quiz, lol but its okay i guess, we just finished talking about tabacco xDD tho there are SOME cute guys in a few of my classes buut i KNOW i dont even have a SLIGHT chance with them, plus im not really looking for a bf right now, lol im taken a break from dating right now =P

2nd day 8/20/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-21 00:52:53 UTC

homework? yes -.-

3rd day 8/21/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-21 16:12:14 UTC

well last night my mom found my geometry syllabus, which i had signed for her, and she AND my dad are BITCHING me about it!!! and honestly i see wh they are but all the fucking syllabuses i have gotten are all practically the same!!!!! im NOT a fan of my parents AT ALL!!!!!! but thats a personal story and reason, but yeah, hopefully i'll still get to go somewhere friday..

3rd day 8/21/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-22 04:04:39 UTC

well while i was waiting for my mom to pick me up from swim, i saw Giselle!!!!!!!! omgizzle!!!!! SHE IS SO PRETTY!!!!!!! lol but i guess the tension between me and my parents has died down abit, cause my mom signed 2 of my syllabus' when i asked her to. and i working on a playlist for all trucking (skating) songs, but i feel like im just copieing this other person's playlist because im getting practically more than half of the songs from THEIR playlist!!! but hopefully i wont get like sued or something over it, but this week is going by TOO SLOW!!!!!!!

4th day 8/22/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-23 00:45:57 UTC

well i ended up waking up at 7:00 this morning and i got here close to 7:50, not exactly happy about that =/ and i have to admit, theres this kid named Tucker in my BTA class who is really cute!! tho he looks ALOT like Taylor..which makes it abit awkward once ithink about it, but he also looks somewhat like my crush Brian, possibly even cuter, tho not quite sure =P

4th 8/22/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-23 03:27:54 UTC

well earlier my dad was bitching at me and i have a feeling that imma have to show my stupid project on my summer reading book to go skating tomorrow, and i just want to say... FUCK. THAT. ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FRIDAYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 8/23/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-23 15:31:45 UTC

IT'S FUCKING FRIDAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yayyy!!!!!!! hahaha rockin out to Apple Bottom Jeans (low) in BTA!!!!!! lol i stayoed up till like past 1 in the morning working on geomery and then i foud out that i didnt have to do one of the math pages and i was PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!! TURNED AROUND AND GAVE THAT BIG BOOTY A SMACK (AYY)!!!!!!!!!!!!! now im listenin to AUSTIN MAHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.< I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i really hope i can go skating tonight!!!!!!!!!!!! im pretty sure my dad's gonna make me show him my project for summer reading so im kinda stuck alittle, but he is a fucking BITCH ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fridayy 8/23/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-24 04:29:48 UTC

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!!!!!!! I GOT TO GO SKATING!!!!! >^-^< and i saw my friend Jacob Oliver there and i met his friends CJ and Justin, in which whom i made really good friends with!!!!! CJ is like my little bro now!!!!!!!!!!!! >^-^<

saturday 8/24/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-24 18:34:01 UTC

so i woke up at 1:11 today, iv NEVER slept in that loong before!!! well cause my parents never let me =/ iv had the weirdest dreams lately, the other night i had a dream about Eminem or something and i had started singing this song and i wanted to write it down but i didnt have time to cause i was getting ready for school, lol i almost put swimming lolol tho i had a dream in which i only remember CJ either being in it or randomly appearing in it for a few seconds, but yeah =P lololol but yesterday was my mom's birthday!!! she's 62!!! and today is my little cousin's birthday todayy!!!!!! lol happy birthday Enzi!!!!!!!!! lol and today's the youth group's step up day!!!!!!! lolol and tomorrow is Noah's birthday, my ex, tho i do miss him, i really really do!! i feel like he was my first actual relationship, unlike all the other ones before...but at least i was his first girlfriend!!!!!

sunday morning 8/25/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-25 05:15:34 UTC

haha its 12:15 in the morning and i already sent Noah a 'happy birthday' text and im watching Spongebob on my laptop, its the one where he meets Sandy for the first time and she invites him over to her tree dome and im watching it in my closet, which i recently found that it is the PERFECT place to do my homework if im staying up really late without having my parents harrassing me to go to bed =P

sunday 8/25/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-25 17:33:58 UTC

i think i may have a slight crush on CJ, but i said i MIGHT!!!! but today is just boring!! its 12:35 right now and im so bored!!! oh and yesterday was the LAST saturday youth group, they moved it back to sundays again, ughh!!! i always got that sudden feeling like "oh my gosh! i have school tomorrow!!! shit! i forgot to do my homework!!" at the end of yg back in middle school!! but guess who was there ... Michelle. Fucking. HARRIS!!! -.- i HATE THAT LITTLE MUTHA-FUCKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yeah.....shit, i totally forgot that i also have a gs meeting today, why do sunday's have to be so boring!?!?!!! well i guess except church but other than that sunday's are shit boring!!!!!!!!!

sunday 8/25/13 (3/10/14)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-26 01:06:23 UTC

its official!!!! i like CJ!!!!! i really do!!!!!!! but he's in 7th grade and fuck, im in highschool!!!!!!!! plus he's abit shorter than me and i find the relationships where the girl is taller than the guy abit awkward.. but he really is cute!!!!!!! tho he looks almost EXACTLY like a Disney Channel actor on this show called Ant Farm..

Monday 8/26/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-26 15:15:40 UTC

i feel like im basically writing a diary because i dated this post, but i have a habit of doing that with ALOT of things, btw im in BTA and tucker hasnt even noticed me ='( this class is boring right now cause he's telling us everything that's on Word and im just in the most horrible mood ever and im not even on my period!!! but yesterday and partly today, i was wishing it was already friday!! also, i hate Nair!!! last night, after i took a shower, i decided to put some on my face for personal reasons, and when i rubbed it off, my cheeks were red and my face was burning and itching and then i made the mistake of putting some acne fighter gel or something on my face and my face was BURNING!!!!!! it did NOT feel very good!!! i then put on some lotion and my face instantly started soothing, and this morning i noticed that there was like a random red dot or blemish on my lip and it looks weird and horrible and my face feels weird!!!!!!! i HATE my life right now!!!!!!!!! i honestly can NOT wait until friday, cause i hopefully i'll get to see CJ and Justin and maybe Jacob, and hopefully James and Devin. i really wished tucker wuld notice me, or at least a really cute guy, maybe even CJ or Justin, fuck even Jacob or Devin or James, etc. FUCK IT, even noah!!!! if only my type of guy would notice and give me a chance or something. damn, i sound fucking desperate!!!!!!!!!!!

8/26/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-26 15:59:08 UTC

i got a cricket on a line, what else does a counrty boy need to survive??

monday 8/26/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-27 03:35:00 UTC

I SWEAR THE MORE I LISTEN TO THAT SONG, THE MORE I WISH IT WAS FRIDAYY!!!!!!!!! --(btw the song is What Them GIrls LIke by Smokey ft. FLo Rida)-- UGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! WHY WONT FRIDAY JUST COME ALREADY?!?!?!?!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tuesday 8/27/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-27 15:08:34 UTC

well i guess today is abit better than yesterday, tho last night one of my 'friends' on g+, Daniel, basically posted that he was gonna commit suicide and then he said that he was HACKED and aton of other shiz, tho im wearing a dress for the first time at school, i convinced myself to wear it and im kinda somewhat regretting it but oh well, i still wish friday woud go ahead and get here!!!! im in BTA, and tucker isnt here ='( i feel like im obsessing over guys!! well i dont really have much to say, and i feel like my parents are getting a divorce but i guess im just abit depressed for some reason, but if i tell anyone then they'll just be like "so ur emo?.." or they'll just assume that im cutting myself but for the people who DO cut, idk how u can take the pain of that, but i hope it gets better for you, well i guess that's it for now until later tonight when i put another post

kittencheekz — 2013-08-27 22:40:20 UTC

MY MOM IS A FUCKING ALCOHOLIC ASS WHORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD I HONESTLY WISH SHE WULD JUST FUCKING DIE ALREADY ALONG WITH MY DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT GIVE A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT ABOUT THEM, THEY CAN JUST DIE IN A FUCKING DITCH ALL THE WAY IN FUCKING SOUTH AFRICA FOR ALL I CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO BE FUCKING PARENTS, AND THEY HAVE TREATED ME LIKE SHIT FOR THE PAST 4 FUCKING YEARS AND IM GIVING ALL THEIR SHIT BACK TO THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHAT THEY SAY IM DOING, WHETHER IM "BULLYING" THEM OR SHIT, IM STANDING UP FOR MY FUCKING SELF AND SINCE THEY HAVE THE BIGGEST FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ME THEN THEY CAN JUST GO FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! look, iv just completely stopped giving even the slightest fuck about u, so i really dont give a fuck about whether u tell my shit to other people cause u no longer exist to me so plz, just go the fuck away and leave me alone for once cause im NOT givin u any fucking chances!!!! you have this image of a perfectly smart daughter in ur head, in case u havn't noticed, i am NOT going to be her, i never will be and i never want to be, so plz just stop telling me all this shit that im an "ungrateful daughter" because that's just going to make me hate u that much more

wednesday 8/28/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-28 22:53:30 UTC

well today is abit better, tho , now my mom is making me give her my geometry syllabus or else i can't go skating and also last night i had to sit at the dinner table with everyone cause my dad gave the "we eat as a family" speech which pissed me off and then my mom decided to be a bitch and say that i have to do 2 things to go skating which was COMPLETE BULLSHIT!!!! but i have completely stopped giving them shit so FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well im in BTA and the assignment is just something that i dont think that ill be able to finish in one class period so imma try to hurry this up, and tucker came back today but he hasnt noticed me at all ='( and some 20 yr-old on g+ last night started talking to me, and it seems like i attract mainly black guys -.- =/ it kinda pisses me off but then again being polite is so rare that its often confused with flirting soo yeah =/ well i gots to go, so cheerio until later today if they havent blocked this site after school, they already did so i had to type this in the sticky notes so yeah -.- i hate these laptops sometimes!!!!!!!!!

