‎ by Matteo

Dear Matteo,

earlofarms — 2022-08-06 03:17:36 UTC

I never really want to open up with someone new until you happened to bring me new colors to my life, new perspectives that I never thought I needed. I know you may not notice how I wake up early in the morning these days to shower when I used to sleep all day and cry all night. I am amazed on how well you can manage your time to be productive padahal gue aja gabisa :( and idk since you came into my life skripsi aku yang udah kayak jelek bgt busuk dr bulan oktober aku kerjain lg. I know you said, “aku haha hihi doang” but your haha-hihi made me put aside my sorrow for a little and focus on the future. Makasih ya.

Tapi aku cuman mau bilang kalo aku tuh pengen kamu belajar dari previous experiences kalo emang gak semua orang tuh punya good intentions ke kamu. Gak semua orang suka sama kamu dan yang harus kamu fokusin adalah diri km sendiri & orang2 yg syg sm kamu. Jangan dwell on the past, but if you think what you did was wrong all you have to do is try to be better. The process does not happen overnight but I am here to help, with anything. Hold on to the people you love, tight, and never let go. As I am sure they’d be willing to do anything for you too.

Hahaha aduh kenapa gue mabok nulis soal lo ya? Pengen aja. Gue excited banget bisa kenal sama lo. I know this had to end some time but we still have a lot of time to get to know each other more. I care about you, a lot. Jadi take a good care of yourself dan mau orang bilang apa soal kamu I do not care and I couldn’t care less. You are my bibiw and you will always be my bibiw. Ini review Bey buat Matteo ya. kith kith forever! Sebenernya a little longer but I can’t crack my own code HAHAHAH

- B

The greatest friend!

2022-08-09 04:46:16 UTC

I'll never be sorry for having you as a companion, friend. You are the kind of friend who will give me the exact reaction I need. Perhaps it's because our mindsets are similar... Or you're just a good friend in general. Thank you for never passing judgment on me when I told you my stories. Your support makes meeting those challenges a lot easier. I'll be eternally grateful for the hours I've spent with you. You're a good listener who I'd like to keep for a long time (if that's possible!). I hope that after speaking with you, people can see the best in themselves, because I do. Thanks, Theo! Take care of yourself pleek!!! 🤪

Matteo.

earlofarms — 2022-09-11 09:25:27 UTC

Nothing feels so heavenly other than being held in your arms, under your control for hours long. You know exactly what I like and you gave me all the pleasure I couldn’t ask for more. You’re too good to be true—do you know that, daddy? I bet you do. You’re like the fire that melts me once you graze your fingers on my skin, which makes me crave for more of your touch . I just love to be held in your arms, with my hands on your chest and every other part of you, the one whose breath was hot against my mouth as you chant my name over and over. It was always a dream to know you, to be manhandled by you, to be taken care of you. You’re truly the hottest I’ve ever laid my eyes on. I’ll surely come back to you whenever I crave for your touch again. I’m gonna miss you, daddy. 🤍

Sincerely yours,
Your baby.

Dearest Matteo

2022-09-18 15:17:34 UTC

Hi, dearest. I hope this letter finds you well. I apologise for the tardiness of the letter. Leaving you hanging was never my intention. Thank you for understanding.

I couldn't find a way to deliver this letter on time, since I didn't know how to express what I've had with you through mere words. I wanted it to be unique and special, yet it made you wait longer than it was supposed to be.

For the four days I've had with you, it was truly memorable. You were a gentle, patient, and understanding lover. It was really wonderful to be your baby. Not only by the way you cared for me, but also on how you paid attention to my well-being as well. Strangely, I could be more vocal with you. Not many people could make me do that. So, thank you for making me safe enough to be myself freely.

I wish we could spend more time together. There are still so many things that I wanna do and tell you. For the time being, please take care of yourself and do drink a lot of water.

Until we meet again.

Love,
T.

Dear, Matteo! 🤍

2022-09-26 06:00:56 UTC

Thank you for being my one night love hehe… Thank you for making me even more excited to do this final project! And also thank you for some of the songs you put in our sposess yesterday. It turns out that you and I almost have the same taste in music. I hope we can meet again. Please stay healthy and keep spirit! One more thing, don't eat noodles too often, I'm really angry if you eat noodles all the time😠

— ni.

💌

2022-09-28 14:33:57 UTC

To the one and only Kak Eyo.
Here's the promised essay that I had prepared for you (which unfortunately I couldn't give directly to you on our first day).

Where do I start?
The fact that you caught my attention right away after the first time I took a look at your profile? Or how sweet you are as a person, a lover, to be exact?

You are the depiction of the boyfriend that I was looking for. You know how to treat me well, adjusting to how I usually act and talk, but still have the authenticity of yours as Mattheo Sinclair. To be frank, I didn't find you to be someone who uses emoji a lot (just like I am), but, turned out, it was the other way around. (I'm not complaining, rather I adore it, it was really lovely of you to do so. It lessens that intimidating feeling like how I thought of you before dating you, hahaha!).

You're insanely attractive. I think most people would agree with me, yeah? Even though we only had a short amount of time to spend together, I can feel how sharp-witted you are. Made the relationship dynamic that I wanted to be easier to be done. You didn't need to be told twice to take the initiative of what I desired. Plus, you know a lot about cats... so that's another checkbox that you ticked off from my list of ideal types of boyfriend.

