please always remember to rest enough, eat well, and take it easy when you need to.

Selamat pagi! Selamat siang! Selamat sore! Selamat malam!

Aku ucapin semua karena aku nggak tau kamu akan baca ini kapan :D

Banua, one thing you should know is you bring me a kind of happiness I never knew existed. Every moment with you feels like discovering a new part of myself that I didn't even know was missing. The way you talk to me, the way you listen when I speak, the way you make me laugh, it all makes me feel like I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. You don't just make me happy, you make me feel whole. There's something magical about how effortlessly you turn ordinary days into something extraordinary, simply by being yourself.

With you, I've learned what it truly means to feel valued and loved at the same time. You see me, really see me. In ways that no one else ever has. You celebrate my strengths without ignoring my flaws, and somehow you make even my imperfections feel like they belong.

I also realized, you don't just love the idea of me, you love all of me, completely and unconditionally. And what I treasure most is how authentic I can be around you. There's no need for masks or pretenses, no pressure to be anyone other than exactly who I am :D.

Kamu bikin aku nyaman untuk cerita semua hal tentang diriku, ketakutanku, dan gimana aku percaya sama diriku sendiri. Being with you feels like coming home to myself. You make me feel protected. In your presence, I'm not afraid to be real, because I know that the real me is exactly who you fell in love with [percaya diri but ikr this is #REAL]

Thank you for being who you are, Banua. Your presence mean a lot to me. Please always prioritize yourself over others. You even deserve all of the happiness in this universe. Semoga kamu selalu dikelilingi dengan hal-hal yang baik, Banua <3

~ your ♬.

Hei Banuaa, bingung juga dimana ini nulisnya. Secara kita ini "friend" not a lover. But, here I am.

Banua tuh ugal-ugalan ngejarnya ya, tapi dengan cara yang lembut. Bikin kita pelan2 terbuka nyaa, ga langsung jebret kebuka gede hatinya. Maka dari itu, aku nyaman banget sama Banua selama 1.5 hari kemarin. Dinamika yang aku cari2 bisaa dibuat jalan sama Baby Nua. Diaa jago banget tarik ulur, ga juga sih dia narik muluuu wkwk. Gombalan buayanya juga jangan ditanya, hadeuy. Capek pura2 ga melting.

Banua, jangan kayak akuu, kamu harus makan yang cukup. Minum jugaa, jaga kesehatan biar kita ketemu lagii dilain waktu. Makasih banyak buat semuanya Baby Nua Capria.

Capri girl.

thank you for being such a kind and grounding presence. even though it was just one day, your sweetness and calm maturity really stayed with me—like a quiet kind of warmth that lingers.

you’re so easy to talk to, so composed, and so genuinely thoughtful in your words. i felt heard, seen, and gently accompanied.

thank you for being the kind of person who doesn’t have to say much to bring comfort—your presence was enough.

i’m really grateful our paths crossed today. wishing you gentle days ahead, and if the stars align, maybe we’ll cross paths again. 🌿

You play your part so flawlessly, it's almost uncanny. You've been checking off all my boxes, things I didn't even realize were on my list until you perfectly fulfilled them.

And then some! Those fantastic, unhinged surprises you keep throwing in are just... pure genius.

They add layers I never anticipated, making every moment even more thrilling. So, thank you. Thank you for showing up, for finally walking into my life, and for being so perfectly wild in all the right ways I need ;))

In your gaze, my big, bad desire takes flight

You, my bae, my darkest delight

Each moment with you is a thrilling, wild art

Let me lost deep within the beat of your heart

#Ash

Terima kasih atas waktu singkat yang kita habiskan berdua. Terima kasih karena pesona dari awal yang mampu memikat hati ini bisa sampai mengukir sedikit kisah dan menumbuhkan rasa cinta yang lebih luas. Tidak ada rasal sesal atau tidak nyaman dalam menghabiskan hari bersama Mas. Hari-hari hanya berisi menghabiskan waktu bersama, berbagi canda tawa, maupun mendengarkan sedikit curhatan hati yang sedang tidak baik. Tetap menjadi Mas Banua yang selalu asbun itu ya haha. I'm falling in love with keasbunan mas. Padahal lagi serius tapi jawabannya ngalor ngidul. Itu juga yang bisa buat aku tertawa dan merasakan geli di perut haha. Such a lovely man you are, Mas.

Semoga ada waktu untuk bertemu kembali ya. Take a good care! — Z.

Now guys, Banua isn't just a lover for you if you meet him. He'll be your sanctuary, your place to lean, your joker wkwk, your cute golden retriever who waits on your front door everyday, (your daddy, wkwk). Banua is a whole package that I guarantee your full satisfication. Therefore, meet him guys!

How was your day? I hope it’s been surrounded with warmth and blessings. Nua, thank you for spending those three days with me. You bring so much light into my life, and I treasure being by your side. Your kindness, your gentleness, the way you make even the simplest moments feel extraordinary—it means more to me than I can ever say.

Before I end this, I want to remind you to take care of yourself, just as you always remind me. Please eat well, drink enough water, and give yourself the rest you deserve. May your days always be filled with health and happiness Nua.

With all my love,
K

to anyone who might read this,

go ahead and book your date. he's truly a great guy who won't let you down, he would be there, to love you in the same wave length.

be happy, daddy bear. I hope life continues to be kind and soft for you to live. this has been your baby bun, hops hops.

Hmmm.. miss me? Cause I miss you so fucking much. And I hope we can meet again, as soon as possible.

Thank you for made my day, I am so happy and I feel so loved by you. Thank you for treating me so well, and even when we fight, I am glad that we can make it up.

Thank you for letting me know about how your feelin, thank you for loving me so gently. You're so cute and sweet, Capii.

I already addicted to you. I remember everything about you, and I love you, just the way you are. Have a great night, and sleepwell🤍

His words especially the way he talks, had me feeling giddy, blushing, and giggling like a teenager with a crush. There were moments where I had to pause just to breathe because oh wow, the tension he creates is unreal. He knows exactly what to say, when to say it, and how to make it linger.

Thank you for willingly becoming my emotional sacrifice with 2112! That experience hit way harder than I expected, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

I genuinely hope we get the chance to meet again in the near future, because some connections deserve a second round, don't you think?

Banua, no matter what, please prioritize your own happiness and freedom.