wednesday 8/28/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-29 03:15:32 UTC

well i decided to buy food for me, my little borther, and my little cousins and guess what?!?!?!!!! my mom fucking bitched at me!!!!!!!! i swear, she literally calls me fat everyday and is too fucking lazy to go to the fucking grocery store to buy REAL food!!!!!!! plus not to mention she and my dad are getting a fucking divorce (finally)!!!! tho i KNOW that one of them is disowning me and my little brother, tho i havent been told which one, this family is just FUCKED. UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thursday 8/29/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-29 15:40:13 UTC

well tomorrow's friday!!! shit, i gotta type my essay for summer reading cause its due tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope its already more than 208 words or whatever!!!!!! well im in BTA, as usual, 3rd period, listening to Apple Bottom Jeans (low) and the assignment is actually quite easy-ish, tho i still havent been able to find some answers to some of the questions so hopefully ill be able to find them before the end of class, well i gots to go finish my BTA assignment!! ill post later!

8/29/13 (end of 3rd period BTA!!)

kittencheekz — 2013-08-29 15:57:14 UTC

That's the sound of the men, working on the chain, gaaannnggg!!!!

frid

kittencheekz — 2013-08-30 05:33:18 UTC

FRIDAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 8/30/13

kittencheekz — 2013-08-30 05:33:41 UTC

OMGIZZLEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS FUCKING FRIDAYY!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!! well i friended tucker on fb, and i talked o CJ on fb, and he's going skating!!!!!!!!!!!!! >^-^< tho i still need to give my mom that stupid syllabus to go skating -.- fuck her!!!!!!!!!!! lol well its 12:35 in the morning and i still need to do my geometry homework so i gots to go!!!!!!

sat 8/31/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-01 03:01:18 UTC

prt 1 - okay so last night (or VERY VERY early this morning) i went to go see CJ at his house, cause when i went skating he wasnt there and i basically tried to live thru a HELL of a week JUST so i could see him when i went to go skating but of course he wasnt there and so i messaged him on fb when i got home and then he asked ME if i could come over and i was just like "id have to sneak out of my house but sure" and i had NEVER snuck out of my house and i guess we were going to have sex or something but it was like 1:05 A.M. in the morning went i actually got there. i basically snuck out of my house, for the very FIRST time EVER! and rode my bike to the OTHER side of town JUST so i could see CJ. when i got there he was just like "im surprised u actually came" and then he said i was crazy and not to mention that i was SWEATING like 20 buckets!!! and i was just like "ur brother is giving me a ride home no matter what!!" and so i asked for a drink and he gave me some water and then we went up to his room and we tried to look for his brother's number which he had written on a little blue sticky note that wasnt even sticky cause his brother wasnt home at the time, and then we went in his brother's room to look at all the kind of condoms his brother had and i took one his condoms, which i still have >^-^< =P, and then at one point he said that his brother was home so we went downstairs and his brother came in and i was just like "hi" and then he got onto CJ for inviting me over when he wasnt supposed to and then we watched the ending of an episode of American Dad, the one where they're trying to find the clues to some peanut man for some type of peanut butter and all, and then we talked how we were going to get me home, cause apparently my bike was too big to fit in his car, and then we started watching an episode of Family Guy, the one where Quagmire goes bald, and then he asked me where i lived, in which when i said "Riley" CJ asked "Railey?" and yeah and then i was just like "i want to see what ur car looks like" cause i was pretty sure that it could fit in the backseat, but his brother was thinking of the trunk in which it honestly would NOT fit!! but then CJ was like "u gotta at least try" and so we put it in the backseat and i managed to be able to make it fit and then we went inside, for some random reason, i think that's when we watched the episode of Family Guy or something, but yeah and then he was just like "well i gotta get u home" so i hugged CJ and told him to email me but he seemed somewhat annoyed cause he cut me off like "OKAY!" and then me and his brother left and his brother explained to me why he had to get me home and all, and then he asked me if i didnt mind if he smoked a cigarette, then he asked me what my name was and then he gave me some really good advice about sneaking out and then i asked him what the name of the song that was playing on his phone (pixies - where is my mind) and then we arrived here and i made it back in my room safely without getting caught

sat 8/31/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-01 03:23:15 UTC

prt 2 - well when i got up this morning, i was DEAD tired!!!!!! and when i got up, i was basically thinking of CJ and then i got my laptop and i looked at my email and i see some posts by him and other stuff and i messaged him back, he had emailed me when i was getting ready to leave, and then i went on my home computer on fb and messaged him that i felt weird about last night and then he answered later "yeah..." and it was just completely awkward and i went off the computer until like 3 something in the afternoon, in which the whole time i was DYING from the agony and the thought that he might not ever want to talk to me again, and then i couldnt take it anymore so i went back on and messaged him and i was just like "can we just pretend what happened last night didnt happen?" and so he was just like okay and i thanked him and then we started talking "normal" lolol and then he told me that he was going to ask me out on friday and i was just thinking to myself ". . .u mean i have to go thru a WHOLE NOTHER HELL WEEK, JUST so i can see u again?!?!?!!!!!! but i was just like, "that made my day >^-^< " cause it actually did and he was like "i just made ur week" lol but hopefully ill be able to go skating again cause my mom was just like "after this u may not be able to go skating again until ur grade for geometry goes up" but fuck her, but i really hope ill be able to go thru this week fine and be able to pull up my grade so i can go skating on friday cause then ill be able to see CJ, lol tho it feels kinda weird cause he's in MIDDLE SCHOOL when im in HIGH SCHOOL!!! and he's in 7th grade when im in 10th grade, so basically itd be like dating taylor...but taylor is a WHOLE NOTHER story, but i actually REALLY REALLY REALLY like CJ, ALOT!!!!!!! but hopefuly it'll all work out, hopefully, and if we were to break up, then i would hope that we would still be really good friends like we are right now, lol we're basically BFFL's for now, until friday i guess =P oh and i had written like a summary of the first part on my phone when i came home this morning/last night and yeah cause it was like 3 something in the morning, but i kinda wish i had left my ipod at his house cause then he might know me alittle bit better i guess, i was seriously pinching myself earlier for not leaving it!!!! but hey, i guess im alittle glad i didnt or else then itd REALLY be a HELL WEEK!!!!!!!!!! cause my music basically was what got me through the week so yeah ... well imma go cause imma go to "bed" (me in my bed checking my email and g+ with the lights off to make it look i went to bed

mon 9/2 ~9/3/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-03 06:32:50 UTC

well yesterday was labor day so we didnt have school, somewhat glad about that. i feel like im just bugging CJ whenever i message him on fb, cause so far, lately, (after what happened recently and our last actual interesting conversation on fb) they'v been really somewhat awkward, and i dont know whether i should tell him how i really feel about him, cause i really really really do like him!! fuck, i literally hold the condom that i got from his house just for comfort!!!!!!!!! but im pretty sure that he already knows that i like him and all but i dont think he knows how MUCH i like him!!! grrrrrr, though i wish he was in 10th grade or at least in 8th grade with Giselle and James, and Jacob, ( or at least i THINK that giselle and james are in 8th grade, but not sure) but i guess im afraid i might get judged or something, either that or just cause dating someone who's older or younger than you is a really really big deal all throughout middle school and high school, but oh well, i just hope he actually does like me, lol also those relationship where ur both just like "are we dating?"

tues 9/3/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-03 15:30:32 UTC

im listening to the end of The Glitch Mob - Drive it like you stole it, which honestly somewhat reminds me of CJ, alittle, lol just watch me say that it reminds me of CJ completely in a few days =P lol well also there's this kid in my 6th period class named Dalton ( or Daulton, however you spell it!) btw im now listening to Deadmau5 - Raise Your Weapon, I LOVE DEADMAU5!!!!!!!!! <3!!!!!! and i think he's pretty cute, he kinda looks like James, just abit, and not be mean or anything but i guess he's abit like a fat version of James, just ALITTLE!!!!! but i didnt finish my geometry worksheet last night so im freakin out about it, so imma go, or else i cant go skating on friday!!!!!!!!!! ='( my mom is such an asswhore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also this song kinda reminds me of my friend Alia (pronounced like Olly-uh)...now The Pussycat Dolls - I hate this part, Macklemore - Thriftshop ft. Wanz (with 4 more problems left!! not including the ones i didnt answer)

wed 9/4/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-04 15:07:49 UTC

well last night i decided to be a dumbass and didnt do ANY fucking homework!!! and i had this worksheet in geometry and it has 2 sides but he didnt explalin ANY of it!!!! all he did was show us how to measure using 2 different compass' or something!!! so im fucked with that!!!!!!! well fuck my life anyways!!!!!!!!! im probably not gonna be able to go skating friday in which i wont be able to see CJ and im freakin out right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='( :'(

wed 9/4/

kittencheekz — 2013-09-04 21:50:09 UTC

well it turns out that coach Sharp didnt check the geometry so i guess im safe, for now, but i didnt do my vocabulary for coach Sharp, english, so i got a zero in that, but imma tell Mrs. Simmons that i was really busy last night so imma ask her if i can turn in the homework, from last night, and see if i can turn it in tomorrow, well bye for now