Also, we both never really complained of how real we were to realizing the sibuk gf and sibuk bf trope (🥲), but hey, that's what I like about us! And at the end of the day, you were always there for me to provide the throne (re: your lap) that I could sit on to make sure that I had enough rest. With the kisses and the warm hugs... I truly felt loved by you.

One last thing, you're full of surprises. The good surprises. I was never really a big fan of PDA before, but maybe... you slowly changed it. You helped me with this new thing that I wanted to try. I never told you this before, but dang, those publicly tweets of how you love me? They gave me a whole 🤬 zoo filled with butterflies in my stomach. And the midnight texts? Yeah. I'm just gonna stop here so I won't spoil too much hahahah.

I think that's more than enough, right?
Take care, kakak sayang. Please make sure to have enough rest and keep yourself healthy. Do remember that you deserve all the good things in this life. 🤍

P.S. I'm truly sorry I was just able to write on your padlet weeks later after our session. I hope you can still feel the sincerity that I poured in expressing how I felt during the 2 days when I was with you.

Much love,
— A.

mAtteOoo

2022-09-28 15:01:47 UTC

Haiiii Teoooo!!1!1!1!1 l makasih ya udah mau nemenin aku biarpun waktunya singkat banget asli ga kerasaa hehehe tapi seruu banget ngobrol sama kamu, kamu lucu banget, bisa diajak typing willy dhjehsuwjs awalnya aku takut, takut canggung tapi ternyata nggak sama sekali, malah langsung nyambung!! hehehe senenggg ☺️ 10/10 😼 maaf ya kalo kemarin ada kata-kata aku yang bikin gak nyaman

Istirahat yang banyak, jangan kebanyakan begadang, stay healthy!! jangan lupa minum air putih yang banyak juga ya pokoknya banyak-banyak, be happy Teoo!! see u when i see u 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

matteo,

2022-10-10 09:49:38 UTC

hi! these past few days have been so wonderful to me & its no surprise that its all because of you. even the simplest encouragement from you feels so sincere and gets me all giddy and motivated. i feel so comfortable around you and nothing ever feels forced. you have your own way with words, and you consistently knows what to say and when to say it. maaan, you always seems to make me grin so wide from ear to ear. as i’ve said before, the non-batman-depressing-sigma side of you is very attractive. i hope you show more of those yaaa 😆 and i also love how you got so excited talking about the things you like, way too cute. ini tmi tapi i’ll be sure to listen to more må****!n 😁

all in all, i really really enjoyed our time together! thank you for being such a good friend and lover to me. please sleep well and eat well ya, mas theo sayang. best wishes to you. 🍀

xxx

Earth to theo ☎️

2022-10-11 12:11:57 UTC

Is it alright to just say try being with him and see it for yourself?

Matteo is as captivating as AM's wanna be yours that sweeps you off your feet, as enticing as gessafelstein's lost in the fire that makes you want to succumb to his touches, and he's as romantic as armstrong's kissing you who whispers soft syllables of love every day and night.

I'd say that he's a tactful person. He knows the dos and don'ts quite clearly. On the contrary to a lot of first impressions of matteo, to me he seems to be the furthest thing from being a spine chilling stern bf. In fact I'd go as far as to describe him as a friend like type of boyfriend. He knows how to keep a conversation alive without making it feel robotic, although it was our first encounter and I'm quite the awkward person myself. Careful though, he has lots of antics hiding behind that sweet of smile of his that will catch you off guard.

I'm sorry this took a while, much longer than I anticipated. I wanted to do you justice since you were a great bf at the time, but I haven't gotten the time to sit down and write. Wishing you all of the happiness life can bring you today and forever theo! 🤍

sorry!

2022-10-31 06:54:32 UTC

hi, matteo. im so sorry that it took me a while to visit your padlet. it has been a month but i still remember the great time i had while talking to you (though it started off a little awkward with you being worried like "dia bakal gini terus ya?" and me being a little afraid of you lol) but it all turned out just fine...more than fine. i enjoyed your company a lot. alsoooo the spotify session was very fun like FUN fun i got to know your music preference and all. thank you for the playlist because you made it without knowing my preference yet i like each of them!
i hope life has been treating you well. once again, sorry for being soooo late!

Dear Kak Matt,

2023-01-26 10:47:45 UTC

Thank you for these past days. I’m really happy and lucky to meet you kakak. Honestly you caught my attention since first time i read your carrd because you’re so attractive:). although at first i thought you were intimidating but turned out you’re very nice and funny. I really enjoy being with you. You never fail to make me smile. You make me feel appreciated and loved. Thank you for making my days better and happier. Oh and also thank you for the playlist😸. Maybe that’s all (sorry i’m not good with words). I hope we can meet again in another time:) Take care and have a great day!🌷

-🐱

to my theow

2023-02-16 09:14:57 UTC

hai theow, thank you for these past 3 days ya also thank you for being my valentine hehe. thank you for all the love that you gave to me, thank you for being the most adorable boyfriend *wink*, all i can say is only thank you, thank you for everything that you've done to me, theow. i love being with you, i love every moment we have, and i really enjoyed spending times with you. i'm more than happy to receive your pure unconditional love.

please take care of yourselfyaa! jangan keseringan minum kopi dan makan mie?!? nanti sakittt. jaga kesehatan, makanannya dijaga, jangan lupa istirahatnyaa ya! theow, good luck for everything yaa. apapun yang lagi kamu lakuin, semoga selalu dimudahkan dan dilancarkan juga. last but not least, don't forget to be happy okaay? you deserve all the good things in this world *wink* *wink*

see you when i see you, theooow!
- A.