thurs 9/5/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-05 15:19:06 UTC

well i did some of my geometry homework last night but i still have to finish it, and im kinda freakin out about that, but im in BTA, as usuall, and im listening to Daft Punk - Lose Youself to Dance ft Pharrell Williams, i like this song alot, cause it helps me relax soo yeah, plus its the first time im actually listening to ALL 456 of my songs on shuffle, ever since i added all those songs recently so yeah =P but last night i watched this bio on Marilyn Manson, and i just want to say that he seems like a cool singer, but he's not particuraly my type of music, but i had a realization last night that i was probably the ONLY one in my family, including aunts, uncles and cousins, that actually listens and likes rap!!! lol well but then again im not sure, but i gots to go cause the song is ending and i have an assignment that i want to get down and still have time to do geometry so buhh byeee!!!!!! RIP!!!!!!!! xDDD

thurs 9/5/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-06 04:23:24 UTC

im really glad that this was a 4 day week, cause im honestly really glad that tomorrow is friday!!! also my mom is letting me go skating, i think, and also tommorrow there's a MORNING pep rally cause tommorrow is the Huntsville vs Grissom football game and that is a BIG ass deal!!!!!!! which is stupid cause pep rally's are usually in the afternoons, so that's going to fuck up everything tomorrow, but at least i dont have swim practice so yeah =P and hopefully CJ and Justin will go skating tomorrw too!! but imma remind CJ this time tho, hopefully i might be able to come over again buut i aint doin what i did LAST weekend!!! lol tho maybe, MAYBE, HE might have the power to make me do it again, but if he does, then we better be having some pretty awesome sex!!!!!!!!!!!!! xDDDD!!!!! lol also, i learned Dalton 's name, Daulton Mertz, lol so yeah =P

frid 9/6/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-06 16:18:22 UTC

for somme reason i alwasy have to pause just to make sure that the date is right today!!! but im in 4th period history and we already had the pep rally wich was really fun but i have to admit that all the freshman were PATHETIC!!!! they didnt start getting into it until the very end of it!! when i was a freshman, we were fucking rowdy!!!!!!! lol but it was fun and i guess im feelin okay, tho im still not sure if i should go to the Grissom vs Huntsville game tonight, because i wanted to make sure whether i was last night cause i was gonna ask people if they were going on fb

mon 9/9/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-10 02:38:06 UTC

so last night i desided to be a COMPLETE dumbass and look up scary movies and i read what they were about and i had a really hard time sleeping then -,- and then this morning the air conditioning in the school broke!!!! so it felt like a fucking sauna in there!!!!!!!!!!! but i feel like im just laying in my bed doing nothing when i feel like that i have homework to do!!!!!! and alsoi noticed that all my posts from the weekend are gone!!!!! >=( im PISSED OFF!!!!!!! i swear i KNOW i did some posts on here from the weekend!!!!!!!!!!!

kittencheekz — 2013-09-10 02:56:27 UTC

i swear im fucking PISSED OFF because my posts from the weekedn were deleted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but im NOT going to try to remake them or whatever!!!!!

tues 9/10/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-10 15:51:25 UTC

in 3rd period, and also there's this black kid named Amari or something who has a peanut shaped head who keeps saying hi to me and i know he's just saying hi and all but its really annoying and it doesnt help that he likes me and just ughh!!!!! also my mom decided to be a dick and almost left the house with out me so i wasnt able to comb my hair, i mean its fine and all but i have really long hair so if i dont comb it then i feel like it looks like "sex hair" or something!!!!!!!!!! and just ughh!!!!!! also i couldnt find the white tank top this morning so i basically wasted 15 or 20 minutes trying to find it so i just gave up and i hate the fact that i started my fucking PERIOD yesterday!!!!!!!! and plus i dont have a fucking tampon either so swim practice is NOT going to be fun and i feel like that i had geometry homework but he never said we did but i swear if he says that he's going to be checking homework then im fucking SCREWED!!!!!!!!!!! well this day is just a fucking disaster so far!!!!!!!!!! >x( and also mustapha or whatever keeps messaging me during class and it kinda gets on my nerves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK. MY. LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU, FUCK MY LIFE, FUCK THIS FUCKED UP WORLD, FUCK MY PARENTS, FUCK SCHOOL, FUCK EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >X( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tues 9/10/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-11 03:48:52 UTC

as you can see i was having a terrible day, but it was really just my mood that ruined it i guess, also personal note, i re-cut myself cause i just needed to get it over with, i had cut myself on saturday or something because i guess i was just depressed over CJ or something, so yeah..and i added a cut to it, i kinda wished i hadnt but its too late for that anyways, well also Little Buddy has learned that climbing his water bottle container and is still learning how to do that but i swear he is one of the smartest hamsters ever!!!!!!! lol but he so cute!!! ^-^ and also there's this kid in my geometry class who looks like Brian AND Tucker COMBINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omgizzle!!! plus he looks like Jacob Oliver too!!!!!! ^-^ i wish i knew how to talk to guys without being so fucking shy!!!!!!!!!!!! ='( im more "open", i guess you could call it that, but im more open when im texting but in real life im like a brick wall!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol well dont know what else to say so i might as well go, cherrio for now!!!!

wed 9/11/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-11 15:19:16 UTC

well today is September 11, the day in 2001 in which the terrorists launched an attack on us and crashed a plane into the World Trade Center and the Twin towers, God bless all the souls who died on that day. but its been an okay morning i guess, tho im wearing the same pants that i wore yesterday and so yeah .. not really happy about that, and now i have ATON of homework it seems in health AND a report in BTA due tomorrow!!!!!!! but i guess i shouldnt exactly be freaking out i guess.. but tucker, i guess, "noticed" me today, mainly he just looked at me but for me it counts!!!!! well imma get started on this report so cheerio for now!!!

wed 9/11/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-12 02:16:35 UTC

okay so i found out his name, Dillion Thomas!!!!!! ^-^ omgizzle he is like Brian, Tucker AND Jacob COMBINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >^-^< i didnt even think that was possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well i gots to get going on my geometry homework so cheerio and goodnight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thurs 9/12/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-12 23:21:33 UTC

my ipod decided to flake out on me so now im pretty sure its fucking BROKEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='( AS OF RIGHT NOW, FUCK YOU IPOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and well i got a zero on my geometry homework BUT i got it done during class so imma show it to him tomorrow before class starts and hopefully ill get half credit!!!! BUT IM FUCKING PISSED OFF BECAUSE MY FUCKING IPOD BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fri 9/13/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-13 15:09:13 UTC

its Friday the 13th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and so im in BTA (10:09 a.m.) and so i unlocked my ipod at beginning of class and it FINALLY decided to fucking work!!!!!!!!!!!! buuuut i need to charge it =/ but hopefully i get to go skating tonight and also tomorrow we and the Rists are all going to Mississippi State vs Auburn football game down at Auburn so super syked about that!!!! ^-^ and i FINALLY decided to start working on my geometry homework last night, i didnt finish it but i did most of it so i guess its a somewhat of a big accomplishment =P also idk if i shouldv done the 9/11 extra credit for history, but im might work on it after i finish the BTA assignment, not sure though, well imma go and get the BTA assignment done, cheerio!

sun 9/15/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-16 04:25:17 UTC

i would honestly tell you everything that happened over the weekend buuut for some reason i dont want to!!! but everything that happened is on my phone, and honestly i think Taylor, and i guess Neil Schuetz are the only ones who i have ever told the password to my phone!!!!!!!!

mon 9/16/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-16 15:50:27 UTC

well i didnt do my fucking geometry homework so i gotta do that, and i dont feel like typing anything else in this right now other than Tucker isnt here so yeah, bye

tues 9/17/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-17 15:20:40 UTC

in BTA listening to Swimming Pools (Drank) by Kendrick Lamar, Iv got a pool full of liquir and they dive in it, and i forgot to do my geometry homework, ..again -.- fuck that anyways, well im in a bad mood again so imma go, bye

tues 9/17/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-17 15:32:50 UTC

just finished listening to Drank in my cup by Kirko Bangz, and now im listening to Kittens Fly IN Slow Motion, idk who its by but i LOVE it!!!!! and i guess its helping a little bit, i guess i should start my geometry, but Tucker's back, and iv been thinking, and i REALLY want to transfer to Grissom!!!!!!!! well bye

thrus 9/19/13 ~ fri 9/20/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-20 05:04:11 UTC

well damn!! i aint done one of these in a few days, well more like a day but still!!! lol well its like 12:04 a.m. right now, and so its been really really boring lately so that's why i havnt done one of these, and guess what?!?!?!!!! i actually did my geometry homework for once!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >^-^< lol also yesterday was "talk like a pirate" day, and if u dressed up like a pirate and went to Krispy Kreme then u got a DOZEN FREE DOUGHNUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 lol so i did that and also i really hope i can go skating today!!!!! plus today will be a half day, so they're putting ALL the classes in like one afternoon!!!! which is stupid cause we're gonna come in, say hi and basically walk out to our next class!!!!!! but also i really hope Justin can come to the picnic with us and hopefully to movie night also!!!!!!!!!! i really hope he does!!!!!!!!!! well night night for now!!!!!!!!1 until next time, cheerio!!!!!!!!!!!!

9/20/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-20 14:07:21 UTC

lol well i made it to the NAHS meeting on time i guess lol and i was able to make some really good suggestions for my group, which is the activities comity or something!!!!!! lol and i made a 15/20 on the BTA quiz!!!! i just really hope i can go skating, and if i do i hope Justin is there too!!!!!!!!! im really nervous about being able to go skating for some reason!!!!!!! i feel like i might not be able to go tonight!!!!!!!!! ='( idk why but now im FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well not exactly but i kind of am!!!!! i really hope i can!!!!11 also yesterday, this dude named Dominique asked me if i knew Freddy Corodine and i was just like "what about him?.." dominique: "do u know him?" me: "yes.." dominique: "oh" and then he like laughed or something and then i asked why and he said "oh, he was going to ask you to homecoming" and me and ben jennings were just like "..yeaaahhh i dont believe you..." but last year Freddie actually told me "oh hey! Dominique likes you! he wants you to call him 'Domie" or something so yeah -.- i hate black people sometimes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not being racist or anything but i just do!!!!!!!!! btw im in 3rd period right now, they shortened schedule cause its half a day today!! 9:14 a.m.

mon 9/23/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-23 15:14:14 UTC

(btw im in BTA) well i was able to go skating on friday, and i saw Justin, CJ, Caleb, Kanjion, and Devin!!!!!!! guess what?!?!!! Alexus dumped CJ!!!!!! though she didnt necessarily deserve him, well that's what i think but whatevs lol =P lol but i was able to get know Justin, and Caleb alittle better. also i was able to help Kanjion's problem cause he liked this girl and his "friends" told her and so he started freakin out that she wouldnt want to talk to him so i got Caleb and was just like "hey dude your little brother's crying and i dont know what to do" and so he went over and talked to him and then he went straight to the girl and talked with her and she was just like "im not mad at him, what are you talking about?" and then we solved it!! lol then on saturday was the church picnic, so we went and guess who i saw?!?!!!!! CALEB AND KANJION!!!!!!!!!! lol so i hung out with Caleb and we met this kid named Cameron, who kept like flirting with me or something!!! also i told him why i went to d-home and all, and i NEVER tell that to people!!! and he asked me if i cut, and i nodded my head, and im pretty sure he's the ONLY person that iv ever actually ADMITTED that to!!!!!!!!!!!! but i was wearing my Eminem shirt, and so when me and Monica did the egg toss, i was trying to catch the egg and it cracked!!! and it got ALL OVER my shirt!!!! lol Caleb was just like "how dare you do that to that shirt Maria" but hopefully it'll come out but yeah, i was walkin around looking like i had piss on my shirt!!! also i think i might have a slight crush on Caleb...why does this always happen to me!?!?!!!!?? i just realized that i hang out with a bunch of 7th graders!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its kinda sad but oh well =P

thurs 9/26/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-26 15:44:37 UTC

well i havnt done this in awhile so yeah, but i didnt do my geometry homework, of course, and i didnt do health homework so im fucking screwed!!!!!!!!! im freakin out that i might not be able to go skating tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='( i really hope my mom lets me go!!!!! grrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='( >='( and i turned my assignment like at 10:42 in BTA so im proud of that, but imma try to do my geometry so i gotta go, so fuck you, bye

thurs 9/26/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-27 04:17:31 UTC

well i started the geometry homework, lol only 1 problem though =P lol and i think i have developed some feelings for this guy named Collin Giles, on g+ .... i feel weird saying it buut its true!!!!!!!!!! tho he's aithiest, and im catholic ... oh well but he recently broke up with his girlfriend and he's completely heartbroken!!!!!!!! but oh well, i guess it wouldnt work anyways ='( im probably going to be forever alone =( just sayin, not trying to be an attention whore cause it's true!!!! i hang out with a bunch of 7th graders, i live a life that rarely has anything exciting happening ever!!!!!! ='( oh well, i gotta go to bed, and tomorrow there's a pep-rally so there's no swim practice!!!! and on saturday is Manique's wedding shower!!!!!!! and Amanda's going to be picking me up too!!!!!!!!!!! so i guess my life's not all THAT boring-ish but nobody has asked me to homecoming yet, but im honestly not that surprised by that -.- im not sure whether i should go to homecoming cause i dont have a dress, and im not really a dressy-kind of person =/ well i gotta go to bed so bye and good night i guess =/

fri 9/27/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-27 15:55:45 UTC

well today's FRIDAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i finished my geometry homework on pearson ... i made 27% ... i fucking SUCK at math!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >x( well im listening to the end of What THem GIrls Like, well i WAS, but it ended to fast so i started the song over for like the millionth time!!! lol but im listening to Smokey ft. Flo Rida - What Them GIrls LIke!!!!! lol i was also listening to Cinema by Skrillex, it reminds ALOT of CJ and Emily!!! well now i want to listen to Where is My MInd - Pixies!!!!!!!!! well im gonna change the song now ...welll the bell just rang so bye!!!!!

mon 9/30/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-30 15:27:41 UTC

okay first!!! im in BTA and i guess like either like a minute ago, i had typed in the word "Caribbean" on my assignment and im listening to Where is my Mind by Pixies and they literally said the word "Caribbean" just as i was reading it!! and the song just ended right now!!!!!!

mon 9/30/13

kittencheekz — 2013-09-30 15:42:40 UTC

well i didnt go skating on friday and i was so fucking pissed that i literally almost took the bike and ride it all the way to Skate Odyssey!!!!!!!!! but of course my mom was just like "if you do then im going to follow you and then im going to call police and then you'll be sent to d-home" god i wanna just fucking shoot her in her fucking face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but then we went to Kevin and Manique's to help make "crafts" and all and then saturday was Manique's wedding shower. Katy brought Billie! an then later we went back to Manique's and yeah, unday was normal, church, t-square, and then shit nothing!!!! well i guess i shouldv gone to the gs meeting but fuck me right now cause my life fucking sucks right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then i went to youth group and we watched Jurassic Park and it was fucking scary!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yeah, but i didnt do the rest of my fucking cluster chart for health so im pretty sure im getting a fucking zero for that and then i won't be able to go skating -.- i wish my parents would just fucking die now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but if they did and if they JUST so happened to have a fucking will, im pretty sure they would have ALL their fucking rules on it and then the person(s) who would end up taking care of me would just be like "well your parents wouldv wanted you to follow these rules" or some other stupid shit!!!!!!!!!!!! i just wanna fucking shoot the fucking shit out of them!!!!!!!!!!!1 but of course id get fucking arrested and then itd get on the fuking fucked up news and then people will either never want to talk to me out of fear, or they would be horrified at how such a "sweet, innocent, nice little girl" could do this to her own "parents" when they wouldnt even know the whole fucking story cause all the media does is just finds someone or something or some fucking shit theory to blame it on!!!! they'd be like "they say that her ADHD is to blame" or something when really maybe it was just cause my parents were just pushing me to the fucking limits and then i unleashed EVERYTHING and then what happens?? the media then points their finger at me saying "YOU are the BITCH!!!!!!!!" and then they're totally shocked and horrified when i dont give a fuck about my parents, and then they are just like "that child needs help!!!" "let us start praying for this child" or if they find out that i listen to rap, then they start pointing their fingers to the rap music industry saying "YOU influenced this child by your music!!!! we will try everything to ban you from this country!!!!!'

fri 10/4/13 - sat 10/5/13 (2:19 A.M)

kittencheekz — 2013-10-05 07:18:47 UTC

wow, well i aint done one of these since monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn!!! lol well thursday and friday were 2 awesome days back-to-back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i was able to go skating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also im going to say "tonight" cause it aint tomorrow for me until i wake up!!!! lol so i went skating and i was a complete dumbass and decided to bring my gigantor sharpie and guess what?! i fucking LOST the cap to it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!! and they got onto me about carrying a the open sharpie cause apparently it was getting every where or something!!!!! lol and i met this really cool girl named Olivia and she's almost like Giselle!!!!!! lol but she awesome!!! lol and i met abunch of other people that i made pretty good friends with and i practically almost went hoarse!!!!!!!lol but CJ was being sortof an asshole!! lol but Justin was really nice, but he kept apologizing about being a total dick or something lol and i got abunch of new monster tabs!!!!! lol i think like 2 green ones, a black one, and a blue one!!!! lol and i got a fuzzy light up necklace or something!!!!!!!!!!! lol also i wrote on Justin and me and some other people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mon 10/7/13

kittencheekz — 2013-10-07 15:12:43 UTC

well i was a dumb-ass and didnt do ANY fucking homework so im screwed for geometry and i didnt do

tues 10/15/13

kittencheekz — 2013-10-15 20:33:47 UTC

well i aint done one of these in like a whole week!!!! well ill tell u what happened during the weekend. so these past few days have been weird, and interesting, fun, and miserable-ish. first on friday i went skating and saw all meh peeps but then i got coke poured on me and my feelings hurt alittle by CJ, then i went to my sister's wedding on satuday in which i had alot of fun but i lost one of the charms from my necklace and im sad cause that was probably one of my favorite charms. it was half a heart that was a mood charm and it had a moon on it and then sunday was the big wedding day. and what happened?!?!! one of my half-little-cousins drops my phone right IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FUCKING CEREMONY AND DECIDES TO MAKE THE LOUDEST NOISE EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i have been coughing alot all weekend so yesterday i felt like shit but i still went to school but came home after 6th period and today im at home with a sore throat, btw i wrote this on g+ but then decided to put this on my wall so yeah ..