Dear Theo

2023-02-21 15:07:54 UTC

I know this is so long overdue and i’m deeply sorry for that, but this doesn’t mean i didn’t enjoy the time we spent together. I won’t say too much but i have some points here. Loving you and being loved by you, as far is the best feeling i’ve ever felt. Being with you is always easy, and spending time with you is never a chore. Still remember the way we always put “i love you” in every talk we had. The thought of us being bubbly and random when midnight came still makes me smile even until now. I like us and every bits of love that we share. You’ve always be the patient one, be it when you taught me how to play mobile legend or how to download the sims on my laptop, when you explained anything. And i love how you know about everything, music genres, movies, comics, games, anything. You know damn well that i still listen to Ground Control.

Theo, thank you for being able to delivered the love i’ve been longing for.

Until we meet again.

-C

hey there, theo

2023-03-14 01:53:29 UTC

theo, theo, its me! you are a warm companion and someone who is definitely a good listener. despite our first encounter that barely lasted for two hours but i really wanted to thank you. thank you for giving me advice well.

until then, drink enough water, get some sleep you deserve, eat regularly and keep yourself warm on a cold night.

sincerely,
sasha.

Dear Kak Matt,

earlofarms — 2023-05-10 08:58:53 UTC

I want to express my heartfelt gratitude for the precious moments we've shared together. Your presence brings me a sense of security and makes me feel valued. The way you attentively observe even the tiniest details is truly enchanting. You have a remarkable ability to make me feel appreciated for the smallest gestures I make. I am immensely grateful for the love you have showered upon me; it is truly breathtaking, and our memories together will forever hold a special place in my heart.

It's incredibly attractive to see how well-versed you are in various subjects. And what makes it even more enchanting is the fact that our music preferences align so well. I feel so lucky to have crossed paths with you.

Every precious moment we've spent together has left an indelible mark on my memory. I implore you not to fade from my thoughts, just as I promise to keep you alive in mine. Let's make a pact to meet again, for our connection is too special to be forgotten.

Yours truly,
D.

Dearest Eyo

2023-05-23 13:19:43 UTC

Hi… this is me, Ayi. Eyo, I’m really sorry I just got the time to write this for you. I know this is very late but I hope it is still means something for you. Thank you lots for the love you gave me on that day. We only spent time together for a day but I feel so loved. You were so attentive, funny, warm and full of love to me. You made me feel so welcomed by the warmth and every affection you gave to me. I’m sorry if by any chance I hurt you when we spent time together. Please wait for me to comeback. I will, once again, be back to your arms.

Love, Ayi

2023-05-25 19:31:03 UTC

Dear, M.

Hi, I’m sorry, it took me so long to visit your padlet.

I hope you’re doing fine, Mas. Jangan makan pedas-pedas ya.. it’s not good for your health. Kamu harus jaga kesehatan, banyak istirahat, dan makan teratur biar bisa senangin banyak orang lagi including me. Mas, I am very happy to meet and know you. Karena kamu, aku jadi bisa merasakan rasanya dicintai oleh seseorang, terima kasih banyak.

“You did well today, My love.”

Did you know that every time your notifications pop up, it brightens my day. Hari-hari yang biasanya berat jadi ringan karena kamu. Kamu yang selalu dengerin semua keluh kesah aku tentang dunia ini. Thank you for appreciating me, for the laughters, for the stories we shared when we’re happy, for the movie recommendations. You always remind me to take care of myself, and to look out for myself even on days when you aren't around to ask me about it.

Titip salam ya sama Kanjeng, Tom, dan Snowy. Until today, I still thinking about you. It's been a few days since I spent with you, time goes fast. It’s sad that we have to part. Semangat terus kerjanya, Mas Theo!

Once again, thank you, thank your for everything.

I love you Matteo… I really do. Until we meet again. ❤️

Yours truly, Eve.

BEST OF THE BEST MY BESTIE THEO

2023-05-27 02:11:54 UTC

(menggedor pintu dengan ugal-ugalan) DOK DOK DOK... DIK.. ARISAN BULAN KEMARIN BLM BAYAR... (becanda)

halo hola Theo~

wagilasih ngobrol sama lo asik banget. bener-bener apa ya, gue suka sih kalo lo jadi versi lo sendiri gitu dan comfortable. and yeaaa we made each other comfortable & fun in the chatroom! glad i found you as my bestie!

terus lo tuh pandai bikin percakapan selalu jalan dan ngga awkward gitu, apa ya rasanya kayak ketemu temen lama yang udah lama nggak ketemu (APAANSIH WKWKWK) ya gitu kayak reunian! seru jadinyaaa.

bro, jangan sungkan-sungkan dm/tele gue yak kalo mau cerita, walopun kita beda fandom kita tetap sama. (sama sama orgil, becanda)

thank you so much once again. i hope this is not the last time we talk 😢😭🤜🤛

Dearest Matteo,

2023-05-27 17:53:53 UTC

Let me take a moment to recall our precious date we've shared together.

We were simply magical: from the moment we met, there was an undeniable strings that made everything feel effortless and genuine. I cherish the fact that our relationship was slow and steady, allowing us to be on what truly matters—the joy of being in each other's company.

It's remarkable how effortlessly we fall into sync, sharing laughter and banters, and even comfortable silences. It's those moments of pure contentment that make me realize just how lucky I am to have found you and I want you to know that I do love every little gesture and the effort you put into creating such a memories.

But above all, what truly made the date special, was simply being in your presence. We transcends words, and I find solace and happiness in the moments we shared. Thank you, for making our time together so incredibly special. I'm grateful for the memories we've created. ❤️

Sincerely,
Gab.

Dilecto Meo.

2023-06-04 11:15:45 UTC

How insufficient are mere words to describe the torrential cascade of emotions that surged within me upon beholding your divine presence. The sight of you alone, dear one, ignited an inferno within the depths of my soul. As you seamlessly slipped into the captivating persona of Leon, I found myself descending deeper into a labyrinth where reality and fantasy waltzed in a mesmerizing symphony. Your portrayal cast a potent enchantment that bewitched both heart and mind, surpassing all prior imaginings.

Since that indelible encounter, my ruminations have transformed into a kaleidoscope of memories, each stroke painted with the vibrant hues of you. The words you spoke, akin to the tender caress of an artistic brush, gracefully danced upon the air and left an indelible imprint upon the fabric of my existence. Their echoes persisted, serenading my thoughts long after our paths diverged. Each syllable, imbued with passion and eloquence, lovingly caressed the depths of my spirit, intertwining our souls within an intricate tapestry of love and yearning.

Now, as I sit here, my fingertips trace the contours of my lips, a vivid recollection of the ethereal taste of your kiss washes over me. Your lips, so tender and impassioned, possess a transcendent power that defies the earthly life. They awaken every fiber of my being, igniting a fervor that consumes me whole. Each touch, each stolen moment of intimacy, intensifies the longing within my heart. It is a yearning that resonates deeply, an ache that can only find longing in your presence.

But it is not solely the memory of your kiss that enchants my thoughts. It is the embrace that enfolds me in a sanctuary of solace and belonging. When your arms enfold me, time itself holds its breath, and the cacophony of the world fades into insignificance. Within your hug, I find fortitude, peace, and an devotion that stirs the very deep of my soul. It is an intoxication, a ravenous craving that grows with every passing moment, leaving me perpetually restless, ceaselessly yearning for the harmonious union of our bodies.

With each passing day, my affection for you deepens, accompanied by an escalating reverence for your prowess. Your words possess an enchanting sorcery that transcends the mundane, painting vivid tableaus upon the canvas of my mind. Like a gentle zephyr on a languid summer eve, your prose carries me to distant lifes, where love flourishes and passion thrives. Through your words, you have bestowed upon me a realm where romance reigns supreme, and for this, I am eternally indebted.

As I pen these feelings to parchment, know that my heart brims with a love unencumbered by the chains of limitation. My soul yearns for the celestial convergence of our destinies, where our love burgeons without restraint. Until that blessed moment arrives, I shall cherish every stolen interlude, every lingering gaze, cognizant that our connection defies the boundaries of distance and the shackles of temporal constraints.

Usque ad terminos orbis, K

I love you the most, too

2023-06-24 03:20:47 UTC

I think it's unfair how we have only such little time to fall in love. Like for plenty reasons I can list one by one. And despite all that, I feel so loved and you're the warmest person I'd ever talk to in a while. I love to be the person you're comfortable enough to share me about things you love, foods you just eat, how your days go by, I love everything about you. It felt so alive and fun, the conversation, the vibes, the discussion. I feel alive whenever I'm around you.

I am not good at showing my vulnerable emotions, most of the time, so whenever I feel down I just suck it up and pretend everything's fine and I only need some sleep. But you manage to make it a bit more bearable, for me. And I feel sorry for being a little hard to deal with, I know somehow you can see that. I'm really sorry. But all's well that ends well to end up with you, Eyo. Everything feels so good and perfect until the end. I hope you feel the fun of me just as much as I did of you.

Maybe we will have to wait for so long until we meet again, and honestly I'm not very good at waiting. But I'll wait, strolling around the corner just to see you come again. Please take care of yourself, and your babies too. Remember that someone out there loves you, because you deserve that (more than the love I can give actually). You crafted love inside my heart and I will never forget that.

Until another time, Ayi.

Mas Theo!

NostalgicDiary — 2023-07-03 16:33:52 UTC

Pleasant evening, dearest one. Just a (girl)friendly reminder, when I said you bewitched me, please keep in mind that I truly meant it. I'm enchanted to meet you ever since the first time you give replies to the menfess I sent. It's—maybe, it's the way you arranged the words that could makes me feel something? As I said before, you're magical. The magic tricks of you has weaken me until all I could think of is just you. Only you.

Thus, I'm happy that you prove me right. The way you treat me... Is something that I'm having a hard time to explain how. You're doing it too well, I feels so good—good is an underestimate word I think, if there is a better word I would use it to describe how I feel perfectly. But I will keep this page to be family friendly so I'll stop there ya. Haha. Neeways, I might looking passive last night, I bet? If you want to know, it's because the women is too stunned to speak. You're making her enjoy the session so much, that all she thinks about is you and only you.

No thoughts head empty, only filled with Mas Theo.

Another (girl)friendly reminder, you should know that you're the hottest yet the sweetest man alive. That's why don't forget to keep some of the warmness for you too ya? Jaga kesehatannya ya, Mas. Jangan bobo terlalu larut lagi! I hope I had a chance to meet you again in the future. In the meantime, see you when I see you.