sun 10/19/13

kittencheekz — 2013-10-20 03:19:22 UTC

so wednesday i didnt go to school and of course mom was fucking pissed at me. in my house, if you're able to get away with being sick for one day, then expect mom to be mentioning going back to school before you go to bed. and if

wed 10/30/13

kittencheekz — 2013-10-30 15:52:12 UTC

damn!!!! i aint done one of these in a LOONG time!!!!! lol well i wrote most of what has happened lately in my english notebook cause of journals, but let me just give you an update, so recently, Monday, there was a swim meet and i swam the 200 and 500 free, but i saw Giselle!!!!! lol i was really happy to see her, and she was hanging out with this dude, idk his name, and i met some really cool people, first i met this guy named Johnathon Hubbard, who btw looks somewhat like Devin, and then i saw Carter Longino or however you spell his last name!! lol and then i met some kid named Scott, i held his pickle while he was swimming, and so i held it while we (me and the kid that was hanging with Giselle) were waiting for Giselle to swim, this was like at the end o fthe meet, i met this kid named, i think, Scott William (0r Williams) from James Clemons who looks ALOT like Andrew Shae (or Shea) but with more cheek bone and alittle shorter and less scrawny looking. but i meet him and i asked him if he knew Andrew Shea AND Noah Hudson, and he said yes to both of them!!! lol he seems really cool!!!!

thurs 10/31/13 HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!

kittencheekz — 2013-10-31 15:18:36 UTC

IT'S FUCKING HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ACTUALLY GET TO GO TRICK OR TREATING WITH MY FRIEND OLIVIA!!!!!!!!!!!! lol tho i heard it might storm though =( lol but im going trick-or-treating with Olivia!!!!!!!! lol btw i met Olivia one time at Skate Odyssey and we've been best friends ever since!!!! lol btw either last week or the week before me and Tucker randomly looked at each other and omgizzle!!!!!!! i fucking flipped!!!!!!!!!! >^-^< lol btw im in BTA, lol apparently this is like substitute day or something lol it feels like friday though!!!!!!!!!! lolol btw im listening to "I am the Best- by Jeff Williams ft. The Elites" or something, lol from Red vs. Blue!!!! and i had invited people on fb to go to the Halloween bash at Skate odyssey and Joseph was one of them and he's going -.- idk why but i kinda wished i hadnt but oh well =P now im listening to "Imagine" by John Lennon, lol btw in Mr. Selfs class, 2nd period, today was the last day for Ms. K, who has been here the past few days talking about suicide, and she kinda reminds me of Jasmine Parker, but she's really pretty and i will honestly not forget her =) lol tho i gtg, cause i didnt do my fucking geometry homework (Not My Home-J. Forgiven ft. Nathan Johnson) so i might do that or i might just finish this stupid ass tri-fold that we have to do in BTA -.- i think it should be illegal to give homework on Halloween!!!!!! but yeah, imma go, btw idk if iv told you about this guy named Austin Bentleybut yeah, he randomly messaged me one day and it started from there, and at one point he started calling me babe or baby and so i was just like "are we dating?? lol" (You Got Me) (Superstar - Jakarta) and he asked me if i went to skate odyssey (and to be honest i wasnt really surprised cause he goes to Grissom and alot of the Grissom people go to Skate Odyssey on fridays =P) lol but i was just like "yeah, i go there just about every friday" lol so on firday i saw him and we started talking and he seemed pretty cool but to be honest, i actually really like him!!!!! and he recently asked me if it was okay if he cuold hang out at my house but then i had to let him down cause (One Desire - Jakarta) im going to Olivia's for trick-or-treating ='( but hopefully he'll understand and he's been going through a really hard time with his family so imma start praying for him, same with my cousin Jarrod, he's been going through a really tough time so imma pray for him too, and my Grandma has been going through health problems...sorry if i made the whole mood depressing but yeah (On the FLoor - Jennifer Lopez ft Pitbull)

thur 10/31/13

kittencheekz — 2013-10-31 15:39:43 UTC

btw imma try to do these more often =P (Waitin on the World to Change - John Mayor)

mon 11/4/13

kittencheekz — 2013-11-04 16:35:25 UTC

lol im in BTA listening to Ignition-Dynamite Jonez, and its the first time im listening to it on my iPod, lolol well on friday i went skating, it was the Halloween bash and i went as Tinkerbell on crack xDDD lol i saw Justin, Olivia, Chris (Melrose), a few of my cousins friends, Catlin, Jessica, Austin, some kid i met thanks to Jessica, and i was introduced to 2 guys, one was black, idk his name, and the other was white, lol Tyler Searles, who is really cute!!!! ( i think the song is about to end lo) (lol just restarted it xDD) lol imma tell you the rest of the story in another post later today cause i gotta turn this thing for BTA at the end of class =/ urghh!!!!!!!!

wed 11/6/13

kittencheekz — 2013-11-07 03:21:18 UTC

well today i honestly talked to mom about school and all, and to be honest i really want to go to Grissom!!! i can't take it anymore here!!!!!! too many stuck-ups and just UGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! so mom told me that i just needed to tough it out for another day and a half cause, well first of all i had asked her if i could just skip school tomorrow for a mental break, and friday is a half day and then we have monday off. also iv been talking to Justin everyday and iv made myself a promise to talk to him everyday cause he's having some troubles in life, tho every middle schooler will have trouble in their life because they're in that stage =p also i wish Olivia knew what was going on but for some reason i feel like there's nothing really to say to her ='( oh well, btw i dont really know what else to say for monday's post soo yeah

thurs 11/7/13

kittencheekz — 2013-11-08 04:26:37 UTC

well i had to go to school today, i guess its okay buut im honestly just wanting to go to Grissom!! btw im watching an episode of The Smurfs, on this website that i dont feel like looking for =/ well iv been talking to Justin and guess what?!?!!! HE GOT KISSED!!!!!!!! BY ROXY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >^-^< roxy is an asian girl that he hangs out with at the skate park =p tho i do have to admit that im a bit jealous, im actually starting to like Justin, why does this happen to me!?!?!!! when i start talking to a guy, mainly texting but also talking to, but whenever i start talking to a guy after awhile i start liking them!!!!!! tho Justin is like the perfect guy i would want to marry!! he's a dj AND a skater!!!! but im afraid i might make the friendship completely awkward if i tried to make my move, plus not to mention that he's a 7th grader and im a 10th grader, and that'd be like me dating Taylor -.- .... well im going to finish some stupid geometry =/ and also idk if im going skating tomorrow ='( i really want to, even though earlyier i was saying that i didnt even want to go skating!!!!!!!!! i really hope i can!!!!

tues 11/12/13

kittencheekz — 2013-11-12 16:12:27 UTC

first of all im in BTA and listening to "Cricket on a Line", 10:44 a.m., well i WAS listening to it but then i changed it so now im listening to "Incredible" by Carnage & Bargore (original Mix) 10:47 a.m.,

mon 1/18/13

kittencheekz — 2013-11-18 17:44:00 UTC

well first of all im in 4th period, and im listening to Incredible by Carnage & Borgore (Bargore, Borgore whichever!!) lol and yeah, lol btw i went skating on friday and i saw Justin, Olivia, CJ, william, Cheyenne, Carlee(maybe?), Batman girl (idk her name), Michael morris (tho he was with his girlfriend ='( ) and the song just ended, well it will right when i finish this sentence which is riiiiight noooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

mon 11/18/13

kittencheekz — 2013-11-18 17:48:09 UTC

lol im now listening to Chain Gang, lol but as i was saying, lol i also saw Tyler, Jacob, Eli, and i met Olivia's friend. but when my mom came, Olivia wanted me to come over, and so she went up to my mom and asked if ZAILEY could come over!!!!!! and i was like "DONT MENTION THE NAME ZAILEY IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS!!!" but then later she was like "yeah but that's your facebook name too" and then i blocked her and she went on a tantrum!!!!! lol but im kinda glad i pissed her off by doing that but im trying to figure out if i should change my name completely (again) or just change the first name and profile picture..or both and btw the song is about to end, and i gotta go finish osmething for history so hopefully i wont forget to finish this later tonight

wed 12/11/13

kittencheekz — 2013-12-11 16:38:27 UTC

i have not done one of these in like a whole fucking month!!!!! sorry bout that, well first of all, me and Noah are back together, though to be honest i never thought i'd actually say that, like EVER!!!! though we had a date last saturday, and we basically made out in his car from like 1 p.m. til 5:30 p.m. in the IHOP parking lot, and then he drove to Carmike where i went to go see Catching Fire, in which i met this dude named Ryan, who invited me to go see it, in which it was surprisingly really good!! btw she's tricked in the whole thing!! Though a part of me isn't really sure that i like Noah, idk why but a part of me just doesn't find him attractive!!!! IDK WHY!!!!!! also Justin and Roxy broke up, and Olivia and Justin went to the Winter formal, or whatever it was called, at their school so basically i was left all alone on friday night but in the end i ended up hanging with my friend Natalie, and then my friend WIlliam Turner =P but that was on friday, also i met this other guy named Ryan, on fb, Ryan Jewfro something, and he actually goes to Holy Spirit Church!!!!!!!!! lol i thought that was pretty cool, and we talk on fb sometimes, he's pretty cool. also i met this guy named Brandon Manely, he's pretty cool and we talk on fb basically everyday now, but he's basically suicidal and im just really worried about him and he's 18 and im just basically freakin out over him cause im afraid he might just end it!!! ='( also im in BTA right now, 10:47, also we went to Grandma's for Thanksgiving, and at the time, Noah was trying to get me to give him another chance an then one night i basically ended it with him, and i was actually crying, i was in fucking TEARS!!!!! but then i changed my mind and said that i didnt mean bye as in forever and i started freaking out, and it was really really late at night, so then i assumed he was either asleep or that he didnt believe me, so then the next mrning, which was a sunday, around like 8 a.m. he texted me and at the end of the message he had the NERVE to put fucking LOL!!!!!! >.< but then we worked things out so i agreed to give him a chance. also i "met" my "stepmom and my stepbrothers" last week, and they seem pretty cool, though i like my "stepmom" better than my mom. but yeah, btw idk why but i kinda like William, though im pretty sure he's in like 6th grade or something, also i still have a giant crush on Devin, who btw was my first boyfriend and if it weren't for him then i wouldnt even know who Olivia, Justin, CJ, William, etc., basically i wouldnt have any friends because i wouldnt be going to skate odyssey just about every friday, speaking of which, this friday is the Friday the 13th skate bsh at skate odyssey!!!!!!! i really really really hope i can go!!!!!!

tues 1/8/14

kittencheekz — 2014-01-08 16:06:09 UTC

well its tuesday, and Christmas break is over and so far im starting of the school year horrible, i forgot to do my stupid vocabulary in english, i cant find my stupid permit fro driver's ed, i forgot to print out something for BTA, i didnt do the stupid brainstorm shit in history and i didnt finish the homework in geometry on mathxL but luckily i didd most of it but over all it looks like i wont be skating in friday >-< :'c

wed 1/29/14

kittencheekz — 2014-01-29 17:19:33 UTC

wow okay, so i havent been on here for awhile i see. sooo, alot has happened, obviously. so imma readd my last few posts for awhile so i can see where exactly i need to start soo yeah...

wed. 1/29/14

kittencheekz — 2014-01-29 17:27:17 UTC

wow, okay, so i actually have ALOT to say. sooo imma just start out with Jacob Callahan. sooo during exam week one night, it was either 2 something in the morning or 4 something in the morning on a school night, i was on facebook and then all of a sudden Jacob messages me and it took me by surprise but i was just like "okay, i may as well talk to you" and then exam week went by and then Christmas break came and we basically would talk just about everyday, and of course we seemed to be getting closer and closer and then he eventually told me that he liked me and just to let you know i'v basically had a crush on him ever since he started talking to me. so one day my friend caleb posted a picture and was like "should i make this my profile pic?" and i was just like "mehh you look great in every photo so you have quite a few options to choose from =P" and then jacob later told me that he got jealous of that comment which basically told me that he liked me and just ughh!!!!! >-< i swear now we havent talked in quite awhile and recently he texted with his friend's phone and we started talking again cause he doesnt have wifi and he said he would talk to me as soon as he had wifi and whenever he has said that he would talk to me later, usually means I have to message/text him first and then he'll talk and just ughhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! >-< i wish he would just fucking ask me out all ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so yeah, also a facebook friend Colin Stafford was posting things like that he was having a horrible day and all so i commented saying "well if you ever need someone to talk to then im here for you =P" and yeah, so then I posted something and then all of a sudden he messages me saying "hey i saw your post, you wanna talk about it?" and i felt special cause someone actually wanted to help me feel better and ever since then we've been talking just about everyday now and he's basically my best guy friend :) also Brandon is still struggling just abit but im pretty sure he's a bit better because we havent talked for awhile so to me that's somewhat of a good sign. though he keeps poking me on facebook, lol just a few days ago we had a poke war and i won, of course ^-^ :3 also on Martin Luther King Jr. day since there wasn't any school, skate odyssey was open from like 12 all the way til 5 and it was free so i went. btw this was during the time when jacob was texting me with his friend's phone and we had agreed to meet up at skate odyssey and then walk to his house, i waited the whole time but then just assumed that he never even showed, though a part of me feels that he actually DID show up but was expecting me to be outside or something, so i was kinda mad and sad at the same time. but also my friend Jordan Miller asked me if i could paint him a picture of Eminem so im doing that, also i met up with him at skating that monday, in which Justin also came and i even saw my 2 cousins there too. speaking of Justin. That weekend was actually Justin's hockey tournament so i basically went to all of his games, to support him and cause i didn't have anything else to do, so that was really fun. Though i met his sister Gretchen, who looks NOTHING like him, and i saw his cousin there too, who btw looks JUST like him!!!!!!!!! though i do have to admit his cousin looks kinda cute also his parents seem pretty cool, his dad seems like someone i could look up to as my own father-like-figure or something. but then again i understand how parents can seem really nice in front of friends, plus Justin told me that. Also this adorable emo kid, who i sometimes call Brad Pitt, i met him at skating one friday and we've been really great friends ever since, and he lent me his Deadmau5 hat on friday, and he told me that if i came this friday then he would give me another hat to wear but im afraid that i may not be able to go because i completely forgot to do a math project soooo im pretty sure my mom's gonna take that into account. i really really really hope i can go!!!!!!!!! also Devin basically seemed to be flirting with me at skating on monday, lol especially when they played "Turn Down for What", lol the whole place went insane!!!!!! lol also they played Boogie Shoes by K.C. and the Sunshine Band, which struck memories of Grandi for some reason and i specifically remember seeing Devin sitting on the side during that song. also im taking Driver's ed and i learned how to drive on a friday, and we were SUPPOSED to drive yesterday but nooo it had to fucking SNOW yesterday so we got delayed until 10 and the same with today. since driver's ed is second period for me, the teacher that i stay with is, you guessed it, MS. McBETH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 also Devin messaged me last night and it was a short convo and slightly awkward but it completely made my day :3 :) well second period is about to end soooooo imma go, btw i have lunch right after this and then geometry and i really hope that im not the only one who didnt bring their project from yesterday!!!!!!!!!! >-< well on that stressing note, imma go >-< also imma try to do this alot more, though since i have Olivia and other people to talk to, i usually don't need to do this so that's why

mon 3/10/14

kittencheekz — 2014-03-10 18:45:53 UTC

it's been so long...

mon 3/10/14

kittencheekz — 2014-03-10 21:39:55 UTC

hahaha he can go fuck himself!!!!! ^^^^

tues 3/11/14

kittencheekz — 2014-03-11 18:54:56 UTC

okay so there's ALOT of catching up to do, ill do it later but damn!! like 2 months maybe?!?!!

Friday 8/23/13 (3/12/14)

kittencheekz — 2014-03-13 03:17:32 UTC

I gotz to go skating!!!!!!!!!! >^-^< i saw Oliver, and I met his friends CJ and Justin, lol they're both really cool >^-^< lolol though CJ is just adorable and Justin, I have to admit he's kinda sorta really cute >^-^< lololol kinda glad i decided to go skating instead of going to sissybears >-< though now she's mad at me but fuck it!!!!! i had an awesome time so she can suck it!!!!!!!!!

thurs 3/13/14

kittencheekz — 2014-03-13 20:28:21 UTC

wow, okay so there's ALOT of catching up to do. imma read the last few posts so then i know where to start