Hug and kisses,
Cantiknya Mas.

To My Giant Puppy

2023-07-05 08:28:10 UTC

Hello there, the cutest giant puppy!
I’m sorry that I come here late. But I hope this will not make you any less. Thank you for the days you have spent with me, I had a great one. To tell you the truth, you’re like this delicate sweet yummy little brownie amongst my spicy food. I mean, you’re just that sweet. And I’m not really often getting sweets for me so it’s kinda and unfamiliar but in good way.
And I really really didn’t expect you to be thissss cute fluffy fur ball giant puppy. You look like a total fine gentleman from the outside whom I thought can’t be cute too much but you proved me wrong. You’re literally the definition of plushie I want to keep in my room so I can hug and play with your fur before I sleep.
In short, you really made me happy and I’m very thankful with that.
Thank you once again Puppy, I really hope we can meet again someday. Until then, please miss me!

To my dearest, kaka sayang!🫶

2023-07-08 10:52:58 UTC

I really enjoy our time together! Apalagi kaka udah nemenin aku main game terus terusan dan ngebantuin aku banget dalam game. Pokoknya kakanya jago banget kalah abang joki!😠🫵

Kakanya penyayang banget hue— i feel loved! Belum lagi kakanya mau aja nurutin permintaan aneh yg aku minta. Meskipun suka pamer bisa terbang pake Scara!😠 Kalau nanti kaka punya Al-Haitham aku mau main bareng kaka lagi.😻😻😻

The 1

2023-07-11 10:15:59 UTC

HI matteo how do we start ya im not really good at words but first thing first meeting you is something im very grateful for because i dont know someone could romantically match my energy in one meet??? like one ONE meet thats cool tbh its kinda hard even for me to bring that side of me in a very short time but you did anyway!

im happy i could talked to you freely without getting awkward and the fact that it felt like we've been friends for a long time when i get to talked to you lolll you're so good at adapting and thats not something everyone can do (esp me) so i adore YOU and your personality as well oh also idk how you usually talk in daily but bro you definitely got the humorsense 😭 love it.

i wish i could talk to you again as soon as possible and i look forward for another karaoke session with you! you're the one who sings and i'll be your #1 cheerleader <3 jangan makan mie mulu please take care and until i meet you again make sure you keep this mytteo nick for me only!! thankyew

with love
fai

Kakak Matt.

fledgescape — 2023-08-03 16:58:12 UTC

Hi Matteo,

I'm really sorry it took me a while to sit down and write this, but I hope you'll still find this endearing and feel the love I've poured into this (can I call this a letter..) Anyway, thank you for always making time for me and showering me with love and warmth. The way you make me laugh, the way you tease me.. never fail to make me smile. I truly appreciate how you try to understand me and everything you've done for me. I feel so grateful that our paths have crossed, even if it's been a relatively short time.. I hope you're not getting tired of having me around, though. (fr)

I want you to know that you're precious to me in more ways than I can express. I mean, I'm glad I've found you. I once heard this, and it perfectly captured what I wanted to say to you (I actually easily get cringe every time I write so-called heartfelt writings, but here we go...) the moments we share, whether big or small, are etched in my heart. 😸🫶

Matteo, when I'm with you, I feel heard and understood. You're SOOO funny and easy to talk to, and I absolutely love that about you. You actually are going beyond my expectations. There's something irresistibly attractive about you, you're just so sexy in a smart way ??? How could that happen.

I wish you nothing but good health and happiness because they suit you so well. Take care and be happy, always. I'm looking forward to making many more beautiful memories with you (if you're not tired of me, though).

Goodbye for now, Matteo!

From Yeyi

Dear Ka Matt,

2023-08-05 17:17:57 UTC

Thank you so much for being such a good bf for a day. Was a great one. Udah bener2 ladenin aku yang berisik banget notifnya 🤣 Selalu ngabarin juga! Overall, I did not regret the time we spent! In fact, I cherish it so much! Thank you, Ka Matt!

- 💙

my loveliest toxic baby, matteo

2023-08-20 16:32:17 UTC

no but really when i said i want to have a toxic rls trope, you really granted it. kayak.... you really drained my energy because as someone who've been in that situation (and i like it 😔) you really did a great job in that, matt. God knows how much i want to hate you (but professionally I can't) and aarrgghh i'm not really good with words but the experience speaks for itself.... i might re-rent you again just to feel something 😔😔 thank you so much for the experience, matt!!!

p.s: send my regards to Laurent 😉

20 Days;

2023-09-17 19:49:35 UTC

Hello, My Matteo.

I don't know if this writing will be delivered or will be read by you; but, hey, this is 20 days after our meeting, and I just have my courage to pouring down what I have been thinking until now.

First, it is sad. Really. Maybe it's little bit alay, but I am still not moving on yet... well, it was so sudden that I can't process it.. OK STOP. This is my first time to come here, yet I am still hoping not really the last one, or the one and only message that I wrote for you here.

How are you, Mayo? Do you still not accepting that nickname? HEHE. I was thinking that nickname since the first time I came to your account. Imagining how should I call you. But it was loooonggg journey to finally I got my courage to filled your form. I hope you are not bored to hear that I have a big crush for you since.. 2 months ago? I sent you a cc also, but I was afraid to follow your account back then.

I am so sorry if our first encounter didn't really that memorable (but for me it was really one of great time). Did you remember your first greeting, called me by my last name, on 09:21 WIB? Well, I do. You were the first one to call me by my last name, and surprisingly I do love it, a lot. Like, a LOT. I can't stop smiling and salting read that morning messages from you. It was Monday. Like today. I guess you will have a morning brief, meeting, and that headache coming from your job, well- that's normal. But I hope you are not really burnout and super stressed ya. But still, if you do, keep yourself in line, Mayo. Go to starbucks, order your go to coffee or drink, playing with your cats [I AM REALLY SAD THAT I DIDN'T KNOW YOUR CATS PROPERLY :((((]. Sorry ya, my attention not fully for you because we had.. a lovely son. Hehehe. I miss to see you two bickering and teasing each other..

I know maybe it didn't really suit for you to be a dad, but hey, thank you for giving me and also our son a complete family. I treasure a lot our time together. How you treated me, soft spoken to me, being honest with your feelings, I love it all. Thank you, ya, Matteo, for giving me chance to meet you and know you. That spotify session night, how you reacted to something I made for you, did you remember that replit link? Wkwkwkwk.

Ah, I wanna know you more. I wish I have more times to spend with you, creating more memories, talking about Leon and Resident Evil things, Seventeen things, anime things, soooo many things I want to tell you. But I was afraid to make you feel burdened back then because I knew you were not in a really good mood. How many times did you eat mie for past 20 days? Did you still at home alone again? Do you remember that once you said I was taking my dinner and sleep under 12 pm when I am with you?

Still, I hope for your happiness no matter what. Sometimes I look back into our roomchat and our group with Ed, cherish the time we shared together back then. God, the moment I am writing this, I am still salting... But I am grateful sometimes seeing your tweet updates passed my timeline.

Keep yourself healthy and hydrated ya, Mayo. You will always be my cherised husband I ever have, and I am forever grateful to know someone like you here. You've been really worked hard. My hardworking man. I am so proud to have you here. Hope to see you again in other better times and moments.

Je t'aime toujours..

My Big Baby, Matteo.

2023-11-05 05:12:56 UTC

For everything you've done even though it was for a short time, I'd like to thank you because you've been such a beautiful soul to me; in that moment, you're able to become my safe space where I can show you how vulnerable I can be. Though I still regret it (I just want to let you see me being happy and all smiley like everyone would want to do to their lover), but on the other hand I feel like your kindness warms my heart. Little did you know, I cried. Not because I was sad, but I was so touched by you. No matter what I said, you always have something nice to say to me. It means a lot, you know?

Matteo, I'm far from perfect yet you, who were mine, was perfect at some point I'm afraid I've hurted you when I was on my bad side. If I did, I'm sorry. I can't help, but being like that because you just found a way to see part of me that I'm trying hard to hide. It's so ugly I don't want people to know about it, but there you are; see me as who I really am. The good and the bad one.

Matteo, thank you so much for everything. I don't know what else to say beside thank you. Thank you for loving me, for being patience and kind and become that home where I'm not afraid what people would think if I cry or being emotional over trivial things. Thank you, Matteo. I hope you won't change and will always be the Matteo whom I fall for that day.

ps. You being such a big baby is so cute my heart hurts (please do it more).

Your baby,

Nara.

131 Days;

2024-01-05 14:35:15 UTC

Hi, Matteo.

I know it's been— 2 months, since our last meeting (excluding the lastest one). And my countdown says 131 days since our first meeting. Kinda weird that I saved it on my reminder just like, why, I don't know either. I've been a big fan of you since day 1 of finding your account, and the exact a month, more, I just force myself to be brave to finally meet you, with Ed, of course.

I realized that I always afraid to meet you by myself alone, afraid that you will be uncomfortable, having no matching energy or conversation with me, I am on my low confidence and worrying about how should I act when I am with you.

And I want to thank properly, thank you, for coming back, on my birthday, I was beyond happy. I always lost of my mind every time seeing your sweet messages. Like, you are way different from my imagination than the first time knowing you. And on our second encounter, I was really happy that you are still the same. And thank you again, for remember something that I used to mention in our convos.

Ah, I still remember the night that we were confused what to watch together, and ended up watching Enola, that for me it was the 3rd times(?). It was fun and guess, I think I am missing that moment a lot right now. I always excited, I always tell my friend that I was really thrilled every time I am with you. Silly me, didn't really know how to react to every message that you sent. Because, by just received it, I suddenly forget what should I say to make you feel comfortable and not feel offended.

I am deeply sorry if I ever hurt you, or any words that might turned you into uncomfortable situations. I never meant it that way. I do hope happiness and also success come over you more this year. You, someone whom I always waiting for, that already wrote one of the sweetest meeting in my life, thank you.

I always remember on how you will greet me in our first conversation.

"Hai, kangen ya?"

Yes, I always do, Matteo.

Thank you for always welcome me and being the softest man I have ever know.

Thank you.

Theo!

2024-01-17 03:56:22 UTC

Three days honestly both feel so short and long, thank you Theo for stopping time by and sharing the hours and attention between your busy days! I hope you maintain your health and joy, always. No more bugs, or annoying traffic during your long travels. Sending love and warmth your way <3

p.s. hope you like new musics and names i share with you

cheers, s.