thurs 3/13/14

kittencheekz — 2014-03-13 20:34:25 UTC

okay, so I've been reading some of the posts from earlier this year and i just want to say, Noah can fuck himself!!!! I can't believe i even wasted 4 fucking months him with last year and the fact that I fell for him again!!!! He literally broke up with me the day AFTER MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! but at the time i was kinda expecting it cause he told me he was tired of the fact that we talked like everyday, so eventually i knew it was coming, but when I was little, I had promised myself that I would NEVER get back with my ex's, and I broke that rule, and I now see why I made that rule!!!!!! Plus, I may have kinda told him that I smoked pot and that I was dating Callahan ... :3 lolol best descision ever!!!! well it WAS until he started texting me AGAIN, and it just really annoyed me, so if he ever text's me again, im just gonna tell him to fuck off!!!!! Plus I recently told him that I live with Grandma. Speaking of which, Callahan, that pothead is a dick!!! >-< I'm just gonna say that and leave it at that!!!!! Also, the friday of Callahan's birfday was probably one of the best fridays I've ever had!!! well since it was Callahan's birfday, which is January 31, also I just want to clarify that it wasn't the best friday ever because of Callahan, -.- okay?!?!!! but I decided to wear a DRESS to school!!!!!! A FRIGGIN DRESS!!!!! mainly because I was basically obsessed with him at the time and i wanted to do something to celebrate a friend's birthday. I was also able to go skating too!!! So I went skating and I saw Olivia, Justin, Russ, Enzi, i think CJ, and I met this kid with really really white hair and i saw a couple other people too, though i can't remember cause it was like a month ago when it happened. and I had an awesome time!!!!! lol near the end, literally right when my mom came to pick me up, I asked her if I could do one more lap around the rink and she said yes, and right before I went on the rink, me, Justin, and the kid with the white hair were talking at a table and I was just like "well imma go skate" and the white haired kid was like "OKAY!" so i went and that's when I saw my mom and then i asked her if i could do one more lap and blahblahblah, anyways while i was doing my final lap, the white haired kid came up to me and said "Justin wants to talk to you, but don't tell him that I told you!" and i was just thinking in my head "i knew something was wrong, he seemed alittle down today or something, but I guess he wants to tell me or something" so I went over to the table and was just like "Whatsup" and then the unexpected happened!!!!!!!!!! HE. ASKED. ME. OUT!!!!!!!!!!!! >^-^< at the time I literally just squated there, i was squatting on my skates instead of sitting down for some reason, but i was just like "wait ...did he seriously just say that?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!" but i came back to reality and i somehow managed to just casually say either "yeah" or "sure", i can't remember but it just BOOM!!!!!! hit me unexpectantly, though he was like, really really really nervous when he asked me, he told me that he was shaking!!!!! but inside my head i was just trying to figure out if it was real life, and then i was like "okay, so we're dating now right?" and he said yeah and i was like "okay" and then i went up to Olivia and was just like "Justin literally just asked me out!" and she was just like "wait whaaaaa....." and yeah, it was one of the best nights ever!!!!!!! lololol me and Justin are still dating now, and I'm glad because reading some of the earlier posts, I noticed that I have been obsessed with the wrong people!!!!!!! I'm really happy with Justin right now >^-^< well on that happy note, I'm about to get serious. Okay so last friday, I went skating, but Justin wasn't able to come because he had a hockey tournament in Nashville and he had gotten checked out like at noon or whatever to go, but i wasn't the only one who's man wasn't there. Btw did i ever mention that Olivia and Russ are dating? well if i have then i have, and if i haven't theeeen yeah, they're dating ^-^ but he didn't go for reasons that im not going to say cause im too lazy. but yeah, so me and Olivia, and the rest of the cuddle puddle just hung out at the new cuddle puddle area, and so we were just sitting there talking, and I was talking to Caylee, and Sam, and Sam said something about V-cards and he was jsut like "Oh yeah, i hope this doesn't affect your relationship buuut Justin slept with a girl in decatur while dating you" and I honestly was too shocked to even cry, Caylee was just like "I'm so sorry!!!" and she hugged me but i swear it hit me so hard!!!! And so i went to find Olivia and told her what Sam told me and was jsut like "what? Justin doesn't seem like that kind of person! He was probably pressured into it" and so she went to talk with Sam and she found out that Rose, the girl from decatur, was moving and she really wanted to lose her virginity to Justin so yeah, but she, Mazie, Caylee, my friend Jordan was there too, and a few other people tried to cheer me up, it helped some, but not alot. Though I did find out who my true friends were, Jordan literally basically just spent the rest of the night trying to cheer me up. Though to the people who are thinking "he probably jsut said that to break y'all up", no he didn't say that to try to do that, that's Justin's friend, in fact he kept insisting me that I shouldn't break up with Justin, not that I was going to but still. Sam "he literally says taht if it weren't for you, he'd be dead in a ditch in the middle of nowhere if it weren't for you, so please don't break up with him" and when i came home, i basically drowned myself with Eminem literally all night, and I even cut myself because i just didn't even know how to handle it, the cuts are covered with the Eminem wristband ;-; but it really did shatter my heart to bits!!!!! so the next day i spent in my room listening to Eminem on full blast and making creepy colored spin art, and then i asked to go skating cause i was afraid that i would do something drastic. in which i basically just ended up wating my 5 bucks that i found in my room, but near the end Olivia messaged me on facebook saying that what Sam said wasn't true, and that Justin only said that to fit in with the group. And when i got home i found like 10 emails from Justin, saying that Olivia told him what Sam told me and he was literally swearing to God like 5 million times, but he told me that it wasn't true, which was the BIGGEST relief ever!!!!!!! but we ended up getting into a really deep conversation that night. Speaking of which, me and Asher Hayes ended up talking on facebook that friday and we basically did this thing where one person would say a dark sad secret and then the other person would do the same and we both said some really dark things, and this kid named seph started messaging me and let's just say he's special, but it helped alot knowing that Asher, Jordan, i guess Seph, Olivia, Mazie, and Caylee were there by my side the whole time. Me and Justin are still together and we're still strong, we've put all that behind us, and I still love him >^-^< in fact Sunday he told me that he loved me >^-^< which literally made my whole weekend, because, and this may sound cheesy but fuck it, but because my heart was still recovering and just seeing that email made my heart do a fucking double back hand spring!!!!! i swear if i had been with him at the time i would've kissed him!!!!!!! >^-^< but yeah, that's what's happened lately, also Anna went on my facebook and friended his older sister Gretchen McGrath on facebook!!!!!! >-< oh well, yesterday was Justin's last hockey game, and i still can't believe i was actually able to go, though me and him weren't able to say much at all but im glad i got to see him >^-^< well my hand hurts like shit now from typing this, and im like really sleepy soooo imma type in whatever i forgot to say later, also the reason i haven't been on this much anymore is because when i would type somethign everyday, is because i now have friends i actually care about me so i now talk about most of my problems to them, anyways, pease, love, and lollipops!!!!!!!! >^-^<

mon 3/17/1

kittencheekz — 2014-03-17 15:11:12 UTC

okay, so first things first, I was able to go skating on friday!! I saw Olivia, Justin, Russ, Riley, Mazie, Kaylee, Sam, Blake, Asher, Carlee, Cheyenne, Enzi, Jayden, Henry, and guess who else came?!?!!!! JAMIE!!!!!! lolol though I hate that I couldn't say "This is my best friend Jamie" cause technically now Olivia is my bestiee, but Jamie will always have a special place, lol btw me and Justin kissed!! >^-^< lol also i'm in BTA right now, 10:13 am. Well now on a serious note, I think I may be depressed :c, I'm not sure why but I will randomly get really sad at random times, like as of right now that's how I'm feeling, and I don't know why :'c I guess it's just cause of school or that I may be worried that I didn't do something for homework or something. I'm not sure, but I hate that it happens :c Also me and Justin talked on the phone, on saturday, for like 3 hours and then yesterday we were only able to talk for like 15 minutes or so, i gtg, i'll post later today

wed 3/19/14

kittencheekz — 2014-03-19 15:54:10 UTC

well I'm in BTA right now and im listening to this awesome song that I really like, i keep forgetting what it's called but it's Track 13 in my Media player :3, and it's kinda helping with my mood right now c: so i guess that's good, i forgot to do my geometry homework last night but fuck it!!! imma try to work on it at lunch, hopefully I'll be able to. Also we were supposed to do a presentation in BTA that's due today about the college that we're gonna go to but i didn't do it cause i ain't goin' to college >-< also yesterday i wrote a song, in honor of my "loving parents" and also in honor of Olivia's "loving mother" too, though it's really dark, and today's song is basically about how Olivia saved my life c:, well class is about to end soo imma hopefully post something later, and i'm having de ja vu >-< but yeah, bye

wed 3/19/14

kittencheekz — 2014-03-19 16:10:05 UTC

im in history now and im listening to Rezonate - Canvas, one of my favorite songs :3, and as of right now, FUCK SCHOOL!!!!!! i'm actually happy right now-ish and ain't nothing gonna ruin it!!!!!! lol for a second there ms holder or whatever was literally standing right in front of me and basically almost caught me or something, lol but imma go and do some work and hopefully pull up my grade, "I don't have to give a damn about you or your inhibitions" ~

also well now i feel like im about to cry-ish, not sure why, and the song is about to end, well it ended right when i was typing that last sta-nevermind, just alittle bit longer ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ . . . ...... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ... . . ... . . .. . . . .. . . ... . ... .. ..... ..... .......... .. . .......and it

s over, omgizzle PIKA GIRL IS PLAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!

sat 4/5/14

kittencheekz — 2014-04-05 23:32:34 UTC

okay, so these past few weeks have been the few most emotional weeks for me. And I've learned some things about myself too and I'm just gonna say something that comes from my heart. Okay, so when I was like either 9, 10, or maybe even 11, I was going through a childhood in which everyday I wished I could be different. I didn't know very much about society. I had friends, but none of which I could truly call a best friend or even a close friend because everybody thought I was weird. I even convinced myself that I was weird too, and not to mention that I looked ALOT different then than I do now. So I had very little confidence about myself and I had no one to even talk to about my personal problems. In the summer, I would come home from swim practice and just listen to the radio all day long, basically just doing nothing. One day I was just doing what I did every day, and there was this song that came on the radio. I can't remember whether I cried or not while listening to it, but I definitely remember it. Another day, at dive practice, one of my teammates asked me what my favorite song was. I then immediately told her about the song, and she was like "oh yeah!" and then started singing the chorus. When I got home that day, I decided to watch the video for it. I honestly cried while watching it, I can't remember the reason, but I know I cried. I started clicking on other songs by the same artist, and basically watched every song I could find on Youtube by the artist. You wanna know what the song was? Not Afraid by Eminem. That song was the first song I ever heard by Eminem. I then bought the Recovery album from target and would listen to every single song on that album all day every day on my iPod. Then when I was in 7th grade, one of my older siblings died. I was so devastated by it that I became depressed. After that, everything basically started going down hill. I basically went suicidal. By the end of the year, I ended up having a black left eye, then I cut myself on my right cheek. 8th grade ended up being worse. Though i had became really great friends with the new girl, i still felt like i had no one. I would tell her just about everything. I even made up a boyfriend, he was a real person, but just not my boyfriend. I even told her that we had sex!!!! But that was the year i started writing in a notebook, i would carry it around all day basically. I wrote and drew a bunch of different stuff in it from the summer and the year before. I basically showed her everything in it. I soon ran out of paper in it and she was nice enough to give me a new one so i used that one up too. But for the most part i basically became depressed and suicidal. My appearance had changed, but the one change i wish had never happened, was my eyebrows. They were basically just 2 fucking little lines with curves at the end, it was horrible. also that was the year o confirmation. when we got back from the confirmation retreat, my mom started yelling at me and by the end of that weekend, I cut my arm in 2 spots, one little one, and then a big one, it's alot smaller than i thought it was but it's still slightly bigger than an average cut. and then summer came and i became like the bestest friends with Taylor and Garret Young. 9th grade, i think i can definitly say that it was probably the worst. by the end of the year i ended up going to d-home twice, one day in between the other. i went EXTREMELY suicidal!!! i can't remember if i cut myself really big, but a part of me wants to say that i did, but i can't remember at the moment. In the summer i became REALLY good friends with Jamie, either that or that was last summer but still, this year, as of from right now, 6:27 pm on April 5, 2014, so far iv cut myself 4 times on the face and also on my wrist. My life is still hard, but I now have a whole family of friends that i can actually call my friends ^-^ (btw this was originally written in facebook and then I changed my mind about it and decided that I would just copy this onto my padlet) btw i just copied this onto here adn im adding this part, it's now 6:32 pm