🐈

2024-01-17 16:23:18 UTC

HAWWO MASSSS. hihi. adek baru sempet mampir kesini. i'm sorry i procrastinate a lot mas 😵‍💫😵‍💫 jadi life update hari ini :

adek capek 😵‍💫 skip makan malam lagi tapi ini beneran gak sanggup makan AAAAA tapi adek janji besok pagi bakal langsung makan 😭

kedua, adek baru selesai ngeresin, biasa lah domain gilded, gak dapet apa-apa, cuma dapet hikmahnya. 😮‍💨
Ketiga, ADEK KANGEN MAS BGT. HUAAAA KEPIKIRAN TERUS. Hiks anen mas pengen tium lagi... 😞😞 Pengen coop lagi..

Mas kenapa ya... kemarin adek joki sama kang joki abyss, dia sekali run aja udah bisa fullstar di akun adek, katanya build adek udah enak. Tapi adek kalau ngerjain sendiri ngos ngosan?? 😭 (mungkin karena adek dari ar kicik udah digendong sama abah zl jadi yagitu hmmff).

Terus mas... Kemarin tuh adek sakit (lagi) hiks.... Tapi udah gapapa sekarang, tadi adek udah nafsu makan lagi (lumayan) soalnya pagi-pagi adek makan bihun, siangnya makan es krim, malemnya makan cireng. Mas pernah bosen makan nasi gak sih? Soalnya kayak... Kita tiap hari makan nasi... Dimana mana adanya nasi.. adek bosen banget.. tapi nasi tuh makanan pokok?? 😞

Hmm cerita apa lagi ya. Adek punya banyak yang pengen diceritain ke mas.. makanya adek enggak sabar banget mau ketemu mas lagi 😵‍💫🫵🏻🫵🏻 WAAAAHGHHH semoga mas gak bosen. Maaf mas sayang padletnya malah jadi lapak curhat.. 😞

Next time adek mau nonton kartun homo sama mas hejhe ok ok mas?? Until next time mas saayaaanggg. Please keep in mind that i love you very very much and that i will always pray for your well-being and happiness. ❤️

dear kk matt ₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎♡̷

2024-02-17 20:12:15 UTC

halooo kak makasih ya atas waktunya kemarin. for a first encounter, you gave me a pretty good impression one heheh :D it's just a bit sad kita ketemunya pas weekdays jadi yg namanya sibuk itu ya gabisa dihindarin u_u knpa lgian vals day nya ntu pas weekday iyh mls bgt dasar kalender jlk .egk

soOoOo, yeah, kalo someday dikasih kesempatan buat ketemu lagii kayaknya aku mau ngabisin waktu sama kamu pas weekend aja biar mungkin dgn itu kita jadi bisa ngabisin lbh banyak waktu berdua hehe MAAF AK SI QTIME BGT CRITANYA SKDHSJSH

nevertheless, makasih banyak yaaa kak karena udah mau pacaran sama aku ^_^ you treat me so well all the time. i really enjoy our session a lot kakkk <3 aku kira awalnya tuh kakak bakal yg jdi stiff gitu kalo ketemu modelan kelebihan gula kayak aku shdgsh tapi ternyata kakak bisa ngimbangin energi aku dan bikin nyamann. maaci jg kk dah hapal sm kebiasaan boci aku yh wrwrwr sama suka bujuk ak kalo ak lagi males mam. and also thank you so much for the love letter kakakkk 🥰🥺 i really like your writings ak meleleh bgt bacanya rilmint

goodluck on your journey yahh kak matt. semoga dilancarkan terus urusannya ♡ see you later~

My Matteo,

2024-02-29 04:40:12 UTC

Encountering you remains one of the most beautiful moments here in this realm that I cherish to this day. It's indeed intriguing how our paths crossed before. And returning to your embrace after a year has passed was something that I didn't expect at all.

I'll just taket it as the universe's way of conspiring for us to meet again.

My dearest Matteo, our time together, both a year ago and yesterday, was truly enjoyable. I enjoyed every second of it. You, as you mentioned, possess a gift with words. You effortlessly turn ordinary conversations into enchanting moments. You know how to give affirmations, how to make me feel cherished and loved. I swear, I am not even sugarcoating it.

Matteo, thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for spending a day with me. Also thank you for being you.

Though yesterday's date may have been short, do know that you and our beautiful memories will linger in my heart for a long time. Take care of your health, be truly happy, and always stay true to yourself.

I look forward to the day when the universe reunites us once more.

Love,

S(andyakala)-inclair.

☆

2024-03-17 09:47:02 UTC

Hello kakak Yeyo!

Thank you ya sudah nemenin aku kemarin..

You're so sweet, gentle, soft, caring, and I love every side of you..

I feel so safe with you.. I can talk sbout anything.. You're really amazing boyfriend (sabar banget👊🏻)

Sorry ya kakak kalau aku ada salah..

Semoga kakak bisa happy happy terus yaaa!

See you!

p.s. thank you juga buat kak Laurent🫶🏻

Semi.

2024-03-21 08:20:05 UTC

The rain is pouring hard outside when I wrote you this letter. The weather app on my phone says the rain will stop in the evening. Lama banget. It's cold and all I can think about is you. ☺️ I miss you. My heart is carrying the ache of missing you, my heart is always yearning for your love to come and save me. Sometimes you're cold and don't express that much through words. But you've always been an attentive lover who notices every small details of me. Every small things you do warms my heart. ☺️

I love you and please wait for me.