mon 5/19/14

kittencheekz — 2014-05-19 15:15:29 UTC

it's been like what? a month (?) or so since my last post. but anyways, today's the last monday of school, it's also the last week of school too. though i have to go to summer school because of geometry -.- I don't even know what my grades are in any of my classes =/ i just really really hope that i haven't flunked out >-< ughh i just want to get, this kid on my right keeps laughing -.- , but anyways i just want to get highschool over with!!! also i went skating on friday and i saw everybody there except russ, but over all i had an awesome time, except for the fact that Eli was there =/ at one point he was standing right behind me and I was too pissed at the moment so i turned around and shoved him away, though i kinda forgot that he was on skates so he fell over and then started fucking crying -.- i told him that i didn't mean to push him that hard (which btw is a total fucking lie, he deserved it!) and that he needed to leave me the fuck alone and go hang out with HIS friends, and to just leave me and MY friends alone and then he had the nerve to basically say that justin was his friend, and so i just straight up told him that he wasn't his friend. and that there was a difference between someone being your friend and someone being nice to you because they have to. and literally in the middle of me talking, jordan decided to bother me, and he's started to get on my fucking nerves!!! i also straight up told him that i was having a serious moment and that he needed to leave me alone. but enzi was there too! she's basically my favorite little cousin ^-^ her face lit up when she saw me, it made me feel happy inside ^-^ also i had written justin a song and i gave it to him and later, all he told me was t, i gotta check my email right now to see what he said, brb. all he said was "I loved it thank you so much" and the first song i had written for him he said a whoooolllle lot more than just "I loved it, thanks" =/ also devin was there too, and i met this stoner girl, she had this smoke thingy and kept blowing the smoke in my face, but i seriously thought that it was fake or something so i inhaled some of it and started choking, i didn't swallow it or anything, i just inhaled and blew out, and devin was just like "you can definitely tell the difference between a nonsmoker and a smoker" but he was so cute, i have to admit that i still have a crush on him. but he and justin were talking and justin was, well, that kid started laughing again -.-, well being justin, and at one point i was just like "..my boyfriend" *pointing to justin* and devin was just like "i love this kid!" and yeah, also that girl let me wear her little light up binky and so she told me to get on her back so i did and i accidentally broke it so now i owe her 3 fucking dollars =/ -.- no, just no. anyways that was friday night, oh! also at one point me and justin started "making out" and olivia walked up and started talking and then was just like "whoa! okayyy, i'll just come back later!" lolol but yeah that was friday. btw I'm in BTA right now, apparently there's an assignment on edmodo but the last time i checked there wasn't sooooooo yeah. speaking of which, imma miss this laptop in the summer :c fack! also speaking of which, i have to go to fucking bolivia for a fucking week >-< can i just, like, NOT go?! my family can just go without me for all i care, though they'd have to leave my little brother here too cause i care too much for him. if i get raped in bolivia, im blaming my parents!! im sorry but i would rather NOT go to a place in which people tell me that my kids shouldn't go outside by themselves!!! just no!!!! im so fucking pissed, like my dad didn't even bother telling us in the first place?!?!! that's literally the same thing as me saying that im going to skate odyssey without telling my parents until the minute i leave!!!!! also my mom is an asshole!!!!!! we had went to Kohl's on saturday and she said that if i wanted to then we could go thrift shopping or something and then olivia told me to go to Mazie's so my mom let me but then she was said "We won't go anywhere tomorrow then" which i didn't feel like arguing with her at the time, and then sunday justin invited me over to his house and at first my mom was like "No, you made us late for church so no" (which we gotten there literally right when it was starting =/ -.- ) so we got into an a, btw a security officer showed up and scared the shit out of me!, but we got into an argument and it ended up me having to sign this miniature contract stating that if i was late to mass again on sunday then that means i wouldn't be allowed to go ANYWHERE that WHOLE WEEK!!!!!!! which fucking pissed me off!!!!!!!! im sorry but that is honestly unfair!! i tried explaining to my mom that i literally only get to see justin once a week and she made it seem like that (btw i had to copy and paste what i had written earlier in a note soo yeah) was alot, but she doesn't know the fucking shit i go through EVERY. FUCKING. WEEK!!!!!!!!! i swear if she makes ANOTHER one of those stupid little contracts then im flipping my shit!!!!! btw imma copy this just in case the site fucks up, the internet is off right now soo i just wanna be prepared. she was just like "well what's gonna happen if you don't make it on time?" literally she was expecting me to predict the future and so i said "i don't know!!" and she was just like "that's not acceptable!" and it didn't help the fact that my dad was in the kitchen too, i honestly wanted to fucking punch them as hard as i could!!!!!!!! i fucking hate my parents!!!!!!!!! i can't fucking wait to move out!!!!!!!!!!! and when i do then i'm moving all the way to the other side of town and they won't fucking know where i live, nor will they ever see me again, cause im not gonna go to church anymore!!!!!!!! i'm honestly being serious right now!! i fucking hate them!!! yes they usually do let me go to places when i ask but at the same time they always say no. they use the fact that my friends ask me to go to places as an excuse against me!!!!!!! and it's fucking annoying as hell!!!!!! they're a fucking pain in the ass and i' honestly can NOT WAIT TO MOVE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im sorry but talking about my parents right now is pissing me off and the subject about them is not even close to being worthy enough to be in the same post as all the things that make me happy are!!!!!!!!!! only I will know what happened this weekend!!!!!!! so fuck them!!!!!!!!!!! i'm literally going to yell "YOU FUCKING HOMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" at my dad's funeral and idk where to even start for what i'm gonnna do at my mom's funeral!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i know it's going to be something!!!!!! Idgaf who's there, i'm going to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i literally want to just fucking kill them amillion fucking times every day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU MOM AND DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Junior year) wed 8/6/14

kittencheekz — 2014-08-06 18:41:00 UTC

It's the second day of school, I'm a Junior this year and so yeah, right now im in enlgish with Mrs. Williams. Yeseterday was weird, but i have to get off, ill try to get on later tho

sat 8/16/

kittencheekz — 2014-08-16 20:53:07 UTC

okay well I'm not really sure where to start, so imma just say that I brought a cat home last sunday and lets just say mom was fucking PISSED OFF!!!!!! Also not to mention that dad's allergic to cats. lol his name is Nutella and he's soo friggin' cute!!!!!!!!!! I got it from Russ, i was just like "Does anybody know anybody who's giving away any kittens?" and then Russ told me that he would give me his dad's cat Nutella to me and i was so excited!!!! Though pretty much the first couple of days my mom would keep talking about the cat and how he needed to give it back, and I had told Russ that she was okay with me getting a cat. Also when I went to get the cat, when Russ' dad brought me home he was talking to the cat and saying "bye Nutella, you have a new loving family who's going to take good care of you" and stuff so I kinda felt alittle guilty. But yeah, my mom made him stay in the garage for like the first 4 days and then she let me keep him in my room. She was so determined to get rid of Nutella. She then said that if I didn't find him a new home/give him back to Russ, or find someone who had a cage, in which she would HAVE TO see their cage herself and shit, before Friday then on Friday then she would take Nutella to the pound, but me being me, I literally waited until Wednesday night to look for him a new owner, luckily Russ said that he would be able to pick him up on saturday(today) so she didn't take him to the pound yesterday, but then Russ told me that he had to work today and that he wouldn't be able to pick Nutella up until Tuesday night and so when I told my mom she was COMPLETELY OKAY WITH IT!!!! and then my brother told me that if dad gave in then she would let me keep the cat, so I guess i have until tuesday night to convince him, and to be honest idk where to begin with that

sat 8/16/14

kittencheekz — 2014-08-16 21:07:48 UTC

(part 2) also Little Buddy died over the summer.. After we got back from Bolivia, btw i honestly don't feel like telling about that trip, so only I will know what it was like, but let's just say that it was actually alot better than I had thought it would be. At least i didn't get raped... but anyways at least i got to spend his last few days with him ;-; i still miss him, which btw is kinda one of the reasons why i decided to get Nutella. But yeah, also Justin's not allowed to go skating any more ;-; his parents don't like some of the people who go skating, so he can't go anymore. He's kinda one of the main reasons why I even go skating. Now i usually just hang out with Justin on friday nights instead of going skating, though he's on travel hockey this year so he's going to be gone most of the year on the weekends, so whenever I can't hang out with him then that's when I'll go skating, which i did last night. Though he ended up going too, and i was really happy :) also i love his neighbor Dannon, she's so sweet and pretty!! She kinda looks like Mary Hinely just alittle. right now im watching the credits to spongebob, usually i'd be hanging out with Justin right now but his mom said he can't see me today, idk why but im not going to ask, actually i probably will but i hope you kinda know what I mean. Also me and Justin have been dating for about 6 1/2 months now >^-^< though i remember when we were first dating it was just kinda awkward between us. Like, it's really really hard to explain, but i love him with all my heart and nothing will ever change that!!!!!! >^-^< well that's all i really feel like saying right now, imma try to do this alot more but i doubt that i wil--OHMIGOSH I FORGOT TO SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I watched the Spiderwick Chronicles last night, and ohmigosh it is one of the best movies ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;-;!!!!!!!! but back to what i was saying, i doubt i will be able to update alot, or more often than i have been lately, but imma try to!!!! so see ya i guess