Dear, Teo.

dekapwiyaga — 2024-03-22 16:06:41 UTC

Hello, handsome. I hope you're well, and I'm sorry it's taking me a bit long to write to you.

Teo, thank you for keeping me company and for giving me a night to remember. You're such a gentle and sweet soul. I can feel that the love and affection are reciprocated well by you. Thank you for making me feel comfortable in your presence. I can tell that you read my form carefully and made some adjustments accordingly. I really appreciate that.

I will see you soon for another cuddle session, Teo. Maybe. I don't know. Anyway, please take good care of your health in the meantime. Until then.

- A.

Dear my husky boyfriend,

2024-04-15 06:14:46 UTC

Our encounter seemed like something that was written in our fates. I’m forever thankful for being able to encounter you; it’s the loveliest thing to ever happen to me.

It’s interesting how I was looking forward to spend my days with you and I knew you were the one for me. The universe’s way of showing us what a tender love feels like will forever be carved on my memory.

Every second spent with you was a memory I wouldn’t want to forget; it was intoxicating, I felt like nothing really mattered when you were around. It’s insane how our daily conversations could lead us to finding more similarities between us, and it helped me understand you better each time I got to know more about you.

Your love was gentle, your words were sweet, and yourself was the thing I swear I couldn’t resist. Each of your words and actions never ceased to make me feel truly loved, cherished and cared for. You knew the way to meet my expectations of what kind of a relationship dynamic I was yearning for, God, you were so perfect.

Maybe, the time we spent together may have been short, but the beautiful memories we shared will linger in my head for as long as I will remember. The affection I held for you was bottomless, I could still feel the lingering feelings of your sweet gestures.

Dear Matteo, thank you for taking care of me and showing me what a gentle love feels like. When I told you how your words successfully made me smile ear to ear, believe me, I spoke nothing but truth. I was safe when you were around, and I couldn’t thank you enough for that. Thank you for being a gentleman during the time we spent together.

I’m wishing you happiness that would embrace you tightly, and may life never treats you harshly because you only deserve good things in your life. I hope you take good care of yourself. Don’t consume too much caffeine, don’t stay up too late, and grab your meals in time, okay?

May we meet and return to each other’s warm embrace again someday. My soul was madly smitten by you, and I’d be looking forward to the day we will greet each other again.

Until then, I hope you will be doing well, Matteo.

With love,

Your little G.

Hello, You.

madaharsa — 2024-07-21 11:00:37 UTC

Pardon my tardiness, Matt. Life has been hectic lately, and I've just found some downtime to drop by here. I'm also not that good with words, so please bear with me as I lay down my thoughts. I promise, it's all good.

Everything about you is great, Matt—your warmth, your kisses, and your hidden adorableness that I didn't expect at all. It's subtle, but you're actually endearing, you know? Your words and gestures are so soft that I can't help but soften towards you as well.

Matt, the short time I've spent with you is enough to tell me that you're a wonderful lover—one that I won't forget. I hope I've only left good impressions on you as well.

Please take care of your health and get proper rest, okay? I hope that, even while we're apart, you're still taking good care of yourself. So that, one day, if we meet again, we'll both be in a great state—with loving hearts and genuine smiles.

I will be waiting for when that day comes.

With love,

Dear my Mattie..

2024-09-04 04:30:07 UTC

Oh, I'm a bit at a loss for words right now… but let’s just “delve into” Matteo’s super sweet “Love Language” that he uses to show his affection!

First up, Acts of Service. Hmm, let me see how to put this... When I first got to know Matteo, my main goal was just to play Genshin Impact with him. But oh boy, I quickly found myself really enjoying his company! During our game sessions, I was totally amazed by how dedicated he was. He’d swoop in to save me from enemies. I was blown away by how he’d go on a heroic spree, taking down foes (and even some baby Saurians!) just to protect me. It’s honestly so endearing. ;D

Next, Words of Affirmation. This one’s pretty straightforward as you are all well aware of his proficiency in it. I have to admit, it makes me a tiny bit jealous to think of him spreading that sweetness around to others. But you deserve to know about it because his sweet talk is simply irresistible!

Lastly, Quality Time. Matteo makes me feel so secure, valued, and adored. He’s always there, never leaving me hanging, and sticks around all day long. Does this spark any envy?? ;p

I had a lovely time on our little date, and don’t worry, Mattie—there will definitely be more to come!

With lots of love and warm hugs,
Your Didi <3

Read Me!💢

2024-09-17 14:57:24 UTC

Who doesn't want to have this such perfect boyfriend like you? I think that we're all dreamed about that, but my decision ended up on you is my greatest choice ever. I am beyond grateful to meet someone who is willing to learn about what i like. Someone who deserves to fill my first and second words i would always call in our relationship. First is your name, second is your favorite pet names. When i said i love love, i might have to change the word with 'you'.

Bebe, though anything could happen in our room, from head to tails, i would still love you.

—N.

Dear Theo

2024-10-07 08:33:22 UTC

I hope you're doing fine and stay healthy. Thank you for lending me a space to let me be vulnerable. I know there was an unexpected task coming from my part, but even so, I still managed to let some of my burden go. It's all thanks to you. For me, it's not so easy to find someone to take off my strong woman mask and be sad as I always feel I'm gonna be invalidated and judged. But with you, that's really not the case. Thank you for being understanding and gentle, thank you for being kindhearted!

ㅡ Nilar 🌸